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It isn’t always easy

Today, sitting in IOP, I got severely triggered. We were talking about rituals... like how I used to have my “dope kit” and I’d sit in the same spot, use the same belt to tie off, use the same spoon... and all I wanted to do was get high..

Now, I have work at 3 and I’m tired and I wish I could have just a pill, or a hit, or a shot- anything.. but I can’t, and I won’t. And I should be happy about it. But recovery isn’t always being happy, is it?

#sober #fuckinghard #triggered

I don’t remember the left picture. I saw it today and honest to God, did NOT RECOGNIZE myself. Thank you GOD for recovery! Thank you for Valley Hope and thank you for HIA!!

#methed up #dope head #recovery #dopeless hope fiend #HIA #blessed #beforeandafter

11th & Birmingham

Where we lived together. Where we loved each other. Where meth took over. Where we lost our minds. Where I cheated on you. Where you cheated on me. Where you punched 17 holes in the walls. Where I tried to stab her..

Bad memories.

Today I drove by on my way to church, where I’m participating in Hope Is Alive day..

I almost had a panic attack; such bad times.

But today my life is different. I prayed every second of passing our old house.

“God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things I can, and the WISDOM to know the difference.”

#memories #pain #hurt #drugs #recovery #sobriety #HIA #hope is alive #love life #NOW

daily dose of HOPE

#HIA #sobriety #recovery

6 months ago I truly believed I was going to die in addiction. And not only that, but I WANTED to die. Today I fucking LOVE myself. I fucking LOVE my life. Dammit guys, you can do it too. Please message me if you’re struggling.

#change #recovery #love #love life #happy #soberlife