Complainer no more

Stop complaining, do something about it. Beginning weight: 112 Goal: 92....five feet above the ground

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Hi Again! My names Kenny and to be honest I accidently came across your site. actually I found it interesting as i am a person who has battled weight all my life. I was just a little concerned when I read about you putting your finger down your throat. Be careful as this can really lead to trouble. Anyway I am working out but eating horrible. It is hard to control eating for me. But I can't complain as I have wonderful wife who thinks I am not fat!! Take care! And know that your not fat!

Thank you for your touching message. I'm glad to say I don't have an eating disorder and actually plan to stop this blog since I don't find it necessary anymore.

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I want to exercise, I really do, but something always stops me.

Dehydration, fear of the sun, and fear of being ridiculed. 

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Day: Not that bad

Soooo today started out rather well!

I had tomato oatmeal with coffee for breakfast, but there was some milk in mah coffee!! @_@

I walked for a bit when I went to get a strawberry mango bubble tea with my friend, so I'm saying that the calories from the coffee were negated since there wasn't much milk/agave syrup.

For Lunch I ate some fried rice from my school. It wasn't very big, so I looked up the closest recipe.

I wasn't too hungry so I just ate about 12/14 reduced fat sour cream pringles. (When in doubt round up!)

Sooo breakfast was about 230 calories, lunch was about 334, and my snack was about 200 with the smoothie and the pringles were 111 calories.

That brings my total to 875 calories! Yayyyy not too much today! Success! I'm not even hungry! However, I hope I can do even better...

My grandma said I couldn't fit the size S skirt my mom bought since I'm gaining weight....sad :(

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SO KAWAIIII

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I really want legs like this...

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Days 2-4

These have been binge days honestly..

Day 2 was a binge day since it was full of grad parties and since I didn't have enough time to purge.

Day 3 was a binge because I ate half an avocado, potato salad, and a lot of chips. I also ate like half a container of pistachio gelato.

Day 4 was even more of a binge since I ate a lot of ice cream.... including a drumstick, BK's new bacon sundae, and for breakfast I had a scoop of rice, eggs, and two sausage patties.

Day 3 and 4 were about 1500 calories each while day 2 was at least 2000...

I'll try harder but honestly after day 2 I was still around the same weight.

But I have to remember that it adds on easily later.

I hate myself...

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Fat fat fat never going to get abs at this rate

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Hi Dear Lady! you know if you are really concerned about your weight you should exercise. I am sure that you are much cuter than you think and are not really fat. A lot of people do not see themselves clearly. Take care and open your eyes!!!

Ahh hi! (I think this is Audrey?) Well if it isn't ahahaha awkward...

Well honestly I would, but the problem is that I burn very easily/my mom constantly teases me about being tan. I mean it's bad enough with me being fat.

I also feel very self conscious since a lot of people in my neighborhood go to school with me, and I guess since my mom constantly judges me I feel like everyone else does too. (Paranoid huh?)

I'm thinking of getting a gym membership but the whole people judging me thing is still there....

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Day 1

Sooooo today started great, and didn't work out too well.

For breakfast I had a fruit cup! It was just about a cup of fruits (chunks of pineapple, cantaloupe, and watermelon.) Along with a carton of fat free milk.

For lunch I ate a tuna sandwich which wasn't too big, but did the job along with two cups of water.

For dinner I ate a bowl of multigrain rice, kim or korean seaweed, 3 pieces of sushi, and a small bowl of korean miso soup. (Doenjanchigae.)

Lunch was about 200 calories, as as lunch. Dinner on the other hand was a lot heavier. It ended up being about 600 calories. To top it off I also ate some sweets. I had about 7 pieces of strawberry pocky an a piece of dark chocolate. Which totaled to about 125 calories. That brings my total day to 1,125 calories.

This is actually a lot, but luckily is below my 1200 a day need.

I also purged a bit after the chocolate since my mother commented on how fat I am.

Oh! On the bright side I weighed myself and I was at 119 lbs....I know it's still a lot but at least it's less than the 125 I was last week~

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I wish I could get as skinny as all of those kpop singers one day....

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Guess who's back???

Hey!!! Guess who is back and fatter than ever!

I've been just eating and eating away without even thinking about it and not exercising either. It's gotten pretty bad. I mean my mom always calls me fat whenever I walk by.

Now I'm changing that, I guess this time for sure! I'm leaving for China on August 23rd, and as we all know, a lot of Chinese people are as skinny as hell. I don't want to look fat and ugly since I'm asian (I'm Japanese and Korean.) but not chinese. So that's why I started again. This time I might be a little destructive in the beginning since I've just gotten so fat.

After I realized how fat I've gotten I did something that I am not proud to say I did. It had something to do with a toilet and my index finger...

Honestly I shouldn't have done it in the first place, and I usually don't even try since I think it's "paying for my sins."

I'd like to keep my teeth and etc so I'll just try to stop...

But anyway it was after I ate a bunch of curry....

So for breakfast I ate coach's oat with tomato stew! -210 calories

Lunch was two granola bars - 194 calories

And dinner :( i'd say two cups of beef curry - 867 calories

I'm not really sure how calories go once I get rid of them physically... 

But that brings my total to 1271 calories anyway....

I also had half of a blue vanilla 16 oz icee but I walked it off...

Let's try this again...

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Hiatus

I have honestly not been keeping track, but I know I've been eating at least 2000 calories....I'm going to take a couple of days to try bring myself back up and understand why I wanted to do this in the first place.

I'm 114 lbs after I ate, so approx 112 now...back where I started. I'm feeling fat.

Looking at girls and thinking, wow I used to think she was fat. I can't help but look in mirrors and see my fat, ugly self. Maybe it's time for me to remember how I was 104 lbs last year.

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I really want to look this good in jeans one day.

I look horrible in them.....I hate being so self conscious! 

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Days 13-14

Mothers day...need I say more?

Mothers that think you have an eating disorder if you don't eat as much as they want you to.

Greattt

Well Day 13 was pretty bad, but because I caved in during dinner.

I had this unsettling feeling in my stomach, like it had to be warm for some reason.

I tried to fill it with hot soup, but nothing seemed to work, so then I just kept eating a lot of rice.

In the end the calories piled up.

People don't realize this, but sushi is actually rather high in calories! Just one piece of salmon sushi is at least 70 calories! AHHH!

Day 13:

Breakfast: Some mac n cheese from annie's

Lunch: Mother's day lunch, comprising of two pieces of unagi sushi, two pieces of salmon sushi, about 2/3 cups of white short grained rice, about 2/3 cup of my grandma's potato salad, one garlic shrimp, and a small piece of strawberry shortcake with half a cup of cookies and cream ice cream.

Dinner: A lot of kim, or roasted korean seaweed laver, a bowl of miso soup, and about 1.5 cups of generic rice.

Calories:

Breakfast: 280

Lunch: 781

Dinner: 414

Snacks: 160 (the ice cream)

This brought my total to about 1600 calories, YIKES!!! At least I was really full :3

Day 14:

I showed a lot more self restraint today, even though I thought it could have gone better.

I wasn't hungry during breakfast, so I opted to wait until lunch to eat.

For lunch I made my own creation! I really wanted noodles, and I have a bunch of instant ramen noodles just wanting to be eaten. However, I know how bad it is and how much fat and calories it has.

So instead I made soba noodles and ate it with my madras lentils from tasty bite!

I wanted to eat the lentils anyway, so I decided to use soba noodles instead of my ramen.

I had a melona bar after since they were just lying around. I know right, bad idea!!!!

I also had a few wafer rolls since I was stuck at home all day with nothing to do.

For dinner I made my own creation again.

I got a small amount of rice (about 1/3 a cup) , a couple pieces of broccoli, and an egg.

I put them together in a bowl and then microwaved it for 30 seconds.

I then added some soy sauce and hawaiian salt for flavoring.

IT WAS DELICIOUS!!!

I then had a 100 calorie low fat ice cream bar since I just needed something sweet!

I'm happy that I didn't succumb to the yummyness of instant ramen!

So lunch was about 788 calories with all of the snacks

And dinner was 335 with the ice cream.

This brought my total to about 1100 calories today which is a lot better compared to my other days.

I hope I can do better this week, but I have a lot of projects due ><

Wish me luck!

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MY CUPCAKES :3 heh heh heh

hehehehehe love you

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Days 11-12

Great well this didn't go so well.

For breakfast I was going to eat ramen since I was pretty sure I failed my math test so I wanted some pity food. Luckily I ran into a friend that switched his fish jun for my ramen since his parents don't let him enjoy life ahaha more like they protect his life!

For lunch I ate about 1/3 of a hershey's cookies and cream bar since a friend gave it to me.

For lunch I ate a lot of duplexes, which are cream cookies from safeway that are basically oreo knockoffs. I didn't realize they were so high in calories!!! I ate like 12 of them!!!!

I also ate soft tofu stew when I got home...like a lot of it...and my auntie came from cali so I ate some of the mac n cheese she brought.

This brings my total to about 2400 calories. YIKES!

Well for rotc I had to hold a 9 lb rifle on my shoulder and walk around for an hour and a half so I burned about 218 calories, and I did yoga for 45 minutes which burned about 91.

This brought my net calories to 2100 calories...shittttyyyy, but I bet it was actually more since I ate A LOT of soft tofu stew....so maybe more like 2300 calories!

Day 12:

For breakfast I ate a blueberry scone that was from my school's cafeteria! yummy yummy!

For lunch I went off campus to jack in the box. Since we walked a lot I felt bad for my friend so I bought a medium curly fries. She bought mozzarella sticks. In the end she gave me four of them. Something about me: I hate wasting food. If there is food just around I will eat ALL of it.

For dinner I had a slice of pizza, 3 boxes of cracker jacks, and 2 snack thingys of pringles.

Again to uphold the I eat a lot image...

This brings my total to about 1750 calories...I burned 294 by walking to jack in the box and running around for a scavenger hunt.

I realized how fat I am yesterday. People that I had once considered fat were skinnier than me......this isn't good. I will now try harder than ever.

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I'm sorry your weight is such a big issue to you. I am 5'0, weigh 110 pounds, and I make $100 an hour talking to men online who constantly tell me what a great body I have. I sincerely hope you find a way to be happy, whatever you do. Just take care of yourself.

ahhh thanks and wow you're really lucky :)