Cw: Smut. Oral. P in V. Thigh riding. Size kink. Panty sniffer Caleb Jealous Xavier. It includes links to 🌽 videos on X for visual examples on what was sent. 🔞 MDNI🔞
Sylus/Xavier/Rafayel/Zayne/Caleb
Yeah*sigh*I'm ovulating again. Enjoy 😝
The blue light of your phone screen is the only thing cutting through the darkness of your bedroom. You really should have been asleep an hour ago, instead, you’re spiraling down a rabbit hole you didn't even know existed.
Size kink.
You’d never really thought about it before, not until you started dating Sylus and tonight you were just scrolling, looking for something to satisfy the empty ache Sylus left all week.
This video is something you had never seen before or even thought was possible. You watch, mesmerized by the way the woman’s stomach subtly shifts a visible bulge as he stretches her out.
Heat pools instantly between your thighs, making your breath hitch and a dizzying sensation of fullness hit your gut. He's always so careful with you, so agonizingly gentle, as if you’re something precious he might break if he breathes too hard. But looking at this... a dark part of your brain wonders what it would feel like if he didn't hold back.
"Holy shit..." you whisper to the empty room.
Your hand moves instinctively, fingers sliding down to find slick heat. The video is playing on a loop. Bulge. Stretch. Deep. Repeat. You watch it while your imagination runs wild, replacing the stranger on the screen with the man who owns your heart. You’re picturing his heavy weight pinning you down, his eyes blown wide, filling you until you can’t even scream.
You’re chasing a peak that feels miles away until, suddenly, it isn't. You hit your first orgasm with a stifled gasp, back arching off the mattress, only to find yourself immediately chasing the second one, body trembling and spent in the wake of the first.
By the time the second wave of pleasure ebbs away, you’re a puddle of limbs and heavy eyelids. You’re half conscious, drifting in that beautiful limbo between wakefulness and dreams. In a daze of post orgasmic euphoria, you squint at the screen, your thumb hovering over the comment section.
"How do I send him this without actually sending it to him 😳"
You tap 'send' with a clumsy thumb. You meant to just post it as a thought, a digital scream into the void. But as your eyes flutter shut, your hand twitches a final, involuntary spasm of exhausted muscle. Your thumb slips. It slides across the 'Share' icon, hovers over the very first contact at the top of your recent list, and taps.
Sent.
You don't hear the subtle whoosh of the outgoing message. Delivered directly to the man who at this very moment is probably staring at a security feed or sipping red wine.
Sylus.
You just fall into a deep, blissful sleep, completely unaware that you've just lit a fuse.
“Come on, sweetie, don’t give up on me now" Thrust. The impact is heavy, forcing a breathless gasp from your lungs. “You can take it, can’t you?”
He isn't being the gentle, careful man you know. Not today. His hand is hooked firmly behind your head, his fingers tangling in your hair, forcing you to watch the unmistakable, fat bulge stretching the skin of your lower abdomen, proof to just how deep he’s buried himself inside you.
“You wanted this, now you have to take it and you are going to watch.”
And there it is. The reality of it. It’s visceral. It’s exactly what you saw in that video, but it’s a thousand times more intense because it’s him. It’s real.
Your vision swima and just as the shock of it all starts to settle, he shifts. He changes the angle of his hips in a calculated move that hits your G spot dead on. An uninhibited scream tears from your throat, echoing through the room.
“I've been trying to behave,” he says, and the words come out rougher than he probably intended, an edge of frustration bleeding through his usual composure “But you make it so difficult... fuck... by sending me your filthy little thoughts.”
His hand settles against your belly, firm and heavy, and the second he presses down, your body reacts with a sharp inhale. You tense instinctively, muscles coiling around him, but you don't pull away. You can't.
“Can you feel me here?” he asks, breath coming in uneven bursts. He’s buried balls deep and for a split second, you see a flicker of hesitation in his eyes. You make a face, a strange, overwhelmed expression of fullness, and he looks like he might actually pull back to give you a moment to breathe. He thinks he’s pushing too hard.
He’s wrong.
Don't you dare.
Driven by a desperation you didn't know you possessed, you move your hips in a searching rhythm, pressing his hand down harder against your stomach. You want the pressure. You want to feel the exact point where he meets your skin from the inside.
He lets out a loud groan at the sensation. Your narrow walls clamp down on him, tighter than they've ever been. Every millimeter of space between you feels like it’s disappearing, leaving nothing but friction and heat.
You don't have the words to tell him that you never want him to stop, so your body does the talking. You cling to him, legs wrapping around his waist as he holds you there, keeping you exactly where you are until your breathing turns unsteady.
Until your body softens in momentary surrender and tightens again a second later, as if you're fighting a war with yourself, trying to decide whether to let go or to hold on tighter.
In the end, you don't choose. You do both.
The world dissolves into a hot haze of pleasure. It couldn't be called an orgasm because this feels like a total system failure. You’re sobbing his name or maybe you’re just gasping for air, you can’t tell anymore as waves of pleasure crash over you, violent and unrelenting. Your pussy seizes around him in long pulses, milking him, begging for the very thing that’s pushing you past your limit.
He follows you a few seconds later, burying himself soooo deep you feel the hot rush of him filling you.
Slowly, the fog begins to lift, leaving you in a state of blissful, heavy lethargy. The hand that was just pressing so ruthlessly into your belly softens, fingers tracing lazy circles over your skin.
"You really are a menace." he murmurs, pressing a lingering kiss to your temple.
The shame you expected to feel, the embarrassment of that accidental video is nowhere to be found. Instead, there is only a sense of immense satisfaction.
"Next time," he whispers into your hair "don't bother sending a link. Just tell me. I'll give you everything you desire. Every single time."
The problem with being in love with a man like Xavier is that your brain is constantly a minefield of "what ifs."
He’s incredible, truly, but you’ve noticed the way he pulls back sometimes. When he’s brooding or when that possessive jealousy starts to prickle at him, he becomes almost too careful. Like he’s afraid he might actually break you if he lets go of that restraint.
So, naturally, you’ve been doing a little "research" to keep the inspiration alive.
Now, you’re sitting on the edge of your bathtub, scrolling through your feed, a habit that’s becoming a bit of a vice, when a video catches your eye. A girl pinned to a mattress, her head pressed down by her partner as he fucks her from behind. Hard. The sound of her moans echoes in your ears through your headphones and suddenly the bathroom feels about ten degrees too hot.
God, yes.
You quickly save the link to your "later" folder, a digital stash of things you want him to eventually try, and then scribble a quick, thirsty comment on the video "This but with my boyfriend dressed as Lumiere 🤤 " and set your phone down.
Buzz. Buzz.
A notification lights up the screen. It’s him.
[Xavier]: Found a new hot pot place. Apparently, the broth is spicy enough to kill a Wanderer. Want to go tonight? Please say yes so I can stop thinking about food and start thinking about you.
A soft laugh escapes you. He’s so predictable, yet so devastatingly charming when he wants to be. Your answer is an immediate "sure" because you’d say yes to a lukewarm bowl of water if he was the one serving it.
But he always forgets to look at the menu and ends up ordering something way too spicy or something you're not in the mood for, so you look for the restaurant's menu.
You see the link. Tap it. Copy. Paste. Add "Look at the options! The spicy broth looks insane." Send.
Funny thing is, you don't actually copy the menu's URL, you just cut it. You don't even realize you just sent him the very un culinary link to the video you were just watching to fuel your own delusions.
Little typing bubbles appear. They dance for a long time. They disappear. They reappear.
He's so indecisive.
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"Lumiere?" the name sounds like a curse "You wanted Lumiere to pin you down?"
Your face is pressed so firmly into the mattress that the fabric feels like a part of your own skin, the scent of laundry detergent mixing with the heat of the moment. Every time he thrusts into you, the world tilts, your vision blurring into white light and dark shadows. The Xavier who kisses your forehead and cuddles with you is buried somewhere deep inside the man currently fucking you breathless.
"Xavie..." you try to speak, but his name dies in your throat as he shifts his weight.
"Tell me," he demands, losing the battle with his own restraint. He hits you hard, a deep, soul shaking thrust that forces a broken moan from your lips. "Tell me you don't need a costume to feel this."
You try to answer, to tell him he's being ridiculous...
Smack!
The sting of his palm against your ass makes you gasp, your fingers clawing at the mattress for purchase.
"You sent it to me on purpose," he mutters as he leans down, his chest pressing hard against your back. "You wanted to see me like this, didn't you? You wanted to see if I could be as rough as him."
He doesn't want an answer. He doesn't wait for one. He just wants to hear you whimper his name when he hits that perfect spot.
His hand presses your face down even harder into the mattress, muffling your cries. It's everything you were craving when you were scrolling through your phone earlier, but the reality is a thousand times better.
You start to move, trying to meet him halfway, trying to grind back against him to find the friction that will push you over the edge.
"Faster..." you beg, trying to turn your head to tell him that there is no Lumiere, there is only him, but he just presses you back down, his thumb grazing your hip bone with trembling pressure.
"Shhhhhh, just a little bit more," he lets out a long groan, his forehead dropping to rest against the back of your neck for a fleeting second before he surges upward again. "You should see the way your pussy is taking my cock right now, so greedy. Just for me."
His hand shifts. It leaves the back of your head to find the column of your throat. His thumb and middle finger curl around your neck not enough to hurt, but enough to remind you that he is in total control.
He stills for a heartbeat, his middle finger softly tapping the pulsing vein in your neck. "Every beat belongs to me tonight"
You just nod, a jerky movement, because you are standing on the very edge of a precipice, and the fall is coming. The tension in your lower belly is wound so tight it’s almost painful.
"Say it," he breathes, his lips brushing the shell of your ear, his words a warm, humid ghost of a sensation, his control fraying at the edges.
"Yours," you finally whisper, like secret you’ve been holding in your lungs for far too long, finally allowed to breathe.
The moment the word leaves your lips, he loses the last of his mercy.
He pulls back almost entirely, leaving you aching and empty for a fraction of a second only to drive back in, bottomless and bruising. It’s a cycle of withdrawal and overwhelming fullness that leaves you reeling.
"Give me what's mine" the command vibrates through your entire body.
The world dissolves into white light as your head falls forward, muscles spasming in the violent quake of your climax, but he catches your hair, tugging just enough to force your head up, his face inches from yours, his eyes dark and swirling with a hunger that could swallow the stars.
"Good girl," he whispers against your parted, trembling lips.
He thrusts one last time, deep and final, spilling molten heat as your name breaks from his lips, torn in half by bliss before he presses a kiss between your shoulder blades. For now, the jealousy is gone. There is only the quiet, heavy reality of being his.
The video catches your eye instantly. The lighting is a soft purple, casting a surreal glow over the two people on screen. A girl is on top, her movements slow and agonizingly deliberate as she drags her pussy over her partners cock, the rhythm of it making your cunt clench.
Tonight you are in a "no filter" mood. You need to share this. You need to tell Tara.
With a smirk, you tap the share icon, copy the link, and switch over to your messages. You find Tara’s profile pic or so you think and start typing with the kind of unhinged energy only a best friend can appreciate.
You and Tara have long since abandoned the concept of "boundaries" when it comes to your filthy late night chats.
“Omg Tara, look at this. Raf’s cock is so pretty, I swear if he’d just let me do this to him, I’d never leave the bedroom again 🥵💦”
You hit send with a satisfied whoosh and let out a long, dramatic sigh. Silence follows. For a few minutes you go back to scrolling, blissfully unaware that you have just dropped a digital bomb into the inbox of a man who is already struggling to maintain his composure.
Your phone vibrates.
It’s not a "LOL" or a "Damn" from Tara.
It’s a notification from Rafayel.
Rafayel: Is that so?
Your heart skips a beat. You frown, squinting at the name at the top of the chat.
Wait.
Your face goes from pale to a shade of red that would put a sunset to shame. You stare at the screen, wanting to physically crawl inside the phone and disappear forever. You want to delete it. You want to throw the phone out the window. You want to move to a different planet.
But then, the little typing bubbles appear again.
Rafayel: Don't just sit there blushing, cutie. I'm coming to your place and you are going to show me exactly what you want"
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You’ve lost track of time. Your thighs are starting to ache, every muscle in your legs feels tight, strained from holding yourself upright, yet you keep moving. You have to. The friction is the only thing keeping you grounded.
You’re straddling him, your knees digging into the soft linens, focused on the way your cunt drags over his cock. Slippery. Hot. Wet.
Every time you slide down, the underside of him, that thick ridge presses ruthlessly against your clit. You can feel the vein running along his length pulse in perfect synch with your clit.
Thump thump. Thump thump.
"Slow down..." he groans, gripping your hips "You're going to... fuuuuck... you're going to kill me"
The friction is creating a heat of its own, a sliding friction that makes your head spin. You watch slightly delirious, as the light from the moon filters through the window, catching the sheen of sweat on his pale skin and the way his hair is plastered to his forehead. He looks wrecked. He looks beautiful. He looks like he belongs entirely to you.
But his hands are far from weak. They are heavy weights anchored to your hips, and he uses them to sabotage you. Just when you think you’ve found a rhythm that might actually save you, he tightens his grip, forcing your hips to slow, dragging the slide of your pussy out into a long, shallow glide.
It’s cruel. A sadistic kind of torture, making the night feel endless, as if the clock has stopped just to watch you suffer.
He wants to stretch this out. He wants to milk every drop of anticipation from your veins until your entire body begins to tremble, not from pleasure, but from the weight of the climax that refuses to arrive. He wants to push you to that edge where even your silence sounds filthy, where the quiet between your breaths is thick with the unspoken things you want to do to him.
Once he’s satisfied with the slow pace, his hands begin to wander. They trace the curve of your waist, the dip of your spine, the swell of your breasts, learning your body the way a sinner learns to pray. Like hunger learning the art of restraint just long enough to make the eventual feast mean something.
You slide back just a fraction, settling the heat of your pussy directly over his balls and then you reach down.
Your fingers wrap around the base of his cock, just like you saw in that video. You begin to stroke him while simultaneously rotating your hips in a circular grind over the heavy fullness of his balls.
The sound that tears from his throat is something unhuman, a vibration that feels like it's coming from the depths of the ocean.
Your name is caught between his teeth in a soft, sinful exhale. He sounds undone, completely unraveled by the sight of you taking exactly what you claimed you wanted in that accidental text.
He’s right there, on the edge of an unravelling collapse.
And because you are just like him, a creature of beautiful, chaotic impulse, you don't let him have it. Not yet.
You release his cock, hand slipping away just as the tension reaches its peak, and drag your soaked cunt back up the entire length of him in one loooong slide.
It feels like a collision of two fires.
In your desperation to feel everything you let your entire weight drop. The clench of your pussy as you cum wraps around the underside of his cock, squeezing him with a force that leaves him absolutely helpless.
He has no choice but to follow you into the fire.
Spurts of his cum paint the pale skin of his stomach, the liquid warmth spreading in thick, white streaks, pooling in his belly button.
For a few seconds, neither of you moves. There is only the sound of your breathing and the humid scent of your shared exhaustion.
“Was that pretty enough for you, cutie?” he teases, though his hand trembles slightly as he reaches up to tuck a stray lock of hair behind your ear. His thumb lingers on your cheek, like he’s constantly checking to make sure you haven't vanished into the night. "Or do we need to do it again?"
It’s late, way past the time Zayne would usually be nudging you to sleep but he’s still tucked away in his office, probably buried under a mountain of medical charts or surgical reports.
Your eyes are glued to your phone screen, watching a VIDEO of a girl grinding against a man’s thigh, bodies pressed together, his hands steady even as she buries her face in the crook of his neck. The guy in the video is wearing pajamas that look disturbingly similar to the ones Zayne is wearing right now.
Suddenly, the empty space in your bed feels a little too vast, your mind drifting to the office down the hall, aching to be that girl, to climb onto his Zayne's lap while he’s buried in medical charts and just... fuck yourself stupid.
You want to reach down and touch yourself but you’re a loud sleeper and an even louder moaner. If you start now, there’s no way he won't hear you through the walls, and you aren't quite ready for that kind of intimacy yet. So, you settle for a bit of digital venting. With a flushed face, you type out a quick comment on the video: "God, I wish I could do this while he's working..."
You go to save the link to your "Filthy Things" folder for a proper session tomorrow morning, but just as your thumb hovers over the screen, your phone starts vibrating. It’s Simone. She’s calling, probably to gossip about something trivial. In your rush to swipe the call and answer her, your finger taps the wrong folder.
And because Zayne is a man who is always, always connected to his devices for work... he’s going to see the notification the exact second it pops up.
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It didn't take long. After that little "digital accident," the silence between you two wasn't awkward so much as it was heavy. Charged. He didn't even tease you about the comment. He didn't even blush. He just looked at you with those piercing eyes, a tiny, knowing quirk at the corner of his mouth, and silently commanded you to come to him.
And now, here you are. Perched on his lap, doing the same thing you saw on that video. Your lower half is completely bare, your thighs hugging his muscular one as you press yourself flush against him.
The friction is driving you completely insane.
Zayne, however, is a man of terrifying discipline.
His left hand is braced on your lower back, while his right hand moves across his keyboard. He’s actually working. He’s reviewing files, typing out notes, behaving as if you aren't currently trying to melt into his lap. Every so often, he’ll pause, not to stop you, but to lean in. His breath, cool and smelling faintly of mint, brushes against the shell of your ear, sending a violent shiver down your spine.
"Ah... Zayne..." you whimper against his neck as you press yourself harder against him. The sound is loud, far too loud for his quiet office and you can feel the heat rising in your cheeks.
"Hush now," he doesn't even look away from the monitor, though you notice the slight tightening of his jaw. "I need to focus. These reports won't write themselves."
He’s being difficult. He’s being a tease. And you love him for it.
You try to be "good." You force yourself to still when he has to write something long on his computer. You sit there, trembling slightly, waiting for him to acknowledge the havoc you're wreaking on his concentration.
A moment passes. The only sound is the soft click clack of the keyboard. Then, you feel his hand slide from your hip to the small of your back, pulling you just a fraction of an inch closer, a subtle command for you to keep going.
"Good girl," he whispers, the words a warm caress against your ear.
His expression is completely professional, but the way his fingers linger on your skin tells a completely different story. He’s still working, yes but he’s also letting you feel exactly how much of a distraction you really are.
Every time your thighs tense up, every time you desperately bite your lower lip to stifle a moan that threatens to shatter the silence, the air thickens with indecency.
He’s struggling. You aren't blind. You can feel the insistent twitch of his cock beneath you, reacting to every open mouthed kiss you press against the pulse of his neck, the sharp line of his collarbone, and the smooth expanse of his Adam's apple. He’s trying to maintain that surgeon’s calm, but his body is betraying him with every shuddering breath you take.
You’re right on the edge. Your clit is catching perfectly against the fabric of his pajamas, the material already damp and clinging to you from the amount of arousal you're leaking.
"Look at me."
His voice cuts through the air, forcing your gaze up. He wants to see the exact moment your eyes glaze over, the moment your breath hitches and tells the truth that your lips are trying so hard to hide.
When his hand slides up to cup your jaw, it isn't the gentle, comforting touch you're used to during a quiet movie on the couch. It's different. It's possessive. It’s a disciplined kind of dominance, a reminder that while he is the composed Zayne in the daylight, there is a much darker man caged behind that professional composure and you are the only one who knows how to let him out.
"You are close, aren't you, love?" he whispers, his lips hovering so close to yours that you can feel the heat of his breath.
You can barely manage a nod, your lungs feeling too small for the air you're trying to pull in. You're breathing directly into his slightly parted mouth.
"Cum for me, then," he exhales, a rare flush creeping up his cheeks, betraying just how much this is affecting him too.
He shifts his thigh, bouncing it up and down in a rhythmic motion that catches your clit perfectly.
The world tilts. You feel your eyes lose focus and you can't tell if it's the shaking of your limbs or the pounding of your heart that's making you tremble so violently.
"Zaynie... Zayne..."
His name becomes your entire vocabulary, there are no words left, only the sound of his name on your lips and the crashing sensation of finally, finally letting go.
You are flicking through a never ending stream of mindless clips and memes. It’s supposed to be a quiet afternoon, just a bit of scrolling to kill the time until Caleb comes back, but then there...
A VIDEO pops up. It’s not your usual aesthetic travel vlog or a cooking hack.
You freeze, your heart doing a weird, little skip in your chest. You know you should probably swipe past it, but your eyes are glued to the screen. It’s a girl, her lace panties completely drenched. The guy in the video isn't even taking them off, he’s just sliding the tip of his cock against her through the wet lace.
A sudden warmth blooms deep in your belly, spreading down until it feels like you’re melting into the cushions. God, you’ve been craving that. The teasing, the slow, agonizing buildup. You’ve spent so much money on delicate, expensive little sets, thinking maybe Caleb would appreciate the way they look on you, but hes a fucking dog. He doesn't do "slow." He usually just rips them or tugs them off with impatience, going straight for the heat of you. You just want him to play with you like that. To linger.
Your inhibitions are a little frayed from the visual, and before your brain can catch up to your impulse, your thumbs are flying. You tap the comment section, the screen a mess of unhinged messages from strangers, and you add your own little confession: “I really need him to play with me like this, but he prefers to eat it raw from the start😢”
You hit send, a tiny, embarrassed flush creeping up your neck, and immediately swipe the video away, feeling a bit silly for being so vulnerable to a bunch of internet strangers.
You toss the phone onto the cushion next to you a second later, completely oblivious to one mortifying detail. He’d logged into his account on your phone earlier when his own battery died, and you hadn't bothered to switch back.
In his office, the most dangerous man in Skyhaven is about to watch, in explicit detail, how you want to be ruined.
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It turns out your assessment of him was spot on. The man is a fucking dog.
He hasn't taken your underwear off. That’s the part that’s driving you absolutely insane. The delicate lace is currently soaked, clinging to your pussy like a second, translucent layer of skin. He’s been working his tongue against the fabric, licks so long and heavy they feel like they’re reaching deep inside you. You’ve already been hit by two earth shattering, toe curling orgasms, your vision blurring every time his mouth finds your clit through the damp cloth. He hasn't even slowed down. If anything, it's getting worse.
“This is the reason I usually take off those pretty panties you wear” he presses his face into you, his broad tongue sweeping up in one stroke against your entire slit. You let out a choked, broken sound, fingers tangling desperately in his dark hair, trying to push him away just to catch your breath.
“Your scent is so fucking addictive,” he groans against your skin, “Especially after wearing them all day... knowing you've been walking around, smelling like this, just waiting for me.”
Then, he says something that makes your heart skip a beat not out of fear, but out of pure shock.
“You have no idea, do you?” he pants, nose brushing against your clit. “Last two years of High School... I spent them stroking my cock raw just to the smell of your panties. Thinking about you. Wishing you were right there."
Your vision blurs. Your hips jerk upward involuntarily as a third wave of pleasure crashes over you. You cum hard, your entire body shaking as you spill yourself directly onto his tongue, voice breaking into a high, desperate sob of his name.
He doesn't pull away. He just drinks you in, a satisfied smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth as he tastes exactly what he's been craving.
The moment your legs stop trembling he hooks his fingers into the soaked gusset and drags it to the side, baring your swollen folds and your pulsing clit, sensitive from his relentless attention.
He doesn't thrust in. He doesn't go for the full stretch you’ve been silently praying for. Instead, he slides the drooling tip of his cock over your slit. He isn't even entering you yet, he's just... slapping it against your clit, teasing the very edge of your tolerance.
You wanted the lace, the play, the slow burn... but God, you also wanted him to fuck you until you couldn't remember your name. You wanted the stretch.
But Caleb is a man who listens. Or rather, he's a man who has spent a lifetime studying every detail of your desires and right now he is giving you exactly what you asked for.
He leans down, his eyes dark, watching the way your face contorts with pleasure and frustration. He doesn't give you the release of a full thrust, he just feeds you the tip. He slides just the head of his cock into your pussy, a teasing invasion that barely makes a dent.
The reaction is instantaneous. Your walls react to him like a living thing, clenching around him, desperately trying to suck him deeper, to pull the rest of him in. The sensation is so perfectly matched that a synchronized moan breaks from both of you.
He pulls out just a fraction and then he thrusts the tip back in. Over and over again.
“Please,” you whimper, the word sounding pathetic even to your own ears. “Baby, please...”
You’re trying to force him to go deeper. But he’s in total control. His left hand is working the length of his cock, pumping with a desperate rhythm, while his right hand finds your clit.
His eyes are pinned to yours, watching every flicker of emotion on your face as if he’s trying to memorize the way you fall apart.
And then, the teasing ends.
His mushroom tip, still nestled just inside your entrance, begins to pulse. Warm, thick spurts of cum hit your sensitive walls, flooding the tiny space he’s occupied.
Your pussy clenches around the tip of his cock, trying to suck every last drop out of him while his hand squeezes the rest of his length, forcing the remainder of his seed into you, filling you up until his cum starts to leak out.
He finally collapses against you, the weight of his body pressing you deep into the mattress.
"You're so loud when you're happy," he murmurs before pressing a slow, lingering kiss to your temple, then your cheek, before finally settling his lips against yours in a kiss that tastes of salt and everything you are to him.
He pulls back just a bit, his gaze dropping to where the soaked lace of your panties still clings to your thighs, then back up to your eyes. There’s a flicker of that obsessive intensity returning to his expression.
"There isn't a single thing in this world you could ask for that wouldn't make me crawl to you. So don't hold back, Pips."
YOU DON’T REMEMBER MUCH ABOUT YOUR OWN CHILDHOOD. But if one thing is for certain, it’s the warmth of moonlight glistening against your skin and the faint echoes of lullabies long tucked away in the corners of memory.
There was a hush in the air, a stillness that carried that song. It was not just any song, but that song. It had a warmth that was more than just melody. It wasn’t easy to define. Nor was it easy to understand.
And yet it was what it was. It was a mystery that would forever be etched into the soul. Still, that was something you cannot change. You don’t have clear answers to that and certainly, neither would he or anyone else have that answer.
If anything, it was the kind of tone that wrapped itself around your soul, gentle and unassuming. A voice so tender, you never thought a person could carry such softness without breaking.
You couldn’t place where you’d first heard it. Maybe it was a dream you had. Maybe it was something that was real. But you were certain it had lived inside you, quiet and waiting. It was something so concrete and undeniable.
And now, here you were, humming a tune so softly in the dim light of your child’s room, watching the slow rise and fall of their chest as your dearest little one drifted further into the depths of dreamland.
Just as you once did, still curled up in the embrace of night, cradled by that same lullaby, sung by someone who loved you in ways you couldn’t understand then, loved you enough to leave you with evidence.
Now, you understand. You sang not just to soothe, but to remember. To pass on something timeless, something both forgotten and familiar. And in that moment, under the silver hush of moonlight, it all came full circle.
The sterile white of the hospital room gave way to the soft lavender hues of dawn filtering through the glass panels overhead. Shadows that had once clung to the corners of the room now softened.
It was eagerly stretching long and pale across the tiled floor as if even the light knew to tread gently here. It was such an unfamiliar place. It was such an unlikeable place, even more when you let yourself settle in more and more in its quiet.
You didn’t like hospitals. They were terrifying places to you growing up. You could recall being a child who would rather be sick in her bed than decide to even be confined to a hospital bed. But you couldn’t help it.
When you were young, you hated knowing that you were there smelling that all too-clean manufactured scent, the endless hollow of those beeping of machines, the sharp, unnatural brightness of overhead fluorescents that blinded you over and over.
But this time, it wasn’t a place of endings. Even if there was no other choice, you were glad for it. It was the beginning. The best-case scenario, wrapped in warmth and swaddling cloth, enjoying the bountiful wonder of dreams.
Linkon City, normally humming with the pulse of industry and the clamor of its tireless inhabitants, had fallen into an unusual hush. It was still, not in the eerie way cities sometimes fall quiet during disaster, but in a sacred, reverent way.
As if even the ever-churning heart of the metropolis understood something precious had arrived. The buildings, usually aglow with moving lights and digital projections, seemed dimmer now, basking in the soft blush of the coming morning.
The bright neon signs flickered in a slower rhythm, the usual abundant traffic moved like a whisper rather than a roar, and even the air itself seemed to hold its breath. It felt as if the city had bowed its head. Not out of obligation, but in awe. Honoring not you, not Sylus, not even the miracle of birth. But the quiet enormity of this moment.
The birth of something delicate and enduring, something that was beyond the imaginary. This beautiful angel of a child, sleeping softly in your arms, had silenced a city without even knowing it.
You sat there, still dressed in your hospital gown, your body tired but your spirit full, watching as her tiny chest rose and fell. The world outside would begin again soon, relentless as ever.
All the alarms would go on and buzz, all the people still out and about would shout, the horrid LCD screens in the heart of the city would continue to flash fluorescent. But for now, all of that had paused.
And in that silence, you held the most powerful truth you’d ever known: You and Sylus were creating the marvel of life. One that would live on beyond the two of you, in all the fabric of space and time.
You lay back against the pillows, a faint sheen of sweat still clinging to your skin. In your arms, swaddled in a pale ruby red blanket, your precious little daughter slept soundly, as though there was no worries to have in the world.
Her tiny fists were curled against her bright chubby cheeks, and every so often, she made a soft cooing sound, a little sigh of contentment that made your heart ache with so much affection, with so much love.
It was the kind of ache that swelled from the deepest part of you. It was genuine and sweet. It was overwhelming, and almost too much to bear. How could something so small hold your whole world so easily?
You watched her, completely still, as though even the smallest movement might shatter the magic of this moment. Her silver lashes fluttered now and then, catching the faint shimmer of moonlight that spilled through the curtain.
You wondered what she was dreaming about. Were there clouds shaped like animals? Fields of stars? Or maybe just the safe sound of your voice, the rhythm of your heartbeat, the scent of home?
You reached out, gently brushing a curl from her forehead, your fingers trembling slightly with the weight of tenderness. She didn’t stir. Just sighed again, softer this time, her lips forming a shape that looked almost like a smile.
You never thought love could be so quiet, so steady. Not the kind that roared or swept you away. But the kind that held you in place, anchored you to the earth with invisible threads woven of lullabies and moonlight and the smallest, most sacred sighs in the dark.
And for the first time in a long while, maybe since your own childhood, you felt safe. You felt home. You felt at home with your daughter in your arms. Safe and sound, living in a new world that you promised for the better. For the sake of this little life in your arms.
“You’re already quite enamoured, kitten.” Your silver haired husband whispers in the most tender of ways.
The most tender in all of his life, he whispered the words into the world with such love that you didn’t think could ever exist in this life at all. Yet it did. And he had it for your little daughter.
“You’re just as much enamoured, you know.” You retorted back tenderly. “She already has you wrapped around her fingers, don’t you think?”
“I don’t think I can deny such a thing, when she looks like the most precious thing.” He replies to you, his ruby eyes continuing to gaze at her sleeping figure.
Sylus decided to sit beside you, closer than ever before, after the night you just had. His one arm behind your shoulders, the other gently brushing a fingertip against your daughter's precious little hand.
His usual composed expression had softened even further, his usually weary eyes ever so decided to shine with everything loving in the world, when he looked at her. He looked at her, you think, with something more profound than just relief. Wonder. Awe. Devotion.
"She's perfect, sweetie." he whispered, voice barely audible over the soft hum of the station. He leaned closer, pressing a kiss to your temple, then to the baby's forehead. “And strong. Just like her mother.”
You laughed softly, exhausted but elated. “And stubborn. That’s all you.”
A warm, rare smile tugged at the corners of his lips. “Then the world can only be warned. She has quite the father to look after.”
You both sat in silence for a moment, still eagerly wrapped in each other’s presence, in the warmth of new life and the stillness that followed. Outside the window.
All the stars drifted lazily past Linkon’s painted night sky, the vast and indifferent Deepspace was still spinning and expanding in ways you could not even guess.
Yet that didn’t matter right now. None of those trivial matters did. Inside this room, time slowed. The galaxy could wait. Just for now, the three of you had everything you needed.
Sylus shifted slightly beside you, his massive shoulder brushing yours carefully as he leaned closely, trying to get a better look at her beautiful sleeping face.
“She makes that same sound you do when you’re falling asleep, kitten.” he whispered, a soft smile playing on his lips.
You glanced at him, lips tugging into a smirk. “You mean the one you say sounds like a baby sighing into a bowl of soup?”
He stifled a laugh, his mirthy eyes still on her. “Exactly that one. It’s such an interesting choice to take from her mother.”
You shook your head, the corners of your eyes crinkling with amusement. “You’re terrible.”
“I’m honest as can be, sweetie.” he said, turning to look at you fully. “And truly…..this is everything. And….it makes me overwhelmed. In a good way.”
You nodded, understanding too well. “Me too. She’s so small. And yet… I feel like she’s opened up something huge in me. Something I didn’t even know was closed. How could something so small open something like this in me?”
Sylus reached over and took your hand, lacing his long fingers through yours, grounding you both. “I keep thinking…how lucky she is to have you, sweetie. And how lucky I am that somehow, you said yes to all this. To me. To us.”
You felt your throat tighten, pearl like tears prickling behind your eyes. Not from sadness, but from the sheer, raw fullness of the moment. If you were being honest, you too did not think you could ever be this happy too. To be happy with Sylus, with the twins. With your little daughter.
“We’re the lucky ones, Sylus.” you murmured. “She made us more than we were. She made us infamous in this life.”
For a while, neither of you spoke. The silence wasn’t empty. It was what it was. It was rich and alive, humming with gratitude, with awe, with quiet promises you didn’t have to say aloud.
Then Sylus whispered to you. “Should we wake her up and tell her how amazing she is?”
You chuckled, squeezing his hand. “You wake her, and you’re on diaper duty till she’s five.”
He raised his hands in mock surrender. “Fair. I’ll just keep worshipping her from a respectful distance until then.”
You leaned your head on his shoulder, exhaling deeply. Outside, the lazy stars continued their endless drift from Linkon to Deepspace. But here, in this small, glowing corner of the universe, love was infinite.
IT WAS BACK HOME TO THE N109 ZONE THREE DAYS LATER. You had wanted to go home much earlier. You couldn’t stand the hospital anymore. The stale food, the bland walls, the smell of anaesthetics. It was all too much for you. One day would have been enough for you, truly.
But Sylus wanted to be certain that you and the little one would be alright and insisted the doctors perform all the precautionary measures that they could, in all forms, including tests, before you both went home.
You wouldn’t put it past your husband to be overly cautious, and while it annoyed you, it also endeared you. He was a new father, a loving husband too. He just wanted the best for you. That’s why you were sure you grew a new heart just for him.
The hum of the monochrome faded as it came to a stop just outside the massive complex of Sylus’s primary home within the N109 Zone. Dust kicked up around the tires, mingling with the low haze that always hung over this part of the zone.
You were sure that it was now part ash, part smog, part memory of things that used to grow here. Perhaps that’s why it was more full of fondness now, with all the details you remember. You had such a special new resident.
You stepped out first, cradling your sleeping daughter close, the blanket tucked securely around her to guard against the chill in the air. Sylus followed, his ruby red eyes already scanning the perimeter like instinct, as he carried the bags with one hand.
This was his territory. And though it wasn’t built for softness. It was entirely scarred by years of conflict, decay, and survival. You knew that he was trying to carve out a piece of it that could be. Home, of sorts. For you, for your daughter, for him. For the family you’ve come to build.
The massive marble walls passed you by as you and Sylus entered through the building. You knew you were all but ready to lay down. But you remembered that the twins would be there too, waiting. Mephie too.
Before you could turn to your husband, his hand was holding the door. You found the doors all buzzed as it opened, and before you could fully step inside, two figures darted into view from the shadows near the entrance.
Luke was first, practically skidding to a halt in front of you with his usual flair, a flash of wild energy barely restrained. Kieran was just behind him, quieter but no less present, his red-black mask angled slightly as he took in the sight of you both.
“You’re back!” Luke exclaimed, his voice already too loud for the sleeping bundle in your arms. “Finally! We’ve been waiting for—”
“Shh.” Sylus cut in quickly, lifting a hand and giving Luke a warning look. One given too tenderly. “Don’t wake her, you too.”
Luke clamped both hands over his masked mouth, miming a zip and toss. “Silent mode activated, boss.” he whispered, then elbowed Kieran. “Tell him I’m behaving.”
Kieran gave a small nod, eyes crinkling slightly behind the mask. “This is his version of quiet, boss-man!”
You tried not to laugh, adjusting the blanket where it had slipped slightly from your daughter’s shoulder. Her little face remained relaxed, untouched by the chaos of the zone or Luke’s enthusiasm. It was almost strange how peaceful she looked at this moment.
Mephisto, the crow-shaped drone that rarely left the twins’ side, landed on the metal railing nearby, wings folding in with a soft mechanical click. It watched the scene in silence, its head twitching with curious precision as it examined the new arrival.
“She’s… tiny!” Kieran said, stepping closer, his voice softer than usual. “Boss, is she okay? The zone’s… not exactly gentle.”
“She’s perfect.” you replied with a small smile, shifting her slightly so they could see her peaceful face. “And Sylus is making sure we’re safe. I know the two of you are doing the same thing for us.”
Sylus rested his hand gently on the small of your back, voice firm but quiet. “I’ve reinforced the quarters, rerouted patrol drones, and cleared the north wing. Nothing’s getting near her.”
Luke gave a low whistle. “You went full fortress mode.”
Sylus didn’t even look at him. “I’d burn this whole zone to the ground if it meant keeping them safe.”
A beat of silence followed, weighty but not uncomfortable. Even Luke didn’t have a comeback for that. Kieran nodded slowly. “Then she’s safe.”
You glanced between them. These mismatched sentinels of a place that never promised comfort but now, somehow, held the beginnings of home. It made your heart swell.
With Mephisto standing guard, the twins circling like chaotic moons, and Sylus steady at your side, the edges of the N109 Zone didn’t feel quite so sharp anymore.
“She’s lucky, don’t you think?” Kieran murmured. “Boss-man and boss-lady are her parents! Strong and cool!”
“No, I don’t think I can agree with that.” Sylus said quietly, glancing down at his daughter, asleep and unaware of the promises being made around her. “We are.”
You smiled softly at your husband’s words. “I agree.”
“Do you think he looks like boss-man or boss-lady?”
Kieran looked at his brother, his thumb rubbing on his chin. “Hm……don’t you think the baby boss looks exactly like the boss?”
Luke gasped, almost too comically. “You’re right! Carbon copy!”
Your little girl made a subtle movement, and then a sudden and small suckle sound. Almost like a brief laugh, one which could only remind you when your husband snickers.
“Looks like she inherited your laugh too, boss!” Kieran added, tilting his head thoughtfully.
“Or my tolerance for such a laugh.” you murmured, smiling as you glanced at Sylus, who seemed all too proud at that sound.
Mephisto looked at you with his dark red eyes and squealed, almost as if wanting to join the conversation too. “Cawk–cawk!”
“Hm, but it’s better if we’re all silent too.” Sylus says, looking over his daughter, who was back to sleep. “It’s much better if she sleeps through much of it.”
“You have already declared silence from the N109 Zone for the next few days.” You pointed out. “You know that’s enough.”
“I need to say it once again, sweetie.” Your husband touts, smiling down at you. “It’s better for it to be said multiple times. Knowledge is power.”
“Hey, don’t worry, boss-man!” Luke said, hand to his chest, feigning offense. “I can be quiet. I’ve trained in stealth.”
Sylus gave him a slow look. “That was one time. And it involved you falling through a ceiling.”
Luke waved a dismissive hand. “Tactically falling was good, though, boss. It was a controlled collapse from Kieran!”
Kieran gave a faint sigh. “You screamed the whole way down.”
“I was warning the enemy I was coming, you know!” Luke defended in a stage whisper. “Psychological warfare.”
You chuckled rather softly, too fondly, mindful of the sleeping baby in your arms. “Maybe you should focus on psychologically not waking a newborn, you two.”
“Noted, boss-lady!” Luke whispered, straightening up like he was accepting an elite assignment. “Operation: Absolute Silence is now in effect.”
Mephisto, who had been perched silently on a nearby ledge, gave a faint mechanical chirp, as if mocking the entire exchange. He flapped once and settled again, blinking his glowing eyes.
Sylus reached over and opened the door to the inner corridor, gesturing for you to go first. “Come on, sweetie. Quarters are prepped. I reinforced the panels and rerouted power to the quiet systems. No generators kicking on near the walls, no flickering lights.”
Your heart softened at that. He had thought of everything. Even the tiniest things that could disturb a baby’s sleep in a place like the N109 Zone. As you stepped inside, the air shifted.
It was cooler, quieter, almost like a tender paradise few can only long for. The lights were dim, amber-hued instead of harsh white. It didn’t look like much, but it felt like care.
Luke and Kieran followed, much quieter now, Mephisto gliding behind them like a mute shadow in the air. You sigh, satisfied as you decided to sit atop the bed, still holding your tiny baby in your arms.
“I give it ten minutes before she has all of us wrapped around her little finger, boss.” Kieran said quietly, his hidden eyes fixed on the baby’s face with a kind of reverence that didn’t match his usual stoic demeanor.
Luke shook his head at his brother. “I doubt it would take that long. I’m already planning what kind of armor she’s gonna need when she starts crawling. You know, reinforced knee pads, maybe a helmet with bunny ears—”
“She’s not even a day old, Luke.” you said, smiling down at your daughter as she stirred slightly, one tiny hand peeking out from the blanket.
“Exactly why we start prepping early, boss-lady!” he whispered, crouching down to her level. “The N109 Zone isn’t exactly plush carpeting and lullabies.”
“It’s never going to be long, I’m sure.” Sylus murmured, watching her the way he sometimes watched the world through a sniper scope. It was quiet, focused, deadly sincere. “She already has us done. She rules the world already.”
He sat down beside you on the old, reupholstered couch that had seen too many patrol nights and emergency briefings, now repurposed for something sacred.
His hand brushed against yours. You could feel it tenderly. It was lovingly warm. Presently solid. Most of all, dependable, steady. And it was everything that you could ask for.
“Welcome home, sweetie.” he said again, softer now, his voice settling into the space like a prayer.
You looked around. The walls were still steel and scarred, the windows reinforced with energy mesh, and the air still hummed faintly with the pulse of generators buried deep below the surface.
But someone had taken the time to hang a curtain. It was a real one, pale black and scarlet red and unevenly hemmed. There was a small cot tucked in the corner, beautifully ornate with the hand stitched crows and dragonflies.
It was surrounded by a mess of tools, blankets, and an old holo-projector meant for security feeds, now playing soft light patterns across the ceiling. This was the notorious N109 Zone. Gritty, dangerous, cracked at the seams.
None else recognizes it as best as you. This was the N109 Zone that would only belong to you. The N109 Zone that would only be a dream to the rest of the world that dwells outside these walls.
But it was also yours now. Because he had made room for you here. Because they—Sylus, the twins, even Mephisto—had shown up not with perfection, but with something better.
In this home, there was loyalty. There was love. Most of all, there was gritted-teeth tenderness. One that could only blossom into the name that you had always longed for. That idea, that reality of family.
Luke sat cross-legged on the floor, rocking slightly, arms draped over his knees. “So, uh... what’s her name?”
Sylus looked at you then, and you looked at him. And in that glance, all the sleepless hours, the quiet awe, and the whispered dreams in hospital corners surged between you like an unspoken thread.
You smiled. “We were thinking you two should hear it first.”
You could tell that the twins were blinking, almost too anticipatory for your words to come out. Even Mephisto tilted its head, almost as if he understood the gravity of the moment you were having right now.
Luke straightened up, his voice unusually quiet. “Yeah?”
Sylus nodded. “Yeah.”
And then, you spoke her name carefully. Godiva. It passed your lips like a breath on a mirror. The whisper of the name each and every time was too personal, too good, too loving. A gift from the gods, that is what she was.
It was soft, fragile, but leaving behind something permanent. Something sacred. It was ever so precious, you liked to think. Too good, too wondrous. A name that didn’t sound like anything that belonged in a place like the N109 Zone, a place where silence was safety and steel was skin.
But that was exactly why it had to be hers. It was a name that felt like warmth in winter, like fingers threading through yours in a storm. Like sunrise over a broken skyline, like the stars hanging brightly in the darkly lit sky.
It was hope blooming where there shouldn't have been any. It tasted like light. Like stories you heard as a child when the world still made sense. Like a secret you would protect with everything you had.
It was a promise wrapped in syllables. A vow pressed into sound that could only ever belong to you and him, to your precious little girl. No one else would ever have something like this belonging to them. That was for certain.
It lingered in the room after you said it, like the name itself didn’t want to leave. It hung there. Ever so delicate and mighty. It was as if the very air took pause to honor it.
Time thinned for a breath. The faint hum of old power conduits, the slow whir of Mephisto’s mechanical wings, the distant creaks of steel bones in the zone. All of it faded, holding space for this moment.
Godiva. It was a name like a gift. A gift that will always be yours. Not a possession, not a prize. But a miracle you had somehow been trusted with. The greatest thing that would ever touch your life.
For a heartbeat, no one said anything. Not Sylus. Not Luke. Not even Kieran. Not even Mephisto dared make a sound. You didn’t know what to say or do next, so all you could do was smile so brightly, full of gracious thanks for what you had now, for your daughter, for her name, for the family she now has.
It was small and unsure, like your body couldn’t hold everything you were feeling. You looked down at her, and there she was, so peacefully asleep in your arms, like she already knew her name fit her perfectly. Like she had been waiting for you to speak it out loud.
You waited. For them to speak. For them to give you something. For words, for laughter, for tears, for anything. For anything and everything. You wanted to get it all. You waited for the world to resume again, reshaped around this tiny center of gravity that had just been given a name. And it wasn’t long before someone spoke.
Luke whispered, “That’s...damn. That’s a beautiful name.”
Kieran just nodded again. “Fits, boss-lady. She’s going to change everything.”
Sylus squeezed your hand gently, his voice a murmur meant only for you. You could see the tenderness in his beautiful smile, one that echoed such true and endless happiness. “She already has. That’s for certain.”
IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE HE HAD MADE THAT DECISION. It’s been so long since Sylus thinks about the past, the whole of it. And about wanting to let it go forever. Not because he wants to, but because it never truly lets him go.
The memories that come back in endless waves are always vivid in his head, sometimes they are the only things that he thinks to be the ones he knows in every detail, in every echo, in every whisper.
Each and every time, it was sharp-edged and relentless, like they’re carved into the back of his eyes. He can see them even when he’s awake. But it’s in his dreams, his nightmares, that they come to life.
Not as passing images, not just a moment that comes and goes. Instead, it was coming back to him as a whole. It was endless breathing worlds. Endless stories only he could put together.
Over and over, Sylus finds himself being the victim of his own desires. It was as if he lived them all over again there. And he can never look away. He doesn’t think he has the strength to do it. Because it was still him. It was still you. It was still both of you, loving each other.
They were the most vivid in the days when you were apart. When all he had was the silence between missions and the echo of your absence. When the only thing louder than the gunfire was the question of whether you were safe. Whether you were alive.
But perhaps they’re worse now, he thinks to himself. Now that the war inside him has met the quiet of fatherhood. Now that he knows what peace is supposed to feel like. Because every time he closes his scarlet eyes, the warmth of two young hands, yours and his, tenderly, tightly intertwined with the kind of hope that only fools carry in battle, flashes against the backdrop of screams. Of blood. Of everything they lost and never got back.
The begging comes back to him too. The way his voice cracked when you disappeared. The way he scoured the wastelands of the zone looking for traces of you.
The way bitterness made a home in his bones when there was nothing left but silence. The yearning. The loneliness. The sharp, swallowing ache. He remembers it all. He feels it all.
Still. Now. Even with your head resting against his shoulder, even with Godiva’s soft breath rising and falling in sleep nearby. He lives it over and over again in his dreams. And he hates it.
He hates how it still grips him, how it still dares to enter this new life he’s trying to build. He doesn’t want it. He doesn’t need it. He has twins, he has Mephisto. But most of all, he has you now. He has her.
And yet, the past claws at him like it’s jealous of what he has left. So he stays awake a little longer than he should. He washes his hands clean over and over again. Then, he watches you breathe. He watches your daughter stir.
So, he reminds himself consistently, every single day: This is real. This is now. And he’s not letting it slip away again. No one can take this away from him. No one can take it away from any of you. No one can, ever again.
That’s why stays awake. That’s why he stays sharp. That’s why he always pushes and pulls. He wants to be strong. He wants to be there. He wants to chase the dreams away.
Long after the others have retreated to their bunks, after Mephisto’s quiet, mechanical flutter fades into the ceiling rafters, after even the low hum of the N109 Zone’s night shift becomes a distant, muffled throb behind the reinforced walls, so he stays awake.
His body aches. His mind frays.
But his scarlet eyes don’t close.
At least not yet, not tonight.
Most nights after his nightmares, he sits with you and Godiva, watching the slow rise and fall of her chest, watching the way your arm instinctively curves around her even in sleep.
There’s a kind of light here, faint and imperfect. It was spilling from an old solar bulb and the fractured moonlight that filters through broken blinds. But it’s enough. It softens everything. You look peaceful in it. She looks safe.
And Sylus, he wants to believe that’s enough to drown out the ghosts. But the truth is, the past doesn’t knock. It invades. He can almost feel it behind him now. Like a cold breath on the back of his neck.
The sting of gunpowder in his nose. The weight of a friend’s last breath in his hands. The sound of your voice screaming his name in a moment he couldn’t reach you.
There was a time when he thought vengeance could silence it. When he burned everything in his path, thinking destruction could fill the hollow in his chest. It didn’t.
Then there were the years of bitterness. Of pushing people away before they could leave. Of becoming steel and distance and grit, because that was safer than letting anyone too close.
And then, you came back. Not like a memory, but like a thunderstorm. Real and sudden and terrifyingly beautiful. And just like that, all his defenses crumbled, quietly and completely.
Now, you sleep beside him. And your daughter, his most precious and beloved daughter sleeps between you. And for the first time in his life, he has something that matters more than the war in his mind.
But the dreams still come over and over again. And he still wakes up with sweat dripping through his skin. His fists entirely clenched and his jaw locked down and that never ending taste of ash in his mouth.
He rubs a hand over his face, slow and tired, then brushes the back of his knuckles against Godiva’s tiny foot, just to ground himself. She shifts around as she usually does these days, but doesn’t wake this time.
For a while, the usually busy and endlessly loud and dangerous night was quiet. Almost too quiet. The kind of silence that felt suspended in time, like the world was holding its breath.
Sylus stirred from where he’d been lying, the ache in his muscles familiar, but dulled by something softer these days. There was that tender sound ringing against his ears. It was barely more than a whimper.
But that had been enough. It had pulled him upright. He didn’t need to ask. He already knew what it was, or rather who it was. He couldn’t help but smile. His precious Godiva.
She was fussing in her sleep, little fists twitching, her brow scrunched in a tiny, troubled knot. Her breath hitched in the way that only babies could manage when dreams turned heavy.
Sylus was next to her in an instant, crouched beside her makeshift crib, his shadow folding protectively over her like a shield. He couldn’t help but find his eyes softened.
“I know, sweetheart, my little girl.” he whispered, brushing his fingers gently against the side of her downy cheek. “You’re having bad dreams too?”
She let out another soft sound, her lip wobbling, and Sylus felt that ache in his chest again. It was not the old kind, the one made of battlefields and blood but something far more dangerous. Tenderness. It undid him.
He slipped his arms beneath her and pulled her close to his chest, careful not to wake you, still curled under the blanket just across the room. Godiva’s little body was warm against his, her face pressing against the crook of his neck as she released a shuddering breath.
“It’s okay to cry it out, precious sweetheart.” he murmured, voice low and steady. “I do too, sometimes. It doesn’t make us weak.”
He rocked her gently, side to side in the slow rhythm of safety. “I’m going to stay up with you, okay?” he whispered, as if it were a promise he’d carve into the stars if she ever asked it of him. “You won’t have to deal with it alone. Not ever.”
The room was bathed in dim, silvery light. It reflected off old solar glass, pooling around them like moonwater. Godiva’s cries faded into soft, sleepy breaths, her tiny hand grasping a fold of his shirt with surprising strength.
Sylus leaned down and kissed her small head, the crown of fine baby hair soft against his lips. He held her like that for a long time, arms sure and heart steady, guarding her through the shadows of her first nightmares. He couldn’t help but smile.
For a moment, he could feel himself start to hum that tune. That tune you had played for him in that old and dusty organ, when you were tenderly playing, when you were that sorceress that loved the dragon.
He started humming the tune over and over again, slow at first, hesitant. It was like he was remembering the shape of it in his mouth, tracing it from some half-forgotten memory lodged deep in the back of his mind. But then it settled.
It became steady little by little. Slowly, it was becoming a little more familiar. Like the rhythm of rain on old rooftops, or the soft swaying of wind through tall grass. A sound older than his regrets, older than the pain still stitched into the corners of his sleep.
Each time he repeated the lullaby, it came a little smoother, a little softer. Each note fell into place with quiet reverence, as if the song itself understood that this was not a night for sorrow, not anymore.
His voice, usually so reserved, worn from years of commanding and surviving, grew gentler. It was gently melting into the hush of the room until it wrapped around the two of them like a warm quilt.
Godiva’s tiny body, cradled securely against his chest, slowly stopped its little squirming motions. Her breaths steadied, lashes fluttered closed, and her small hand, like it was no bigger than a curled leaf.
The small traces of her small hand rested against his collarbone like she had never known a world that was cruel or cold. This is the only world she now knows. His tender touch, her mother’s beating heart. This bubble of her own short, yet beautiful existence.
He closed his eyes too, resting his cheek lightly against her downy hair, his hum still rising and falling with the rhythm of something sacred. There were no enemies that would come and surround him, to disturb his peace tonight.
There were no loud brimming alarms around them, telling them of dangerous liasons. There were no nefarious shadows clawing at his memories. There was no past creeping up the back of his throat. Just this moment stuck in time. Just the two of them.
Outside, the world still turned like it always does. The hum of the N109 Zone still whispered on the edges of steel walls, and the wind rustled the loose, fraying tarps overhead. But none of it reached them. Not here.
The moon hung low in the sky, its silver light casting long, gentle lines across the floor. Earth was quiet tonight. For once, it seemed to understand that something fragile and pure was being protected here.
That this moment, this moment tucked inside a battered room in a dangerous zone, was the safest place in the world. It was just him and his daughter. And the lullaby that held them both.
“You’ll never know how much I love you, sweetheart.” Sylus fondly says, his bright red gleaming down with all the love in him. “But I’ll show you. Just as I do for your mother. One day, I’ll show you. Everything.”
THE DAYS CONTINUED TO PASS BY AND NOW, THERE WAS A CERTAIN ROUTINE NOW, CLEAR AS DAY. It was everything that you had never expected for yourself, if you were being honest. For all your life, you thought you would stay and live as a hunter. The adventures that came along were, it was a surprise to be sure. But it was one that you could only treasure, not regret. After all, this was the best outcome for a life to be well lived.
You try as much as possible to rest, but also keep yourself busy with doing things around Sylus’s house. Sylus comes back from dealing with the nuisances in his turf and he finds himself that day. He washes his hands, over and over again, until it's clean enough to kiss you well and to hold your daughter with all of his warmth. He takes over from you from that time on.
You and Sylus have started to let the river lead you to the sea. It was hard at first, that was for sure. But there was nothing you couldn’t navigate. Of course, being a parent was being in the jungle, trying to survive off scratch. It wasn’t easy.
It comes natural for a moment and then suddenly, you don’t know anything. It was the easiest and hardest thing one could ever do in life. Yet you knew that you and Sylus couldn’t wait to live through it over and over again.
One morning, long after dawn had crept gently across the cracks of N109 Zone’s rusted panels, you stirred from sleep. You were bleary-eyed, still cradling the lingering haze of another long night.
Godiva had needed feeding three times before sunrise, her soft whimpers drawing you and Sylus from the little sleep you could find. The devoted nocturnal man he was, he’d willingly stayed up with you each time.
Of course, at times he couldn’t be there. At times, he would just barely make it and would just be sitting there and saying words to encourage you, or bring you little snacks with Mephisto’s help.
But you knew that he was always there, his steady and strong shoulder brushing yours in quiet solidarity as you soothed your precious daughter back into dreams, warm dreams that would forever be scattered in beautiful blossoms in her father's touch.
Now, in the gentle quiet of morning, it was the smell that woke you. Or rather… something trying to be a smell. Burnt... something. It was then followed by a loud clang. And then a very eager but muffled curse.
You blinked, nudged Sylus, and whispered, “Is the zone on fire?”
He sat up slowly, rubbing the sleep from his face, a concerned wrinkle forming between his brows. “If it is, those two better save the baby formula.”
Still half-laughing, the two of you padded quietly toward the kitchen, careful not to wake the little one still bundled safely in her crib. And there they were. Luke and Kieran. In the dim kitchen light, the twins stood amidst a comedic battlefield of cookware. All the flour dusted the countertop and rather too prominently, Luke’s mask.
Kieran, the more composed of the two, had a spatula in one hand and a calm but resigned look in his eyes, as if trying to prevent breakfast from turning into a high-stakes mission.
Mephisto hovered nearby on a perch, eyes glowing a faint bluish red as he projected the recipe in a crisp hologram midair. A simple title hovered at the top: "Basic Protein Pancakes for Sleep-Deprived Parents."
Luke leaned close to read it—far too close. “Mephisto, buddy, zoom in! I can’t read that tiny crap—”
Kieran gently yanked him back by the collar. “You have perfect vision.”
“But my soul can’t see it.”
Sylus blinked slowly, amused. “...What is happening here?”
Luke spun around with a triumphant flourish, flour trailing like confetti. “Breakfast, boss-man! Good morning! This is our offering to your noble exhaustion.”
“We’re making food, boss. Don’t worry, it’s not gonna bring something bad!” Kieran said simply, still flipping something that looked vaguely edible. “Because neither of you should be vertical yet.”
You bit your lip to keep from laughing, leaning against the doorway. “That’s... actually really sweet.”
“See?” Luke gestures wildly, knocking a measuring cup off the counter. It hit the floor with a soft clang. “Our genius is appreciated. Thanks, boss-lady!”
“Hm….you’re welcome.”
Mephisto gave a mechanical click that sounded almost judgmental as he adjusted the projection to the next step. Sylus could only shake his head. How did these two manage to hijack Mephisto? Perhaps he’s taught them too well with the coding.
Sylus stepped forward, voice full of mock warning. “Are you two actually following the recipe exactly?”
“Yes!” Luke said far too quickly.
“No!” Kieran replied at the same time, glancing over his shoulder. “He added chocolate. And hot sauce.”
“You’re sleep-deprived! You need flavor and stimulation!” Luke insisted.
“I need my stomach lining.” Sylus muttered.
You finally laughed, walking over to peek at the pan. You could only look fondly about all of it, even when you knew that there were other things going on. It was… well. It was trying its best. And so were they.
“Let us do this!” Kieran said softly, nudging another pancake onto a plate. “You take the morning, boss-man, boss-lady. Be parents. Be yourselves. Be tired. Let us be idiots with a frying pan.”
You exchanged a look with Sylus, his eyes tired but fond. He took your hand for a moment and pulled you close. He then kissed your knuckles, a small smile tugging at his lips.
“Guess we’re off-duty today.” he murmured.
You leaned your head against his shoulder, warm despite the chaos. “It would seem so.”
“We have to watch these two very well….otherwise–”
“I doubt they could burn the house.”
“Hm, you underestimate these two.”
“Oh, your sons?”
“Exactly.”
You and Sylus settled into the corner of the room like retired royalty, watching the chaos unfold with the weary amusement of people too tired to intervene but too entertained to look away.
Luke was now juggling eggs. Juggling. Actual. Eggs. You couldn’t help but wonder about how much focus it takes to be this successful. Let alone to do it with masks covering your face.
“Luke, it’s—” Kieran said, without looking up from the batter. “Okay, please stop.”
“It's called multitasking, little bro.”
Two eggs flipped into the air. One landed safely in his hand. The other? Not so much. It hit the counter, cracked, and began its slow descent toward the edge. Kieran caught it in a bowl with the precision of someone who’d done this before. “It’s called a disaster waiting to happen.”
You tried to muffle your laugh in Sylus’s shoulder. “Are you sure we shouldn’t help?”
“No, kitten. Let the kids grow up here. It’s….a learning lesson.” Sylus said firmly, sipping on lukewarm coffee like it was a fine vintage. “This is character development 101.”
“Boss!” Luke said, dramatically placing a hand on his chest. “You wound me. I’m crafting a breakfast masterpiece here. A culinary symphony.”
Kieran turned slightly, deadpan. “You put orange soda in the batter.”
“I was out of milk!”
“You had plenty of milk.”
“It was... baby milk. I panicked.”
Sylus sighed. “If I taste orange soda in my pancakes, It’s going to be some sparring match at the ring with one of you against me, you two.”
“Mephie, are you sure you don’t want to guide them?” You asked, turning your head to the mechanical bird.
The mechanical crow, perched on a table in front of you and Sylus, swiveled its head and projected a flashing icon labeled: “Warning!⚠️ There are no refunds, no liabilities. Wishing you good luck!”
You burst out laughing. “Even Mephisto doesn’t trust this operation.”
Kieran, still the picture of calm suffering, was now plating something that might resemble food if you tilted your head and squinted. He handed you a plate, then Sylus. You muttered a warm thanks.
“Yours may contain traces of shell, boss-lady! Or Luke. Depends what we do our worst at.”
“Emotionally or physically?” you asked.
“Both.”
Luke clapped his hands. “Bon appétit, sleepy boss-man, boss-lady! We shall now sit and await your reviews.”
You looked at your plate. You looked at Sylus. He gave you a long-suffering glance that said “If I die, raise our daughter to avoid Luke’s cooking.”
With exaggerated flair, you both took a bite at the same time. There was a beat of silence. The twins merely stood there, looking at the two of you behind their masks.
“…It’s actually not terrible.” you said, blinking in surprise.
Luke threw both fists into the air. “YES! Nailed it!”
Mephisto projected a gold star emoji above Luke’s head, making another sound as he flew away. Kieran poured himself a cup of coffee and sat beside you all, finally looking a little proud.
“Next time, we’re making waffles.”
You raised your mug. “Only if Mephisto signs a waiver first.”
And in the middle of burnt pans, strange batter experiments, and sarcastic sibling banter, there was laughter real, deep, heart-clutching laughter. Somehow, this weird, chaotic, occasionally edible morning…was perfect.
Just as Luke started proposing a syrup-to-pancake ratio “scientifically optimal for flavor explosion” with a very sale pitch type of tone, they started to hear a soft noise interrupting their new morning mayhem.
A tiny, breathy whimper. Then another. All five of you froze mid-chew, mid-sip, mid-victory dance. Mephisto’s eyes flickered yellow. It was an alert mode, a notification blinking gently on his side panel.
[STATUS: INFANT STIRRING]
Then came the cry. Small. Wobbly. But determined. Godiva was awake. You were already rising, but Sylus gently touched your elbow. He smiled at you and shook his head.
“I’ve got her, sweetie. Don’t worry.” he said, his voice low, already softening in that way it always did when he spoke to her.
You watched him walk down the short hallway to the crib with the quiet confidence of a man who’d survived firefights, revolutions, and a few of Luke’s early cooking attempts, yet still looked a little nervous every time he picked up his daughter.
“She’s got her timing down, doesn’t she?” Kieran said under his breath. “Right after we plate the chaos.”
“She’s a prodigy already, boss-lady!” Luke nodded. “Clearly has a taste for dramatic entrances.”
You and the twins watched from the kitchen as Sylus reappeared, cradling Godiva in his arms. Her little face was still scrunched in sleepy protest, fists balled, one sock missing. Her wild tuft of her baby hair stuck up on one side like she’d been through her own battle in dreamland. It was glistening silver under the light of the rising sun.
“There she is.” you cooed, reaching over to gently fix her sleeve.
Sylus kissed the top of her head, murmuring, “There we go. Rough morning, huh, sweetheart? You’re allowed by the boss, don’t worry.”
Godiva opened her eyes. They were so big and curious, the most precious shade of ruby shining in the most beautiful way. She yawned before she gave Luke a hard stare. Like, suspiciously hard.
“She knows, Luke!” you said, trying not to laugh. “She remembers the orange soda pancakes.”
“I regret nothing!” Luke said proudly, holding out a piece like an offering.
Godiva gave him a long blink, one that could have gone for ions. All of the sudden, the little girl suddenly let out the tiniest sneeze. Almost immediately, everyone melted.
“Oh, that’s it!” Kieran said, putting down his coffee. “I’d die for her.”
“Same.” Luke added immediately. “I’d fight a hundred armed cyberwolves.”
“She sneezed, you two.” Sylus muttered, though even he looked dangerously close to a smile.
“She blessed us with her chaos, boss!” Luke corrected. “Tiny queen. My liege.”
Godiva yawned loudly in reply, then nestled against Sylus’s chest like she’d never cried in her life. Like she could not be troubled by anything in the world. Her attention belonged to the warmth of her precious father.
“She’s gonna rule this entire zone one day, you know.” you said, wrapping your arms around Sylus from the side.
“Already does, kitten.” he whispered, brushing his nose gently against her soft baby cheek. “We’re just living in her kingdom.”
The five of you stood there, almost too happily. Luke’s apron somehow tied around his neck like a cape, Kieran subtly trying to scrape batter off the ceiling as he mumbles like the child he was.
Mephisto perched proudly on the counter like he’d supervised a Michelin-starred kitchen, and you, shoulder pressed against Sylus as you both watched your daughter breathing steadily against his chest.
The kitchen was still an absolute mess. Flour dusted nearly every surface, like snow had fallen indoors. A suspiciously sticky patch of syrup gleamed on the table. Something in the oven beeped a little too late to be useful. And the pancakes, now cooling on mismatched plates, looked more like abstract art than food. But none of that mattered.
Because there was laughter. It was light and effortless, the kind you hadn’t felt in a long time. The kind that didn’t feel borrowed or temporary, but wholly your own. It lingered in the corners of the room like sunlight, warming everything it touched.
Young Godiva had calmed, her tiny form still and warm against Sylus’s chest. Her breath rose and fell in soft, rhythmic puffs, like a feather caught in a breeze. Her fingers were so impossibly small, impossibly perfect. At that moment, he had found a wrinkle in his shirt and curled it around like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Sylus looked down at her with something in his expression you didn’t see often. It was full of tenderness. It was genuine and unguarded and raw. Like he was trying to memorize the weight of her, the scent of her hair, the way her head fit into the curve of his neck.
His scarlet eyes flicked to you, and even without words, you felt the quiet thrum of his thoughts, because you knew that they were yours too. You knew that they were everything between you.
This. This is worth everything.
Outside, the N109 Zone still buzzed with its usual edge. The electric crackle of broken neon signs. The occasional echo of a far-off engine revving through back alleys. The musk of adventures that only the daring would take in the strident city.
The constant reminder that the world beyond your walls didn’t slow down, didn’t forgive, didn’t ever soften. But here, inside this little outpost of madness and love, something rare had taken root.
It wasn’t perfect. You were surrounded by chaos and crumbs, living in a zone Sylus had spent years trying to make less deadly. You had no certainty, no promises the next day would be easier. But you had this.
The sound of Luke softly humming to himself as he wiped a plate with the wrong end of a towel. Kieran reached over to adjust Godiva’s sock, just because it had slipped a little.
Mephisto projecting a glowing, looping heart above you all. There was no commentary, just presence. And precious husband Sylus. Holding your daughter like she was both the beginning and the end of every fight he’d ever survived.
In that moment, under flickering lights and between laughter and love, you realized to yourself that this life may not be perfect. But perfectly yours. And it was not something you would trade for anything in the world.
Luke broke the silence first, dramatically clearing his throat and placing a hand on his chest. “So. Since I basically slaved away in the kitchen this morning—”
“You poured orange soda into the pancake mix,” Kieran deadpanned, not even looking up from where he was wiping syrup off the floor.
Luke held up a finger. “Innovation always looks like madness in its early stages.”
You chuckled softly into the tender air, shifting closer to Sylus as you gently brushed a stray curl off Godiva’s forehead. He looked so attentive to her. Like she was the only one he could only see.
“If madness tastes like this, I would have it every day.” you said, eyeing your lopsided pancake, “I might actually be into it.”
“She gets it!” Luke beamed. “See? Someone here respects greatness. What now, boss-man?”
Sylus gave a low, amused sound. “You nearly set the stove on fire.”
“Nearly.” Luke repeated proudly. “Key word. That’s called walking the line between genius and arson.”
Mephisto let out soft mechanical cawing sounds and projected a little animation of a frying pan with flames and a red blinking “DO NOT ATTEMPT” sign above it.
Kieran looked at Mephisto and nodded. “Thank you for your ongoing service.”
You laughed softly, resting your head against Sylus’s shoulder. “This might be the weirdest little family on Earth.”
Sylus looked down at Godiva, then around at the four of you. Knowing all the grime-streaked existence, all sleep-deprived, and still somehow radiant. His voice was low, rough from emotion more than fatigue.
“Yeah.” he said. “But it’s ours, isn’t it, sweetie?”
“Hm.” You smiled at him. “It is our own.”
Luke grinned beneath his mask. “Well, don’t get all sentimental or I’m gonna cry into the syrup, boss-man.”
“Please don’t!” Kieran sighed. “We’re already out of paper towels.”
“Hey, boss-man.” Luke said, tugging on one of the dish towels draped over his shoulder like a scarf. “Are we doing this again tomorrow?”
Sylus smirked. “Only if the kitchen survives today.”
Kieran looked around the wreckage and muttered. “So… no.”
You giggled as Sylus leaned down and kissed Godiva’s head again. She stirred only slightly, eyes fluttering open for a moment, as if just checking the world was still okay.
“She’s gonna grow up in this, huh?” you whispered, watching her. “This love. This chaos.”
Sylus nodded. “And we’ll be right here, sweetie. Making sure the chaos never outweighs the love.”
Luke slung an arm around Kieran’s shoulder. “Which means I call dibs on teaching her how to juggle knives.”
“Absolutely not.” came a chorus from everyone else.
Including Mephisto, who made a cawing sound and suddenly projected a flashing red “PARENTAL DENIAL LOGGED” above Luke’s head. Kieran suddenly started laughing loudly, uncontrollably as Luke struggled to get it under control.
Luke threw his hands up. “Alright, alright! Geez. No faith in my methods.”
Godiva made a soft sound in her sleep. It was something between a sigh and a hiccup. And then all the sudden, every voice went quiet again. Everyone wanted to catch her gentle whispers into the world too.
You smiled. “She’s dreaming, I think.”
Kieran’s voice was quieter this time. “Yeah. Let’s make sure it stays good.”
And no one said anything more for a while. Because sometimes, in the heart of a wrecked kitchen, surrounded by beautiful faces bursting into laughter and cawing sounds echoing with metal wings.
With a beautiful baby safe in your arms and moonlight slipping through cracked blinds to give way to the endless, beautiful, bright echo of dawn, silence says everything. This was all you could ever needed. This was peace.
HE DOESN’T THINK HE’S EVER HAD THIS SORT OF DREAM BEFORE. But that’s just because he rarely dreamed sweet things. They were as rare as the tenderness that he had lived through for years and years before he had met you.
Most nights even when he was a dragon in his past life, all his nights, all his moments of rest and sleep were tangled. They were always frayed by shadows of the past, gunfire, betrayal, the echo of screams that still hadn’t faded even after all these years.
But tonight was different.
And he knew that it was intentional.
She wanted to see his precious daughter.
In his dream, the sky was a deep, dusky gold, as if the sun had decided not to set just yet. A gentle wind stirred the long grass around them, and the air smelled like warmth. It was like the idea of sun-baked stone and wildflowers.
He was standing in a wide, open field, soft earth beneath his boots. And in his arms was Godiva, bundled in soft linen, her little fist clinging to the fabric of his shirt even in sleep.
The grass shifted ahead of him, and he knew. Before he even saw her, he knew. He could feel the gentleness of his quivering lips, his red ruby eyes shaking at the sight of her standing there. More beautiful than he had ever thought before in all his lifetimes.
His mother.
A great shadow swept overhead, but it wasn’t menacing. It was majestic. The sound of powerful wings filled the sky with rhythm, with life. And then, slowly, she landed in the field before them.
Her massive form graceful, her long scales iridescent, glowing faintly with every breath. She folded her wings gently, her red ruby eyes wise and warm as molten amber. She was as majestic and beautiful as he remembered.
She was a dragon, yes. But she was also his mother. His only mother, the only mother he will ever have. In dreams, things don’t need to make sense. He didn’t question it. He doesn’t want to. He wanted this to be real. He wanted this to be the truth.
“Hello.” he said softly, adjusting Godiva in his arms.
The dragon, his precious mother, all but lowered her head until her great eyes were level with his. There was no fire in her mouth, only memory. Kindness. He hadn’t seen her face in years, not like this. Not when it didn’t hurt.
The dragon blinked slowly, then exhaled a soft plume of golden light. It was ever so gentle, almost like breath turned to starlight. It shimmered over the child in his arms, and though she was still sleeping, Godiva stirred, as if she knew. As if she felt it too.
“She’s… everything, mother.” Sylus whispered. “She’s what I never thought I’d get to have. And I’m scared, but… I want to do this right.”
His mother said nothing aloud, but in the dream, he felt her reply like a warmth blooming in his chest: You are more than what the world made you. She will know love because you carry it.
Godiva let out a tiny yawn, her hand uncurling briefly. The dragon tilted her head, her massive form impossibly gentle. She moved closer, and for a fleeting moment, Sylus let himself lean forward, pressing his forehead to her scaled brow, like he had when he was just a boy, small and clinging to stories told in dragon-song.
“I miss you, mother.” he murmured.
I know.
“And I wish she could know you.”
She will. Through you.
A warm wind blew through the field again, scattering gold flecks into the sky. The dream began to blur around the edges, the way dreams do, the field softening into fog, the dragon slowly fading into the light. But the feeling lingered.
Even as Sylus stirred in the real world, waking with Godiva curled in the crook of his arm, her tiny breath tickling his neck, his eyes opened with tears he didn’t remember shedding.
He looked down at his daughter.
“She met you.” he whispered.
And somewhere inside him, he believed it.
Even in the waking world, Sylus could still feel the warmth of the dream wrapped around him like an old blanket from childhood. It was like that feeling, it was something that was hard to even comprehend.
Yet all he knew was that it was worn, it was comforting, and it was impossible to part with. The soft glow of dawn filtered into the room, pale gold sliding through the cracks in the curtains like the last wisps of starlight.
Godiva was still asleep against his chest, her tiny frame rising and falling with the steady rhythm of new life. Her breath was soft, sweet-smelling, and warm. Like something that had already etched itself into the memory of his skin.
He tightened his arms around her slightly, protectively, reverently. As if she were the thread anchoring him to something far more sacred than he deserved. The dream lingered. Not like most dreams. All fuzzy and incomplete but vivid. Tactile. Real.
His mother’s presence had been undeniable. Not merely a symbol or a comfort conjured by a longing mind. No, it had been her. The weight of her wings against the air, the scent of the earth when she landed, the sound of her breath as she exhaled golden light. It was too real to dismiss.
He could still feel the moment his forehead had pressed to hers. That sensation stayed with him: not cold, not sharp, but warm and ancient, like the embers of a fire that had never once gone out.
A dragon. A mother. His mother.
He had always remembered her as a figure of strength. Uncompromising, regal, the fire in her chest something more than literal. But in the dream, she had looked at Godiva not with the fierce pride of a dragon.
But with the soft, knowing eyes of a grandmother. And that was what undid him. Sylus swallowed, his throat thick. How could he not, when this was all he had wanted in his life? After all this time, this was all he wanted. And he got it. He finally got it.
“She met you, sweetheart.” he whispered again, voice hoarse from emotion. He let his fingers gently stroke Godiva’s tiny back, soothing her, but maybe also soothing himself.
“She saw you.” he went on, eyes burning. “And you… you saw her.”
It felt like a blessing. Like something sacred had taken root in the space between dream and waking, past and future. His mother, long gone from the world for years, her voice only a fading echo in his memory. She had not been lost. Not entirely.
And Godiva, this tiny new soul who had just barely arrived, had been welcomed into the fold by something greater than the violence and ruin Sylus had known. She was already loved by the blood and fire that came before her. He looked down at her again, brushing his lips across her forehead as if sealing that promise in place.
“You don’t have to carry the weight I did, my little sweetheart.” he murmured. “You’ll grow up with light. With stories. with everything good. With your mother's care. With my protection. With our love.”
Godiva stirred slightly, letting out a sigh, her hand shifting to grip his shirt once again. The way she always did, like she instinctively knew who would keep her safe.
Sylus leaned back, head resting against the headboard, still holding her close. The world beyond their room still stirred with danger, with its unpredictability and pain. But in this moment, he felt something new settling into his chest.
Not just peace, not just happiness. Hope, that was that feeling that he was missing, the feeling he was hoping for. His mother had passed the torch without words. With light. With breath. Through him. And now, it burned gently in the arms of his daughter.
summary: in which you ask about the lads boys condom size.
ft. xavier, zayne, rafayel, sylus & caleb
notes: suggestive content so NSFW / MDNI, xavier’s a little vulgar, zayne is lovely, rafayel wants to kill himself again (!!!), sylus is lovely again, caleb is strange. no explicit mentions of gender (!!!), only a few comments/compliments but nothing explicitly stated. that’s it (i think)
p.s. this is based on a req SO i hope you like it (even if just a little bit) ^^
a/n: yes…that is a cocoaxia original photo…no i don’t want to talk about the implications of me going about my normal human business and stopping to take a photo of the condom aisle to subsequently use for A LADS SMAU…i do it all for the realism…don’t ever say i'm not committed to you ladsnation…ty for reading (- -)(_ _)
Reminder, if you ever pay someone for a commission on Paypal (NSFW OR NOT) you SHUT THE FUCK UP in any text box it gives you.
(No this does not mean try to be a snarky comedian and say it was "bomb materials" or "fuck u" or whatever. Don't play with people's livelihoods, just shut the fuck up and don't type anything at all, it's not that hard.)
Zayne has just barely collapsed on the couch, still in his work clothes and tie tugged loose around his neck. So, you take your chance.
"Will you make me a cup of tea?"
He's already almost half asleep. His eyes open with a clear strain as he looks at you, curled up under the blanket with a book.
You're messing with him, of course. You expect him to catch on, to toss a cheeky remark at you like usual. You're not expecting him to wordlessly lift himself off the couch and begin trudging to the kitchen.
"Wh-Zayne! No no I was kidding!" He doesn't pay your words any mind as you struggle to kick aside the blanket, hurriedly trying to follow him.
"Chamomile, yes?" Of course, he already knows what flavour you prefer for your nightly reading. He pulls a bag from the drawer, but you grasp his wrist.
"I was just joking! Please go sit back down, you're exhausted and you've been on your feet all day." Now that you've gotten a closer look at him, the joke sits heavy in your stomach. The bags under his eyes have gotten worse, and his cheeks look more sunken in than usual.
"Let me make your tea." He mumbles, though he doesn't protest when you pull the bag from his fingers, setting it aside in favour of undoing his tie.
"I don't feel like tea anymore. Let's head up to bed, yeah?" His hands move from the counter to your waist, his whole body sinking into the embrace as his forehead rests on your shoulder. You hug him back, one hand stroking his back and the other sinking into the hair at the back of his head.
"Bed is a good idea." He whispers, voice already thick with exhaustion. You kiss his cheek, nudging him up just enough to have him follow you upstairs.
i think xavier would be really into just grinding through clothes—like sometimes he prefers it over actual sex. there’s something so tantalizing about how desperate you get for him even when he’s not technically touching you.
you fit together perfectly, the outline of his cock sliding between your clothed pussy lips with ease. he’d start with slow movements, testing which pressure you whined at the most. even through the layers of fabric, you could still feel his thick cock twitch with every movement, the way he’d groan into your ear and squeeze your thighs hard enough to bruise making your legs wrap around his back.
he got off to how small you were compared to him, the sight of his bulge completely spreading your clothed cunt open making him wanna take you then and there. still, he’d continue to tease you until you were on the verge of tears.
“you feel so good, star”
“look how wet you are, my girl’s so needy isn’t she?”
“so small under me, can barely take me like this, hm?”
sometimes he’d let you flip him over and ride him like this too, the slick seeping past the fabric of your panties soaking his boxers, making them neatly translucent. it took his breath away to see how needy you could get, crying and begging him to fuck you already but still humping against him like a dog in heat.
your tits bounced in his face every time you rubbed against his length, the sight making his cock swell with want. sometimes you focused just on his tip, rubbing it on your clit and nearly cumming the second xavier began to moan from it. at that point he’d begin fucking into you from below, both of you still clothed but deciding to forego the removal of your clothes to finally reach the edge you’d been chasing.
he always made you finish first, the sight of you spasming above him was what would throw him over the edge. as a thick pool of cum began to seep through his boxers, he’d pull his still hard cock out and move your panties to the side, both of you moaning from the overstimulation as he finally gave you what you’d been begging for.
My life was forever changed knowing Sylus likes to talk with his mouth full. Knowing that nothing can stop him and his smart-ass mouth from muttering in mock-sympathy while his lips are occupied with your cunt.
So casual, every word slurred and choppy as he asks you why you're squirming so much, why your thighs are tensing, why your nails are digging so deep into his skin. His tongue flicking dangerously across your twitching, swollen clit all the while, feeling you cum.
I JUST FUCKING REALISED ALMOST HALF OF MY FOLLOWING IS GONE?! I had my little niece over a while back and she was playing on my phone and I just now realised she unfollowed half of the people on ALL MY SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS. Also do not ask me how she got on tumblr, I don’t want to know😭 HALF OF MY MUTUALS ARE GONE. I AM IN DESPAIR. Idc about my friends on my social media cuz I can just add them back but my tumblr is sacred😔
