That's for me

SW:62kg|CW:59kg|1GW:55kg|2GW:50kg|UGW:48kg|Height:170 NOT PRO

[falseskinnymarie]

So 2018 has started

I was watching fireworks and thinking about how I entered this year with 10 kg less on my body. Will I be 10 kg lighter next New Year’s Eve?

I try to recover. Yes. I still want to lose weight, but healthy. At this point I have BMI 19 or 18,7 (idk, didn’t weight myself since Christmas and had a lot of ups and downs since then) which is considered NORMAL, which to me means FAT. I want to lose 10 kg more. Maybe till summer holidays. Maybe I just want to look like skeleton. Maybe I don’t want only my family and few friends to see change in my appearance.

H e r e   a r e   m y   2 0 1 8   r u l e s .

They applay to recovery and relapse. They are kinda weird, but I don’t think they are like ED/Ana/Mia tips, so don’t mind sharing them [ I just don’t find them triggering or bad, but if you feel like they could damage your recovery PLEASE DO NOT FOLLOW THEM ]

❋  DON’T BINGE

So this one is super important. I use to binge. And not like going over 2000 kcal in one day. I can eat up to 5000 kcal in one day and then lay in bed and cry because it hurts so much. It means that in ONE DAY I can gain even 0,5 kg of fat which is fucking insane. So, never. Never out of control. Never let yourself eat your emotion. Not a good way to stop being depressed.

❋  EAT ONLY WITH CUTLERY

This one is kinda weird, but it goes well on parties. If you can’t eat something with fork and knife or spoon - don’t. No chips, because what, you’re gonna eat chips with knife and fork? Weird. Pizza is eaten slower. Eating even one bread roll is fucking hillarious, and I was full after eating half of it, and normally I could eat two bread rolls and still want next.

❋  CHEW AND SWALLOW - THEN TAKE NEXT BITE

I noticed that it is that easy - you are suddenly eating three times slower.

❋   DON’T EAT WHEN YOU AREN’T HUNGRY

❋   DON’T EAT IF YOU DON’T LIKE WHAT YOU EAT

❋  DRINK WATER

Okay, there is like 100000+ % chance that I will binge if I didn’t get enough water that day. Also water makes you fuller before and after meal.

❋ EAT ONLY WHEN YOU ARE HAVING A MEAL (3-5 MEALS A DAY)

It’s like, super important for me. I binge when I just have this faze *EAAAT*, but when I say: “Let’s have breakfast”, it is less likely. When i don’t have my meals planned I just eat whatever whenever I feel like it. It is easier not to binge when I think: Oh, but I will have dessert at 5 pm, I can wait and eat then.

❋ EAT HEALTHY

Apples are better than chocolate, girl.

❋ GO ON PESCATARIAN DIET

No meat, but fish allowed. I heard that this diet is super healthy, also I don’t even like meat.

❋ ONE MONTH OF A YEAR IS VEGAN MONTH

Just want to try it out, maybe I will feel better after going vegan <:

[num-yummy-butter]

How To Stick to a Weight Loss (or any other) New Year’s Resolution

How to stick to a weight loss (or any other) New Year’s resolution, according to my sister Kate, who actually keeps her New Year’s goals every single year. Kate has maintained her weight loss and been at her goal weight for 3 years now, but she was kicking ass on her New Year’s goals long before then.

1. Your change must be specific and measurable

If you go into the new year telling yourself “I want to lose weight”, yes, it’s a goal, and yes it’s technically measurable, but it’s not incredibly specific. Kate’s advice on this one is to focus on the input rather than the output. Weight loss is the result of a specific input. How do you plan to lose weight? This is a low-carb blog, so I will give some specific examples:

- Do you plan to stay under 20g total carbs per day? Then you will also need to resolve to track at least somewhat to keep that goal in check. 

- Do you plan to stick to a specific list of foods? For example, staying LCHF, Paleo, Atkins ‘72 Induction, daily, regardless of the number of carbs you consume? You may want to keep a list of on-plan foods on hand in case you run out of ideas. 

- Do you plan to have cheat days, or commit to no cheats? When? Outline these for yourself. Be honest with yourself: if you seem to “fall off the rails” and one cheat day becomes a whole cheat week, you may want to consider not allowing cheat days for yourself, says Kate.

This way, the goal is to commit to changing the habit, which will then lead to the desired output, the weight loss. 

2. Write it down

Write your goal down somewhere where you will see it daily. You can do any of these, or all four of them, or make your own, as long as you can remind yourself of your goals daily. 

- Tape a copy of your goals to your bathroom mirror

- Put a copy in your wallet

- Take a screenshot of your goals and make it your desktop background

- Make a pop-up action item on your phone with your goals daily, that you have to acknowledge before it will clear out

Kate also recommends keeping a personal journal and jotting down notes about your day. Not just your thoughts on your fitness/weight loss journey, but on how your entire day went. Were you emotional? Bored? Restless? Anxious? Did you do something fun and exciting? How did you feel about it? Did you really kick that day’s ass and everything went great? Write it down, and you will be able to start seeing patterns. Kate writes in her journal daily and has for years, and now she is able to look back and see patterns in her own behavior. It is also therapeutic to put your thoughts into words.

3. Tell someone

Tell a friend or family member your goal. You are more likely to stick with it if someone else knows. If you’ve made your goal many, many times and have had trouble sticking to it in the past, and your confidant knows this, ask them to lend you an ear when you’re thinking about giving up your goal. Ask them to be there for you.

4. Track your progress 

Kate has several recommendations for this, all of which she has used.

- Keep a chart or simple tracker in your journal to show what days you’ve stuck to your goal

- Keep an actual physical chart on a wall in your bedroom if you want it to be kept private, or your living room/kitchen if you want your goals to be public to your family/room mates

- Use an online tracker. There are so many different ways of doing this, including HabitRPG, Joe’s Goals, MyPlate, MyFitnessPal, or even making yourself a simple Word document to keep track.

5. Don’t plan to fail

This piece is what diverges from most advice on how to keep a New Year’s Goal, but Kate is the only person I’ve ever seen achieve her New Year’s goals without fail each year, so here goes:

Do not start your year off with a back-up plan. For example, don’t start your year off telling yourself, “I will be on plan every single day. But if I’m not, I will only cheat on holidays and also only when I really really feel like it.”

She goes all-in and tells herself that if she doesn’t make her goal as she has outlined it, then she has failed. And she will have to accept that failure and move on from it. And Kate doesn’t want to fail, so she does a few things to set herself up for success:

- She thinks very hard about what her goal will be. Is it reasonable for the entire year? You can make your goal anything you want, so think hard about how it’s worded. 

- She thinks about what the pitfalls are going to be, and when times are going to be toughest. Kate has recognized in the past that she has trouble sticking to her way of eating when her boyfriend stays with us for an entire weekend, so she plans ahead on what she’ll be eating to ensure that she is not caught off guard. What are your pitfalls? Holidays? Parties? Happy hour? Emotionally bad days?

- She sets a start date for her goal, usually January 1st, and she pumps herself up mentally. 

Now, Kate hasn’t failed a goal in several years. However, if you do happen to not stick to your goal for the year, pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and move on! So you didn’t make your New Year’s goal because you slipped one day? Get right back on the next day! It’s so much more satisfying to say, “I kept my promise to myself 364 days this year. That’s amazing!” than to say that you were really really good on your goal until March, but then you just threw the whole plan out the window. 

Now go forth, kick ass, and tell 2018 that IT better be ready for YOU!

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[raisemysonbootlicker]

This is the money Patrick. Reblog so money will come your way

[gvldenhour]

“I’m getting back in line.”

[sniggadoodles]

OKAY but i just reblogged this last night and guess what i got today from my workplace’s self-audit!

THANK YOU PATRICK FOR FREE MONEY

[musinvenusian]

BLESS ME PATRICK

[lily-d247]

PATRICK I HAVE NEVER STRAYED YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU

[ghara2]

@billshitposts

[billshitposts-deactivated201608]

*rolls sleeves* aight dude lets get me some money

[merakid-0]

Can i just *Gets in line*…there

[dickzoned-deactivated20200818]

Y'all I reblogged this and got $240 in tips in one day at work so 🤔🤔🤔

[anapsychotic]

💛Reasons not to binge💛

🌻 you WILL regret it

🌻 Whats the point of eating something that will be forgotten in 2 days

🌻do you want your already fat thighs to grow

🌻It will pause your progress

🌻Are you really going to throw all your progress away for something that tastes good for 5mins

🌻Maybe youlle be a cm closer to fitting into those shorts

[draeneii]

Websites for when you want to:

un-disgruntle yourself

comfort someone

be comforted

go to a quiet place

press a magic button and fix everything

get a hug

see something cute

hear rain noises

play cute games 

cut something/someone (blood)

break something

open a window

have a guided relaxation

listen to nature sounds (or here)

do nothing for 2 minutes

play the piano

make cute ecards

make cool music 

get an idea for what to do

avoid boredom

watch a dream

have a stickman adventure

play a fun and philosophical game

talk to someone

make sand designs

listen to ambient coffee shop noise

turn off addicting sites so you can study (mac only)

make cool symmetrical designs

get your thoughts out of your head

play a cool game

be calm

sort through something that’s been troubling you

look at the galaxy

[dont-eat-emmeline]

Stop shaming people with EDs for sometimes not being able to stick to a tiny calorie limit.

Many us are young and living with our parents and can’t exactly get away with skipping every meal or eating a suspiciously small amount for days in a row. Many of us have parents who cook food for us and we can’t deny it. Many of us have to eat at restaurants and can’t just not order anything. Many of us have big family gatherings where we have to sit down for a meal. Many of us rarely have the chance to fast all day. Many of us are in situations where we can’t always control what we eat and you know, that’s already painful enough for us without other people shaming us for it, okay?

[butchscientist]

here’s a cool thing you can do that costs $0

it’s called “not pushing diet culture onto children” and it’s 100% for free. it’s a cute idea that costs literally nothing

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[ink-on-my-skin-and-music-within]

[janess-top-blog]

[dreamlightasafeather]

IF YOU NEED TO CALL 911 BUT ARE SCARED TO BECAUSE OF SOMEONE IN THE ROOM, dial and ask for a pepperoni pizza. They will ask if you know you’re calling 911. Say yes, and continue pretending you’re making an order. They’ll ask if there’s someone in the room.

You can ask how long it will take for the pizza to get to you, and they will tell you how far away a dispatcher is.

Here is an example video

[t-pose-to-assert-gayness]

Reblog to literally save a life

[anotherdayforchaosfay]

I’ve done this.  I’m alive because of this. 

My flat-mate’s date for the night was almost as drunk as her.  She had passed out in her room and locked the door.  He refused to leave because he wanted to have sex.  He also demanded food because he was dealing with “whiskey dick”.  He didn’t like the lack of food in the fridge.  I called 911, did the stuff stated above, and he was getting PISSED about how long the “order” was taking.  He took my phone, demanded they “hurry the fuck up”.  Police arrived two minutes later, arrested him, and helped me file a police report.  Pressing charges wasn’t necessary because he had warrants on him from THREE different states for the very thing he planned to do to me.  Several months after this happened one of the officers informed me he was charged with two felonies because he crossed stay lines, and will be serving no less than 35 years in prison.  The officer ripped into my flat-mate about her bringing home complete strangers, while drunk, knowing full well this shit could happen. 

This was 14 years ago.  

Do the pizza order, do it as calmly as you can.  The dispatcher I spoke to said things like this:

“If he’s drunk say you want mushrooms.”  I said I want extra mushrooms.

“If he’s threatening you with sexual assault say you want onions.”  I said I want onions.

She went like this with different toppings and sauces for a description of him, like pineapple if he’s blonde, black olives if he’s tall, extra large if he’s tall, etc.

They’ve heard this sort of coded call before.  They’re trained for it.  They will understand what you’re saying.  Order the pizza.

[torios]

Really though. I’m in training for dispatch and this was one of the first things they taught us. Pretend you’re talking to a friend or relative, pretend you’re ordering pizza, we’ll figure it out. We’ll word questions so you can answer in an easy, casual way. Please, just make the call and we will do everything we can to help you.

[skelatal-remains-deactivated201]

Reblog to save a life

[mouse-named-minerva]

Why the fuck is this not more widely known?

[toofxt-deactivated20180627]

raise your hand if you messed up this month but you are DETERMINED to come back stronger next month!!

🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼🙋🏼

WHO CAN DO THIS?? WE CAN DO THIS!! YES WE CAN!! WHO’S GONNA MEET THEIR UGWS?? WE ARE!!!

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Reblog if it’s ok for people to give you $599.99

[tire-d-girl]

personal ana masterpost

♡♡♡I DO NOT SUPPORT ANOREXIA OR BULIMIA IN ANY FASHION. THESE TIPS ARE PURELY TO HELP PREVENT FURTHER DAMAGE IF YOU SO CHOOSE NOT TO RECOVER. THANK YOU AND ENJOY. CREDIT TO EVERYONE WHO POSTED THESE TIPS. IF I CAN FIND CREDIT I WILL POST IT. NOT ALL ARE MINE!!!♡♡♡ i see so many scattered masterposts and wanted to create my own. these are purely from my own experience and i do not recommend anyone try these. please remember you can always recover.

♡fasting♡ • do not break a fast with a binge. it will shock your system, eat 150 cals at most then work your way up. • do not exercise while fasting. you’ll have no energy to complete your exercise.  • fasting longer than 48 hours is really not recommended, please be careful fasting longer than this. • drink more water while you are fasting, trust me it makes it easier. • if you start to faint, EAT SOMETHING PLEASE!!! • do not be too strict with yourself while fasting. 10 cals will not break a fast despite what most people will tell you.  • if you are going to fast, sleep. you will hurt less. • for anyone like me who uses drugs, do not pop pills on an empty stomach. norco is literally the worst thing i’ve ever taken while fasting. pot helps me forget that i am having hunger pains but it also makes me binge eat like a motherfucker. i tend to get headaches worse when i smoke pot too, i really just suggest not using while fasting.

♡hiding habits♡

i am only putting this here because i am terrified of going to a mental health facility even if i desperately need it. i would get ten times worse if i were sent to highland, and i am sure some people agree. 

• i personally have a big bag that i carry everywhere with me. i keep granola bars in it (or small snacks) so people will assume that i eat them. • grab a handful of cereal and half a cup of milk. pour the milk in a bowl and throw the cereal in, swish it around the bowl then put it in the sink. now it looks like you ate. • ask for plastic silverware that you can throw away. eat a small spoonful of peanut butter (or something similar that will leave a stain) and leave it out for people to see. • the more you talk about food and losing weight in front of people they will start to think you’re obsessed. don’t. • if you’re confronted about having an ed, don’t get angry. tell a small truth such as: yeah i have cut down my intake a bit. people will believe a small truth more than they will a big lie. • whenever you eat, try and eat in front of people if possible.

♡purging♡

• ABSOLUTELY DO NOT BRUSH YOUR TEETH AFTER PURGING!! YOU ARE RUBBING THE ACID IN. WAIT ONE HOUR AT LEAST. • take a swig of milk before and after you purge, it helps soothe your throat. • chew a tums (or antacid) after you purge. it helps neutralize the stomach acid, so does baking soda. • use enamel protecting/strengthening mouthwash after you purge. • purging one hour after you eat is useless. • you can only purge up to 80% of what you consume. • drink ‘smart water’ or gatorade after purging. it replenishes your electrolytes. • if you can avoid purging please do, once you start it becomes addictive. • floss before you brush your teeth, i know it seems obvious but a lot of people don’t.

♡vitamins♡ • take a chewie once daily vitamin with your first meal or when you wake up. • IRON TABLETS!!! ask your dr first, but you do lose a bit of iron with anamia • b6 & b12 help boost your metabolism. • biotin helps with hair growth. girls, if you have pcos beware. i have heard horror stories of body hair getting worse with biotin and not going away after you stop use. if you are on spironolactone please ask your dr before you try biotin. • fish oil never hurts. • if you can stomach them, include high protein boost/generic shakes into your diet. they are anywhere from 80-190 cals a piece, so use them wisely. you need all the protein you can get when losing weight.

♡low cal food and drinks♡       • apple/honey water: 1tbsp apple cider vinegar (pref) or honey 2 cups water (.5l) ½ tsp cinnamon sugar/sweetener to taste milk/creamer to taste if you’re splurging but i never do this microwave on high for 2 minutes. pour in sugar/milk and drink. it helps boost metabolism and curb appetite.     • flavored yogurt plain nonfat yogurt 2tsp cocoa powder 1tbsp honey mix and eat!     • 19 cal hot cocoa     • 20 cal per pint ice cream     • 26 cal per cup soup     • foods under 50cal     • 35 cal miso soup packets (fav) *note, grocery stores should sell them just using amazon for ref ♡measurement converter♡ 1 liter = 4 cups (946ml) 1 cup = 8oz (236ml) 200lbs = 90kg 190lbs = 86kg 180lbs = 81kg 170lbs = 77kg 160lbs = 72kg 150lbs = 68kg 140lbs = 63kg 130lbs = 58kg 120lbs = 54kg 110lbs = 49kg 100lbs = 45kg 5′0″ = 152cm 5′1″ = 154cm 5′2″ = 157cm 5′3″ = 160cm 5′4″ = 162cm 5′5″ = 165cm 5′6″ = 167cm 5′7″ = 170cm 5′8″ = 172cm 5′9″ = 179cm

[macilentness]

Me at age 10: *stomach grumbles* omg I’m so hungry I’m gonna die

Me now: *stomach grumbles* yaaasss queen that’s what I’m talking about

[shrinking-darling]

Me: Everyone’s ED is valid and real, no matter what they’re weight, size or how much they eat

Me: *eats a piece of toast* I’m such a fraud. My ED is fake.

[hcalih]

🎄☃️

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