Victim Of My Own Mind

I have been abandoned so many times and now I'm left wandering tha streets looking for a place to stay but nobody wants to fix a shattered soul.

[dreamingdeamons]

Losing the one person you could always trust, talk to and rely on is hard.

Some people don‘t understand what I‘m talking about and some do. Some people want me to get better and push me to do so and some people understand me.

There is no getting better. Losing your mother, sister, brother, uncle, grandfather, aunt, best friend, fiancé, ... is and will always be hard. The one person that always made you smile. That one person who never left your side. There is no getting over it... but there‘s getting along with it.

Accepting fate and accepting the situation. Accepting the pain and accepting the sadness.

[dreamingdeamons]

Overthinking is ne of the few things I’m really good at. My mind constantly finds something to break into million of thoughts. I hate it. I hate that I can’t simply shut of my damn head and my damn mind and jst be free for maybe a minte or two if it has to be. I hate the constant battle with myself. I hate that I can’t enjoy one simple moment without having doubts, pain flashing through my heart or tears at the verge of spilling. I hate that i cry so easily but none really knows it because i keep my tough girl facade on the outside. I hate that i simply can’t express mx feelings other than in words and in texts. I hate that i’m hiding my tears, my pain, my dissapointment. I hate what i’ve turned into.

[dreamingdeamons]

I sometimes really wonder if there’s anyone out there that would accept me just the wa I am. With all my imperfections, flaws, quirks... just everything... me.

Getting your heart broken kinda changesyou. I think a lot actually. It scars and wounds you deeply and no matter what you try and no matter what you do... the scars and the pain never eases. They never fade and they never leave. Bound to change you.

[dreamingdeamons]

You know it‘s kinda hard to live with a mind that overthinks everything. There‘s not a single thing I‘m not thinking about 500 Hours. Not a single thing. And i kinda question myself how the heck people can be ignorant and don‘t have a real opinion. Do they think sbout stuff like world wars? Racism? Lgbt rights? Probably not....

[dreamingdeamons]

Nightmare

Person: Close your eyes and enjoy your dreams

Me: I don't have any nice dreams. There are only dark and scary nightmares when I close my eyes

Person: You can also dream with your eyes opened.

Me: Even worse than the nightmares I have when I sleep.

[bri3395]

calumhood:‪ Met this gorgeous thing yesterday.

[dreamingdeamons]

what are you willing to give up to become who you really need to be

Elizabeth Gilbert

[dreamingdeamons]

I don’t knoe why but I’m obsessed with so many series. Gossip Girl, Shadowhunters, Empire, Game Of Thrones, Prison Break, IZombie, American Horror Story, ..... Like dafück??????

[dreamingdeamons]

I just can’t stand eople who talk shit about me behind my back and lie in my god damn face like??? Who the hack ar eyou trying to fuck???

[dreamingdeamons]

Ready, let's roll onto something new Taking its toll, and I'm leaving without you Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this I said heaven ain't close in a place like this

The Killers, Somebody Told Me

[d-y-s-t-i-c]

[michaelshairypubes]

In the fire light.

[dreamingdeamons]

They say

“Follow your heart”

but if your heart is in a million pieces

which one do you follow?

[dreamingdeamons]

I hope you have a great day. Even if I don’t know who’ll read this. Even tho you’re life may or may not be totally shitty right now..... I really hope your day was just nice and not stressfull.

[dreamingdeamons]

Get up, come on get down with the sickness Open up your hate, and let it flow into me Get up, come on get down with the sickness You mother get up come on get down with the sickness You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness Madness is the gift, that has been given to me I can see inside you, the sickness is rising Don't try to deny what you feel

Disturbed, Down With The Sickness

[dreamingdeamons]

“Ok”

I wasn’t ok. I’ll never be.

[dreamingdeamons]

You may say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one

John Lennon