Amber's Musings On Dreamless Nights

This is my side-blog where I will post poetry and drabbles. Let me know what you think. :)

[dreamlessprosefulnights]

My apartment is flooding and four of my double booked bookshelves are ruined with the books. 💔💔💔

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I’m so tired and depressed and I just want to go home and go to sleep.

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I’m just so tired of being sad.

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you have always been a writer,

you just wrote in different forms

you have always been a poet,

you just took a few breaks

- - reminders to myself (and others who need it)

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Did I have a premonition when I wrote that poem years ago?

When I was lonely and wanting to hear a single word from you

Did I always know how this thing would end between us?

When I was scared that you would leave me and you did

Did I inadvertently turn the universe against us

When I only wanted for it to move the stars and bring us closer

-- nine years later

4/29/23 at 8:22am

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The most amazing thing about words

is that it doesn't matter how many you have lost,

there can and will always be more, if you let them

- crack a window

[promptscafe]

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@abstractcommunity

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@definegodliness

@poetselixir

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@newagedespairnetwork

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[UPDATED AT 15/11/2018]

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I always had a bad memory except when it came to you -it always came back to you

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I could have filled books With the chaos inside That house of cards

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How many nights did I lay awake Waiting, wondering, watching, To see if this would be the night I needed to slip on shoes and run To the only solace I could find In the form of a neighbor’s door

-dysfunctional 

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you said pretty words in between long absences thinking they might cover the wounds that you always left while you were gone

-you were always wrong (12/29/17)

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Write something, Even the smallest phrase, Even only a single word, Write and write and write Because someday, You will write more And you will have A treasure trove of ideas To still write from When the words don't come

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I always thought it was okay to make mistakes,

Desirable even,

Because in the end, you learned something,

Right?

That was the goal:

To  grow as much as you could

While living on this planet

But what happens when you don't learn

When you keep making mistakes over

And over and over again?

When no matter what you do,

You slip back into the old habits

An ever occurring self-fulfilled prophecy

-I never learn (8:37on, 11/12/17)

[dreamlessprosefulnights]

A friend once said,

“You have a certain

freedom,

you can move,

freely, on your own

without the considerations

of children or a spouse

and for a couple hours,

I reveled in that thought

just the thought of moving,

getting a fresh start,

I could go anywhere,

just like she said,

I had nothing to hold

me back

. . .

Then reality hit

much more than

a ton of bricks

ever could

because I was trapped

by finances

and debt

and family

and my own

mental health

would be the

literal death of me

. . .

Still,

it was a nice thought

believing that I

could be so independent

- - forever bound by invisible strings (8/15/17)

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I'll never know what hurts me most, thinking we were never really right for eachother or realizing we were, but we met at the wrong time

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i have a habit of speaking up

When I would be better to shush

And stay quiet when talking

Would be preferred