Because I can and I’m feeling very blue, I’m going to be discussing some headcanons about Kaidan. I conjured these from my ME 1 playthrough and my current ME 2 one. Some will be emotional.
⚠️ ME 1 and ME 2 spoilers ⚠️
(Pls keep in mind on some I’ll be projecting I’m also a Kaidan kinnie, but if I’m out of character ((Nah I’m not…)) just scroll on, thank you for understanding.)
• He had a hard time blaming himself for what happened not just on Gagarian station/BaAT but also with Horizion. He had to process alot of survivors guilt. He’s still not over Shepard, he’s actually currently in the first stage of grief after Horizon which is denial.
• Shepard was the first “true” love that he has ever felt. He would get crushes then and again but he never opened up completely with someone like he did with Shepard. It just clicked for him to be himself.
• He has a decent relationship with his father but only on surface level. His dad doesn’t exactly know what happened at BAaT, just the basic stuff.
Pretty much surface level knowledge. Shepard is the one who really knows what he went through to the best of their ability.
• Kaidan has trouble sleeping and he relives the events not just on Horizion but also in the Battle of the Citidel with Shepard. He takes sleeping medication to help quiet out the noise. If he misses a dose, he’ll never be able to sleep.
• When he’s upset he’ll isolate himself for a while due to the already overbearing symptoms he gets with his L2s. Stress causes him to get intense migraine flare ups if left uncontrolled.
• He has battled heavily with internalized and external ableism from himself and others when he was young. Now he advocates strongly for his needs. He knows it’s important to not shrink himself for others and put his needs first. This however took awhile.
• He believes in true love/love at first sight/soul mates etc. he’s a huge ball of cheese.
• He’ll practice some flirts in the mirror when he gets a chance since he doesn’t want to mess up. Sometimes it just comes out so natural and after the delivery he’ll BLUSH so hard.
• His demeanor changed when he lost Shepard after the events in ME 1. He hid it well though, a little too well. Behind closed doors he would voice his emotions in journal logs that eventually ended in tears.
• He’ll always find a way to get a gift for anyone he cares about. Whether it be on an errand run on shore leave, he’ll be bringing back something.
• Poetry is his second love language. He dabbles in it from time to time but when he started to crush on Shepard it was RAMPANT in his personal logs.
• He’ll never forgive Cerberus obviously for the horrendous atrocities they have done, but for also costing him his peace.
I definitely want to do more when I can. If you read thank you! I appreciate it. ♡
