aphelion

furthest point of orbit

[dreamvelleity]

i slacked on my workout today thats why my mental is ass

[dreamvelleity]

like actually stop yearning for friendship so bad tf

[dreamvelleity]

cringed myself out so hard in my desperation for platonic friendship that i’m actually just gonna call it quits on that group and start anew elsewhere bcz my god

[passionpeachy]

kissies for us meeses

[dreamvelleity]

people got lives honey mb you should just accept that

[dreamvelleity]

idgaf anymore and i’m finally free.

slammed out a resume and cover letter today, didn’t doublecheck shit, submitted it and went on my merry fuckin way bcz as long as I submit something i get some fuckin credit and i simply cannot care anymore

[loontattoo]

being vulnerable and admitting I don't understand a reference

[cottoncandylesbo]

i like it when people compliment me. i like it... when people like me. (looks around to make sure nobody is about to shoot me)

[dreamvelleity]

pause for a second bcz i think it might be friendship?? is this having a friend/friend group???

they reached out to me spontaneously, that means something right? when it’s guys, cuz they don’t do social maintenance the same way women do? like that was them deciding they valued my presence enough for an invite ?? mutual interest in shared hobby, didn’t drag me into drama, sends invite to hang out, that IS friendship, right?

[xtroor]

[dreamvelleity]

ohhhhhh it’s the auuuuuutism

[dreamvelleity]

or not ig

[dreamvelleity]

have patience dumbass, and maybe you could have fun too

[dreamvelleity]

or not ig

[rubysapphrald]

i feel so defensive and protective of people with ARFID like if i had a disorder that made my brain register 90% of food as poison for no reason and i had a bazillion people on the internet constantly calling me a manchild who needs to just grow up and stop being a picky eater i would start killing people

[rubysapphrald]

people with ARFID and people with very few autism safe foods and people with contamination OCD and people in ED recovery and everyone else with a complicated relationship with food that no one takes seriously GET BEHIND ME!!!!!!!

[dreamvelleity]

did the pvp night, had fun, got my ass handed to me.

i can now skip socializing for at least a week 👹

[dreamvelleity]

someone who doesnt want to drag you into drama wouldnt message you about it right like

[tomhoppusdelonge]

sorry for the mixed signals I don’t know what I want or what I’m doing mostly