Why I've been quiet on Tumblr and Discord
Hello guys, I feel like I owe an explanation on me being MIA for a while. It's a few things.
My mental health, which hasn't been the greatest this year if I'm being honest. It ultimately affected my productivity to work on things as well as my interests in certain things. I've had my ups, but I've had a lot of downs. I'll be okay though, I'm getting reevaluated in February.
In relation to my mental health, I stepped away from fandom spaces due to the increase in toxicity. I'm not talking about just the NiGHTS fandom, it's a lot of fandoms of things I like. I just want to make it clear that I've long gone past caring about shipping unless it's with my own characters, and I don't want to be labled within what I like within a certain fandom. No, I'm not a "proshipper" or an "anti-proshipper." Please don't call me those things.
I've also been quiet in the NiGHTS fandom because, if I'm being honest, it has been kind of ruined for me and my friends. I'm not naming anyone and no, it's not anyone who is well known or popular in the fandom. Please don't go after anyone. Basically, I made my NiGHTS discord as a smaller alternative for my friend who gets overwhelmed in big servers and help them meet other fans much easier. It's also just exciting to create a server for people to find and join (though we did find some creeps there but they've either left or been yeeted.) However, we had some trouble with a member who has made us, and other members, personally uncomfortable. From their disturbing headcanons and lusting over other's sonas to their inability to control their mental health (for lack of a more polite term), they've essentially made our server a less fun and enjoyable place to be and it actually made one of our mods leave. This left a bad taste in our mouths and while I do think about deleting the server, I've been told there's still some activity in there and I don't want to cut anyone off from each other. But It still makes me afraid to be in my own server and be in the fandom.
In much lighter events, I've also been focusing away from fandom because I want to work on my original projects and friends' projects, especially since I'm thinking about going back to school and see if I can get into the School of Visual Arts in New York City. Fanart can be fun, but I also want to go forward with my art and take it to another level.
I think that's about it. I still like NiGHTS and I owe the fandom a lot, but with the things listed above, I may not be as active as I'd like to be. I'm not dead, just going to be focusing on other things. If you want to see more of my art, my main Tumblr is where I occasionally post art @madiness-art. My discord is also Pomme Dork#8911 if you ever want to contact me there.
Maybe I'll revive myself, but in the meantime, take care everyone.