an independent and private roleplay blog for martha jones of doctor who , focused on exploring her life post season 3 . this blog is almost entirely headcanon based and does not adhere to canon whatsoever . loved and protected by robin ( they / them , 25+ , gmt )
basic rules apply ; don't be a dick , keep ya messy business off the dash , remember it's a hobby and i'm here for redemption for my girl fun .
i am mutuals only , but i'm riddled with anxiety so following first is unlikely . however , if i do follow you it's because i actively want to rp with you .
i am slow . life is hard and busy . but i love you all and the little worlds we create , just please give me some grace if i'm slow .
psd is from pinkinnards ( called mad thunder ) but everything else here is made by me . hands off ya punk .
bio split into verses : the story of martha jones .
` ★˙˚⋆ ║ ▌︔ ᵛ ᵉ ʳ ˢ ᵉ ﹚ ⁀➷ 「 ii. before smith 」
martha before she meets the doctor ,
studying to become a doctor ,
surrounded by family drama , hating being forced to be the 'show' at family events due to her intellect and career ,
closer with her sister now more than ever .
` ★˙˚⋆ ║ ▌︔ ᵛ ᵉ ʳ ˢ ᵉ ﹚ ⁀➷ 「 iii. the hapless companion 」
travelling with the tenth doctor ,
madly and hopelessly in love with him , desperate for him to see her with any sort of kindness ,
clearly willing to do anything he asked ,
excited about the world and beyond ,
` ★˙˚⋆ ║ ▌︔ ᵛ ᵉ ʳ ˢ ᵉ ﹚ ⁀➷ 「 iv. the year that never was 」
traversing the earth to spread the doctor's name and purpose ,
hardening every day , disillusioned by not only the doctor but the magic of the hidden world ,
brash and unforgiving , but fighting valiantly not to lose the hope that gives her that spark she's known for ,
` ★˙˚⋆ ║ ▌︔ ᵛ ᵉ ʳ ˢ ᵉ ﹚ ⁀➷ 「 v. days with u.n.i.t 」
trying to use her newfound knowledge for good , taking down injustice from the inside ,
far too good of a soldier , far too good at barking orders at others and ignoring those given to her ,
a desensitized leader , sneaking of to torchwood when she can , trying to keep in contact with other's the doctor no longer had a use for ,
` ★˙˚⋆ ║ ▌︔ ᵛ ᵉ ʳ ˢ ᵉ ﹚ ⁀➷ 「 vi. dead girl walking 」
fakes her own death to go freelance ,
it's not a big secret , she stays in contact with those in the know , but does this to keep her family safe ,
she shows more compassion than in her unit days , but grows wilder and wilder by the day ,
` ★˙˚⋆ ║ ▌︔ ᵛ ᵉ ʳ ˢ ᵉ ﹚ ⁀➷ 「 v. doctor jones 」
gives it all in to go back to her roots , hanging up her army boots in exchange for a white coat and stethoscope ,
trying to leave anything non - mundane behind , but often failing miserably .
" i don't know , i just . . . always had this drive to help people , i guess ? and being able to flash my degree in my brother's face was a lovely incentive . " but it's said with a laugh , her sibling rivalry always present but almost always done through love .
it is 5:40 a.m. , i am desperately trying to make graphics for the new blog bc i cannot sleep . and yet , i simply cannot produce a single thing of worth
by madeline miller. i altered some quotes so they fit better ♡
❝ i saw then how i had changed. ❞
❝ name one hero who was happy — you can’t. ❞
❝ i feel like i could eat the world raw. ❞
❝ you are half my soul, as the poets say. ❞
❝ i have no need to forgive you. you cannot offend me. ❞
❝ i do not fear ridicule. i never have. ❞
❝ you have always trusted so easily; you have had so little in your life to fear or suspect. ❞
❝ do you hear me? please, say something. ❞
❝ your face is like quicksilver, always racing to something new. you unsettle me. ❞
❝ you do not give things up so easily now as you once did. ❞
❝ now i know how to make you follow me everywhere. ❞
❝ i would know your face in dark or disguise. i would know it even in madness. ❞
❝ there is no law that gods must be fair. ❞
❝ i have never seen anyone fight the way you do. ❞
❝ our dead come for their vengeance regardless of witnesses. ❞
❝ the sorrow was so large it threatened to tear through my skin. ❞
❝ when you die, all things soft and beautiful and bright would be buried with you. ❞
❝ you were always better with words than i. ❞
❝ i will never leave you. it will be this, always, for as long as you will let me. ❞
❝ you smile, and your face is like the sun. ❞
❝ i thought you were — something. you do not — you do not move like a human. ❞
❝ do you want to walk up to the woods? ❞
❝ you can’t be very wounded if you can stand for so long. ❞
❝ there are no bargains between lion and men. i will kill you and eat you raw. ❞
❝ we are like gods at the dawning of the world. ❞
❝ nothing could eclipse the stain of this dirty, mortal mediocrity. ❞
❝ i yearn for the darkness and silence of the underworld, where i can rest. ❞
❝ those seconds, half seconds, that the line of our gaze connected, were the only moment in my day that i felt anything at all. ❞
❝ you seem utterly unaware of your effect on the people around you. ❞
❝ it was almost like fear, in the way it filled me, rising in my chest. it was almost like tears, in how swiftly it came. ❞
❝ you are a weapon, a killer. do not forget it. ❞
❝ i have heard that men who live by a waterfall cease to hear it — in such a way did i learn to live beside the rushing torrent of my doom. ❞
❝ if you have to go, you know i will go with you. ❞
❝ there is no one like you. ❞
❝ we have given each other wounds, but they are not mortal. ❞
❝ and perhaps it is the greater grief, after all, to be left on earth when another is gone. ❞
❝ who can be ashamed to lose to such beauty? it is enough to watch you win. ❞
❝ do not let what you have gained this day be so easily lost. ❞
❝ you have killed them and taken your vengeance. it is enough. ❞
❝ no man is worth more than another, wherever he is from. ❞
❝ strange that such a small kindness feels like grace. ❞
❝ you can use a spear as a walking stick, but that will not change its nature. ❞
❝ i cannot bear to see you grieving. ❞
❝ i remember little more than scattered images from my life then. ❞
❝ i would recognize you by touch alone, by smell; i would know you blind, by the way your breaths came and your feet struck the earth. i would know you in death, at the end of the world. ❞
❝ i see a dozen men here ready to leap on each other’s throats. ❞
❝ in my land a bow is marked as the weapon of cowards. ❞
❝ you may still make a good person. ❞
❝ you don’t bother to threaten me, yet. i should be worth threatening. ❞
❝ the memories well up like springwater, faster than i can hold them back. ❞
❝ i hoped that you would come. ❞
❝ the voices of the dead were said to have the power to make the living mad. ❞
❝ i have weathered the anger of gods before. ❞
❝ i thought of how many nights i had lain awake in this room, loving you in silence. ❞
❝ there is nothing in the world i want more than to know what you had not said. ❞
❝ you will never gain fame from your fighting. does this surprise you? ❞
❝ my mind is filled with cataclysm and apocalypse: i wish for earthquakes, eruptions, flood. only that seems large enough to hold all of my rage and grief. ❞
❝ i will not cry in front of you. ❞
❝ listen to me. you go too far in this. i will not be able to protect you. ❞
❝ there is no honor in betraying your friends. ❞
❝ i’m afraid I have been prompted by a rare stirring of guilt. ❞
❝ i promised myself that if i ever saw you again, i would keep my thoughts behind my eyes. ❞
❝ i did not want you to see my fear, though normally we kept nothing from each other. ❞
❝ gods and mortals never mix happily in our stories. ❞
❝ you will be dead soon enough. ❞
❝ you are destroying yourself. you will not be loved for this, you will be hated, and cursed. ❞
❝ you left yourself today. and now you are returned. ❞
❝ you are a better person than i. ❞
❝ whatever you do, i shall stand with you, as i always have. ❞
❝ you have looked at me a thousand thousand times, but there is something different in this gaze, an intensity i do not know. ❞
❝ my life is my reputation. it is all i have. ❞
❝ may i give you some advice? if you are truly his friend, you will help him leave this soft heart behind. ❞
❝ what are you thinking about? ❞
❝ even the boldest of people would whisper a prayer if they brushed against me. ❞
❝ the keen edge of my envy was like flint, a spark away from fire. ❞
❝ do you think we fight hopeless wars? ❞
❝ it is strange, that you would speak against betrayal. ❞
❝ if every soldier killed only those who’d personally offended him, we’d have no wars at all. ❞
❝ no one has ever tried to take something from me. ❞
❝ stay behind me. ❞
❝ will you help me put the rest of my armor on? ❞
❝ your face is blank and barren, like another language, impenetrable. ❞
❝ i am here because i believe that we will win. i am staying until the end. ❞
❝ your presence is like a stone in my shoe, impossible to ignore. ❞
❝ he is not worthy of you. he never has been. ❞
❝ will you tell me who hurt you? ❞
❝ it is like a nightmare; i expect, each moment, to wake to relief. but there is no waking. ❞
❝ i do not need to prove myself to you. to any of you. ❞
❝ you have always thought too much of yourself. ❞
❝ some men gain glory after they die, while others fade. ❞
❝ even here, behind the darkness of my eyelids, i cannot name the thing i hope for. ❞
❝ our joy is so bright we can see nothing else but the other. ❞
❝ you have a tender heart. an admirable quality, surely. ❞
❝ you are spring, golden and bright. envious death would drink your blood, and grow young again. ❞
❝ i will not be the raven on your shoulder all the time, predicting gloom. ❞
❝ you look different in sleep, beautiful but cold as moonlight. ❞
❝ when there is greed, there is hope. ❞
❝ i could have told you more, of the dreams that leave me bleary and bloodshot, the almost-screams that scrape my throat as i swallow them down. ❞
❝ you are angry, and not without reason. ❞
❝ you feel mislead; you were promised victory. ❞
❝ you know, it’s funny; i keep thinking i’ve seen you before. ❞
“ IT CERTAINLY SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE SAYING IT'S A BAD PLAN. it's okay, you can be honest. ” a frown forms across her features as she tilts her head sideways. “ okay, you might HAVE A POINT. i think we need to work on an exit strategy, first and foremost. everything else must come second. ”
" exit strategies are always a good idea . " agreed with a nod of her head , a learned understanding build from past experience . she's had years to learn these things ; it felt only fair to let other take the lead . " so, what's it going to be ? this exit strategy ? "
you are the old soul . you are a being full of quiet wisdom , but it did not come without earning it . experience has weathered you quickly , yet you remain strong through it all . you are a bastion to those who need the support of a calm and resolute mind . the histories of the world are etched beneath your thick skin , and you hold dearly to things that others would quickly forget . you collect things within your branches , you give home to those left without , and you bear the weight of it all . but through all you have been through , you have not yet learned how to let go . you refuse to relinquish what you cherish so dearly and weep for every precious thing that falls from your branches . you must be careful , or else the past you cling to might destroy a brighter future .
❝ just had a hunch. ❞ hands grip her own cup, allowing the warmth to ease aching palms. christ, talk about a busy day. ❝ i haven't sat down since breakfast. ❞ brow creases, a thought mulling in her mind, as she takes a sip of the brown liquid. it's awful. ❝ is it me or is there something . . off about today? i don't know, it just doesn't feel quite normal. ❞
she'd been trying not to think about it . but the day had been far from normal . she assumed everyone else would be non - the - wiser , the mundane going about in their ignorant bliss . but here was belinda , bright and sharp , proving her wrong . eyes look upon other with a newfound respect , and mind raced with questions . " yeah , it's been . . . weird , right ? can't quite put my finger on it . "
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