How that scene on the tower shouldāve went(summary cuz I cba rn to do allat)
Mike: what you said at the squawk was brave and amazing and took so much courage and I donāt know I guess I just feel like such an idiot
Will stares at Mike with a disbelief and confusion, what is Mike even saying? An idiot, itās not like will wanted him to know.
Will: an idiot, Mike youāre not an idiot why would you even think that?
Will tries to find eye contact with Mike but Mike is looking away his hands are nervously tapping and grasping the tower railing for atleast a minute.
Mike: itās justā¦ I guess I shouldāve noticed I let you deal with this all by yourself and I abandoned you when you needed me the most. Iām your bestfriend Iām meant to just know this and be able to fix it.
Mike finally meets wills eyes and they are little watery I mean itās the most emotion heās seen mike obtain all week but all thatās ringing is ābestfriendā even if Will tries to dumb down these intoxicating feelings they will bubble something he knows Mike could never understand.
Will: Mike i didnāt want you know or anyone actually I couldnāt even deal with it in my own head and Henry showed me something and I got all freaked out and scared and I just had to say something i probably wouldāve took it to grave to be honest
Now Will is shying away from Mike, oh for fuck sake why can he never control his emotions when needed. Will feels this sense of embrassment creep within even though he hasnāt said anything he hasnāt said before but Mike is itching closer to the truth.
Mike: is that why you lied about the painting?
Will eyes flash up over and wide Mike is dead serious. Oh fucking shit, shitballs what the fuck okay not what was meant to happen what the actually shit LIKE HUH. How does mine even know? Why is he still bringing that up it was last year? And just what? although as much as the truth seems the best right now for Mike and wills relationship Will has to be a good brother.
Will: what? Mike your crazy what even makes you think that
Will tries but his voice is abit high pitched as he rushes his sentence out, ugh why is it Mike will canāt lie to not fair.
Mike: el knows nothing about d&d, she doesnāt believe in my knowledge about it and how itās helped us in this stuiation, she told me in the letter you were making a painting for someone you liked and you like recycled the exact same wording from when we were in the van and-ā
Mike completely stops his sentence and turns away from will his palms clutching at his forehead Will wants to shy away in a little box right now or maybe even jump off this tower he canāt really tell if Mike annoyed about it,sad about it or happy about it.
Mike: and I donāt understand why you would make it some stupid lie when itās me itās only me, Mike. Were will and Mike okay itās always us two we never do shit like this but no you had use my relationship and my feelings and turn them into something they arenāt.
Mike kinda snaps at his last sentence leaving Will to jump backwards abit okay Mike is definitely mad oh no how is will going to fix this but also will canāt quite make out what Mike is trying to say and let on.
Mike: no no no no no stop it. Iām not finshed.
Will immediately shuts up walking a little back to the corner of the tower.
Mike: you said all these words that I thought came from el to give me faith and believe in something that just isnāt true she didnāt think that about me you did. So when I told her I loved her I didnāt because those werenāt her feelings that I loved and I just canāt wrap my head around it I justā¦ I ca-
Mike starts to breakdown Will watches as his long outstretched limbs just tumble to the floor, Will canāt make out what heās doing so he takes a few more steps closer to just be hit with sound of soft muffled sobs, mikes legs are tucked right to his chest as his face is buried in his knees.
Wil: oh mikeā¦ Iām sorry I just wanted to help it felt like I was going crazy back in Lenora without you and I couldnāt stand the idea of you being unhappy okay Iām so sorry
Will feels like dogshit I mean as you would in this moment but Mike doesnāt lash out like Will is expecting. Mike just slowly lifts his head up to face Will who is now crouched slightly downwards to form some sort of comfort.
Mike: why do I feel like this will?
Is all Mike can forge out of his sobbing state heās looking for will to all the answers but Will is just as confused. Will brings himself to be on his knees now directly facing Mike gently letting his hand rest over mikes shoulder.
Will: Mike I donāt understand feel like what?
Will just needs Mike to use his words as best as he can but Mike just stares to Will clearly struggling to say something.
Mike: I meanā¦ I guess okay well. I DONT KNOW! I donāt know what it is but it just festering inside me like something that makes me feel disgusting I guess thatās the word but Iām not mad you lied about it Iām just mad that I prefer that way.
Mike is avoiding eye contact hard and his hands are trialing up and down his thighs, why is Mike so nervous and why does will still feel stupid because what is Mike trying to say.
Will: mike I know this clearly is difficult for you but what is it are you mad that el doesnāt feel a certain way I donāt know wha you trying to say.
Mike slowly and carefully bring his gaze back towards Will, he isnāt crying anymore actually it looks like he hasnāt been crying at all
Mike: I donāt what I feel I just feel so much but nothing all at the same time itās like somethings wrong with me but i donāt what it is and it just hurts I hate it.
Okay will thinks he understands whatās going and itās crushing him but he has to be a bestfriend right now.
Will: Mike youāve been pushing down what you feel so much you donāt know how to handle it Iām presuming you and el have been arguing well sheās been telling me actually but anyways thereās nothing wrong with you I need you understand that. Mike you are the most caring people in the world and the way you treat your family your friends and el we all see it okay we all know the love you give to people. El understands this to okay Iām sure of it you guys will-
Mike: no will you arenāt getting it like at all.
Mike removes himself from wills touch and finally dusts himself from the ground.
Mike: me and el i donāt wanna fix it necause it canāt be fixed.
Mike paces down to the edge of the tower making sure his hand to clasp against it and avoiding any of the vines that surroun the railings.
Mike: when I figured out you lied I felt relieved? ā¦.God this is so stupid.
Okay why is will more confused now.
Will: Mike what you mean?
Will Mutters softly standing next to him as Mike looks down at the upside down will canāt really sense what Mike is trying to do it looks he is trying not to puke but also not cry why canāt Mike just tell him why is he being so cryptic. Will feels the warmness of mikes breath agasint his neck as Mike does a long sigh which to Will feels like Mike letting all of his thoughts go.
Mike: what im trying to say is that Iāve always only wanted the painting to come from you and just you no el bullshit because thatās whatās wrong with me I cant make myself love her i try and try and try and there just something icky inside me that wonāt let me.
It hits will like a fucking tidal wave. Oh my god, is Mike gay but he doesnāt know? Will is confused but like not at the same time but the way Mike is wording this makes will feel sick to his stomach Mike hates himself. Will canāt express into words the sorrow and empathy he feels right now so he acts through it. Will stretchās out his hand to grasp around mikes neck and rush him into his body in a hug Mike needs to know how loved he is, Will brushed his face into mikes shoulder holding onto him to what he thinks could be forever. Mike hesitates for a couple seconds but ultimately throws his arm to wills waist trying to push him closer to him, ther bodies are complete smashed up against eachother in the most intimate embrace both have them will ever experience, just pray the tower railing down at break right now. neither of them can pull apart for now itās just them two glued together will agasint the railing the will ultimately lead them both to their death and their friend and family waiting for them further up arenāt even a passing thought in this moment. Mike slowly pulls himself back the closeness is unbearable for will how mikes lips are slightly parted with little spore falling out after each deep breath he takes, the beanie slowly slipping off his head to reveal his moppy and messed up hair the way mikes eyes are darting between wills eyes and his lips as Mike sort of cages Will in his hand loosely captured onto the railing so itās just Mike towering over will. Will doesnāt even want to breath their bodies are touching their foreheads are latched together and their nervous heavy breathing seem to sync with eachother.
Will can barely breath out , what if mikes making a mistake what if will confused him with his own feelings what if mikes just experimenting? God will has all these doubts running through his mind he doesnāt even notice how Mike face starts to dip and lean in. Willl canāt believe this, mikes felt this way all along? Will doesnāt believe he canāt itās just not possible. Their lips brush agasint eachothers and Will can feel mikes tear drop land so delicately on his nose, Will canāt take it anymore he needs to know. He lays his hands on the side of mikes face and mitre harshly the intended smashes his lips on his. Itās years and year of build and repressed feelings all realising from both of the boys, Will goes to pull back the regret rising in him but Mike downs tallow him their lips are immediately back into eachother itās messy and needy Will doesnāt really know what to do he ties his hand and accidentally tugs on the mop of mikes hair however mike lets out a whine that will never whatās to forget and wnats to hear over and over again. Mike hands remove them self from the railed and find the self planted on wills waist holding Will so dear and close to him, Will slowly pulls back trying to contain the grin that is fording itself to his face will face is completely red but thank god for the darkness of the upside down shelters that(thank god).
Mike: thatās what I was trying to say
Will canāt help himself but laugh god Mike is just really a big loser nerd.
Will giggle as his hand still rest along Mike cheeks and Mike still holding him by the waist, the other can carry on without them right now.
(Sorry this was super rushed and bad but like yea kinda if an idea of how I wouldāve written it )
