dwight • writes

abigail • est • 28

[company]

im so tired of always being right and having the best opinions

[jemineye]

i cant stress this enough, disabled people know their own limits. i fucking promise you. we are not being lazy or jerks because we won't do something YOU want us to do or something YOU THINK will make us feel better. it wont. stop.

[transfaguette]

"Fakers" aren't the reason resources are so hard to access btw it's because the people in charge don't want them to be accessed in the first place

[geryone]

Holy Wild, Gwen Benaway

[geryone]

The Sorrow Festival, Erin Slaughter

[prescription-cactus]

what is your eye color. what is your favorite color. what is the color that appears most frequently in your wardrobe. what color is your favorite blanket. what color is your water bottle.

[metamorphesque]

— Heaven, Mieko Kawakami

[text ID: I knew that it was cruel to be so optimistic, but, in my solitude, I couldn't resist the urge and spent entire days basking in idiotic fantasies, sometimes verging on prayer.]

[stars-bean]

Heathers (1989) dir. Michael Lehmann

[fotogrimsi-deactivated20230306]

[passionpeachy-deactivated202312]

If I was a ghost and someone put a line of salt on their doorway to repel me I would simply not only go over it with ease but lick it up as well

[oneinchbarrier]

Food.

[duckdotcom]

compels you to experience emotions which you lack the vocabulary to describe

[charlottan]

ooh god this is so. well i cant say

[whatshouldwecallchronicillness]

My illness when I try to make plans...

[dwightwrites]

i'm honestly so anxious? my aunt is throwing me a bridal shower next weekend and my best friend is throwing my bachelorette party the same night and i'm so scared i won't be able to even function???? like everyone knows where i'm at right now and is prepared to just set a cute chair for me and let people come to me but STILL

[howtobeapersonwithfibro]

friendly reminder that if you have a hard time eating due to nausea or other chronic illness ickies, just eat what you can eat. even if it’s not particularly “healthy,” getting calories in your body to help it function is more important.

[dwightwrites]

fed is best~

[dwightwrites]

i told my family that i’m seeing a pain psychologist partially because my team is concerned with my eating habits and preventing my developing an ed and they literally said “but you look so good! you’re losing so much weight on these meds!” ......that’s the fucking point, bud

[nnnnnnnnnnnnnnns-deactivated202]

My brain when I do that one thing I know will make me flare up really bad but I just want to feel human for once.

[dwightwrites]

some health stuff under the read more 

so after my second hip reconstruction in 2018 I had weird happening with my foot and I’ve been fighting with neuropathy and a ton of other craziness for the last two years. in the last few weeks my team diagnosed me with CRPS and i’ve started a ton of new treatment. i’m on topamax and a supplement to help with the nerve symptoms, i’ve had a sympathetic lumbar injection which helped for a few days but my foot immediately went back to stabbing and burning, and i’m back in pool therapy twice a week. i’m starting occupational therapy for my hand weakness, which has become a concern since the CRPS is all on my dominant side. i’m also going to be seeing a pain psychologist in two weeks to help me cope with my new diagnosis, help me to not lose too much weight with the meds, and also help me with the sleep disturbances i’ve been dealing with. there are days i sleep 17 hours and then i’ll go stretches where i’m lucky to sleep 4 hours over two days.