all the things i forgot to tell you

[eachwave]

The shape of her breath

As she whispered softly spoken syllables into my ear

The warmth of her breath hung   suspended

Long enough for the last word

To climb into my consciousness without falling on deaf ears

Their meaning finds solitude in the silky shadows that shape the softness of her voice

Every single letter of every single intonation

Kicking it with the ideas waiting to become the streams of unconsciousness that haunt me in forgotten dreams

Seeping slowly through familiar riverbeds once occupied by ocular reflections of light

As each regretless syllable makes their way out in an oceanic sigh

And then only the loneliness of silence

*Read while listening to: Josh Pan - Blue Velvet

[eachwave]

I'm familiar with the velocity of loneliness

Every unoccupied moment

Thoughts of you radiate from my chest

At velocities and frequencies

That split me in half so violently that only shadows

Remain as proof that

I missed you once 

Before anyone else

* Read while listening to: Choongum - Cold World

[eachwave]

The Space Between

An eternity from now

They’ll peer into an ocean of emptiness

To experience all of our individual and combined history

Perhaps as still images

Or unfolding as multi-dimensional holographic photo albums

Do you see me?

I haven’t arrived

Yet

I’m already gone

The space between light and perception

Is occupied by time

And we are eternal beams of light

Our experiences linger

But the memories are vacant

Only willing to exist as singular moments

An eternity from

An eternity from now

Read while listening to: Imagined Herbal Flows - Floating

[eachwave]

Passages

My perception of the passage of time is measured by markers in my memory

In that way, the past didn't exist before you

And the future of my history is impossible without you

As I thumb through the pages of my past to recite excerpts of you

I recall a time we were wrapped in colors that were only made aware to us on a Journey haunted by ghosts and guided by ones we had lost

Now my future consists of revisiting remnant passages of her in my past

* Read while listening to: Whispa - West London

[eachwave]

Nothing Lasts

Each second that passes recalling memorizations of you

Are just additional seconds added to the distance

Between now & then

You &

Me

* Read while listening to: Snacs - Cups

[eachwave]

Backbone

With each blink neon hexagons linger on foam white cloud formations

The horizon barely melting away in the periphery

The backbone that once held us together

Rips us apart limb by limb

Muscle by muscle

Memory by memory

* Read while listening to: Josh Pan - i miss you

[eachwave]

Apparatus

This was all for nothing

This perception that became a habit that became a regret

A system built on the foundation of my failures

Each wave an apology

Each beach an unreceptive ear

Each grain of sand a glimmer of forgiveness

The colors of each sunset a distant memory

And the waves crash endlessly in a symphony of infinite apologies

I will always be sorry even long after everything has turned to sand and all the oceans and seas have become a single teardrop in this universe.

* Read while listening to: Kasbo - Something Sad

[eachwave]

Wayward Sons & Daughters

These bones will blossom beneath the stars

Chasing ghosts we buried in forgotten waves

A long time ago this meant something to us

Wayward sons

Wayward daughters

Moonlit mornings endlessly haunt the places we once promised to visit

Do you know what they call the fleeting seconds between the starset and the sunrise?

Doomsday.

* Read while listening to: Andrew Bayer - Doomsday