Summary: Reader is a baby gay and Nikki is in denial about being a baby gay too. Nikki teaches reader how to go down on a woman while insisting it's "just technique" and "not gay".
Warnings: MDIN: Casual sex, Internalized homophobia, Mild degradation, Explicit sexual content, First-time sexual experience
Word Count: 1,461
Echo's Note: @grabthegvn As requested Nikki and reader! Hope you enjoy it.
The notification glowed on my phone. It's a Match!
My thumb hovered over the screen, heart hammering against my ribs. I'd downloaded the app three days ago, staring at it in the dark of my studio apartment, wine glass half-empty beside me. Thirty-two years old and I'd never been with a woman. Never even kissed one. But the marriages, the vanilla boyfriends, the obligatory missionary—it all led here. To this moment. To her.
Her profile picture showed dark hair, impossibly full lips curved in a smirk that suggested she knew exactly what she was doing. Nikki. 24. "Not looking for anything serious. Just fun."
I typed before I could lose my nerve: Hey. I'm new to this.
Three dots appeared immediately. Then: New to apps or new to girls?
Both, I sent back.
Cute, she replied. My place. Tonight. 8pm. You eat pussy?
I nearly dropped the phone. The bluntness should have offended me. Instead, heat flooded between my thighs so fast I had to press my legs together.
I've never... I started typing.
I'll teach you, she interrupted. Or you can just watch. Up to you. 685 Oak Street. Don't be late.
Her apartment was smaller than I expected, cluttered with textbooks and empty coffee cups. She opened the door in a tank top and cotton shorts, no bra, nipples pressing visibly against the thin fabric. Up close, she was even more beautiful than her photos hazel eyes lined with smudged kohl, skin that glowed like she'd just rolled out of bed.
"You're shaking," she observed, stepping aside to let me in.
"I've never done this," I admitted, voice barely above a whisper.
"Done what?" She leaned against the kitchen counter, arms crossed beneath her breasts, studying me like I was a specimen. "Been with a woman? Or been a slut?"
The word hit me like a physical blow. I'd been called plenty of things good girl, wife material, sweet. Never slut.
"I don't know what I am," I said honestly.
She pushed off the counter and closed the distance between us. I caught the scent of her coconut shampoo and something darker, muskier. She was shorter than me, but her presence filled the room.
"Here's the deal," she said, her voice dropping to something conspiratorial. "I'm not gay. I just like getting off. And apparently girls are better at it." Her hand came up, fingers tracing my jawline with surprising gentleness. "You want to learn how to touch a woman? I'll show you. But don't catch feelings. This is just... technique. Biology. Got it?"
I nodded, even as something in my chest twisted. Just technique. I could do that.
"Good." She grabbed my hand and pulled me toward her bedroom.
The room was dim, lit only by streetlight filtering through thin curtains. She didn't turn on any lamps, just climbed onto the unmade bed and leaned back against the headboard, legs falling open slightly.
"Take off your clothes," she commanded. "Slow."
My fingers trembled as I unbuttoned my blouse. I'd worn my best lingerie black lace, expensive, the kind I'd bought hoping some Tinder date would appreciate it. Nikki's eyes tracked my movements with predatory focus, but she didn't touch herself. Just watched.
When I stood in only my bra and panties, she crooked a finger. "Come here."
I crawled onto the bed, feeling ridiculous and exposed and alive in a way I hadn't felt in years. She sat up as I approached, reaching behind me to unclasp my bra with practiced efficiency. My breasts fell free, nipples tightening in the cool air.
"Pretty," she murmured, not touching, just looking. "You have great tits. You know that?"
"No one's ever said-"
"Men are stupid." She leaned in and finally, finally, her mouth found my neck, hot and wet and open. I gasped, arching into her as she sucked a bruise into my pulse point. Her hands came up to cup my breasts, thumbs brushing over my nipples with just enough pressure to make me whimper.
"Sensitive," she noted against my skin. "I like that."
She pushed me back onto the mattress and climbed over me, straddling my waist. Through her shorts, I could feel the heat of her, the dampness that had already soaked through the cotton. She ground down experimentally, and I moaned, hands flying to her hips.
"Eager," she laughed, but there was no cruelty in it. "You really are new at this."
"Please," I breathed, not even sure what I was asking for.
She stripped off her tank top, revealing small, perfect breasts with dark nipples already hard. Then she shimmied out of her shorts, and I saw her really saw her for the first time.
Trimmed dark hair, glistening folds, the pink flesh of her already swollen and wet.
"Lesson one," she said, crawling up my body until she knelt over my face, knees bracketing my ears. "A girl knows what a girl likes. Use your tongue like you want someone to use theirs on you."
She lowered herself onto my mouth.
The taste of her exploded across my tongue, salty and sweet and her, undeniably feminine in a way that made my hips buck against nothing. I'd gone down on men before, dutifully, waiting for it to end. This was different. This was worship.
I licked experimentally, finding the small nub of her clit and circling it the way I'd always wanted someone to circle mine. She groaned above me, fingers tangling in my hair to hold me in place.
"Fuck, yes," she gasped. "Just like that. Don't stop."
I couldn't have stopped if I'd wanted to. The sounds she made desperate, guttural, real spurred me on. I sucked her clit between my lips, flicking my tongue against it in rapid strokes, and she cried out, grinding down harder.
"Fingers," she panted. "Put your fingers in me."
I slid two digits into her heat, marveling at how she clenched around me, how wet she was, how easy it was to find the spot that made her shudder. I'd never felt so powerful, so needed. She rode my face with abandon, all pretense of cool distance gone, just a woman chasing her pleasure and using my body to get there.
"Don't stop, don't stop, I'm-fuck-"
She came with a strangled cry, thighs clamping around my head, pussy pulsing around my fingers. I kept licking through it, gentler now, drawing out her orgasm until she pushed my head away, oversensitive.
"Shit," she breathed, collapsing beside me. "Okay. You're a natural."
I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand, giddy with pride and arousal. My panties were soaked, my clit throbbing against the fabric.
"What about me?" I asked, bolder than I'd ever been.
She rolled onto her side, propping her head on her hand. In the dim light, her smirk was back, but softer now, almost fond.
"You want me to return the favor?"
"Please."
She didn't make me beg. She stripped off my panties with the same efficiency she'd used on my bra, spreading my legs wide. I expected hesitation, expected her to make some comment about not being gay, about this just being reciprocal.
Instead, she dove in like she was starving.
Her mouth was magic. She knew exactly where to lick, exactly how much pressure to use, when to tease and when to consume. Within minutes I was writhing, hands clawing at the sheets, babbling nonsense.
"Please, Nikki, please-"
She slid two fingers inside me, curling them to find my spot, and I shattered. The orgasm crashed over me like a wave, endless and overwhelming, my hips bucking against her face as she licked me through it, then kept going, pushing me toward another peak before the first had even faded.
"Too much," I gasped, but I didn't mean it. I meant more.
She understood. She didn't stop until I'd come twice more, until I was limp and boneless and giggling from overstimulation.
After, we lay tangled in her sheets, my head on her shoulder, her fingers tracing lazy patterns on my hip. The "not gay" girl who just liked getting off was cuddling me like a girlfriend.
"So," I said, emboldened by the darkness. "This was just technique?"
I felt her smile against my hair. "Biology," she corrected, but her voice lacked conviction.
"Can I see you again?"
She was quiet for a long moment. I held my breath, already preparing for rejection, for thanks for the orgasms, don't call me.
"Tuesday," she finally said. "I have a late class. Come over at nine."
Relief flooded through me, followed immediately by caution. "Just sex?"
"Just sex," she agreed. But her arm tightened around me, and I let myself believe, just for tonight, that maybe we were both lying.
can you puhleadeee make sloppy wet smut with mika kunis🤤🤤🤤
Do you mean Mila Kunis, Grabs?
I don't feel comfortable writing fanfictions on real people, but if you have a favourite character she's played (Lily : Black Swan 😍), I'd be happy to oblige.
Summary: When your rival insults your relationship during a drill, you snap and nearly kill her before Natasha intervenes.
The Widow dominates you with fierce passion, silencing your rivals doubts and forcing you to realize you're her only one.
Warnings: MDIN: Near death caused by Y/N, Fighting, Blood, Smut, Explicit Sexual Content, BDSM, D/s Dynamics, Overstimulation, Oral Sex.
Word Count: 2,357
Echo's Note: Another One-Shot while I work through writers block and chaotic life.
The gym was loud, filled with the rhythmic thud of sneakers on hardwood and the guttural grunts of agents pushing their limits. Maria Hill was shouting drills, her voice cutting through the noise like a whip crack. You were in the middle of a sparring match, sweat slicking your back, when you felt the familiar prickle of annoyance. It was Shannon Carter, standing with her arms crossed, watching you with a look that was part pity, part arrogance.
"You're getting sloppy," Shannon said, her voice low enough for only you to hear. "She's going to get bored, you know. Natasha has standards. She doesn't settle. She certainly doesn't settle for someone with nothing to offer, like you."
You blinked, wiping your forehead. "Excuse me?"
Shannon stepped closer, invading your personal space. "I was there first. I was the one she took to bed, the one who taught her how to really let go. You're just... practice. You're just getting sloppy seconds, sweetheart. And mark my words, she’ll get tired of your amateur moves soon enough and come back to someone who actually knows what she's doing. Someone like me."
The air left your lungs. The "practice" comment stung, but the implication that Natasha was already planning an escape for you sent a fire through your veins. The rules were clear, no lethal force, controlled environment, but the anger in your chest was a physical weight.
Before Maria could blow her whistle, you launched yourself at Shannon.
You didn't use standard Shield training moves; you used the ones Natasha had drilled into you until your muscles memorized them. You sidestepped Shannon’s weak jab, using the momentum of your own spin to deliver a perfectly executed roundhouse kick that sent Shannon crashing into the mats. Shannon scrambled to get up, but you were already there, pinning her down with a forearm across her throat.
"You think you're better?" you growled, your voice shaking with fury.
"You're crazy," Shannon choked out, clawing at your arm.
Instead of releasing her like the training rules demanded, you drove your fist into her jaw. Shannon’s head snapped back, and she went limp. You swung again, then again, your knuckles bruising against her skin. You were going to kill her. You really thought about snapping her neck right there on the gym floor. The gym went silent, Maria gasping as she rushed forward.
Two strong hands grabbed your shoulders and gently but firmly pried you off Shannon. You looked up to see Natasha Romanoff, her expression unreadable but her eyes intensely focused on you. She pulled you away from the unconscious form of your rival.
"Enough," Natasha commanded softly, her voice dropping an octave, vibrating in your chest. She didn't look at Shannon; she looked only at you.
Maria was already checking Shannon's vitals, shaking her head. "Okay, that's it. Session over. I'll get Shannon to the medbay."
Natasha didn't let go of your arm. Instead, she turned, hooked her arm around yours, and hauled you toward her apartment. You were muttering complaints, kicking at the tiles, angry at yourself for losing control and angry at Shannon for saying those things. Natasha tired of your pace, spun around hooking her arms around your middle and under your knees tossing you over her shoulder like you weighed nothing at all.
"I heavy, I can walk" you grumbled as she carried you through the door.
"Shut up." she replied, kicking the door shut behind her. She didn't turn on the lights immediately. Instead, she walked you to the bed and tossed uncermoniously on to it. You bounced, sitting up, rubbing your knuckles which were already beginning to swell.
"You're bleeding," Natasha said. She was standing over you, looming in the shadows, looking devastatingly beautiful and terrifyingly capable.
She reached out, her thumb brushing over a cut on your eyebrow. "What the hell was that?
"I don't know!" You snapped, pulling away from her touch. "I feel like I'm always trying to catch up to you, Nat. I feel like I'm just a placeholder until you find someone better. Someone who can keep up with you."
Natasha sighed, a sound of pure exhaustion mixed with affection. She stripped off her jacket and tossed it on the floor. "Look at me."
You wouldn't meet her gaze.
Natasha climbed onto the bed, crawling over you until she was straddling your waist. She pinned your wrists above your head, her body pressing you into the pillows. "You're trembling," she whispered, her lips hovering just millimeters from yours. "Why?"
"At the thought of Shannon being right," you admitted, your voice cracking. "I feel inadequate, Nat. Like I'm not enough."
Natasha smiled, a wicked, possessive curve of her lips that sent a shiver down your spine. "Is that so? You think you're not enough for me?"
She released one of your wrists and slid her hand down your body, cupping your heat through your leggings. Your breath hitched. "But look at you. You're so eager to please. So reactive. It turns me on more than you know."
She leaned down, pressing a soft kiss to the cut on your eyebrow, then trailing kisses down your neck. "I'm going to take this anger out on you," she murmured against your skin. "You're going to come so hard that you won't think about anyone else. Just me."
Natasha sat up, the motion pulling you with her. She began to undress you, her movements efficient but reverent. She unbuttoned your shirt, her fingers deliberately lingering on your skin, mapping every inch of you as if she were memorizing a target. She pulled the fabric off, tossing it aside, leaving you exposed in just your sports bra and leggings.
She hooked her fingers into the waistband of your leggings and tugged them down, revealing the rest of you. She didn't waste time. She stood up, shedding her own clothes with practiced ease until she was as bare as you were.
She climbed back onto the bed, pushing you down into the mattress. She didn't kiss you immediately; instead, she hovered over you, her eyes raking over your body with an intensity that made your skin burn. She took your hands and placed them above your head again, interlacing her fingers with yours, trapping you completely.
"Listen to me," she said, her voice dropping into that dominant register that always made your knees weak. "You are not sloppy seconds. You are the not first, but you are the only one. And you are going to remember this every time Shannon opens her mouth."
She moved lower, her lips brushing against bour brest, down your stomach, finally pressing an open mouth kiss to your inner thighs. "I'm going to show you exactly who you are to me."
She spread your legs, positioning herself between them. Her gaze locked onto yours, daring you to look away. "Look at me," she commanded.
You stared up at her, your heart hammering against your ribs. She placed another kiss on the sensitive skin of your inner thigh, then moved higher.
"Oh god, Nat..." you whimpered as her tongue flicked over your clothed core.
She smirked, the vibration going right through you. "That's right. Beg for it."
She pulled your panties to the side, her eyes locking onto your glistening heat. "You're so wet for me," she murmured, her voice dripping with reverence and dominance. "Do you know how good you taste? Do you know how perfect you are?"
She lowered her head, her tongue tracing the lines of your folds. She didn't go in all at once; she teased, licking and sucking, building the friction until you were arching your back, your hips bucking off the mattress.
"Nat..." you gasped, your hands gripping her hair, pulling her closer.
"Who owns this pussy?" she asked, pausing to look up at you.
"You," you choked out, your eyes tearing up.
"Who's going to take care of you?" she asked, her tongue plunging deep inside you.
"You do. Only you."
"That's my girl," she groaned, the sound low and deep. She went to work, her tongue and lips working in perfect rhythm, sucking hard on your clit. Your vision blurred, your body writhing under her. You could feel the climax building, a pressure that was about to snap.
"Nat, I'm going to…" you moaned deep.
"Come on my face," Natasha commanded, her voice vibrating against you. She didn't slow down; if anything, she increased the pressure, her tongue dancing a frantic rhythm against your clit.
You were lost. The tension in your body snapped all at once, a brilliant white explosion of pleasure that seized your lungs and stole your breath. Your back arched off the mattress, your fingers tangling violently in Natasha's dark hair as you cried out her name.
"Nat! Oh God!" you screamed, your hips bucking uncontrollably against her mouth.
Natasha held you down, her arms firm around your thighs, refusing to let you buck her away. She swallowed every sound, every drop, drinking you in with an intensity that bordered on worship. She didn't stop until your body went limp, your trembling subsiding into a boneless heap of overstimulation.
"We're not finished," she murmured, her voice a low rumble that vibrated through you. "I need to hear you say it again. Who do you belong to?"
"You," you breathed, your voice barely a whisper.
"Louder."
"You, Natasha. I'm yours."
A satisfied smirk touched her lips. "Good." She slid down your body, her hair tickling your stomach. "Because I'm not done tasting what's mine."
Her mouth was on you again, but this time it was different. The first time had been a storm, a furious claiming to wash away the anger. This was a slow, deliberate tide. Her tongue traced your folds with a surgeon's precision, learning every curve, every sensitive spot. Her focus was absolute, her movements designed to build you up slowly, torturously. She brought you to the edge of the cliff, her lips sucking gently on your clit, only to pull back when your hips began to twitch.
"Nat, please," you whimpered, your hands fisting in the sheets.
"Please what?" she asked, her voice muffled against you.
"Please let me come."
"Again," she commanded, before diving back in.
This time, she didn't let up. She sealed her mouth over your clit, her tongue flicking in rapid, relentless circles. The pressure mounted, a tight coil winding deep in your belly until it snapped. A second, deeper wave of pleasure washed over you, more intense than the first. It wasn't a scream this time, but a choked, sobbing gasp as your entire body convulsed, your thighs clamping around her head. Natasha held you through it, her hands gentle on your hips, until you collapsed, panting and trembling.
You thought that had to be it. You were certain you couldn't take any more. But Natasha had other plans. She crawled back up your body, her skin slick with sweat, and kissed you deeply. You could taste your release on her tongue, a heady, intimate flavor.
"One more," she whispered against your lips. "One more to make sure you understand."
She didn't give you a chance to argue. She shifted, pressing her thigh against your still-sensitive core. She began to move, a slow, grinding rhythm that sent sparks of pleasure-pain through your overstimulated nerves. She captured your hands, pinning them above your head with one of hers.
"You take it," she growled, her voice thick with her own desire. "You take everything I give you and you thank me for it."
Her other hand slid down to where your bodies met, her fingers finding your clit and rubbing it in time with the movements of her hips. It was almost too much, a delicious agony that had tears leaking from the corners of your eyes.
"Nat... I can't," you pleaded.
"Yes, you can," she insisted, her tone leaving no room for refusal. "Come for me again. Show me you're mine."
Her words, her touch, the overwhelming dominance of her presence, it was all too much. The third orgasm crashed into you without warning, a silent, shattering thing that ripped through you like a lightning strike. Your body bowed, a strangled cry tearing from your throat as you finally broke completely under her pleasure.
You lay there, gasping for air, your heart hammering against your ribs like a trapped bird. The anger was gone, replaced by a warm, glowing satisfaction that settled deep in your bones.
Natasha leaned down, capturing your lips in a deep, searing kiss. It was a kiss full of promises and possession.
"You taste better than anyone I've ever known," she murmured against your lips. "And you're mine. Every single inch of you."
You reached up, wrapping your arms around her neck, pulling her closer. "I love you, Nat," you whispered, your voice raw.
Natasha pulled back slightly, looking you in the eyes. She brushed a stray hair away from your face, her expression softening into something tender and vulnerable that she rarely showed anyone. "I know," she said, her voice thick with emotion. "And I love you more than anything. You're not a placeholder, Y/N. You're the one. You always have been."
She shifted, pulling the covers up over both of you and wrapping her arms around you, tucking you securely against her chest. She rested her chin on top of your head, her hand stroking your back in slow, soothing circles.
"You did good today," she whispered, her voice dropping to a lullaby. "You fought for me. You showed her who you are. And now, we're going to sleep. And tomorrow, you're going to wake up and you're going to remember exactly who you belong to. And who belongs to you."
You closed your eyes, feeling safe, loved, and completely owned. The gym faded away, the fight with Shannon was forgotten, and for the first time in a long time, you felt like you were exactly where you were meant to be.
"Goodnight, Natasha," you mumbled, already drifting off.
"Goodnight, little bird." she replied, pressing a final kiss to your forehead before letting sleep finally take her.
Summary: Three years after disappearing to protect Y/N Medici from the Red Room, Natasha Romanoff resurfaces as a ghost, warning of a conspiracy and sacrificing herself to save the woman she still loves. Forced into a fragile alliance in a remote safehouse, the two must confront their painful past and the undeniable passion that still burns between them.
Trigger Warnings: MDNI, Violence, Death of a parent, Loss/grief, Surveillance, Assassination attempts, Blood and injury, Forced proximity, Sexual content, First time sexual experience
Word Count: 6,749
Part 1 Part 2
Three Years Gone Three years had passed since the rooftop in Prague. Natasha had quietly become a ghost in her own life.
The safehouse in Budapest smelled of stale coffee and old gun oil. Natasha sat on the edge of the mattress, her breathing ragged. She was a woman out of time, even if she was still young. The Red Room hadn't given up on her, but they had stopped looking. They assumed she was dead or a broken experiment. She was just broken, but she was also free.
She checked her secure tablet. The financial news was a blur of numbers and names. Medici Global. The name sent a jolt through her chest. Y/N was the Executive Vice President now. The reports showed a woman who commanded the boardroom with the same authority she once commanded the school. She was expanding Medici's influence into the global banking sector, a move that was destabilizing several rival institutions.
Natasha's fingers hovered over the keyboard. She wanted to send a message. She wanted to say, "I'm here." But she didn't. She was just a shadow. She was a ghost. She watched the news feed, her eyes fixed on the image of Y/N on the cover of Forbes. The woman looked strong. Natasha felt a pang of pride, but it was quickly swallowed by a profound loss. She had missed so much.
She looked at the window. The wind whipped her hair, just like the rooftop in Prague. She knew Y/N was safe. That was the only thing that mattered. But it wasn't enough.
Where Hunters Wait
Clint Barton sat in the sterile silence of his safe house in Prague, the city's distant hum a poor substitute for the quiet of his Iowa farm. His phone vibrated against the scarred wood table, the buzz sharp and insistent. It was a mission packet from SHIELD. Priority One. A Black Widow had gone rogue. The file was sparse, operational details stripped down to the bare essentials, but the name at the top burned through the screen: Natasha Romanoff.
Clint's thumb hovered over the 'accept' icon. He knew the name, of course. Every operative in SHIELD did. Romanoff was a ghost story told in training halls, a cautionary tale wrapped in the body of a lethal woman. He knew her style from countless after-action reports and threat assessments—fluid, brutal, and unnervingly creative. She was a weapon that had slipped its leash. But this wasn't just a target; it was a reflection. He saw in her the same path he walked, the same darkness he kept caged. She was what he would be if he ever let the beast win. A dark version of him, but without a handler, without a purpose beyond survival. That made her unpredictable. That made her dangerous.
He took a long swallow of his cold coffee, the bitterness matching his mood. He was so tired of the politics, the sanitized briefings that masked the ugly truth of their work. He was tired of being SHIELD's arrow, loosed at targets chosen by men in suits who never got their hands dirty. But this was different. This wasn't about geopolitics or corporate espionage. This was about cleaning up their own mess before it bled out onto the streets. He was the best because he understood the hunt. He understood the mind of the prey. He was the only one who could track a ghost.
He packed his gear with methodical precision, each movement a familiar ritual. He drove to the edge of the old city, the rental car melting into the shadows. He knew where she'd be. Not from the file, but from instinct. He knew her haunts because they were his—the forgotten corners, the places where a person could disappear. He parked his car, killed the engine, and watched the street through a pair of binoculars. He was a hunter, yes, but he was hunting the part of himself he feared most. He was waiting for the right moment to make his move, to either bring her in or put her down. And he wasn't sure which outcome he preferred.
Bruised Sky Over Prague
The alley reeked of stale beer and desperation, a perfect place to die or disappear. Natasha pressed herself into the brickwork, her breath misting in the cold Prague air. Her part in the Red Room was over. All she had to do now was vanish. It was a familiar dance, one she had perfected.
A soft thud behind her, almost inaudible, was the only warning. She didn't turn. She dropped, sweeping a leg out in a low arc meant to break an ankle. Her foot met only air. He was already moving.
"Natasha," Clint's voice was calm, almost weary, echoing off the damp walls. "Don't make this harder than it has to be."
She spun, a knife seeming to appear in her hand from nowhere. He was ten feet away, bow in hand, an arrow nocked but not drawn. His stance was relaxed, but she knew the tension coiled in his limbs. He was a spring, ready to release.
"Hard is what I do." she snarled, her voice a low growl. She feinted left, then exploded right, aiming for the narrow gap between him and the dumpster. She was a blur of motion. ‘Red Room isn’t getting me back.’ she growled.
He didn't aim for her center mass. The arrow he loosed wasn't a killing shot. It was a net arrow, its Kevlar strands designed to entangle. It whistled past her ear and slammed into the brick wall she was about to use for leverage, the weighted head embedding itself deep. The net instantly blossomed, blocking her path. ‘Not Red Room kid, Shield’ he answered.
She cursed, vaulting onto the dumpster without losing momentum. She kicked off, aiming for the fire escape ladder dangling fifteen feet above her head. Her fingers brushed the cold metal.
That's when the second arrow hit. Not a net, but a grappling line. It shot past her, the tripline hooking around the fire escape's lowest rung with a metallic clink. Before she could register the trap, Clint yanked the line taut.
The ladder, suddenly anchored from below, swung out from the wall like a pendulum. Natasha, in mid-air, had no choice but to abandon her grip. She twisted her body, absorbing the impact as she slammed onto the roof of the dumpster face down. The air was driven from her lungs in a pained grunt.
Clint was on her in a second, his weight pinning her. He moved with an efficiency that was a dark mirror of her own, his hands locking her wrists in a grip that was unbreakable. "It's over, Natasha," he said, his voice close to her ear. "Come in quietly. We can sort this out."
For a fraction of a second, she went still. The hunted animal, caught. But the Black Widow was never just an animal. She was a weapon. With a surge of explosive power, she bucked her hips, using his own weight against him. It wasn't enough to throw him, but it was enough to create a sliver of space.
Her head snapped back, smashing into his nose with a sickening crunch. He grunted in surprise and pain, his grip faltering for a critical half-second. It was all she needed.
She writhed like a serpent, dislocating her left thumb with a practiced pop to slip the cuff. Her right hand broke free. She didn't go for a weapon. She drove her elbow backward, hard, into the soft tissue of his ribs. He gasped, his breath catching.
She rolled off the dumpster, landing in a crouch. He was already recovering, blood streaming from his nose, his bow coming up. But she wasn't there to fight. She was there to escape.
With a final, desperate leap, she grabbed the bottom rung of the now-swinging fire escape. She hauled herself up, her dislocated thumb screaming in protest. She scaled the rusted metal ladder with a speed that defied gravity, not looking back.
Clint stood in the alley, wiping blood from his face with the back of his hand. He could have put an arrow in her back. He could have ended it. But he watched her silhouette disappear over the rooftop, a ghost against the bruised purple sky. He lowered his bow.
Last Light in Zurich
The drive from Prague to Zurich was a study in controlled agony. Every kilometer of the six-hour journey was a battle against the instincts screaming in her blood. The Red Room had trained her to be a scalpel, precise and detached. Emotion was a liability, a glitch in the programming. But as she pushed the stolen Audi through the winding mountain passes, the glitch was all she could feel.
She had the data, a terabyte of damning intelligence sitting on a hardened drive in the passenger seat. It was proof of the conspiracy, a roadmap of the betrayal targeting Y/N. But data was cold. It couldn't protect her in a hail of bullets. For that, Natasha needed to be there. She needed to be the shield. It was an illogical, reckless impulse, the kind of thing the Red Room would have "corrected" with brutal efficiency. She was no longer their weapon, but the ghost of their training still haunted her every move.
Crossing into Switzerland, the landscape shifted from the grimy post-communist grit of the Czech Republic to the sterile, imposing wealth of Zurich. The city was a fortress of finance, its glass and steel towers gleaming under a gray sky. It was the perfect hunting ground for predators who dealt in stocks and the downfall of others. Natasha felt the familiar thrum of the hunt, but it was different now. The target wasn't a mark to be eliminated; it was a person to be protected.
She dumped the car in an underground garage near the Hauptbahnhof, wiping it down with methodical precision. She moved through the city like a phantom, her features obscured by the hood of a gray sweatshirt, her gait that of a thousand other tourists. She checked into a flophouse hotel near the red-light district, paying in cash, a place where questions weren't asked and identities were disposable.
From the window of her grimy room, she had a clear line of sight to the Congress Center where the shareholder summit was being held. She assembled her gear with the economy of motion that was second nature. A compact Glock 26, two spare magazines, a garrote wire hidden in the seam of her jacket, and a handful of ceramic throwing knives. Each piece of equipment was a familiar weight, a cold comfort against the storm raging in her chest.
As she prepped her gear, she pulled up the summit's public schematics on a burner tablet, overlaying them with the security details she'd pulled from the data packet. She identified blind spots, camera dead zones, and potential sniper nests. She wasn't just attending; she was embedding herself in the architecture of the event. She was becoming part of the building's shadow, a ghost in the machine waiting for the moment to strike.
The final message she sent to Y/N felt like a closing door. I stand only with you. It was a vow, a line drawn not just in the digital ether but in her own soul. There was no going back. She was no longer running from the Red Room or SHIELD. She was running toward something, toward someone. And as the last light of day bled from the Zurich sky, Natasha Romanoff, the Black Widow, pulled up her hood and melted into the night, a predator moving to protect the only thing that had ever made her feel human.
Five Words That Changed the War
Y/N Medici stood before the grand hall of the Congress Center. The room was packed with dignitaries, investors, and world leaders. She was the face of Medici Global, a woman who was taking a family legacy and turned it into an empire.
She adjusted her headset. The translator nodded. She spoke in Italian, her voice calm and authoritative. She was talking about the future of the global economy, a future she was shaping with her own hands. She was a visionary, a leader, and a future queen.
But as she looked out at the sea of faces, she felt a profound sense of loneliness. She was surrounded by people who admired her, but she had no one to truly share her burden with. She kept her guard up, her emotional walls high and impenetrable. She compartmentalized her life, her work, a necessary survival mechanism after the betrayal.
She froze, then took a sip of her water. An encrypted message appeared on her screen. The familiar notification ping. She recognized the sender's ID instantly. It was the same encrypted channel they had used three years ago. She felt a jolt of recognition, followed by a cold wash of anger. It was Natasha.
Y/N's first instinct was to assume manipulation. She thought Natasha was trying to get close again, to use her for some mission. She was the Medici heir, after all. She had enemies. Natasha was one of the best assassins in the world. She could be a weapon. But she couldn't shake the feeling that there was something more to it. She remembered the way Natasha looked at her, the way she held her hand. She remembered the warmth of her touch. She remembered the way Natasha had broken her heart.
Her eyes flickered to the data packet attached to the message. It was heavily encrypted, but the header was clear. With a trembling hand, she initiated the decryption sequence her father's security team had taught her. The files bloomed across her screen: financial transfers, coded communications, and a roster of personnel. It was the complete operational blueprint for the assassination attempt in Zurich. It listed the shell corporations that had funded the mercenaries, the Swiss bank accounts, and most damning of all, the name of the Medici board member who had provided the access codes and floor plans for the summit. It was an inside job. A betrayal from within her own family's company.
The breath left her lungs in a sharp gasp. This wasn't manipulation. This was an offering. A sacrifice. Natasha hadn't just sent a message; she had handed over a weapon, proof of her allegiance that put herself in greater danger. To extract this information, Natasha would have had to get closer, to risk exposure. She had chosen to give Y/N this truth instead of using it herself.
She looked at the message again, the five words now feeling heavier, more profound than any declaration of love. I stand only with you. It wasn't a memory. It was a choice. A line drawn in the sand. And in that moment, Y/N knew with terrifying certainty that the storm wasn't coming. It was already here.
Black Widow's Return
The shareholder summit was a high-stakes event. Y/N was the keynote speaker. She stood there, her voice projecting across the room, she fought her nervous system for composure. She was talking about the future of Medici Global, a future she was shaping with her own hands.
Suddenly, the lights flickered. A shot rang out. Chaos erupted. Y/N ducked, her heart pounding. She saw the assassin. He was moving with the precision of a trained soldier. He aimed at her again. Y/N reached for her purse, but it was too late. She was going to die.
Then, a black-clad figure moved with lightning speed. The assassin was taken out in a single, fluid motion. Y/N looked up. She saw the woman. She recognized the fighting style instantly. It was Natasha. She was the Black Widow.
Y/N's breath hitched. She knew it was Natasha. She saw the familiar scar on her arm, the same one Natasha had gotten during the mission in Milan. She saw the way she moved, the way she fought. She was the woman she had loved and broken.
The room was in chaos. People were screaming and running. Natasha turned to Y/N, her eyes locked on hers. She didn't say a word. She didn't have to. The message was clear. I'm here.
Natasha grabbed Y/N's arm. "Come on."
Y/N pulled away. "What are you doing?"
"Get down!" Natasha said, pushing her behind a pillar.
A second wave of attackers emerged from the shadows. They were elite mercenaries, hired to eliminate the Medici heir and break the Medici line. Natasha moved like a dancer, graceful as each shot was precise and deadly. She was efficient, deadly, and beautiful.
She grabbed Y/N again. "We need to get out of here."
Y/N fought back. "My men are here, I can handle myself!"
"You can't. They're coming for you. They're coming for me." Natasha's voice was harsh, but her eyes were soft. She was protecting her.
She dragged her along, soon they were running through the crowded streets of Zurich. Natasha pulled Y/N into an alleyway. She looked at her, her eyes searching hers. "I'm not going to let them hurt you again."
Y/N looked at her, her heart pounding. She knew Natasha was right. But she also knew she was being taken against her will. She was being kidnapped. She was being forced into a situation she couldn't control.
"Take me to your safehouse," Y/N said, her voice trembling.
Natasha nodded. "Let's go."
Safe Isn’t Free
The safehouse in the Alps was remote and isolated. It was a place of snow and silence. Y/N sat on the couch, her arms crossed over her chest. She was safe, but she was imprisoned. She was an echo of Natasha’s time in the Red Room.
Natasha sat in the armchair, her legs crossed. She was on guard, her eyes scanning the room. "You're safe here," she said. "No one will find you."
Y/N looked at her. "I'm not asking for safety, Natasha. I'm asking for autonomy. I want to know what's going on."
Natasha stood up. "You know what I know. You just need to be safe."
Y/N stood up and walked toward her. "You can't control me. You can't lock me up. I'm not a prisoner."
Natasha's eyes narrowed. "I'm not trying to control you. I'm trying to protect you. You don't understand the stakes."
Y/N stared at her. "I understand the stakes. I'm the EVP of Medici Global. I have enemies. You're one of them."
Natasha's voice softened. "I'm not your enemy. I'm trying to help you."
Y/N looked at her. "You're not helping me. You're taking me away from my life. You're taking me from my people."
Natasha's expression hardened. "I'm not taking you away. I'm keeping you safe."
Y/N turned away. "You're just like them. You're just like the Red Room. You're just like the people who broke you."
Natasha's eyes flashed. "I'm not like them. I'm not like the Red Room."
Y/N turned her back to her. "You're just like them. You somewhere in there, Natasha. I can see it."
Natasha didn't respond. She just looked at her, her expression a carefully constructed mask. The words found their mark, striking the raw nerve of her own identity.
Price of Power
The secure tablet buzzed with an incoming encrypted transmission. Y/N's heart dropped when she saw the sender ID - her father's private secretary. The message was brief and devastating: Vincent Medici had been assassinated in Zurich.
Y/N's hands trembled as she read the details. Her father, the man who had built Medici Global what it was today, who had taught her everything about power and survival, was gone. The grief hit her like a physical blow, stealing her breath. She sank to the floor, silent tears streaming down her face.
Natasha rushed to her side. "What is it? What happened?"
"My father," Y/N whispered, her voice cracking. "He's dead."
Natasha's expression softened, all her guardedness melting away in the face of Y/N's raw pain. She wrapped her arms around Y/N, pulling her close. "I'm so sorry."
Y/N collapsed against her, the weight of three years of loneliness compounded by this fresh loss. "He was all I had left," she sobbed. "After you left, he was the only one who understood."
Natasha held her tighter, her own heart aching with regret. "I should have been there."
"You can't be everywhere," Y/N said, pulling back slightly. "But now... now I have to go back. I have to take control."
Natasha nodded, understanding the shift in Y/N's demeanor. The grief had forged something new in her a determination that hadn't been there before. "We'll go together. But not until we have a plan and know exactly who did it."
Y/N's eyes hardened. "I already know. It was the same people who tried to kill me in Zurich. They're sending a message."
Hunter's Gambit
Back in his Prague safe house, Clint nursed his bruised ribs and scrolled through the preliminary after-action report from the Zurich summit. The official SHIELD analysis was clean, professional, and utterly wrong. They saw a corporate hit, a messy but successful neutralization of rival mercenaries. But Clint saw the ghost he'd fought in the alley. The details were all there, written in a language only another operative would understand. The takedown was too efficient, too brutal; one attacker had his neck broken with a rotational torque that was signature Red Room, but the follow-up was messier, more desperate. A single shell casing from a Glock 26 lay near the stage, out of place amongst the mercs' high-caliber hardware a close-quarters weapon, an assassin's sidearm. And the way the primary target, Y/N Medici, had been extracted, it wasn't a kidnapping. It was a protective maneuver. He knew with certainty that Natasha had been there, and she hadn't been the attacker; she'd been the shield. Using a network of informants that existed in the gray spaces between intelligence agencies, he procured a burner frequency used by old-school spies, a digital dead drop he was certain she monitored. He sent a single, simple message: Saw your work in Zurich. You're making a mess. Let me help. He waited, watching the screen, but the three blinking dots of a response never appeared. The message was read and then nothing.
Days bled into a week of tense planning. While Y/N worked with Natasha to piece together the conspiracy behind her father's death. Natasha's face was illuminated by the glow of her laptop, a mosaic of news feeds and encrypted network traffic as she tracked the global manhunt for Y/N. Her blood ran cold when she intercepted a fragmented communication from a mercenary chatter channel, detailing the land around their location; they were running out of time. Natasha reached out to her wild card. She sent it into the digital void, a message in a bottle thrown into a hurricane. It was a monumental risk, trusting him, but she was out of options. She typed out a message, short and cryptic. Viper nest compromised. Kill Order Activated. II/B-23.
In a cramped motel room, Clint Barton's secure terminal chimed. He read it twice. Viper was a high-level Red Room code name, but the context was all wrong. Kill Order Activated. That was the part that made him lean forward, his interest piqued. He'd noting how she'd gone completely dark after the Zurich summit, only for this encrypted burst to light up the dark. She wasn't running a mission. She was running from one. He pulled up the satellite feeds for the Alps region based on the coded II/B-23. It was a needle in a haystack, but he was the best. He found it within hours.
Stop Trying, Just Be
The silence in the chalet was a physical presence. It was broken by the sound of Y/N making coffee, her movements now precise and controlled. The grief had transformed her, sharpening her edges instead of breaking her. Natasha emerged from the study, her face drawn. She looked exhausted.
"You should sleep," Y/N said, not turning around.
"Sleep is a luxury I can't afford," Natasha replied, her voice flat.
Y/N finally turned, leaning against the counter. "You look like hell, Natasha."
Natasha flinched almost imperceptibly. She walked to the window, staring out at the endless white expanse. "Sometimes... at night," she began, her voice quieter than Y/N had ever heard it, "I wake up and I don't know where I am. I think I'm back in the Red Room. The training... it doesn't just go away. It's in my bones."
Y/N watched her, her anger softening into something else. Pity. Concern. "What do they do to you?"
"They make you a weapon. They hollow you out and fill you with obedience. They teach you that love is a weakness, a liability." Natasha's hand tightened on the windowsill. "Defecting... it's not like walking out a door. It's like... tearing off your own skin. Every instinct screams at me to report in. To complete the mission. To eliminate the loose end." She finally looked at Y/N, her eyes raw with a pain so deep it was almost fathomless. "You were never the loose end to me, Y/N. I was."
The confession hung in the air between them, heavy and fragile. Y/N set her mug down. "You broke my trust," she said, her voice trembling slightly. "You used me."
"I know." Natasha took a step toward her, then stopped, maintaining a careful distance. "And I have lived with that every single day. But the alternative... the alternative was letting them kill you. I chose your life over your trust. I would choose it again."
The raw honesty was more disarming than any weapon. For the first time, Y/N saw not the Black Widow, not the spy, but the woman underneath, fighting a war inside her own head. A storm raged outside, wind howling against the windows. They stood in darkness, save for the firelight Natasha had built.
"You keep choosing for me," Y/N whispered, her voice cracking with the weight of three years of solitude and now fresh grief. "You chose to leave. You chose to come back. You chose to drag me here."
Natasha was on her feet in a flash, closing the distance between them. The firelight cast wild shadows on her face. "Because I can't bear a world where you're not in it," she said, her voice strained. "I never stopped choosing you. I just... I didn't believe I was allowed to."
The fight drained out of Y/N, replaced by a wave of profound, aching vulnerability. "And what do you believe now, Natasha?"
"I don't know," she whispered, the admission tearing out of her.
It was Y/N who closed the last inch of space. She reached up, her hand hesitating for a second before cupping Natasha's cheek. The spy flinched at the contact, a conditioned response, but didn't pull away. "Then stop trying," Y/N murmured, her thumb stroking the skin there. "And just be."
Natasha's eyes fluttered shut. She leaned into the touch, a silent surrender. When she opened them, the guardedness was gone replaced by a desperate, aching need. Y/N leaned in and kissed her. It was tentative at first, a clumsy exploration. Y/N’s inexperience was obvious, her movements unsure. Natasha could feel the tremor in her hands, the way she held herself so tightly.
Natasha gently took control, deepening the kiss, her lips parting Y/N’s with an expert tenderness that contradicted her deadly profession. She poured every unspoken word, every regret, every ounce of love she’d held back into it. Y/N melted against her, a soft sigh escaping her lips as she surrendered to the sensation. This was a language Natasha was fluent in, and she was about to teach her everything.
She led her from the firelight to the dark of the bedroom, a silent negotiation of bodies and souls. The moonlight filtering through the window painted their skin in silver. Natasha stood before Y/N, her gaze intense and unwavering. "Let me," she whispered, her fingers tracing the collar of Y/N's shirt. "Let me show you."
Y/N could only nod, her breath caught in her throat. Natasha’s hands were steady as she undressed her, her touch reverent, as if unwrapping a priceless treasure. She kissed every inch of newly exposed skin, her collarbone, the hollow of her throat, the sensitive skin behind her ear. Each touch was a promise, a silent apology, a declaration of love.
She laid Y/N down on the bed, her eyes never leaving hers. "Just feel," Natasha murmured, her voice a low hum that vibrated through Y/N's entire body. "Don't think. Just feel."
Natasha’s mouth followed the path her hands had blazed, a trail of fire that left Y/N arching beneath her. She explored Y/N's body with a patient, worshipful curiosity, learning every curve, every sensitive spot that made her gasp. When Natasha’s fingers finally slipped between her legs, Y/N cried out, her hips bucking involuntarily. She was wet, aching, and completely unprepared for the overwhelming pleasure that coursed through her.
Natasha’s touch was magic. She was patient, her movements deliberate, building a rhythm that had Y/N seeing stars. She could feel the coil tightening in her stomach, a pressure building until she thought she might shatter into a million pieces. "Natasha," she gasped, her hands fisting in the sheets.
"Let go, dorogoya," Natasha whispered, her voice thick with emotion. "I've got you."
And with a final, expert stroke of her thumb, Y/N shattered. A wave of pure, unadulterated pleasure washed over her, so intense it was almost painful. She cried out Natasha's name, her body convulsing as the orgasm ripped through her. It was a release, a catharsis, a surrender of every wall she had ever built.
As Y/N lay trembling, her body humming with aftershocks, Natasha shifted, her eyes soft in the dim light. "You're so beautiful," she murmured, her voice full of awe.
Y/N looked up at her, her chest still heaving, her eyes shining with a new, determined light. The pleasure had washed away the last of her hesitation, leaving only a profound, aching need to give Natasha the same ecstasy she had just received. She wanted to worship her, to erase the pain, to show her with her body what words couldn't express.
"Your turn," Y/N whispered, her voice husky with emotion. It wasn't a question. It was a statement of intent.
Natasha’s breath hitched, a flicker of surprise and overwhelming love crossing her face. She had expected to have to guide, to coax. She hadn't expected this bold, beautiful reciprocity. She simply nodded, her heart swelling in her chest.
Y/N moved with a newfound confidence, her hands tracing the lines of Natasha’s stomach, her mouth following the path. She felt Natasha’s muscles tense and quiver under her touch. She wanted to please her, to make her feel as cherished and desired as she had just moments ago. She shifted, settling between Natasha’s thighs, her eyes looking up for reassurance.
Natasha’s gaze was soft, encouraging. She reached down, her fingers tangling gently in Y/N's hair. "Just listen to my body," she murmured, her voice thick with desire. "I'll tell you what I like."
Y/N leaned in, her tongue darting out to taste the wet heat between Natasha's thighs. The flavor was musky, intimate, and utterly intoxicating. Natasha’s hips bucked, a soft moan escaping her lips. It was all the encouragement Y/N needed.
She grew bolder, her movements becoming more confident as she listened to the sounds Natasha made, felt the way her body responded. She explored with a newfound curiosity, her tongue and fingers learning the rhythm that drove Natasha wild. She could feel Natasha's muscles tensing, her breath hitching as she neared her own release.
"Y/N," Natasha gasped, her hands tightening in her hair. "Don't stop."
Y/N didn't. She increased her pace, her tongue flicking against the sensitive bundle of nerves until Natasha cried out, her body convulsing as she came undone. Y/N held her through it, her arms wrapped around her thighs as she rode out the waves of pleasure.
Afterwards, they lay tangled in the sheets, their bodies slick with sweat and the aftermath of their passion. Natasha pulled Y/N into her arms, her heart pounding a frantic rhythm against her back. She wrapped her arms around her, holding her close, a silent promise of safety and love.
Y/N snuggled closer, her body still humming with pleasure. She felt safe, cherished, and utterly loved. For the first time in three years, the ghost in the machine felt like she was home. And in the quiet aftermath, tangled in the sheets, Y/N finally felt like she was whole again.
Signals Through the Silence
Clint Barton sat in a nondescript caar a mile from the chalet, the glow of multiple monitors illuminating his face. The data stream was a firehose of global intelligence. He’d followed Natasha’s thread Viper, Medici, Alps and it had unraveled into something much bigger. The assassination attempt on Y/N wasn't just corporate sabotage. It was a joint operation.
He cross-referenced the mercenary signatures from Zurich with known Red Room operatives. The match was undeniable. But the funding, the logistical support in Switzerland, it didn't have the Red Room's fingerprint. It was cleaner, more bureaucratic. He dug deeper, accessing SHIELD's internal servers using the high-level clearance his mission had granted him.
He found it buried in a Level 8 file: Operation Cinderella. The objective was to recover a high-value rogue asset, codename Viper. The file explicitly stated that the asset’s emotional attachment to the primary target, Y/N Medici, was the most reliable retrieval point. The followed the Red Room's plan to use of Medici Global’s weakest as proxies to "apply pressure," creating a scenario where the asset would be forced to expose herself by protecting the target. SHIELD hadn't just known of the attack; they had allowed it. They were using Y/N as bait.
Clint felt a cold knot form in his stomach. His orders were to eliminate the rogue asset. But the truth was, SHIELD wanted her alive. The Red Room wanted the weapon back. And Y/N wasn't just the target; she was the leverage. He sent a new, encrypted message to Natasha. It was only three words. It’s a trap.
Choice Made in Fire
Natasha’s tablet vibrated on the nightstand. She disentangled herself from Y/N’s sleeping form, the warmth of the previous night a fragile shield against the world. She read the message, and every muscle in her body went rigid. It’s a trap. Not just the Red Room. SHIELD too. She was a prize to be won, and Y/N was the key.
Before she could fully process the thought, the first explosion rocked the chalet. The windows blew inward, showering the room with glass. Y/N screamed, waking instantly. Natasha was already moving, pulling her from the bed and onto the floor. "Stay down!"
The front door splintered open. Black-clad figures poured in, their movements too efficient to be mercenaries. They were Red Room. They had come to reclaim their property. Natasha engaged them, a whirlwind of controlled violence. She was holding them back, but they were coming from all sides.
Then, a second team breached through the wall. These were different. Tactically suited, armed with advanced energy weapons. SHIELD. They weren't there to kill; they were there to capture. A Red Room operative lunged at Y/N. Natasha reacted on pure instinct, breaking the man's neck with a savage twist. In that split second of distraction, a SHIELD agent fired a taser. The electric bolts slammed into Natasha’s back. She convulsed, collapsing to the floor with a strangled cry.
A SHIELD commander stepped forward, his weapon aimed at Natasha’s prone form. "Stand down, Romanoff. You're coming with us."
Y/N looked from the SHIELD team to the remaining Red Room operatives, who were now being systematically neutralized. She saw the choice in Natasha’s eyes as she struggled to push herself up. She could run. She was fast enough to escape through the shattered wall and disappear into the storm. But she wouldn't leave Y/N. With a guttural roar of effort, Natasha launched herself at the SHIELD commander, not to escape, but to protect. She was no longer running. This was her true defection, a choice made with her body, not a message.
A Shadow Steps Into the Light
The chaos was interrupted by the distinct thwip of an arrow. A non-lethal electric arrow struck the SHIELD commander’s weapon, shorting it out. Clint dropped from the rafters, bow in hand. "Natasha! We're Here TO HELP!" he yelled, firing another arrow that took out two Red Room agents advancing on Y/N.
Natasha, still recovering from the taser, looked at him, then at Y/N. There was no way out for both of them. She met Clint’s gaze, a silent understanding passing between them. She had made her choice. Now, he had to make his.
Clint grabbed Y/N’s arm. "I'm getting you out of here," he said, his voice leaving no room for argument. He fired a smoke arrow, blanketing the room in thick, choking gray. "Natasha, Stand Down!" he yelled again, knowing she wouldn't.
In the confusion, Natasha pushed herself to her feet. She saw Clint pulling Y/N toward a rear exit. She locked eyes with Y/N one last time across the chaos. There was no time for words. She closed the distance between them in two strides, her hand cupping Y/N’s cheek. It was a fleeting, desperate touch. Then she leaned in and pressed a soft, devastating kiss to her lips. It wasn't passionate; it was a goodbye. It was clean and controlled, echoing the finality of their parting years ago. She pulled back, their foreheads touching for a fraction of a second.
"Go," Natasha whispered, then turned and launched herself back into the fray, a one-woman army drawing all the fire, a shadow deliberately choosing to be caught in the light.
Clint didn't hesitate. He pulled a stunned Y/N out the back and into the snow, hustling her toward a unmarked black car. As they sped away, Y/N looked back. She saw Natasha, a lone black figure against the white, fighting until she was finally overwhelmed and subdued. She didn't fight as they cuffed her. She just watched the direction they had fled, her face an unreadable mask of sacrifice.
Epilogue: The Queen and the Ghost
Six months later, Florence. The Palazzo Medici was no longer just a symbol of old money; it was the nerve center of a new kind of power. Y/N stood before a global summit, her speech broadcast to millions. She spoke of economic reform, of dismantling the shadow banking systems that fostered corruption and trafficking. She was now the queen, but her crown felt heavier than ever.
She had channeled her pain into purpose. Medici Global now secretly funded a global network of anti-trafficking initiatives, using her financial empire to hunt the predators who operated in the dark. She was stronger, her influence absolute, but in the quiet of her private office, surrounded by centuries of art and history, she was fractured. She kept the encrypted channel open, a silent vigil. She had survived, but the part of her that Natasha had touched remained a carefully guarded, tender wound.
The Shield was all gleaming metal and fluorescent light. Natasha sat in a sterile debriefing rooms, her hands flat on the table. She was a prisoner, but she wasn't being treated like one. Clint had argued for recruitment, not imprisonment. He had vouched for her, and for now, they were listening.
She had access to news feeds. She watched Y/N, a formidable figure on the world stage, and felt a complicated mix of pride and agony. She saw the woman she had saved, the woman she had broken, the woman she had loved. She had made her choice, and this was the cost. She was an asset again, but this time, she had chosen the master. She was a ghost in SHIELD’s machine, and every day, she watched the queen she had placed on a throne, thinking they could never touch again. They were two survivors, running on parallel tracks, forever separated by the choice she had made to keep her alive.
Summary: Y/N decides to test Natasha's patience at an Avengers party, deliberately disobeying her and earning a covert "strike two" from across the room. When a final act of defiance seals her fate.
Warnings: MDIN, Smut, Explicit Sexual Content, BDSM, D/s Dynamics, Brat Taming, Edging, Orgasm Denial, Strap-on Sex, Fingering, Oral Sex, Power Dynamics, Aftercare, Alcohol Consumption.
Word Count: 1455
Echo's Note: This is a short one while I finish up some WIPs. Also, I'm in a --- mood. This is for the lovely brats that sometimes just need to be reminded of their place, and for the hot doms that punish with love.
The music thrummed through the Avengers Tower, a bass-heavy pulse that vibrated in Y/N's chest. She was a striking figure against the backdrop of the party, clad in a simple black silk dress that clung to her curves and shimmered under the ambient light. The fabric was a liquid shadow, moving with her as she leaned against the kitchen counter, swirling the melting ice in her glass, engaged in an animated conversation with Wanda. Across the room, she could see Natasha, a flash of red hair, deep in discussion with Clint. The assassin looked relaxed, her guard down. A smirk played on Y/N's lips. Perfect.
"I'm gonna grab another drink," Y/N announced to Wanda, pushing off the counter.
Wanda's eyes widened slightly, a knowing look on her face. "Y/N, you know Natasha cut you off, right? She said three was your limit tonight."
Y/N waved a dismissive hand. "Natasha's not the boss of me," she muttered, just loud enough for Wanda to hear. "She's not my mother."
She didn't see the subtle shift in Natasha's posture across the room. She didn't see the assassin's eyes lock onto her, the easy smile vanishing, replaced by a cool, predatory stillness. She did, however, see Natasha lift her hand to her neck, her fingers idly tracing the line of her collar. It was a gesture Y/N knew all too well. Two fingers on her pulse point. Strike two.
A thrill shot through Y/N, a dangerous mix of fear and anticipation. She met Natasha's gaze from across the room, held it for a heartbeat, and then deliberately smirked before turning back to the bar. "Rum and coke, please," she told the bartender, her voice a challenge.
The drink appeared in front of her almost instantly. Y/N had just wrapped her fingers around the cool glass when a familiar presence settled behind her. The heat of her body seeped into Y/N's back before she even touched her.
"Having fun?" Natasha's voice was a low murmur, right against Y/N's ear, a velvet threat that sent shivers down her spine.
Y/N turned her head, a defiant look on her face. "Just enjoying the party, Nat."
Natasha's eyes, usually a warm green, were dark and sharp. "I see that." She didn't raise her voice, didn't cause a scene. She simply stood there, a silent, imposing force. "Finish your goodbyes."
Her tone left no room for argument. The playful defiance drained out of Y/N, replaced by a nervous energy. She quickly mumbled an apology to Wanda, who gave her a sympathetic look before Natasha's hand landed firmly on the small of her back, guiding her away from the party and toward the private elevator.
The ride up was silent, thick with unspoken tension. Her hand never left Y/N's back, a proprietary brand that promised consequences. When the doors opened to her floor, she guided Y/N into her room, the door clicking shut behind her with a sound of finality.
She didn't turn on the main light, only the soft glow of the bedside lamp, casting long shadows across the room. Natasha stood in front of Y/N, her expression unreadable.
"Strip," she commanded, her voice soft but absolute.
Y/N hesitated for a fraction of a second, and Natasha's eyes narrowed. "Now."
Y/N's fingers fumbled with the zipper of her dress, the fabric whispering to the floor. She stood before the redhead in her lingerie, suddenly feeling very small under her intense gaze.
"On the bed. On your back."
Y/N complied, settling against the pillows. Natasha followed, moving with a predator's grace. She knelt beside her, her fingers tracing the line of Y/N's jaw. "What's your safe word, detka?" she asked, her voice dropping to that intimate, dangerous register.
"Red," Y/N whispered, her heart pounding against her ribs.
"Good girl." Natasha's thumb brushed over her lower lip. "Now, let's talk about tonight. You were told you were cut off."
"I wasn't that drunk," Y/N argued, a flicker of the brat returning.
Natasha smiled, but it didn't reach her eyes. "Oh, I know. That's the problem. It wasn't about the alcohol. It was about you forgetting your place."
Her hand slid down Y/N's body, her fingers ghosting over the swell of her breasts, down her stomach, to the edge of her panties. She didn't touch her where she desperately wanted to be touched, instead tracing the elastic along her hip.
"You thought I wasn't paying attention," Natasha murmured, leaning down to press a soft, open-mouthed kiss to Y/N's shoulder. "You thought you could be a little brat and get away with it."
Her fingers finally slipped beneath the fabric, teasing through Y/N's folds. She was already wet, a fact that made Natasha chuckle low in her throat. "Always so responsive. So eager."
She began a slow, maddening rhythm. Her thumb circled Y/N's clit with just enough pressure to make her arch her back, but not nearly enough to push her over the edge. Her fingers teased her entrance, dipping in slightly before withdrawing. It was exquisite torture.
"Natasha, please," Y/N breathed, her hips rising to meet her hand.
"Please what?" Natasha nipped at her earlobe. "Please stop? Or please more?"
"More," Y/N begged.
"Ah, but brats don't get to decide when they get more." Natasha shifted, lowering herself between Y/N's thighs. She hooked her fingers into her panties and pulled them down, tossing them aside. Then her mouth was on her, her tongue replacing her thumb.
She was relentless. She licked and sucked, bringing Y/N to the very brink of orgasm, her hands fisting in the sheets, her body coiling tight with tension. Just as she was about to fall, Natasha pulled back.
A frustrated cry escaped Y/N's lips. "Natasha!"
"Shh," she soothed, her breath hot against Y/N's sensitive flesh. "You don't get to come yet. You have to earn it."
She repeated the process again and again, with her hands, with her mouth. Each time she brought Y/N higher, made her more desperate, until she was a writhing, whimpering mess beneath her. Tears of frustration pricked at Y/N's eyes. "Please," she sobbed. "I'll be good. I promise."
Natasha finally relented, rising from the bed. Y/N watched through hazy eyes as she shed her own clothes, her body a study in lean muscle and dangerous curves. She opened the drawer by her bed and took out her favorite strap, securing it around her hips. The sight of it made Y/N's mouth go dry.
She settled back over Y/N, the head of the silicone cock nudging against her entrance. She looked down at her, her expression softening slightly at the wrecked state she was in.
"Are you going to remember who's in charge next time?" she asked, her voice a low growl.
Y/N nodded frantically. "Yes. You. Always you."
"Good answer." With one smooth, powerful thrust, Natasha was inside her.
Y/N cried out at the sudden, welcome stretch. Natasha set a punishing pace, her hips snapping against hers, driving into her with an intensity that stole her breath. Her hand tangled in Y/N's hair, tilting her head back so she could claim her mouth in a dominating kiss. It was all teeth and tongue, a battle Y/N happily surrendered.
The coil of pleasure that had been tightening for what felt like an eternity finally snapped. Y/N's orgasm crashed over her in a blinding wave, her body arching off the bed as she screamed Natasha's name. Natasha rode her through it, her movements slowing as Y/N came down from her high, leaving her a boneless, trembling heap.
She carefully withdrew and disposed of the strap, then returned to the bed, pulling the covers over both of them. She gathered Y/N into her arms, her head resting on her chest, listening to the steady beat of her heart.
The hard edges of her persona melted away, replaced by the woman Y/N loved. She pressed a soft kiss to Y/N's forehead, her fingers stroking her hair gently.
"You okay?" she murmured against her skin.
Y/N hummed in contentment, snuggling closer. "Perfect."
"You were such a brat tonight," Natasha said, but there was no anger in her voice, only a fond exasperation.
"But I'm your brat," Y/N mumbled sleepily.
Natasha tightened her arms around her, a soft smile in her voice. "Yes, you are. My beautiful, frustrating brat." She kissed the top of her head. "Go to sleep, detka. I've got you."
And wrapped in her warmth, Y/N did, feeling completely and utterly loved.
Summary: Everyone believes Y/N Barton the Director of Strategic Ops, has the perfect partner until the cracks in Jason Ore’s polished facade begin to show and the cost of loving him becomes impossible to ignore. When Natasha Romanoff notices what others miss, her quiet loyalty and dangerous honesty force Y/N to confront the difference between control and care, while Clint Barton watches, torn between protection and trust.
Triggers (seriously!) / Warnings: Emotional abuse / emotional manipulation, Physical domestic violence (short but there), Gaslighting, Controlling relationship dynamics, Toxic relationship portrayal, Verbal aggression and intimidation, Jealousy and possessiveness, Slow burn, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Explicit sexual content / smut (Natasha & Y/N), MINORS DNI
Word Count: 16,060 (Long for a one-shot but it got away from me, sorry.)
The conference room was already too warm. Y/N Barton stood at the head of the long table, her jacket draped neatly over the back of her chair, sleeves rolled to her forearms. In the space between them, holographic schematics rotated lazily, casting a pale, shifting light on the faces of the assembled team. A quinjet's flight path glowed in ethereal blue, tracing the eastern coastline of Madripoor before branching into a web of contingencies she had personally redlined twice already.
"Extraction is at zero-four-thirty," she said. Her voice was steady, a carefully calibrated instrument of control. "Primary window is seven minutes. If we miss it, we abort. No heroics."
A few heads nodded in solemn agreement. Maria Hill watched from the corner, arms crossed over her chest, her expression unreadable. Nick Fury leaned back in his chair, a shadow behind his dark lenses, his presence a silent weight in the room.
Beside her, Jason shifted. "Seven minutes is conservative," he said, his tone smooth as he leaned forward, elbows resting on the polished surface of the table. "If the asset's delayed, we can stretch to ten without compromising-"
Y/N didn't look at him. "We're not stretching."
Jason offered the public smile, the one that charmed senators and secured funding. "With respect, Director, I ran simulations last night. The risk curve flattens after minute eight. We'd be leaving value on the table."
A flicker of irritation sparked low in her chest, hot and sharp. She turned to face him then, her expression a mask of calm. "You ran simulations using my parameters."
"And improved them," Jason replied, his voice light. "That's my job."
The room shifted. It was subtle, a change in the air pressure, a collective tightening of shoulders, but it was perceptible. This wasn't disagreement; it was a correction. A public one. And it wasn't his place.
Before Y/N could put him back in his place, another voice cut through the tension.
"No."
The word was quiet, but it landed with the force of a slammed door. Every eye in the room turned to Natasha Romanoff. She sat slightly back from the table, one boot hooked casually around the rung of her chair, her posture relaxed to the point of deception. Her arms were folded loosely, her fingers still. She hadn't raised her voice. She hadn't even leaned forward. She didn't need to.
Jason blinked, his practiced composure fracturing for a moment. "I… excuse me?"
Natasha tilted her head, her gaze unwavering and sharp. "Your model assumes the asset is mobile within ninety seconds of contact. Our intel doesn't support that."
Jason's mouth opened, but Y/N lifted a hand, not sharply, not angrily. Just enough. The gesture was a full stop. "We're not debating this," she stated, her voice leaving no room for argument. "The window stays at seven."
Jason’s jaw tightened for half a second before the mask slid back into place. "Of course. Just offering perspective."
Across the table, Fury’s mouth twitched, the closest he ever came to a smile. Hill made a silent note on her datapad. Natasha didn't look away from Jason until he leaned back in his chair, retreating by a single, telling inch. Only then did she glance at Y/N.
It wasn't a question. It was a check-in.
Y/N met her eyes and gave a small, almost imperceptible nod. A silent acknowledgment.
Natasha settled back again, satisfied, her piece played. The meeting moved on, the moment broken, the hierarchy re-established.
___
By the time the meeting adjourned, a dull ache had settled behind Y/N’s eyes. It wasn’t the planning that had worn her down, but the sheer effort of holding her ground without making it look like a battle. She gathered her laptop, her mind already reorganizing the rest of her night, compartmentalizing the work from the friction.
Jason fell into step beside her as they left the room, his presence a familiar weight she was suddenly tired of carrying. “You didn’t have to shut that down so hard,” he murmured, his voice pitched low enough to sound intimate rather than critical. “I was backing you up.”
She didn’t slow her pace. “You were contradicting me.”
“I was contributing,” he said, the smooth edge of his tone sharpening just enough to be heard. “There’s a difference.”
She stopped walking. The sudden stillness was its own statement. Jason took one more step before realizing she was no longer beside him. He turned, the practiced smile flickering when he saw her expression, calm, closed, and utterly unmoved. “We can talk about this later,” he said quickly, a note of placation in his voice. “Not here.”
Her jaw tightened. “There’s nothing to talk about.”
“Y/N…”
“Jason,” she interrupted, her voice as quiet and final as Natasha’s had been earlier. “You don’t override me in my own meetings.”
A beat of silence stretched between them, taut and uncomfortable. Then Jason sighed, rubbing a hand over his face as if she were the one being difficult, the one creating a problem out of nothing. “You’re reading too much into it. You’ve been stressed lately.”
There it was. Soft. Polite. Dismissive. The trifecta of condescension wrapped in the guise of concern.
Y/N exhaled slowly, choosing not to engage. There was no point. “I have work to finish.”
His smile returned instantly, the mask sliding back into place. “So do I. I’ll see you later.” He leaned in, pressing a quick kiss to her cheek. It was a public display of affection perfectly calibrated for anyone who might be watching, a performance of partnership. She didn’t pull away. She also didn’t lean in, her body a study in neutrality.
Jason walked off, already pulling out his phone, his attention already a million miles away. Y/N stood there for a moment longer than necessary, the air around her slowly clearing, before turning toward Strategic Operations.
___
The office lights dimmed automatically as the hour ticked past twenty-two hundred, bathing the room in a soft, focused glow. Y/N shrugged out of her jacket and hung it carefully over the back of her chair before sinking back into the desk. The city beyond the floor-to-ceiling glass walls glittered cold and distant, a living map of lights and motion that felt a world away from the warmth of the room she had just left. She replayed the meeting in her head despite herself. Jason hadn’t raised his voice. He hadn’t insulted her. He hadn’t done anything that would look wrong to anyone else. That was the problem. It was a masterclass in plausible deniability.
A soft knock sounded at her door. She didn’t look up from her screen. “Come in.”
The door opened and closed with a quiet click. Natasha stepped inside, moving with a silence that was both a skill and a statement. She didn’t speak right away. She never did when Y/N’s shoulders were this tight. Instead, she crossed the room and leaned back against the edge of the desk, close enough that Y/N could sense her presence without feeling crowded.
“That was your call,” Natasha said finally, her voice low and even. “You made the right one.”
Y/N’s fingers paused over the keyboard. “He wasn’t wrong about the data.”
“He was wrong about the room,” Natasha replied, her gaze unwavering.
Y/N glanced up, meeting her eyes. “You didn’t have to step in.”
A faint, almost imperceptible curve touched Natasha’s lips. “You didn’t ask me to stop.”
It wasn’t an accusation. It was an observation, and something in Y/N’s chest loosened just a fraction. “I had it handled,” she said, a little defensively.
“I know,” Natasha said, pushing off the desk. She moved closer, not invading space, just occupying it deliberately. “You also shouldn’t have to fight for authority you’ve already earned.”
Y/N leaned back in her chair, letting out a breath she hadn’t realized she was holding. “He didn’t mean it the way it sounded.”
Natasha hummed softly, a noncommittal sound. “Intent doesn’t erase impact.”
Y/N closed her eyes for a second. When she opened them, Natasha was still there. Steady. Unmoved. “You stayed late,” Y/N said, changing the subject.
“I wasn’t done,” Natasha replied. A pause. “Neither were you.”
They worked quietly after that, the silence comfortable and companionable. Natasha didn’t hover or take over. She waited when Y/N paused, adjusted a projection when Y/N asked. Every movement was deliberate, unhurried, as if she wasn’t trying to prove anything at all because there was nothing to prove.
At some point, Y/N checked her phone. The screen was dark. No messages.
Natasha noticed, of course she noticed. “You’re waiting,” she said. It wasn’t a question.
Y/N’s mouth twitched. “He said he’d stop by.”
Natasha didn’t comment on the unlikelihood of it. She simply reached for the coffee Y/N had abandoned an hour ago, took a sip, grimaced, and pushed the mug gently out of reach. “That’s cold,” she said. “I’ll get you a fresh one.”
“You don’t have to-”
“I want to.” She didn’t wait for permission. She rarely did, but she always waited for consent, a subtle distinction Y/N had come to appreciate.
Natasha returned a few minutes later, setting a new mug down exactly where Y/N’s hand would land when she reached for it. Their fingers brushed. Natasha didn’t pull away immediately. “Drink,” she said softly.
Y/N did. The warmth spread through her, a small anchor in the quiet vastness of the night.
Time passed. The city shifted outside the windows, constellations of light changing as traffic flowed and stalled. Jason didn’t show.
When Natasha finally checked the clock, she straightened. “You’re not going home.”
Y/N huffed a tired, humorless laugh. “Is that an order?”
Natasha’s gaze held hers. Calm. Certain. “It's a concern.”
Something about that, about the lack of pressure, the absence of expectation, made Y/N’s throat tighten. “I’ll finish this and head out,” she said, the promise feeling thin even to her own ears.
Natasha nodded once. “Then I’ll walk you.”
They left together, their footsteps echoing through the quiet, deserted corridors of the Helicarrier. At the elevator bank, Natasha stepped inside first, holding the door open with a hand.
“If he doesn’t come,” Natasha said gently, just as the doors began to slide shut, “that doesn’t mean you weren’t worth the wait.”
Y/N swallowed against the sudden knot in her throat. “He will.”
___
Jason arrived forty minutes later, all practiced charm and easy smiles. He moved through the lobby with a confidence that bordered on performance, his apology a smooth, well-rehearsed aria. Y/N listened, her expression unreadable, and offered a nod that was less forgiveness and more dismissal. She accepted his explanation, the words hanging in the air between them, unexamined. From her vantage point across the polished expanse of the lobby, Natasha watched them depart. Jason’s hand rested at the small of Y/N’s back, a gesture of ownership disguised as affection. Y/N’s posture was ramrod straight, her shoulders a fraction too tight. She was a soldier bracing for a blow she couldn’t yet see. Natasha’s face remained a mask of cool indifference, but the gears had already begun to turn.
It started with a single, almost imperceptible gesture. Y/N Barton, a woman who commanded rooms and navigated global crises with the ease of breathing, took a half-step back. It was a subtle recalibration, a nearly invisible flinch as Jason closed the distance. Her shoulders tensed, her chin lifted a fraction of a degree, a body bracing for an impact that never landed. To anyone else, it was nothing. To Natasha, it was a flashing red light in the dark. Pattern recognition was her native language, the foundation of her entire existence.
Jason’s smile never reached his eyes. It was a brilliant, carefully constructed facade, deployed with the precision of a well-placed explosive. His words flowed like honey, smooth and reassuring. He knew the exact moment to place a hand on Y/N’s back, the precise duration to make it look supportive rather than controlling. In public, he was the perfect partner, deferring to her just enough to earn approving nods from Hill and Fury, a masterclass in appearing to be the wind beneath her wings. But the performance was flawed. He always spoke after she did, his voice a subtle echo that would inevitably reframe her point, adding his own footnote to ensure the room didn’t forget his presence. He wasn’t a partner; he was a parasite, clinging to her light.
Natasha felt no surge of jealousy, no territorial instinct. What she felt was the cold, sharp click of recognition. The low, humming certainty that vibrated in her bones, the same feeling she got when a mission brief had a fatal flaw.
Y/N didn’t feel the shift in the atmosphere, but she felt the cracks in the foundation. She was a master of logistics, of seeing the systems at play. She noticed the mission windows that were suddenly too tight, the intelligence from Madripoor that contradicted itself with frustrating regularity. She saw the silent, weighted exchanges between Fury and Hill, the perpetual exhaustion that clung to Strategic Operations like a second skin. She noticed Jason most acutely in his absence. He’d promised to join her for a late-night briefing, only to text twenty minutes prior with a flimsy excuse about something coming up. He’d meant to call. He was so proud of her. He just didn’t want her to burn herself out.
You’re so intense when you get like this, he’d said once, his smile a disarming weapon.
She had filed it away, labeling it as normal, a necessary compromise in a life that was anything but. She was the one with the impossible schedule, the title that weighed a ton, the responsibility that never slept. Director of Strategic Operations at twenty-nine, a direct subordinate to Nick Fury himself. She was feared, respected, indispensable. Jason would remind her of that sometimes, never overtly, never cruelly. Just enough. Just enough to make her feel like he was the anchor holding her to the shore, when in reality, he was the current pulling her out to sea.
___
The rhythm of the next few weeks was forged in the fires of endless collaboration. Strategic Ops became a second home, a place where the boundaries between personal and professional dissolved into a haze of holographic displays and strategic overlays. They were locked in a cycle of joint briefings and cross-department planning, surviving on late nights, too much black coffee, and a deficit of sleep that felt less like exhaustion and more like a state of being.
Natasha was a constant, a presence that hovered at the periphery of Y/N’s consciousness. She was everywhere Y/N needed her to be without ever crossing the line into intrusion. There was a deliberate, practiced gentleness to her. She didn’t crowd; she waited. When Y/N paused mid-sentence, fingers hovering over the holo-display as she hunted for the right vector, Natasha didn't jump in. She watched, counted the seconds, and let Y/N find her footing again.
Jason, on the other hand, was immediate and demanding. He didn't wait. “That’s what I was about to say,” he’d cut in once, flashing that easy, practiced grin the moment Y/N finally finished her thought. “We should reroute through the southern corridor.” Y/N would blink, disoriented for a split second, then nod, already moving on before her brain could catch up.
Natasha saw the way Y/N’s jaw tightened in the silence that followed. It was a small detail, easy to miss, but Natasha caught it. The coffee was the first real tell. Y/N didn't remember mentioning her preferences, hadn't said a word about how she took it, black, one sugar, a splash of oat milk when she’d already had too much caffeine but Natasha brought it anyway. She set the mug down without comment, didn't wait for a thanks, and simply stepped back into the shadows of the room.
Jason brought coffee, too, sometimes, but it was always wrong. Too sweet, or with a bitterness that made Y/N’s teeth ache. He’d laugh it off, that easy, dismissive laugh. “You’re impossible to please,” he’d tease, leaning in to kiss her temple. Y/N would laugh with him, a sound that didn't quite reach her eyes, and drink it anyway, watching Natasha watch her from across the table.
___
“Director Barton.”
Y/N looked up from her laptop to find Natasha standing in the doorway of Strategic Ops. She was wearing her jacket slung over one shoulder, the fabric loose and casual, her expression neutral, unreadable.
“Yes?”
“You’re late to your own meeting.”
Y/N glanced at the clock and swore under her breath. “Damn it. Jason said he’d—”
Natasha didn’t comment. She simply stepped aside, a silent invitation to follow. “They’re waiting.”
The briefing room was already full when they arrived. Maria Hill gave Y/N a sharp look as she entered, but the look softened immediately into something familiar. It was a small comfort in the sea of tension that permeated the room.
Jason sat near the middle of the table, his chair angled slightly away from the head. It was a subtle, intentional detail, a way of positioning himself without being overt. He looked up when Y/N entered, smiling like he hadn't been checking his watch, like he hadn't been counting down the seconds.
“There she is,” he said lightly, his voice a practiced charm. “The woman of the hour.”
Y/N ignored the heat creeping up her neck and took her seat, pulling her tablet into position. The meeting progressed smoothly enough, a well-oiled machine of strategic planning. Jason contributed, his voice smooth and authoritative, and Natasha observed, her expression carefully blank.
Clint stood near the back of the room, arms crossed, watching everyone like a hawk. He wasn’t just present; he was evaluating, assessing the threat level of every move, every word.
It wasn’t until the end, when Fury asked for final thoughts, that Jason leaned back in his chair and said casually, “Of course, having the Director’s unique… access helps streamline decision-making.”
Y/N frowned, a knot tightening in her stomach. “My access?”
Jason shrugged, a flicker of arrogance in his eyes. “You know. Fury. Hill. Clint.” He smiled, like he’d just made a harmless joke, a casual observation about the way the world worked. “Not everyone gets that kind of family discount.”
The room went very still. The air seemed to thicken, heavy with unspoken implications. Y/N felt it like a physical thing, a sudden, sharp tightening in her chest, a sudden awareness of every eye turning toward her, dissecting her, judging her.
Natasha spoke up. “Careful,” she said quietly.
It wasn't directed at Y/N, but the words hung in the air, heavy and charged.
Jason turned toward her, surprised by the interruption. “I didn’t mean anything by it,” he said, his tone shifting to something more defensive, more earnest. “I was just making a joke.”
“I know,” Natasha replied. Her gaze flicked briefly to Y/N, a sharp, assessing look that seemed to measure the distance between them, before settling back on him. “That’s why you should be careful.”
Fury cleared his throat, the sound loud and final in the silence. “Meeting adjourned.”
People filed out quickly after that, murmuring low and uncomfortable, casting furtive glances at Y/N as they passed. Jason reached for Y/N’s arm as she stood, his touch light, almost tentative, but she stepped away without meaning to, a reflex born of years of self-preservation. His smile faltered for half a second, a crack in the armor, before he covered it with another laugh.
___
They didn't talk about it in the moment, the air in the briefing room too thin to sustain a conversation, but the silence hung between them like a physical weight. It wasn't until they were alone in the elevator, the doors sliding shut with a soft, pneumatic hiss that severed them from the rest of the world, that Jason finally broke it.
“You’re mad,” he said, stating it like a simple observation, a fact of the atmosphere rather than an accusation.
“You implied I got my position because of Clint,” Y/N replied evenly, her voice flat, betraying none of the turmoil she felt.
He laughed, a short, dismissive sound. “Come on. Everyone knows you earned it. It was a joke.”
“It wasn’t funny.”
He sighed, rubbing a hand over his temple as if the conversation were a migraine he could physically massage away. “You’re being sensitive.”
There it was again. That particular brand of softness. Polite, patient, and thoroughly dismissive. It was the tone used when someone was too emotional to understand the joke, too fragile to handle the truth.
“You can’t say things like that in front of Fury,” she said, her voice hardening.
“I can say whatever I want,” Jason replied, his irritation slipping through the veneer of charm. “I’ve got the credentials too.”
She looked at him then, really looked past the easy grin and the confident posture to the man underneath. “And I don’t?” she asked quietly, the question hanging in the confined space of the elevator car.
The elevator chimed, a jarring interruption. The doors slid open, revealing the sterile hallway of the upper floors.
Jason stepped out first, his stride long and purposeful, already turning down the corridor before she could answer. “You’re reading into it.”
She followed, silent, her shoulders tight against the fabric of her blazer, watching his retreating back with a gaze that felt dangerously close to scrutiny.
From the shadows of the corridor, Natasha watched them separate. Jason was striding ahead, confident and oblivious. Y/N trailed by a half-step, her body language defensive, her shoulders tight as if bracing for impact. Natasha stood rooted to the spot, filing the moment away, cataloging the distance between them, the tension in Y/N’s spine. It was a small crack, barely visible, but it was there.
___
Clint cornered Natasha later that night, back in the quiet, dimly lit common area where the hum of the ventilation system was the only other sound.
“I don’t like him,” he said without preamble, his arms crossed over his chest, his posture defensive.
Natasha arched an eyebrow, her expression unreadable. “You’ve mentioned.”
“He makes comments,” Clint continued, his voice low, rough with frustration. “Little ones. About her job. About me.”
Natasha leaned against the wall, mirroring his stance, arms crossed. “She defends him.”
“I know,” Clint said, his jaw clenching. “That’s what scares me.”
Natasha studied him for a long moment, her eyes searching his face for the lie she knew wasn't there. “She doesn’t need saving.”
Clint’s jaw tightened further. “That doesn’t mean she isn’t being hurt.”
Natasha didn’t disagree. She knew the language of emotional erosion better than anyone. The cracks didn't always scream for attention; sometimes they widened slowly, imperceptibly, until the structure underneath was compromised.
___
The atmosphere in their shared apartment grew brittle, thin enough to snap. Jason became colder in private, his patience evaporating under the weight of the long hours Y/N was keeping. The criticism grew sharper, more frequent. It was a slow erosion of the easy camaraderie they’d once shared.
“You’re always working,” he snapped one night when she canceled dinner, again, the accusation hanging heavy in the air. “Do you even want a life outside that office?”
“I don’t have a choice,” Y/N replied, her voice raw with exhaustion. She was tired of fighting, tired of explaining.
“You always have a choice,” he countered, his tone sharp, cutting. “You just don’t make me the choice.”
She swallowed the urge to argue, the words dying in her throat. It was a familiar dynamic, one that existed in a fractured reality. At work, Jason was flawless. He was supportive, the proud partner who stood beside her, basking in her successes. But at home, the affection became conditional, a reward for good behavior that was increasingly difficult to earn.
Natasha noticed the subtle shifts first. The way Y/N flinched when her phone buzzed in the middle of the night, as if the vibration were a physical blow. The way she checked her messages before responding to anyone else, a habit of constant vigilance. The way she started explaining her schedule, her reasoning, her justification before a question was even asked, as if she was already preemptively apologizing for her existence.
“You don’t have to justify your schedule to me,” Natasha said once, her voice gentle but firm, cutting through the fog.
Y/N blinked, startled. “I wasn’t-”
“I know,” Natasha replied, her gaze steady. “I’m just saying.”
Something else shifted in Y/N after that, though the change wasn't dramatic. It was a subtle realignment, a recalibration of her boundaries. The late nights continued, the relentless march of strategic planning, but Natasha was there to pick up the slack. She waited when Jason didn’t. She matched Y/N’s pace through the corridors of the complex, through the long conversations, through the comfortable silences. She never rushed her, never pushed, simply existing in the same space as a silent anchor.
One night, as they packed up after another endless session that had bled into the early morning, Y/N paused by the door, her hand lingering on the handle. She looked back at Natasha, her expression hesitant, vulnerable.
“Do you ever think,” she asked softly, her voice barely carrying over the hum of the equipment, “that people only see what they want to see?”
Natasha met her gaze, her expression unreadable but sincere. “All the time.”
Y/N nodded slowly, the tension in her shoulders releasing just a fraction. It was a small admission, but it felt like the answer to a question she hadn’t known how to ask.
___
The following week, Jason missed something fundamental, something that should have been a given. It was a date etched into the calendar that he brushed off with a distracted apology and a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes. Natasha didn't miss anything. She was there, silent and steady, bringing coffee when Y/N needed the caffeine hit, offering the kind of presence that required nothing in return.
Somewhere between the quiet and the waiting, the awareness took root. It wasn't a loud, explosive realization, nor was it a sudden, dramatic epiphany. It was something quieter, more insidious, settling deep in the marrow of her bones. It was undeniable. Natasha saw it before Y/N did, and once she saw it, she didn't look away.
By the time the Vienna briefing rolled around, Y/N was running on caffeine, precision, and muscle memory. The mission itself wasn't the problem; extraction from a hostile NGO front operating as an intelligence laundering hub was messy, but manageable. The real complication was visibility. There were too many eyes, too many egos, too many people who wanted credit without accountability. It was a perfect storm of political friction.
She stood at the head of the table again, hands braced lightly against the glass surface, holographic overlays cycling through contingencies with hypnotic smoothness. Her voice didn't waver as she laid out the parameters, tight windows, hard abort lines, layered redundancies designed to keep the team breathing.
Jason sat two seats down from her this time. Close enough to be involved, far enough to make a point. He watched her with that easy, confident smile, the one that usually signaled he was already winning the argument before it started.
“Operational authority remains centralized,” Y/N concluded, her voice firm. “Any deviation requires clearance through Strategic Ops. That’s non-negotiable.”
A murmur of assent rippled through the room, a collective breath of relief at the structure.
Jason leaned forward, resting his elbows on the table. “Just to clarify,” he said smoothly, his tone conversational, “field leads will still have discretion if circumstances change in real time, correct?”
Y/N met his gaze, her expression unreadable. “Within the parameters outlined.”
“Right,” he said, nodding as if satisfied. “I just don’t want us handcuffing the team with too much top-down oversight.”
There it was. Not a direct challenge, not outright defiance, but a suggestion wrapped in the language of partnership. It was a subtle shift in the room, a few people glancing at Jason, then back at Y/N, weighing the merit of his words against the safety of hers.
She kept her expression neutral, her fingers tightening slightly on the edge of the table. “Oversight keeps people alive.”
“Of course,” Jason replied, his smile widening just a fraction. “But flexibility wins wars.”
Natasha, seated along the wall with her chair tipped back on two legs, let it settle for exactly three seconds. She didn't look at Y/N, didn't look at Jason. She just watched the air between them, waiting.
Then she spoke. “Flexibility without accountability gets people killed.”
Her voice wasn't loud. It didn't need to be. It cut through the hum of the room like a knife.
Jason turned toward her, eyebrows lifting in feigned surprise. “I wasn’t aware you were part of Strategic Ops now.”
“I’m not,” Natasha said calmly. She leaned forward just enough to rest her forearms on her thighs, her posture open but challenging. “I’m part of the teams that clean up when strategy gets sloppy.”
The air went thin. Y/N felt her pulse spike, not with fear, but with a sudden, electric awareness. This was different. Natasha wasn't just backing her up; she was drawing a line in the sand, staking a claim.
Jason smiled, tight around the edges. “I think that’s a bit dramatic.”
Natasha’s gaze didn't waver. She held his eyes, unblinking. “I think you’re confusing confidence with competence.”
A few people in the room sucked in quiet breaths, the tension palpable.
Jason laughed once, sharp and short. “Excuse me?”
“You’re advocating for field autonomy without acknowledging the intel gaps,” Natasha continued, unruffled, her voice steady. “That’s not strategy. That’s ego.”
Y/N raised a hand, instinctively, to interject, to smooth things over. “Nat-”
But Natasha didn’t look at her. She was locked onto Jason, her focus absolute.
“And since we’re clarifying things,” Natasha added, her voice dropping an octave, “Director Barton’s framework already accounts for adaptive response. You’d know that if you’d read the full brief instead of skimming for talking points.”
The room fell into a heavy silence. Jason’s jaw tightened, the muscle ticking beneath his skin.
“That’s out of line,” he said, his voice dropping to a dangerous level.
“No,” Natasha said, her tone mild, almost conversational. “This is.”
She turned then, finally, to Y/N. Her expression was soft, almost apologetic, but her eyes were fierce.
“Your call is sound,” she said. “And if anyone has an issue with it, they can take it up with Fury.”
She leaned back in her chair again, the conversation over.
Y/N felt something electric hum through her chest, a rush of warmth that had nothing to do with the coffee she’d been drinking all morning. It wasn't triumph. It wasn't relief. It was validation. She cleared her throat, forcing her voice to remain steady.
“We’re proceeding as outlined.”
No one argued. The meeting ended ten minutes early.
___
Jason didn't speak to her as everyone filed out. He didn't reach out to touch her arm, didn't lean in for one of those familiar, intimate half-whispers, didn't offer that easy, practiced smile. He just waited. The corridor was empty at this late hour, the low hum of the overhead lights the only sound in the vast, sterile space. Jason stood a few feet away, shoulders squared, hands loose at his sides. He looked controlled, like a man who was holding himself together by a thread, but the thread wasn't snapping. It was coiled.
"What the hell was that?" he hissed, the words barely audible over the hum of the lights.
"You reframed my authority in front of a room full of agents," Y/N replied evenly, keeping her hands in her pockets.
He scoffed, a sharp, derisive sound. "I was trying to help."
"You were trying to control the narrative."
Jason’s eyes flashed, a dangerous glint in the dim light. "You let her disrespect me."
"She corrected you," Y/N said. "In front of everyone."
His tone carried a venom that was lower now, edged with something she only ever heard behind closed doors, in the quiet moments when the mask slipped. "You shouldn’t have put me in that position."
He took a step closer. Not abrupt. Deliberate. Calculated.
"You're overreacting," he said. "Natasha crossed a line."
"She corrected bad intel."
His voice dropped, rougher. "You're choosing her over me now?"
The words landed heavier than she expected, like a physical blow to her stomach. "I'm choosing the mission," she said.
Jason laughed, a humorless, bitter sound. "Funny. Because it feels like you're enjoying having a pit bull fight your battles."
Something cold settled in her stomach, cold and sharp. "She didn't fight my battle," Y/N said.
"She told the truth."
Jason stepped closer. Not touching. Looming just enough to remind her of the space he occupied, to make her feel small.
Jason smiled then, but it didn't reach his eyes. "You're enjoying this."
Y/N frowned. "Enjoying what?"
Another step closer. The distance between them shrank to something uncomfortable, a barrier she couldn't cross without brushing against him. "Makes you feel protected."
Her pulse ticked up, a frantic rhythm against her ribs. "I don't need protecting."
"I know," he said softly, the tone patronizing, like he was speaking to a child. "You hate when people think you do."
He stopped directly in front of her now. Too close. Not touching, but close enough that she had to tilt her head slightly to keep eye contact, a reflex to maintain distance. Close enough that the air felt different, thinner, harder to breathe.
"Don't do that again," he said.
"Do what?" She asked calmly.
"Let her talk over me."
His voice dropped. "Let her disrespect me."
"She wasn't-"
Jason leaned in further, she could smell his expensive cologne, feel the heat radiating off him. It wasn't a kiss. Not intimacy. It was almost aggressive, a territorial display.
"You made me look small," he said quietly. "In front of people who already think I'm not important."
Her stomach dropped, a sickening lurch. His gaze hardened. "I believe you forget how lucky you are sometimes."
Lucky. The word tasted like ash in her mouth. Her hands curled into fists at her sides, nails biting into her palms.
"I earned my position," she said.
"At work," Jason replied smoothly, his voice dropping an octave, dripping with disdain. "Yes."
The word hung there, ugly and deliberate. He was blocking the corridor without touching her. Not technically trapping her, but the geometry of the space had shifted, and she was suddenly, acutely aware of how little space there was to move without brushing past him, of how trapped she felt.
"You don't need her," he continued. "You don't need anyone whispering in your ear, making you question things that work."
"What works?" she asked.
Us, he meant. She saw it now. The expectation. The ownership disguised as concern. The invisible leash.
The door behind them slid open. Soft. Unassuming. Natasha stepped into the corridor, carrying a datapad, her expression neutral, unreadable.
She took in the scene in less than a second. The distance between Jason and Y/N. The angle of Jason's body, aggressive and closed off. The way Y/N's shoulders were tight and squared, her body language braced for impact. Natasha didn't blink. She didn't react.
Jason stepped back immediately. The pressure vanished so fast it almost felt unreal, the air in the corridor suddenly breathable again.
"Everything okay?" Natasha asked.
Jason turned, his expression already rearranging, shifting into the mask of the professional. "Of course. Just a professional disagreement."
Natasha didn't look at him. She looked at Y/N, her gaze searching, assessing.
Y/N didn't speak. Didn't have to.
Natasha's voice was calm when she spoke, devoid of heat. "No one should be overstepping your command."
The words landed like a blade between ribs, sharp and precise.
Jason laughed once, sharp and short. "Excuse me?"
Natasha finally met his gaze. She stepped forward, not aggressively, not defensively. She met him on equal footing, her posture open.
"You don't get to stand over her and call it concern," Natasha said. "And you don't get to weaponize her position against her."
Jason's face flushed, a red tide rising up his neck. "This is none of your business."
"It is now," Natasha responded calmly, her voice unwavering.
Silence stretched between them, heavy and suffocating. Y/N realized something then, something that scared her more than Jason ever had. She wasn't defending him. She wasn't explaining. She wasn't smoothing things over. She just stood there. And Natasha stayed.
Jason stormed off, his footsteps echoing down the corridor, fading into the distance.
Natasha waited until the sound of his retreating footsteps was completely gone before turning back to Y/N. She didn't reach for her. Didn't crowd her. She just stood there, a silent sentinel.
"You okay?" she asked.
Y/N nodded automatically, a reflex. Then she paused, the movement slowing. She shook her head. "I don't know."
Natasha didn't offer platitudes. She just stayed.
"You don't have to decide anything right now," she said. "But you should know..."
She hesitated, just a fraction, her eyes searching Y/N's face. "That wasn't normal."
Y/N swallowed hard, the knot in her throat tightening. "He's under a lot of pressure."
"So are you."
Y/N laughed weakly, a hollow sound. "That's different."
Natasha studied her, her expression unreadable. "Why?"
Y/N didn't have an answer. The silence stretched, heavy and uncomfortable.
That night, Y/N lay awake replaying the meeting in her head. Jason’s tone. Natasha’s voice. The way the room had gone still, not because of conflict, but because of clarity. She realized, with a start, that Natasha hadn't raised her voice once. She hadn't apologized. She hadn't checked for approval. She hadn't tried to placate. She'd simply… corrected him. And no one had questioned it.
___
The next morning, Clint found her in the gym. She was working the heavy bag like it had personally offended her, precision strikes with no wasted movement, her breath measured even as sweat slicked her temples. He leaned against the wall, arms crossed, watching her for a while before speaking.
“You know,” he said mildly, “most people deal with relationship stress by stress-eating.”
She didn’t stop. She just kept driving her fists into the leather, the rhythm steady and punishing.
“Go away.”
“See, that right there?” He nodded toward the bag. “That’s how I know I should stay out of it.”
She finally paused, forehead resting briefly against the leather, her chest heaving. “You don’t get to comment.”
“I get to worry,” Clint said. Then, softer, “I just don’t get to interfere.”
She straightened, rolling her shoulders, the tension in her spine slowly uncoiling. “Good.”
He held up his hands in surrender. “I will. Just… be careful.”
She nodded, her throat tight, the words catching in her chest.
As Clint turned to leave, he added over his shoulder, “For the record? You’re terrifying when you stop trying to be nice. I’d hate to be on the wrong side of that.”
A corner of her mouth twitched despite herself, a ghost of a smile.
Natasha watched them through the glass, her expression unreadable. But her decision was already crystallizing. She wasn’t imagining it, she wasn’t overstepping. And she wasn’t wrong. Jason thought power was something you held over people. Natasha knew better. Power was knowing exactly when to step in, and when to take what someone else didn’t know how to keep.
The thing about reputations was that they didn’t need defending, they defended themselves.
___
Jason’s reputation was his greatest weapon, a carefully curated armor of charisma that he wore like a second skin. Y/N watched it happen in real time, the way people leaned toward him in conversation, how his smile softened tension before it could ever crystallize into conflict. He remembered names. He remembered birthdays. He made jokes that landed without ever punching down. He thanked people publicly and corrected them privately, if at all. He was careful. Precise.
Which meant that when Y/N began to feel like she was drowning, suffocating under the weight of her own performance, it was easy to believe the problem was her. That she was the leak in the system, the one person who couldn't quite hold it together.
It started small, insidious. A hand at her lower back that lingered just long enough to steer instead of reassure, a guiding hand that moved her when she was already moving. A glance when she spoke too long in meetings, subtle but pointed, like a reminder that she was taking up space that others might want. Comments framed as concern.
"You've been sharp lately."
"People are starting to notice."
"I just don't want anyone getting the wrong idea."
She adjusted. Of course she did. She always had. Y/N learned early how to calibrate herself to a room, how to project authority without arrogance, decisiveness without cruelty. As Director of Strategic Operations, that balance was survival. Too soft and people ignored you. Too hard and they resented you. Jason knew that. Which meant he knew exactly how to frame his criticism so it sounded like help.
"You don't have to prove anything," he told her one night as she worked through yet another contingency tree at their kitchen table. His voice was warm, casual, the kind of tone that invited relaxation rather than scrutiny. He leaned against the counter, beer in hand, watching her with something like fond amusement.
"I'm not," she said without looking up, her eyes glued to the holographic display.
He smiled. "You always say that."
Her jaw tightened, a muscle ticking beneath her skin. "Because it's true."
"Sure," Jason replied easily, his tone breezy. "I just worry you're pushing too hard. You've already got the job. You don't need to be... on all the time."
On all the time. The words hung in the air, heavy with implication.
She glanced up then, catching the faint edge beneath the words, the resentment that he hid so well. "Strategic Ops doesn't turn off."
"I know," he said quickly, his smile faltering for a split second before he recovered. "I just mean, sometimes it feels like you forget there's a world outside that office."
Something about the way he said it made her chest tighten, a sudden, sharp pressure behind her ribs. "And what," she asked, carefully, her voice measured, "would that world look like?"
Jason shrugged. "Normal. Dinner plans. Showing up to things without checking your phone every five minutes."
Her fingers stilled over the tablet, the holographic display flickering as she stopped typing. "You mean like the Vienna briefing?" she asked.
He hesitated. Just a fraction too long. A pause that felt like a lie.
"That was different."
"It was an international operation," Y/N said evenly, her voice losing its edge. "You wanted visibility. I needed focus."
"And you got both," he replied, his smile sharpening, the arrogance returning. "Thanks to Natasha."
There it was. Not an accusation. Not jealousy. Just enough emphasis to make her feel like she'd missed something important, like she was the only one who didn't understand the stakes.
"I didn't ask her to step in," Y/N said, her voice low.
"I know," Jason replied. "That's kind of the point."
She closed her tablet with more force than necessary, the plastic casing clicking against the table. "What are you saying?"
Jason held up his hands, a gesture of surrender that looked rehearsed. "I'm not saying anything. I just... people talk."
Her stomach dropped, a cold pit opening in her gut. "Who?"
"No one important," he said quickly, his eyes darting away. "It's just... optics matter. Especially for you."
For you. Not us.
Y/N leaned back in her chair, suddenly exhausted, the weight of the conversation pressing down on her shoulders. "Natasha is a colleague."
"Natasha is a wildcard," Jason corrected gently, his tone shifting to something more conspiratorial. "You know her reputation."
Y/N did. Natasha Romanoff was brilliant, lethal, loyal to those she chose. Her history was a tangle of redacted files and whispered stories, a woman who had walked through fire and come out the other side. She was trusted with missions no one else could touch, the one person who could be counted on when everyone else had failed.
Jason's voice softened further, the concern turning into something that felt like a warning. "I just don't want you getting caught in the fallout if she decides to... complicate things, or change sides... again."
Y/N studied his face. Open. Concerned. Perfect.
"You're worried about me," she said slowly, the words heavy in her mouth.
"Of course I am," Jason replied, stepping closer. He brushed a kiss against her temple, a gesture of intimacy that felt performative, a way of sealing a deal. "That's my job."
She let herself lean into it, closing her eyes for a moment, the warmth of his breath against her skin. Because it was easier than asking why his concern felt so much like a warning.
___
At work, Natasha noticed the shift before Y/N did. She always did. It was in the way Y/N began arriving earlier and staying later, not out of urgency or ambition, but out of avoidance. She was retreating into the fortress of Strategic Ops, building walls that weren't necessary, trying to make herself scarce. It was in the way Y/N paused before speaking in meetings, as if running her words through an internal filter that hadn't been there before, testing them for bite, for sharpness, for anything that might provoke a reaction.
She stopped correcting people. Not because she didn't see the mistakes, but because she’d started picking her battles, conserving her energy for the things that actually mattered. Jason filled the silence. He stepped into the gaps with practiced ease, a man who knew the architecture of power better than he knew his own name. He reframed Y/N’s directives as collaborative suggestions, positioning himself as the intermediary when there hadn't been a need for one, smoothing over the rough edges of her authority until it was unrecognizable. He praised her decisions while subtly distancing himself from their consequences, acting as the buffer between her genius and the fallout of reality.
“She prefers a conservative approach,” he’d say with a fond, almost patronizing smile, the kind of smile that said he was indulging a child. “Keeps us all alive.”
It sounded supportive. It felt diminishing. Natasha watched Y/N accept it, and that was the part that bothered her most. She was letting him rewrite the narrative without a fight.
In one briefing, Fury questioned a delayed deployment, nothing sharp, just a raised eyebrow and a simple, “Walk me through your thinking.” Y/N opened her mouth to respond, to explain the calculus, the risk assessment, the hard choices. Jason beat her to it.
“She didn’t want to risk civilian exposure,” he said smoothly, his voice dripping with feigned concern. “Which I understand, even if I might’ve pushed harder.”
Y/N froze. She was a woman of action, a woman who made decisions and stood by them, but for a split second, she looked like a child caught in a lie. She recovered quickly, she always did, masking the flicker with a nod, but Natasha saw the way Y/N’s fingers tightened against the table edge, white-knuckled and desperate. She nodded instead of correcting him, swallowing her own voice.
Natasha said nothing. Not yet. She watched the dynamic play out, the way Jason was slowly eroding her confidence, bit by bit.
Afterward, Clint found her leaning against the corridor wall, arms crossed, her gaze distant, fixed on nothing but the hum of the lights. “You’re going to burn a hole through the building if you keep glaring like that,” he muttered.
Natasha didn’t look at him. “He’s isolating her.”
Clint exhaled slowly, a long, ragged sound. “I know.”
“You’re not stopping him.”
“I can’t,” Clint replied, his voice quiet. “She hasn’t asked.”
Natasha turned then, her eyes sharp, cutting through the dim light. “You think she will?”
Clint didn’t answer. That was answer enough.
___
Y/N didn’t tell Clint about the argument. Or the next one. Or the one after that. They followed a pattern, quiet at first, then sharper, always ending with Jason pulling back just enough to make her doubt herself, to make her wonder if she was the one who was broken.
“You’re twisting my words.”
“You’re imagining intent where there isn’t any.”
“You know how this sounds, right?”
Each time, Y/N found herself explaining. Clarifying. Apologizing for reactions she couldn’t quite justify, for emotions she couldn’t control. She stopped mentioning Natasha unless necessary. Stopped staying late when Jason said he’d be waiting. Stopped correcting him in public altogether.
Natasha noticed.
“You don’t have to do that,” she said one night as they walked through the compound parking structure, footsteps echoing between concrete pillars, the air cool and stale.
“Do what?” Y/N asked.
“Make yourself smaller,” Natasha replied.
Y/N let out a tired, humorless laugh. “I’m not.”
Natasha didn’t argue. She rarely did. But she adjusted her pace, slowed just enough that Y/N didn’t have to rush. Matched her stride instead of leading. It was a subtle shift in the geometry of their walk, a silent concession to the weight on Y/N’s shoulders. Jason didn’t match. He set the pace and expected her to keep up, regardless of the cost.
___
The fundraiser was Fury’s idea. Good optics. Donors. Diplomats. A reminder that the Avengers were still symbols, not just weapons. Jason thrived. He wore a tailored suit that fit like armor, his charm polished to a blinding sheen. His hand was warm and steady at Y/N’s back as he guided her through conversations she’d rather avoid, steering her through the social minefield with practiced ease.
He introduced her as Director Barton, brilliant and tireless, the backbone of Strategic Operations. People smiled. Complimented. Praised. Y/N smiled back, her expression a mask of gratitude, her eyes scanning the room for an exit.
From across the room, Natasha watched. She didn’t approach. Didn’t interrupt. She saw the way Jason angled Y/N slightly away from anyone who asked too many questions, how he answered for her when conversations veered toward strategy, how he laughed lightly when she tried to redirect.
“She’s always working,” he’d say fondly, his voice warm and intimate. “Even now.”
It sounded affectionate. It felt like a cage.
At one point, Y/N excused herself to the bar under the pretense of grabbing drinks. Jason let her go with a kiss, with a smile, with eyes that tracked her movement until she disappeared into the crowd, a possessive gaze that made her skin crawl.
Natasha met her there.
“You look like you’re about to bolt,” Natasha said quietly.
Y/N accepted the glass Natasha slid toward her without comment, the ice clinking against the crystal.
“Is it that obvious?”
“To me,” Natasha replied.
Y/N took a sip. “He’s just… very good at this.”
“Yes,” Natasha agreed, her voice devoid of judgment. “He is.”
They stood in silence for a moment, the noise of the room swelling around them, a cacophony of laughter and clinking glasses. “You know,” Y/N said finally, her voice barely audible over the din. “Everyone loves him.”
Natasha’s gaze didn’t waver. “Everyone loves the version he shows them.”
Y/N’s grip tightened on the glass, her knuckles turning white. “That’s not fair.”
“Is it inaccurate?” Natasha asked gently.
Y/N didn’t answer.
Jason appeared moments later, his arm sliding around Y/N’s waist, his touch possessive and warm. “There you are,” he said warmly, his eyes never leaving her face. “I was starting to think you’d abandoned me.”
She stiffened just slightly, a reflex she couldn't quite suppress. Natasha clocked it.
“Director Barton was just catching her breath,” Natasha said evenly, her tone polite but firm. “These things can be… a lot.”
Jason smiled at her, a tight, practiced expression. “She handles pressure better than anyone.”
Y/N forced a smile and Natasha stepped back. Because this wasn’t her move to make. Not yet.
The control tightened after that. Jason began framing his expectations as sacrifices. “I stayed late for you.” “I turned down that assignment because I knew you’d worry.” “I don’t say anything when people assume things, I protect you.”
Protect. The word sat heavy in Y/N’s chest, a leaden weight that made it hard to breathe. She found herself editing conversations before they happened, preemptively smoothing edges so Jason wouldn’t bristle. She stopped venting. Stopped sharing doubts.
Natasha noticed when Y/N started checking her phone before responding to questions, the habit of waiting for permission to speak.
“You don’t owe me or anyone an explanation,” Natasha said quietly one night as they wrapped up a briefing, the holographic displays fading into darkness.
Y/N blinked, startled. “I wasn’t-”
“I know,” Natasha replied, her gaze softening. “I’m just saying.”
The silence that followed was thick with things unsaid, a heavy, suffocating blanket that Clint watched with a helpless kind of fury. He saw the way Y/N’s laughter dulled, the way she scanned rooms instinctively before speaking, the way Jason’s presence filled space even when he wasn’t talking, a physical weight that seemed to push everyone else away.
He said nothing. Because Y/N hadn’t asked, and because Natasha was already standing closer than he ever could.
___
The night Jason accused her of being “too close” to Natasha, it was almost casual. They were brushing their teeth, the mirror fogged with steam, the air in the small bathroom heavy with unspoken things.
“People notice things,” Jason said, mouth full of toothpaste, his voice muffled.
Y/N froze, the toothbrush hovering halfway to her mouth.
“What things?”
“You and her,” he replied, shrugging as if it were no big deal. “Late nights. Private conversations.”
“We work together,” Y/N said, her voice tight.
“So do I,” Jason replied, spitting into the sink and wiping his mouth with a towel. “But I don’t hover.”
She turned to face him, wiping the foam from her lips. “Is this about jealousy?”
Jason laughed, a short, dismissive sound. “No. It’s about professionalism.”
Her chest tightened, a sharp, physical reaction to the dismissal. “You don’t trust me.”
“I trust you,” he said quickly, his eyes flickering with something like genuine panic. “I just don’t trust her.”
The words echoed in the small space, sharp and final. That night, Y/N lay awake long after Jason fell asleep, staring at the ceiling, the hum of the ventilation the only sound. She thought about Natasha’s steady presence, the way she had walked into that corridor and stood her ground. She thought about Clint’s quiet concern. The way she’d started holding her breath without even realizing it, waiting for the other shoe to drop. For the first time, she wondered, what if this wasn’t normal? What if she was just imagining things?
At the compound, Natasha Romanoff stood alone on the balcony, staring out at the sprawling city lights below, her jaw set. She didn’t want to interfere. She didn’t want to push. But watching Y/N disappear piece by piece, becoming smaller and smaller in the mirror, felt like complicity. Jason thought he was perfect. Everyone else thought so too. Natasha knew better, and she was running out of patience.
___
The crisis hit at 02:17. It wasn’t the kind that made headlines. No explosions. No alarms blaring through the compound. Just a red notification blinking to life on Y/N’s tablet as she sat alone in Strategic Ops, shoes kicked off beneath her desk, jacket draped over the back of her chair.
Vienna had gone sideways. Not catastrophic, yet, but one of the extraction teams had lost comms for ninety seconds longer than projected, and ninety seconds was an eternity when the margin for error was already razor-thin.
Y/N was on her feet instantly. She snapped orders into the comm channel, fingers flying over the console as she rerouted satellite bandwidth and pulled up contingency feeds. Her mind narrowed, sharpened, this was the part of the job she trusted herself in completely. This was where she never hesitated. This was the only time she felt truly alive.
“Ops, this is Director Barton,” she said calmly, her voice cutting through the static. “Switch to secondary relay. Vienna Team Three, report status.”
Static crackled. Then, “Copy, Director. We’re pinned but mobile. No casualties.”
Y/N exhaled slowly, tension easing just a fraction. “Hold position. Don’t push. We’re adjusting extraction.”
She pivoted toward the main display, already recalculating windows. Jason was supposed to be here. He’d said he’d come by after his briefing, said he wanted to be present, wanted to support her during the Vienna operation because he knew how much scrutiny it was under. She didn't think about that now. She didn't have time. She was too busy keeping the world from falling apart.
“Natasha Romanoff,” she said into the open channel. “Status.”
“South bay, cleared.”
Natasha replied immediately. “Where do you need me?”
No delay. No clarification needed. Y/N gave coordinates and parameters, voice steady even as the pressure mounted, the numbers flashing red on the screens around her. Natasha acknowledged and moved, efficient, precise, exactly as she always was, a ghost in the machine, a force of nature that simply was.
The operation stabilized over the next forty minutes. Not cleanly. Not easily. But no one died. By the time Y/N leaned back against her desk, adrenaline bleeding off in slow waves, her hands were shaking, the tremors a physical reminder of the toll.
She checked her phone then. No messages. She stared at the screen longer than she meant to, the silence of the empty room pressing in on her.
At 03:11, the door to Strategic Ops opened. Y/N looked up automatically, relief spiking before she could stop herself, a reflex of hope she couldn't quite suppress.
It wasn’t Jason.
Natasha stepped inside, hair still damp from rain or sweat, jacket half-zipped, eyes already scanning Y/N’s posture, her face, looking for the cracks.
“You good?” Natasha asked.
Y/N swallowed, the knot in her throat tight. “Extraction’s secure.”
“I know,” Natasha replied, her voice low and steady. “I meant you.”
Y/N hesitated, the words caught in her throat. Then nodded. “I’m fine.”
Natasha studied her for a long moment, her gaze searching, looking for the lie she knew was there. She didn’t call her out. She didn’t push. She crossed the room instead and leaned back against the desk, close enough to be grounding without crowding, a silent anchor in the chaos.
“You ran it clean,” Natasha said. “Vienna could’ve been ugly.”
Y/N let out a tired breath, the sound of a woman finally letting herself exhale. “It almost was.”
“But it wasn’t,” Natasha replied, her voice gentle but firm. “Because you planned for that.”
The words landed gently, but they landed, a truth she hadn't allowed herself to feel. Y/N closed her eyes for a moment, the weight of the room lifting just a fraction.
Jason still hadn’t shown.
___
The chime of the incoming text was a sliver of light in the oppressive dark of 03:38. It illuminated Y/N’s face, stark and pale, as she read the message once.
Sorry, got pulled into something last-minute. You okay? We’ll talk tomorrow.
She read it again. The words didn’t change, but their weight seemed to double, pressing down on her chest. A third time, as if repetition might unlock some hidden meaning, some reassurance that wasn’t there. Her thumb hovered over the glowing keyboard, typing and deleting a response that felt hollow before it was even sent. It didn’t matter what she said. The finality of that thought settled in her bones. With a soft click, she set the phone face down, extinguishing the last bit of light in the room and surrendering to the heavy quiet.
Across the desk, Natasha watched the entire performance without a word. She didn’t offer any comments or ask who it was. Instead, she unfolded herself from her chair with a fluid grace that seemed out of place in the stillness of the room. The soft tread of her boots was the only sound as she moved toward the small kitchenette. When she returned, it was with the crisp crinkle of a plastic bottle. She pressed the cold water into Y/N’s unresisting hand.
“Drink,” she said, her voice a low murmur that was both command and comfort.
Y/N obeyed, the cool liquid a welcome shock against her dry throat. The silence that followed was not empty or awkward; it was a dense, protective blanket, woven from shared understanding and unspoken history.
“I didn’t think it would hit like this,” Y/N confessed, the words barely disturbing the air.
Natasha leaned a hip against the edge of the desk, her posture deceptively casual. “What?”
“The waiting.” Y/N’s gaze was fixed on the bottle in her hands, tracing the condensation with a fingertip. “I keep telling myself it’s part of the job. That things come up. That I shouldn’t expect…” Her jaw tightened, cutting off the word before it could fully form. “Anything.”
Natasha didn’t rush to fill the pause. She let the silence stretch, giving Y/N the space to voice the ache that had clearly been festering.
“You don’t ask for much,” Natasha said, her tone even, certain.
A weak, humorless laugh escaped Y/N’s lips. “That’s not true.”
“It is,” Natasha countered, her voice leaving no room for argument. “You just don’t see it.”
Y/N finally looked up, meeting Natasha’s gaze. Her friend’s expression was carefully composed, a mask of professional calm, but beneath it, something had shifted. A resolve had hardened in her eyes, a sharpness that was both reassuring and slightly dangerous.
“You stayed,” Y/N whispered, the realization landing with the force of a revelation.
Natasha gave a single, decisive nod. “I said I would.”
“You always do.”
“Yes,” Natasha agreed, her voice dropping to a near-inaudible promise. “I do.”
___
The anniversary came three days later, and Jason missed it. Y/N understood the nature of the oversight the moment she stood alone in their apartment, a phantom in the dress she’d bought weeks ago for a dinner that existed only in her mind. The reservation time bled into the past, each minute a small, sharp betrayal. At twenty past, she called his phone, only to be met with the cool, impersonal void of his voicemail. At thirty-five past, a text lit up her screen.
Running late. Don’t wait up. Rain check?
Rain check. The words were a key turning in a lock she hadn’t known was there, and the feeling that flooded her chest wasn’t anger, but something colder, something hollow. She stared at her reflection in the darkened window, at a woman who looked exactly as she always did: composed, capable, alone. She shed the dress without ceremony, a ritual devoid of passion. There were no tears, no shattered glass, only the quiet methodical act of returning to work.
Strategic Ops was a sanctuary of dimmed lights and hushed efficiency when she arrived. She let herself into her office, the door clicking shut behind her, and sank into her chair, her gaze lost in the sprawling galaxy of the city beyond the glass. She didn’t know how long she sat adrift in that quiet sea before the knock came, a soft, precise rap on the door.
“Come in,” she said, her voice on autopilot.
Natasha stepped inside, her presence an immediate anchor. Y/N didn’t ask how she knew to find her; she never did.
“You should be home,” Y/N said, the words sounding thin even to her own ears.
Natasha closed the door, sealing them in. “So should you.”
A brittle laugh escaped Y/N. “Guess we both missed the memo.”
Natasha crossed the room, stopping a careful few feet away, a space that was neither intrusive nor distant. “You don’t have to justify why you’re here,” she said, her voice level.
Y/N swallowed against the knot in her throat. “I didn’t want to be alone.” The admission felt like a fissure cracking open her carefully constructed facade.
Natasha didn’t flinch from the rawness of it. “Okay,” she said simply. She moved to the chair opposite Y/N’s desk and sat, her forearms resting loosely on her thighs, a portrait of unwavering calm. “I’m not going anywhere,” she added.
Something in Y/N’s chest, a dam she hadn’t known she was holding back, finally gave way. She pressed the heels of her palms to her eyes, regulating her breath with a precision born of long practice. “This isn’t fair,” she whispered. “To you.”
Natasha tilted her head, a gesture of quiet consideration. “I didn’t say it was.”
“You don’t owe me this,” Y/N pressed, the guilt a sour taste.
“I know,” Natasha replied, her gaze unwavering. “I’m choosing it.”
That word again. Choosing. Y/N looked at her then, truly looked, past the mask of the spy and the friend, to the woman underneath. She saw the calm certainty in her posture, the way she didn’t demand or expect, the way her presence felt like space to breathe, not a weight to bear. Jason made her feel like a problem to be managed. Natasha made her feel like a person who could simply exist.
They stayed like that for a long time, two figures in a silent room, sharing nothing but the air.
The final blow was struck not in the quiet of their home, but in the sterile light of a briefing room. It was a critical debrief Y/N had scheduled for weeks, with oversight and external observers watching their every move. It went live without Jason. He was late. Again. Y/N adjusted on the fly, her voice a steady current as she took questions and fielded concerns, holding the room with the same unshakeable competence that was her signature.
When Jason finally slipped in fifteen minutes late, rain-spattered and flashing an apologetic grin, the atmosphere in the room shifted palpably.
“Oh, good,” one of the observers muttered, a note of relief in his voice. “He’s here.”
Jason offered that easy, disarming smile. “Sorry, traffic.”
Y/N didn’t spare him a glance. She didn’t have the time.
When the meeting adjourned, Jason caught up to her in the hallway, his fingers closing around her elbow. “Hey,” he said, his voice soft, placating. “You could’ve texted.”
Her patience didn’t shatter. It snapped, cleanly and without warning. “I did,” she said, her voice devoid of inflection.
Jason blinked. “What?”
“Last night,” Y/N replied, still walking. “And the night before that. And Vienna.”
His smile finally faltered. “Y/N…”
“No,” she said, stopping and turning to face him. Her voice was as steady as her hands. “I don’t need excuses.”
His jaw tightened, a familiar prelude to a defense. “I had things going on.”
“So did I,” she replied, her gaze level.
He scoffed, a light, dismissive sound. “You’re making this a bigger deal than it is.”
And in that moment, something inside her went very still. It wasn’t a realization; it was a fact, settling into its final, undeniable shape. He would never be there. Not in the way she needed. And he would always, always, make that her fault.
Jason reached for her again, his expression shifting to one of placating command. “Let’s not do this here.”
“We’re not doing anything,” Y/N said. She took a deliberate step back, breaking the circuit between them.
From down the corridor, Natasha stood in the shadow of an alcove, watching. Not intervening. Just witnessing.
That was the moment Natasha decided. Not because Y/N was breaking, but because she was finally, clearly, seeing.
___
Natasha did not move with haste. She moved with intent, a quiet, steady recalibration. She made sure she was present, not as a shadow, but as a fixture. She waited outside debriefings, walked Y/N to her car, stayed when Jason didn’t. There was no campaign of disparagement, no pressure for a confession. She simply allowed the void of Jason’s absence to fill itself with the solid fact of her own presence.
One night, after a shift that had stretched into eternity, Y/N slumped into the chair beside Natasha in the empty briefing room, exhaustion carved into the very lines of her posture.
“I keep expecting him to show up,” she admitted, her voice thin. “And then he doesn’t. And I don’t know why that still surprises me.”
Natasha’s voice was a low hum in the quiet room. “Because you care.”
Y/N gave a slow, weary nod. “I think I always will. A little.”
“That’s allowed,” Natasha said.
Y/N turned to look at her. “And you?”
Natasha didn’t answer immediately. When she did, her voice was a steady, unwavering line. “I’m not waiting for him to be better.”
Y/N’s breath caught in her throat.
Natasha met her gaze, her own clear and direct. “I’m not asking you to choose me,” she continued. “I’m choosing you.”
The words settled between them, dangerous in their honesty, irrevocable in their finality. There were no promises, no pressure. Only truth. Y/N didn’t respond. She didn’t have to. For the first time in a long time, someone had said exactly what they meant and stayed. And Natasha Romanoff, having made her decision, did not intend to lose. Not this time.
The fight didn’t begin with a shout, but with a silence. Jason didn’t come home that night. Y/N didn’t text him. That was new. She sat alone at the kitchen table long after midnight, Strategic Ops files abandoned in favor of the steady, grounding weight of stillness. Her phone lay face up beside her, unlit, unmoving. For the first time, the quiet didn’t feel like waiting. It felt like space.
He arrived just after one. There was no apology, no disarming smile. The door shut harder than necessary, the sound echoing through the apartment like a full stop.
“You didn’t answer me,” he said.
Y/N looked up slowly. “You didn’t ask anything.”
Jason tossed his jacket onto the counter, his movements sharp, agitated. “I texted you.”
“You told me you’d be late,” she replied evenly. “Again.”
His jaw flexed. “That’s not the point.”
She stood, pushing her chair back with deliberate calm. “Then what is?”
Jason laughed once, a short, incredulous sound. “You’ve been different.”
Y/N folded her arms. “I’ve been paying attention.”
His eyes narrowed. “To her.”
There it was. The accusation, finally unmasked.
“This isn’t about Natasha,” Y/N said.
Jason took a step closer. “Everything is about her lately.”
She didn’t retreat. “That’s not true.”
“You’re lying,” he snapped. “To me. To yourself.”
The volume rose then, not quite a yell, but sharper, edged with frustration. “Lower your voice,” Y/N said.
Jason scoffed. “You don’t get to tell me what to do.”
The words hit harder than she expected. She felt something inside her settle, not fear, not anger, but a cold, hard finality.
“You don’t get to talk to me like that,” she said.
Jason’s laugh was hollow. “There it is. Director Barton.”
She flinched despite herself. He noticed, his mouth curving in a satisfied smirk. “You think you’re untouchable now.”
“I think you’re crossing a line,” she replied.
He stepped closer. Too close. “Funny,” he said quietly. “That’s exactly what people say about her.”
Y/N’s pulse ticked up. “Step back.”
Jason didn’t. “You like that she defends you,” he continued. “Makes you feel special. Chosen.”
“I didn’t ask her to-”
“Don’t lie to me!” His voice cracked, sharp and sudden. The sound ricocheted off the walls.
Y/N held her ground. “I’m not.”
Jason’s breathing was heavier now, his chest rising and falling. “You think you get to embarrass me. Undermine me. And I’m just supposed to, what? Take it?”
“I never embarrassed you,” Y/N said. “You did that yourself.”
The backhand came fast. Not a push, not a shove, but a full, brutal swing. The contact was sudden, his hand striking her cheek with enough force to snap her head to the side. She could feel the imprint of his ring, hot against her skin. The sound was loud; the silence that followed was deafening. Y/N staggered back a step, her hand flying to her face as her ears rang. Jason froze for half a second, his expression shifting not to remorse, but to calculation.
“I didn’t mean-” he started.
“Get away from me,” Y/N said. Her voice didn’t shake. That seemed to unnerve him more than anything. “I said get away from me,” she repeated.
Jason reached for her wrist. She twisted instinctively, but he was stronger, his grip tightening, fingers digging into her skin. “You’re not walking away from this,” he said. “Not after what you’ve done.”
She yanked back hard. “Let go.”
He didn’t. He shoved her, not across the room, but with enough force to send her stumbling into the counter. Her hip struck first, a sharp, bright flare of pain. Jason loomed over her, his breath hot, his eyes wild. “You don’t get to make me look small.”
Something inside her snapped clean in two. “You did that,” Y/N said, her voice ringing with a terrible clarity. “All by yourself.”
His hand came up again. This time, she was ready. She shoved him back with both palms, not elegant, not controlled, but pure, raw survival. He stumbled, surprised more than hurt. That was enough. She bolted.
Jason grabbed for her again, his fingers catching the fabric of her shirt, yanking her back just long enough for her to twist free and run for the door.
“Y/N!” he shouted. “Don’t you dare!”
The door slammed behind her. She didn’t wait for the elevator. She took the stairs two at a time, lungs burning, heart pounding a frantic rhythm that drowned out everything else. Her cheek throbbed. Her wrist ached. But what hurt the most was the clarity.
___
She didn’t remember making the call, only the sound of Natasha’s voice answering on the first ring, a lifeline thrown into the abyss.
“Hello?”
“I need you,” Y/N said. Three words. They were enough.
“I’m on my way,” Natasha replied, her voice a steady, unbreakable promise. “Stay where you are.”
The command anchored her. Y/N collapsed onto the concrete landing of the stairwell, the adrenaline finally bleeding out of her, leaving a tremor in its wake. She pressed her forehead to her knees, breathing through the sharp, blooming ache in her cheek. She felt stupid. She felt furious. And she felt free in a way that terrified her.
Footsteps echoed below moments later, fast and purposeful. Natasha appeared at the turn of the stairs, her eyes sweeping over Y/N in a single, devastating glance that took in everything. Y/N didn’t wonder how she’d known where to find her; she simply accepted it as fact. Natasha knelt in front of her, her hands hovering just short of contact, a question in the space between them.
“Can I touch you?”
Y/N nodded.
Natasha’s fingers were impossibly gentle as they made contact, one hand cupping the uninjured side of Y/N’s jaw, the other brushing back her hair to examine the skin already swelling and darkening. Natasha’s own jaw tightened, a subtle, dangerous shift.
“Did he do this?” she asked, her voice dangerously quiet.
“Yes.”
No excuses. No minimization. Just the truth.
Natasha exhaled slowly through her nose, a controlled release of a fury that must have been immense. “Okay.” She helped Y/N to her feet, one arm a steady, unyielding band around her waist, guiding her toward the exit.
“Where are we going?” Y/N asked, her voice thin and reedy.
“Somewhere safe,” Natasha replied.
They did not go back to the apartment. They did not go back to the Tower. They went to Natasha’s.
Natasha’s apartment was an exercise in control, every surface spare and clean, every object exactly where it was meant to be. Y/N sat on the edge of the leather couch while Natasha moved with practiced efficiency, returning with ice, a first-aid kit, and a glass of water. But beneath the calm precision was something coiled and violent, a predator banked and waiting.
“Sit still,” Natasha said, her tone softening as she pressed the ice pack to Y/N’s cheek with exquisite care.
Y/N hissed at the contact. “It’s not that bad.”
Natasha’s eyes flicked up to hers, silencing her. “Don’t.”
Y/N fell silent. They stayed like that for a long while, the shock giving way to a sharper, more insistent pain as the reality of the night settled in.
“I should have seen it,” Y/N whispered.
Natasha shook her head once, a firm, decisive motion. “No.”
“I’m not stupid,” Y/N said, a thread of anger weaving through her voice now. “I knew he was controlling. I knew he…”
“You knew what you could handle,” Natasha interrupted, her voice calm and absolute. “And you survived the rest.”
Y/N swallowed hard against the lump in her throat. “He said I made him feel small.”
Natasha’s mouth curved, not in humor, but in something colder and sharper. “Good.”
A broken laugh escaped Y/N, dissolving into hot, silent tears that tracked down her cheeks. Natasha didn’t rush her. She simply stayed, a solid, grounding presence in the storm. When Y/N finally looked up, her eyes red and fierce, Natasha was right there.
“I don’t think he loves me,” Y/N said, the words a fragile admission.
Natasha didn’t hesitate. “I know he doesn’t,” she said.
Y/N flinched. “You don’t know that.”
“I do,” Natasha replied quietly. “Because love doesn’t bruise. And it doesn’t trap.”
A heavy silence fell between them, thick with unspoken history. Natasha inhaled slowly, as if bracing herself.
“I’m going to say something,” she said. “You can tell me to stop.”
Y/N nodded.
“I don’t think he loves you the way you deserve,” Natasha said. “And I know I do.”
No flourish. No plea. Just a statement of fact, delivered with the quiet force of a conviction long held.
Y/N stared at her, breathless. “That’s dangerous,” she whispered.
“Yes,” Natasha agreed, her gaze unwavering. “For both of us.”
“You’re not trying to save me,” Y/N said, it wasn't a question.
“No,” Natasha replied. “I’m telling you the truth.”
Y/N’s chest felt impossibly tight. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.”
Natasha leaned back slightly, a deliberate gesture to give her space. “You don’t have to decide anything tonight.”
“But?” Y/N pressed.
“But you don’t go back,” Natasha said. The certainty in her voice was unyielding, a bedrock of fact.
As if on cue, Jason’s name lit up Y/N’s phone where it sat on the coffee table. It rang once. Then again. Natasha didn’t look at it. Y/N did, her body tensing with the familiar, instinctual pull to explain, to soften, to fix the unfixable.
Natasha saw it. She reached out, not to touch Y/N’s hand, but to rest her own beside it on the cushion, a silent offer of solidarity.
“You don’t owe him closure,” Natasha said softly. “You owe yourself safety.”
The phone went silent. Y/N reached out and turned it face down.
“I’m scared,” she admitted, the words barely a breath.
“I know,” Natasha replied. “I’m here.”
Y/N nodded, a shuddering breath escaping her. For the first time, she let herself believe it.
Outside, the city went on, unaware and indifferent. Inside, something irrevocable had broken. And something else, quiet, fierce, and real, had finally begun to build.
___
Y/N did not go back to the apartment. That decision settled into her bones sometime before dawn, when the city outside Natasha’s windows shifted from neon to gray and the quiet stopped feeling temporary. Her cheek still ached, a dull, honest echo of the night before. She welcomed the pain. Pain was a language that didn’t lie.
Natasha was already awake, seated at the kitchen counter, a mug of coffee untouched before her. Her posture was alert without being tense, a predator at rest. She looked up as Y/N entered the room, her gaze flicking automatically to the bruise marring her face.
“You slept,” Natasha said.
“Yes,” Y/N replied. “Deep.”
Natasha nodded once, a flicker of satisfaction in her eyes. “Good.”
There was no discussion of Jason. No rehearsal of what came next. That chapter had closed the moment Y/N had walked out and not looked back. She showered, dressed with deliberate care, the act not one of armor or defiance, but of ownership. When she emerged, Natasha handed her an ice pack and her coat.
“I’m walking you in,” Natasha said.
“I know.”
The compound hummed with its usual precision, the machinery of power grinding forward without pause. It felt surreal, how the world continued unchanged when hers had split cleanly down the middle. Y/N moved through it anyway. Agents greeted her with nods. Analysts requested clarification on deployment timelines. She answered calmly, efficiently, as if nothing had happened.
Clint found out before Y/N had even put her things down. He didn’t hear it gently. No careful phrasing, no soft lead-in. He saw it. He saw the mark when Y/N turned her head too quickly as the elevator opened and he stepped into the corridor, the light catching the faint bloom of color along her jaw. The space went very still.
“What,” Clint said quietly, “is that.”
Y/N froze.
Natasha didn’t. “Jason,” she said.
The word detonated.
Clint moved. Not toward Y/N, but past her, a body in motion toward a singular, violent purpose. “Is he here?” he bit out, already turning for the elevator.
Natasha was already there. She intercepted him mid-stride, her hand snapping out to catch his forearm, her grip iron-hard. “No.”
“Get out of my way,” Clint growled, his voice low and shaking as he tried to wrench free.
“Not like this,” Natasha said, her own voice a steel cable. “You go now, you lose everything.”
“I don’t care,” Clint snapped, his strength surging. “He put his hands on her.”
“I know,” Natasha said, unyielding against his struggles. “And if you walk out that door, you make it about you.”
That stopped him for half a heartbeat. Not enough. He tried again, his rage a barely contained inferno. “He’s dead.”
“And he’ll still own the narrative,” Natasha shot back. “And she’ll pay for it.”
Clint’s breath came fast, his chest heaving. “I won’t let him get away with it.”
Y/N stepped forward. “Clint.”
Her voice wasn’t loud. It cut through his fury anyway.
He turned, and really looked at her then. He saw the bruise, but he also saw the steadiness beneath it, the way she was standing upright instead of curled inward.
“Don’t,” she said.
Clint’s face twisted in anguish. “He hurt you.”
“Yes.”
“And you’re asking me to do nothing?”
“I’m asking you to let me do this,” Y/N said. She stepped closer, close enough to take his trembling hands, grounding him by force of familiarity. “If you go after him, he becomes the victim. He wants that.”
Clint swallowed hard, his knuckles white. “I can’t stand this,” he said hoarsely. “Standing here while-”
“I know,” Y/N said. “But I need you here. With me. Not in a cell. Not suspended. Not proving him right.”
Natasha loosened her grip but didn’t release him. “She’s right.”
Clint squeezed his eyes shut, his jaw clenched so tight it looked painful. For a moment, it seemed he might still bolt. Then, slowly, he exhaled. Once. Twice. His shoulders sagged a fraction.
“Okay,” he said, the word tasting like ash. “Okay.”
Y/N didn’t let go of his hands until the tremor eased, until he finally wrapped his arms around her, pulling her into a fierce, protective hug. That was the moment she understood something vital: If she didn’t end this herself, Jason would keep pulling other people into the blast radius.
Y/N walked calmly into Strategic Ops. Maria Hill spotted her immediately. One look at Y/N’s face and Hill’s professional composure hardened into something lethal.
“Do you need anything?” Hill asked quietly, her voice low enough to carry only between them.
Y/N shook her head. “I need a meeting.”
Hill didn’t ask why. “I’ll call Legal. HR. Security Oversight,” she continued, her mind already working, already building the framework. “You won’t be alone in this.”
Y/N exhaled slowly, the weight of the night lifting just enough to let her breathe. “Thank you.”
___
Jason arrived thinking he still had leverage. That was his second mistake. He came early, confidence wrapped in a thin shell of tension, a smile ready to deploy the moment he saw Y/N through the glass walls of Strategic Ops. For a flicker of a second, relief washed over his face, followed by confusion when she didn’t return the gesture.
They stood across from each other in the conference room, the transparent walls exposing them to the corridor, a silent warning of the stage they now occupied. Jason spoke first.
“Thank God,” he said, pitching his voice for an audience of one. “I’ve been trying to reach you.”
Y/N offered no answer.
“You vanished,” he said, irritation threading through his tone. “You don’t get to do that.”
“I do,” Y/N finally replied, her voice flat. “And I did.”
His jaw tightened. “You’re overreacting.”
“No,” Y/N said, her tone dangerously even. “I’m responding.”
Jason took a step closer, lowering his voice into a conspiratorial rasp. “You want to talk about last night? Fine. Things got heated. I lost my temper. It happens.”
“You hit me,” Y/N said.
The words landed like a controlled detonation. Jason froze. “You don’t say that,” he hissed. “You don’t get to-”
“You. Hit. Me.” Y/N continued, each word a deliberate, hammering blow. “And then you tried to stop me from leaving.”
Jason’s eyes darted to the glass walls, to the movement beyond them. Panic flared, quickly smothered by a fresh wave of anger. “You think this won’t ruin you?” he snapped. “You think people won’t ask questions?”
“They already are,” Y/N replied calmly.
The door opened behind them. Maria Hill entered, followed by two people Jason recognized immediately: Legal Oversight and Internal Affairs. Jason’s confidence fractured.
“This is ridiculous,” he scoffed, forcing a brittle laugh. “You’re staging an ambush now?”
Hill didn’t sit. “This is an investigation.”
Jason’s gaze snapped to Y/N, betrayal warring with fury in his eyes. “You did this.”
Y/N met his stare without flinching. “You did.”
What followed was procedural and devastating. Statements. Documentation. Security footage from the stairwell. Text records. Medical verification. Natasha’s testimony. Clint’s corroboration of prior behavior patterns. Jason tried denial. Then minimization. Then anger. It didn’t matter. The room was an indifferent machine, and it didn’t care how loud he got.
Hill folded her arms. “Jason Ore, effective immediately, your employment with this organization is terminated.”
The words rang in the sterile air. Jason stared at her, his face slack with disbelief. “You can’t-”
“You violated conduct policy,” Hill continued, her voice cutting through his. “You assaulted a colleague. You abused your position. Security will escort you out.”
Jason looked around the room, desperate now. “This is because of her,” he snarled, pointing a trembling finger at Natasha, visible through the glass. “She turned you against me.”
Hill’s expression went glacial. “You did that yourself.”
Security stepped forward. Jason’s voice rose, cracking with a final, desperate plea. “You’re destroying me!”
Y/N spoke for the last time. “If you were a better man,” she said quietly, “this wouldn’t have happened.”
Jason was escorted out in full view of the corridor. People watched. No one intervened. His badge was confiscated. His access cut. His authority, gone. There was no reassignment, no soft landing. There was no coming back.
Natasha was waiting outside Strategic Ops. Not hovering. Not guarding. Just there.
Y/N stopped in front of her. “It’s over.”
Natasha searched her face, checking for doubt, for grief, for regret. Finding none, she nodded. “Good.”
Jason’s firing rippled outward. Quietly. Efficiently. Meetings canceled. His name scrubbed from projects. His influence evaporated. No one defended him. Y/N didn’t track it. She didn’t need to. She reclaimed herself instead.
Natasha stayed, not hovering, not claiming. Just present.
“I don’t feel broken,” Y/N said one evening.
Natasha watched her closely. “Good.”
“I feel awake.”
Natasha stepped closer. “That can be dangerous.”
Y/N smiled faintly. “So are you.”
The air between them shifted. Natasha lifted a hand, stopping just short of Y/N’s face. “You’re in control,” she said. “Always.”
Y/N closed the distance herself. “I’m choosing this,” she whispered.
Natasha’s hand cupped her jaw, gentle, reverent. “So am I.”
___
Nine months changed the shape of things. Not loudly. Not all at once. It changed them the way water changes stone: by persistence, by pressure, by never quite letting go.
Natasha woke first. She always did.
The room was dark but not empty, citylight filtering in through the sheer curtains, painting soft lines across the bed. The air was warm, heavy with summer and sleep and the quiet intimacy of a place that had learned two bodies well. Y/N was curled into her without thinking about it. That was the change. An arm slung across Natasha’s waist, hand resting open against her stomach like it belonged there. A knee hooked over Natasha’s thigh, anchoring her in place. Y/N’s face was pressed into the hollow beneath her shoulder, breath slow and even, lips parted slightly as she slept. No armor.
Natasha stayed still, careful not to wake her. She let herself feel it, the weight, the heat, the trust implicit in being held like this. In being needed not as a shield, not as a blade, but as something solid and wanted. Three months ago, Y/N hadn’t slept like this. Three months ago, she’d lain rigid on her side, polite even in rest, leaving space where fear still lived. She’d woken at the smallest sound, flinched at sudden movement, apologized for taking up room. Now she sprawled. Now she breathed. Now she dreamed with her whole body.
Natasha brushed her thumb, barely there, along the inside of Y/N’s wrist, over the steady pulse she’d memorized in moments far less calm than this.
Y/N shifted, her nose nudging into Natasha’s skin, her fingers tightening reflexively at her waist. “Don’t go,” Y/N murmured, her voice rough with sleep.
Natasha smiled to herself in the darkness. “I’m not,” she said quietly. “I have other plans.” Natasha’s voice was a low, dangerous purr against Y/N’s hair. “Plans that involve you staying right where you are.”
The smile in Natasha’s voice was a promise of things to come. She shifted slowly, a deliberate, unhurried movement that was all muscle and grace, turning in Y/N’s loose embrace until they were face to face. The citylight was a soft gray wash, illuminating the curve of Y/N’s cheek, the fullness of her lips parted in sleep. The sheets were a tangled mess around their ankles, a testament to the night before, leaving them skin to skin in the warm air.
Natasha leaned in, her own lips ghosting over Y/N’s, a breath of a kiss. A soft sigh escaping Y/N as her eyes fluttered open, hazy with sleep and trust. “Natasha,” she breathed, the name a welcome home.
“I’m right here,” Natasha murmured, her voice a low rumble that vibrated through Y/N’s chest. Her hand, which had been resting on Y/N’s hip, slid up the smooth plane of her side, tracing the curve of her ribs before moving higher to cup the weight of her breast. Her touch was a question, a gentle exploration that asked for nothing but offered everything. Y/N arched into it, a silent, eager yes.
Natasha’s thumb brushed against the already pebbled nipple, and Y/N’s breath hitched. “I told you I had plans,” Natasha whispered, her lips finding the sensitive spot just below Y/N’s ear. She nipped gently, then soothed the small sting with her tongue. “But I need you awake, lyubimaya”
Y/N’s hands came up to tangle in Natasha’s hair, holding her close. “I am” she gasped as Natasha’s mouth traveled down her neck, leaving a trail of fire. Natasha took her time, mapping Y/N’s body with her hands and mouth. She was a conductor, and Y/N was her instrument, and she was playing a masterpiece of slow, deliberate pleasure.
Her mouth closed over Y/N’s breast, her tongue swirling around the nipple before she sucked, gently at first, then with more pressure. Y/N cried out, her back arching off the bed, pressing herself deeper into Natasha’s mouth. Natasha’s other hand slid down Y/N’s stomach, her fingers reaching the apex of her thighs, a silent, teasing promise.
“Tell me what you want,” Natasha commanded, her voice soft but firm. It wasn’t an order; it was an invitation.
“You,” Y/N moaned. “Everything. Please, Nat.”
Natasha smiled against her skin. “My pleasure” She shifted, moving down the bed until she was settled between Y/N’s thighs, pushing them gently open. Y/N was already wet, glistening in the dim light, and the sight made Natasha’s own breath catch. She lowered her head, her breath warm against Y/N’s core.
“Look at me,” Natasha said, her eyes locking with Y/N’s as she leaned in and took the first, slow lick. Y/N cried out, her back arching off the bed. Natasha’s tongue was skilled and knowing, finding every sensitive spot with an artist’s precision. She licked and sucked, her movements measured and controlled, building the pleasure layer by exquisite layer. One hand came up to rest on Y/N’s lower stomach, holding her down, grounding her as the pleasure began to crest.
“Natasha, I… I can’t…” Y/N panted, her hands fisting in the sheets.
“Yes, you can,” Natasha murmured, her voice a dark promise. “Let go for me. I’ve got you.” She increased the pressure, her tongue circling Y/N’s clit with relentless, perfect rhythm. She slid one finger inside, then another, curling them just so to find that hidden bundle of nerves.
The combination was devastating. Y/N shattered, a cry tearing from her throat as her orgasm crashed over her, waves of pleasure so intense. Natasha didn’t stop, drawing it out, milking every last drop of sensation until Y/N was a trembling, boneless mess beneath her.
Natasha kissed her way back up Y/N’s body, her lips gentle against her sweat slicked skin. She settled beside her, pulling her into her arms as Y/N’s breathing slowly returned to normal.
“You’re incredible,” Y/N whispered, her voice hoarse.
Natasha just hummed, a low, satisfied sound. “We’re not done yet.” She captured Y/N’s lips in a deep, possessive kiss, letting her taste herself on Natasha’s tongue. Her hand drifted down Y/N’s body again, her fingers finding her still-sensitive clit. Y/N jolted, oversensitive, but the touch was gentle, a slow, circular motion that quickly reignited the embers of her desire.
This time, Natasha’s pace was different. Faster, more demanding. She kissed Y/N with a fierce hunger, her fingers working her clit with expert precision. Y/N met her passion for passion, her hands roaming over Natasha’s body, pulling her closer, needing more.
“Again,” Natasha growled against her lips. “Give me another one.”
Y/N was lost in a haze of sensation, the world narrowing to the point where Natasha’s fingers touched her, the pressure building again, higher and higher than before. Natasha’s other hand slid down to join the first, two fingers sliding easily into Y/N’s wet heat, pumping in and out in a steady, driving rhythm that pushed her closer and closer to the edge.
“Come for me,” Natasha demanded, her voice a raw, primal command that sent Y/N flying over the edge. Her second orgasm was even more intense than the first, a blinding, all-consuming wave of pleasure that left her gasping and sobbing Natasha’s name.
Natasha held her through it, her movements slowing, gentling, until Y/N was limp, her body humming with a deep, satisfied languor. She pressed soft kisses to Y/N’s forehead, her eyelids, her nose.
Y/N blinked her eyes open, a slow, sated smile spreading across her face. “Wow,” she breathed.
Natasha smiled back, her expression soft, her eyes filled with a love so deep it took Y/N’s breath away. She brushed a stray strand of hair from Y/N’s face, her touch infinitely tender.
“Marry me,” Natasha said. It wasn’t a question. It was a statement of fact, a vow spoken in the quiet aftermath, as natural and undeniable as the love that filled the room. “We’re doing this. You and me. Forever.”
Tears welled in Y/N’s eyes, but they were tears of pure, unadulterated joy. She didn’t need to think about it, didn’t need to hesitate. The answer had been written on her soul for months.
“Yes,” she whispered, pulling Natasha down for a kiss that sealed their promise.
Summary: Natasha Romanoff’s mission is to get close to Y/N Medici, the perfect, untouchable heir. It’s a game of manipulation and secrets, a slow burn in the halls of an elite academy.
Warnings: Deception, Betrayal, Angst, Manipulation, Violence (attempted murder), Boarding School
Word Count: 4037
Part 1 Part 2
This is part 1 of unknown number of parts in a series.
The Gilded Cage and the Ghost Within
The air at Accademia Medicea tasted of old money, fresh linen, and the faint, metallic tang of ambition. It was a scent Natasha Romanoff had been taught to recognize, to wear like a second skin. She moved through the grand, sun-drenched atrium, her fabricated identity: Nadia Nabokov, a scholarship student from a newly respectable Russian industrial family, settling comfortably around her. The other students were peacocks, their laughter too loud, their designer backpacks slung with practiced carelessness. They were performing wealth.
And then there was Y/N Medici.
She stood by a towering marble pillar, not posing, not seeking attention. She was simply present. Her posture was immaculate, a straight line from the crown of her head to the sole of her leather flats. She wasn’t wearing the most conspicuous labels, but the cut of her blazer, the quiet sheen of her silk shirt, whispered a price tag the others were shouting about. She held a tablet, her fingers moving with economical grace. She wasn’t arrogant. She was a fortress.
That’s not arrogance, Natasha thought, a predator’s instinct humming to life. That’s conditioning.
Their first class was Diplomatic Ethics, held in a soaring room with vaulted ceilings and tiered benches. Natasha saw her opportunity. Y/N was already seated, a notepad and fountain pen arranged with geometric precision before her. There was an empty seat beside her, a buffer zone most students respected. Natasha did not. She slid into the seat, her timing perfect, just as the professor was clearing his throat. She settled, her arm resting on the shared armrest, her shoulder a breath too close to Y/N’s.
Y/N’s pen stopped mid-word. She didn’t turn her head, but her gaze shifted, a flicker of dark lashes. “You’re in my personal space.” The voice was low, clear, and utterly devoid of accusation. It was a statement of fact, like noting the time.
Natasha let a slow smile curve her lips. “Already?”
“I allow it to be violated socially,” Y/N said, her gaze returning to her notes. “Not academically.”
Natasha had to physically suppress a laugh. Interesting. Most girls would have giggled, blushed, moved away. Y/N simply established a boundary and expected it to be honored. Gracious, but steel-edged.
The professor, a man with a face like a disappointed hawk, skipped any pleasantries. “Miss Medici. Explain why power structures collapse from the inside rather than the outside.”
Y/N didn’t hesitate. “Because the outside is an enemy, and enemies forge unity. The inside is a parasite, a slow decay of trust. It introduces doubt where certainty is required, replacing loyalty with self-interest. It turns the foundation against itself. The collapse is not an invasion; it is a suicide.”
Her answer was flawless. Measured. Elegant. Utterly devoid of passion. It was a textbook recitation, but delivered with the authority of a queen.
Silence. Then Natasha raised her hand. “Yes, Miss… Nabokov?”
“With respect,” Natasha began, her voice pitched to carry just enough to challenge without being insolent, “collapse doesn’t come from power structures. It comes from people who believe they’re untouchable.”
The air in the room grew thick. The professor’s hawk-like gaze sharpened with interest. For the first time, Y/N turned her head fully, her eyes meeting Natasha’s. There was no offense there, only a calm, analytical curiosity.
“That assumes arrogance,” Y/N said, her tone even. “Not all power is blind.”
Natasha tilted her head, letting her gaze drift over Y/N’s face, committing the sharp line of her jaw, the intelligent glint in her eyes, to memory. “True. But all power is human.”
A dangerous smile touched the professor’s lips. “Excellent. Both of you.”
They had just been publicly anointed as intellectual rivals.
As students began to pack up, the spell was broken. Y/N continued to write for a moment longer, then capped her pen with a soft click. “You didn’t need to challenge me,” she said, still not looking at Natasha.
Natasha shrugged, gathering her own bag. “I wanted to see if you’d fold.”
Y/N finally looked up. Her eyes were sharp, but held no trace of being bothered. “Did I?”
Natasha grinned, a genuine, predatory flash of teeth. “No. That’s… disappointing.”
A soft exhalation escaped Y/N’s lips, so brief it was almost imagined, the ghost of a laugh. It was the most unguarded sound she had made all day. “If you intend to antagonize me all semester, at least be honest about it.”
Natasha stood, leaning in just a fraction, her voice dropping to a conspiratorial murmur. “I intend to understand you.” She let the pause hang between them. “Antagonizing you is just a bonus.”
And for the first time in a long, long time, as Y/N watched her walk away, she wasn’t thinking about quarterly reports, or her father’s expectations, or the five-hundred-year-old weight of her name. She was thinking: Oh. She’s dangerous.
Circling Each Other
Proximity became a weapon, a schedule created by the Red Room and embraced by Natasha. They shared Advanced Economic Theory, Renaissance Art and Propaganda, and, most cruelly, a mandatory study period in the library where seating was assigned alphabetically. Medici and Nabokov. Side by side.
Natasha made it her mission to find the cracks in Y/N’s polished facade. “You know,” Natasha whispered one afternoon, leaning across their shared table, the scent of old books and Y/N’s faint, clean perfume filling the space, “you’re allowed to relax your shoulders. They won’t actually shatter.”
Y/N didn’t look up from her text on Florentine banking systems. “And here I thought this was my relaxed posture.”
The deadpan delivery was so perfect, so utterly sincere, that Natasha had to bite the inside of her cheek to keep from smiling.
Natasha played the part of the charmingly uncultured new-money girl, asking questions about proper place settings or the significance of a particular fresco. Y/N would correct her with a gentle, patient precision that was both infuriating and endearing. She never made Natasha feel stupid; she simply informed her.
But Natasha was watching. She saw the way Y/N’s smile was a timed event, appearing at the appropriate social cue but never quite reaching her eyes. She heard how Y/N referred to herself not as “I” but as “a Medici,” or “in my capacity.” She was a function, a role.
Once, after a gruelling lecture on dynastic succession, Y/N paused for a full ten seconds, her gaze fixed on the marble floor before she straightened her spine and resumed her note-taking. It was a flicker of discomfort, registered and filed away. Natasha, who had been trained to exploit such weakness, felt a strange, unwelcome ache. She thought about the life Y/N was being groomed for a perfect, political marriage, a legacy of cold power, she would make a perfect widow. She wouldn't wish that life on anyone, especially someone with a hidden laugh like that.
Y/N was watching, too. She noticed how Natasha’s stories about her family in St. Petersburg were just a little too smooth, a little too generic. She noticed how Natasha could navigate a crowded hallway with the silent grace of a panther, her body always angled for the best line of sight and the quickest exit. She noticed that Natasha’s brilliant, captivating smile vanished the second she thought no one was looking, replaced by a chilling, blankness.
The Language of Hands
The cracks began to show not in words, but in small, thoughtless actions. One evening in the library, Natasha was wrestling with a particularly dense passage on derivatives when she felt a light touch on her hand. Y/N had reached across, her finger pointing to a line in Natasha’s textbook.
“You’re misreading the liability structure,” Y/N said softly, her voice a low murmur in the hushed silence. “The risk isn’t in the asset itself; it’s in the counterparty guarantee. See how the obligation is layered?”
Her finger lingered for a second longer than necessary, a warm point of contact on Natasha’s skin. Natasha didn’t pull away. Instead, she turned her hand over, her fingers brushing against Y/N’s. It was a test.
Y/N didn’t flinch. She simply met Natasha’s eyes, a flicker of understanding passing between them before she withdrew her hand, the moment broken. But the space between them had changed. It was no longer just a seat at a table; it was charged with a new, unspoken electricity.
Another time, they were walking across the quad after a late lecture. A group of boisterous students jostled past, and Y/N stumbled slightly on the cobblestones. Natasha’s hand shot out, steadying her by the small of her back. It was a firm, protective touch, and Y/N leaned into it for a half-second before regaining her composure and stepping away. The brief contact left an imprint on both of them, a ghost of warmth against the evening chill. They walked the rest of the way in a silence that was no longer merely companionable, but heavy with anticipation.
The Unforced Error
Natasha’s mission was a constant, low-frequency hum in the back of her mind. Her handlers wanted leverage. They wanted secrets. One afternoon, she saw her chance. Y/N was leaving the headmistress's office, looking more strained than usual. She clutched a leather-bound portfolio, the kind used for sensitive family documents.
Later, in their shared study period, Y/N set the portfolio on the table beside her, absently turning the combination lock. It was a simple, four-digit code. Natasha, feigning a stretch to relieve boredom, watched from the corner of her eye as Y/N’s thumb hovered over the dials. She didn’t enter the code, but her fingers twitched, forming a pattern: 1-4-8-9. The year Lorenzo de’ Medici died. Obvious. Predictable.
That night, Natasha slipped into the empty library. It was a simple matter to bypass the rudimentary alarm on the study room door. Her heart was a steady, cold drumbeat. This was what she was built for. She found the portfolio, the leather cool under her fingers. She spun the dials: 1-4-8-9. The lock clicked open.
Inside were not financial records or blackmail material, but something far more intimate. It was a collection of architectural sketches and personal notes. Y/N was designing a wing of the Palazzo Medici Riccardi, not as a museum, but as a public arts education center for underprivileged children. The notes in the margins were in Y/N’s elegant script, but the thoughts were passionate, almost desperate. “Art should not be a cage. It must be a key.” “If the family’s legacy is only stone and gold, it is a tomb.”
Natasha felt a sickening lurch in her stomach. This wasn’t a vulnerability. It was a soul. She took a photo of a single, innocuous-looking page about structural load-bearing and sent it to her handlers with a note: “Academic focus on civic engineering. No immediate leverage.” Then she carefully re-locked the portfolio and left, the taste of betrayal like ash in her mouth.
The External Threat
The threat didn’t come with a bang. It came with a whisper. A new groundskeeper who asked too many questions about Y/N’s schedule. A failed attempt to breach the academy’s digital network, targeting Y/N’s personal file. And then, the accident.
A heavy stone frieze, undergoing restoration on the building’s facade, “malfunctioned,” crashing down just feet from where Y/N was walking. The world shattered into dust and screams. The groan of stressed metal and the percussive crash of ancient stone against marble echoed through the courtyard.
For a frozen second, Y/N just stood there, her mind refusing to process the chaos, her body paralyzed by a lifetime of being protected, not protecting.
Then, a force slammed into her, knocking her off her feet and behind a massive stone planter. The impact was jarring, the body covering hers a solid, unyielding weight. A hand clamped over her mouth, not roughly, but with absolute authority.
“Don’t scream,” a voice hissed in her ear. It was Natasha’s.
Y/N’s heart hammered against her ribs, a frantic drum against Natasha’s steady frame. She could feel Natasha’s heart, rhythmic beat that was terrifyingly composed. Dust filled the air, tasting of chalk and earth. Through the haze, Y/N saw the place where she had been standing a moment before. It was a crater of pulverized marble and twisted iron.
Natasha moved first, lifting her weight off Y/N with a fluid grace that defied the chaos. Her eyes were no longer the playful, teasing things Y/N was used to. They were sharp, scanning, calculating. “Are you hurt?”
Y/N could only nodded her head, her throat too tight to form words.
“Good. We’re leaving. Now.” Natasha grabbed her hand, her grip firm and certain. She didn’t head for the main archways, where teachers and security were already converging. She pulled Y/N towards a narrow service alley, her movements economical and sure.
They found themselves hidden in the cool, dim confines of a disused wine cellar beneath the library. The only light came from the narrow grate high on the wall, casting long, dancing shadows. The air was thick with the smell of dust and forgotten things.
Y/N finally found her voice, though it came out as a shaky whisper. “That wasn’t an accident.”
“No,” Natasha said, her back against the stone wall, her gaze fixed on the cellar door. “It wasn’t.” She had a small cut on her forearm, a thin line of welling blood that she seemed oblivious to.
Without thinking, Y/N pulled a clean, folded handkerchief from her blazer pocket. She stepped closer, gently taking Natasha’s arm. Her fingers trembled as she wrapped the linen around the cut.
Natasha flinched at the touch, a barely perceptible tension that vanished as quickly as it came.
“Thank you,” Y/N whispered, her eyes fixed on the makeshift bandage. She wasn’t thanking her as the Medici heir. She was thanking her as a girl who had almost been crushed.
Natasha looked down at her, at the dust smudging Y/N’s cheek, at the genuine terror and relief warring in her eyes. A strange, unfamiliar feeling twisted in her chest. This wasn’t part of the mission. The instinct to shield Y/N with her own body, to feel a surge of pure, unadulterated rage at the attempt on her life that was not in her orders.
“I was just here,” Natasha said, her voice softer than Y/N had ever heard it.
That night, huddled together in the darkness, the adrenaline gave way to a raw, quiet intimacy.
“I’m terrified,” Y/N confessed, her voice barely audible. “Not of dying. I’m terrified of failing this. My family… this legacy. I never asked for it, but if I break it, I break everything. I don’t know how to be a person and a Medici at the same time.”
Natasha’s own heart ached with a truth she couldn’t share. “I’ve never had a choice at all,” she murmured, the words feeling dangerously close to honesty. “Not about anything. My path was set for me before I could walk.”
In the darkness, with the dust of a near-death experience settling around them, it was enough. They were two girls trapped in gilded cages, and for the first time, they weren’t alone.
Falling
The wall between them didn’t just crack; it disintegrated. The study sessions in the library changed. Natasha would reach out, her fingers brushing a stray strand of hair from Y/N’s face, and Y/N would lean into the touch instead of pulling away.
Their first real date wasn’t a date. Natasha “forgot” her keycard and was locked out of her dorm after hours. Y/N simply let her into her own spacious, single suite. They sat on the plush rug, sharing a bottle of water Y/N had insisted on chilling, and talked for hours. Y/N showed Natasha the completed model of her arts center, her eyes alight with a passion Natasha had only glimpsed in shadows.
“You’re going to build it,” Natasha said, her voice filled with a certainty that surprised them both.
“I have to,” Y/N replied, her smile small but genuine. “It’s the only part of the Medici name that feels like mine.”
The first kiss happened in the music room, after hours. Natasha was teaching Y/N how to loosen her grip on a piano key, to let the note breathe instead of striking it. Her hand covered Y/N’s on the ivory, their fingers intertwined. Y/N turned her head, her eyes searching Natasha’s. There was no calculation in her gaze, only a desperate, hopeful longing.
Natasha closed the distance. The kiss was hesitant at first, then deepened, a silent acknowledgment of everything they couldn’t say. It tasted of relief and shared secrets.
Natasha’s handlers applied pressure. Reports were demanded. What are her vulnerabilities? What are her father’s plans? Create emotional leverage.
Natasha lied. She reported on Y/N’s academic brilliance, her formal demeanor, her unremarkable social circle. She delayed, obfuscated, protecting the girl she was supposed to be exploiting. The dramatic irony was a poison in the well.
They planned a summer. “You have to come to Florence,” Y/N said one evening, her head on Natasha’s shoulder as they looked out at the manicured grounds. “I’ll show you the real Uffizi, not the tourist version. We can walk the Palazzo Pitti garden.”
“I’d like that,” Natasha whispered, and the lie felt like a shard of glass in her throat. She was getting closer to the goal, closer to having the access the Red Room needed, but all she could think about was the way Y/N’s face lit up when she talked about art.
The Reveal
Y/N didn’t suspect Natasha emotionally. Trust, for her, was a binary state. She trusted Natasha completely.
But she was a Medici. She had been raised to observe patterns, to see the matrix beneath the reality.
It was the little things. Natasha referenced a specific 14th-century Medici banking tactic, one so obscure it was only discussed in internal family archives. During a security drill, when a flash-bang simulated an attack, Natasha’s reaction wasn’t fear; it was an immediate, tactical crouch, her eyes scanning for exits and threats with a precision no teenager should possess. She spoke of powerful families with an insider’s cynicism, not an outsider’s awe.
It wasn’t suspicion. It was due diligence. As the heir, anyone who got close was subject to a standard background verification through Medici security. It was a formality, a box to be checked. She authorized it without a second thought, a quiet administrative task on a Tuesday morning.
The report came back digitally, encrypted and direct to her tablet. She opened it expecting to see a simple, clean history: a birth certificate in St. Petersburg, school records, a family tree linked to a manufacturing conglomerate.
She saw nothing of the sort.
No verifiable childhood records before age twelve. Educational credentials loop back to shell institutions with ties to defunct state programs. Multiple passports under different names, all tied to the same biometric profile. And one name, flagged across a dozen intelligence agencies as a person of interest:
NATALIA ALIANOVNA ROMANOVA.
Alias: NATASHA ROMANOFF. NADIA NABOKOV
Affiliation: RED ROOM.
Y/N read the file once. Then again. The words didn’t change. The world did.
The warmth in her chest didn’t shatter. It turned to ice. Every shared laugh, every whispered secret, every tender touch was re-contextualized in the cold, harsh light of this new reality. The piano lesson. The library study sessions. The night in the wine cellar. It was all a script. And she had been the perfect, willing audience.
She closed the tablet. The soft click of the case meeting the screen was the loudest sound she had ever heard. That silence, that complete lack of outward reaction, hurt worse than any scream.
The Break
The end wasn’t dramatic. It was clean.
The next morning, Y/N was gone before Natasha could meet her at her dorm door. At breakfast, she didn’t look at Natasha. She didn’t acknowledge her existence. Natasha felt a cold dread creep up her spine. She tried to catch her eye after class, but Y/N moved with an entourage of advisors and security, her posture more rigid, more controlled than ever. She was a Medici heir again. The girl was gone.
The extraction began at dusk. Two black, unmarked sedans pulled up to the main entrance. Men in dark suits, Medici security, moved with quiet efficiency. They weren’t there to arrest Natasha. They were there to remove a contaminant.
Natasha was stuffing clothes into a bag, movements sharp and economical, the way she’d been taught to pack in under thirty seconds. She didn’t hear the door open. She just felt the air change, the temperature dropping by several degrees.
She turned.
Y/N was standing there, alone in the doorway. No security. No entourage. Just her, silhouetted against the light of the hallway, looking like a marble statue come to mourn.
“Y/N…” Natasha’s voice was rough, the name catching in her throat. It was the first time she’d said it without a layer of performance.
Y/N’s expression didn’t soften. If anything, it hardened. “I loved you.”
The words weren’t an accusation. They were a verdict. Delivered with the same calm, devastating precision she used to dissect a hostile takeover. They were a fact. A past-tense fact.
“I know,” Natasha whispered. The admission was ripped from her, raw and unguarded. It was the only truth she had left to give, and it was the cruellest weapon she could have used. It confirmed everything. The vulnerability, the connection, the late-night confessions, it wasn’t just a mission. It was real. And the betrayal was, too.
A flicker of something, maybe pain crossed Y/N’s face before being extinguished by a chilling resolve.
“They’ll be here in two minutes,” she said, her voice flat. “My father’s men. They don’t take prisoners. They erase problems.”
Natasha stared at her, a hundred unspoken things dying on her tongue. Why are you telling me this?
Y/N’s gaze held hers, a final, unreadable transaction. “You taught me that all power is human.” Her voice was a monotone, but the words trembled with a repressed fury. “You’re not a problem. You’re a lesson.”
She took a step back, a deliberate, final movement. “This is my one and only act of sentimentality. Don’t make me regret it.”
And then she was gone.
The two minutes were a lifetime. Natasha didn’t hesitate. She slung the bag over her shoulder, didn’t bother to zip it, and moved to the window. It was a three-story drop to manicured hedges. She’d jumped from worse. With one last look at the empty doorway, she slipped out into the night, disappearing into the shadows just as the heavy, purposeful footsteps of Medici security echoed down the hall.
Epilogue
Six months later.
Natasha Romanoff, now fully herself, stood on a rooftop in Prague, the wind whipping her hair. The mission in Milan was a failure, but she had been reassigned. The Red Room was pragmatic. Failure was a data point.
She scanned the financial news on a secure tablet. A headline caught her eye: Medici Heir Announces Landmark Philanthropic Endeavor. There was a photo of Y/N, standing before a press conference. She looked different. The stiffness was gone, replaced by a calm, unshakable authority. She wasn’t performing the role of heir; she was embodying it. The article detailed the groundbreaking of the "Centro Medici per le Arti Giovanili," a public arts education center in Florence. It was Y/N’s design, Y/N’s vision. She had done it. She was building her legacy.
Natasha felt a pang in her chest, a complex mixture of pride and profound loss. Y/N had taken the lesson and built something stronger from it. She had taken the betrayal and turned it into a foundation.
As Natasha watched the image of the woman she had loved and broken, a single, encrypted message appeared on her screen from an unknown source. It was just four words.
Natasha’s breath hitched. She knew, with absolute certainty, who had sent it. She looked back at the photo of Y/N, who for a fleeting moment seemed to look directly out of the screen, not at the camera, but at her.
The ghost in the machine was gone. In her place was a queen. And Natasha was just a shadow in her past.
Summary: Y/N was trained to be a weapon, but she’s never learned how to survive herself—until Natasha Romanoff shows her how.
Warnings: Violence, trauma, slow-burn romance, sexual tension, emotional angst, mentions of abuse.
Word Count: 4,454
Fury paired Y/N with Natasha Romanoff.
That alone should’ve been a warning.
They touched down at the mission coordinates with nothing but wind, dust, and the low hum of distant machinery.
Natasha surveyed the empty stretch of land, eyes sharp.
“This is it.”
Y/N frowned, hands on her hips. “This? It’s… nowhere.”
Natasha smirked, already scanning the horizon. “Nowhere’s my favorite kind of somewhere.” A concealed blade slid smoothly into her hand. “Fewer witnesses.”
Y/N snorted. “Wait, I’m not the target, right?” She flashed a grin as she pulled her own dagger free.
Natasha stepped closer, lifting Y/N’s chin with the edge of her blade. “Not unless you’ve been very bad.”
“I’ve never been bad a day in my life,” Y/N said sweetly, then leaned in just enough for the steel to bite. “Unless you want bad, ma’am.”
She slipped behind Natasha, automatically covering her six.
Natasha glanced back, eyes narrowing, lips curling into a half-smile.
“Then show me how good you can be.” She turned, focus snapping back to the mission. “Three hostiles. East sector. Take point. I’ll cover.”
Y/N’s eyes flared purple as her powers surged. “I see them. Night-night, bad guys.”
Shadows lashed out. Two enemies dropped instantly, weapons clattering, but the third staggered, untouched.
“Shit,” Y/N muttered. “We’ve got a blocker.”
Natasha rolled her eyes, drawing her pistols. “Blockers always ruin the fun.” She unleashed suppressive fire. “Keep the others down. I’ll handle this one.”
Y/N split her shadow, slipping behind the hostile. Dark purple light flared along his armor. “Armor’s not full-body.”
Natasha grinned, adjusting her aim. “Weak points glow like Christmas lights.”
Three sharp shots. The hostile crumpled.
“Thanks for the roadmap. Nice teamwork, rookie.”
Y/N scowled. “Rookie? Still? After the last mission?” Purple mist flared again. “Hostages?”
“Rookie until you bleed less,” Natasha replied flatly. She shook her head at the question. “No. Hostages don’t aim guns at us.”
Two more shots. Two more bodies.
Gunfire erupted from the left.
“Shit, okay, not nowhere,” Y/N snapped, hurling her daggers. Shadows clung to the blades as they struck true.
Natasha ducked and returned fire with lethal precision. “Better. Still talk too much.” She vaulted debris, firing twice more. “Objective’s through there. Keep up or get left behind.”
Y/N drew her shadows in and surged after her, purple mist flooding the entrance as two guards were marked. “I’ve got them. Go.”
She moved in fast, dagger flashing, hand-to-hand instinct taking over. Training finally clicked.
Natasha slid inside, snapping one attacker’s neck. “Progress.” She kicked another aside. “Still reckless, though.”
Y/N stepped over her downed opponent. “Reckless is my middle name.” She mimicked one of Natasha’s moves, legs swinging around, bringing another man down, but a blade sliced across her ribs.
“Fucker.”
Natasha stopped long enough to assess the wound. She tore fabric from a fallen hostile and tossed it over. “Wrap it. Bleeding out distracts from killing.” She disarmed another attacker without breaking stride. “We’re not done yet.”
Y/N pressed the cloth to her side as they entered the conference room.
Target secured.
Three hostages.
“Oh,” Y/N said lightly. “Hello. Party?”
Natasha’s gaze swept the room, calculating. “Three extras. One main course.” A cold smile touched her lips as she holstered her guns. “I don’t like crowds.”
Y/N took the cue. Purple mist enveloped the hostages as black tendrils pinned the target.
“Mission says he comes in alive,” Natasha warned.
“The brief didn’t mention this,” Y/N muttered, eyes darkening. “I’m starting to hate surprises.”
Natasha’s voice dropped to a lethal whisper. “Then focus on not getting your head blown off.”
Dismissed.
Y/N smirked. “I think I’ve been bad.” She leaned in, shadows tightening. “Unlock the laptop, asshole.”
Natasha pressed her pistol to the man’s temple. “Unlock it.” Her tone was ice. “Or my associate here gets… creative.”
Natasha leaned in, steel biting into skin. “Tick-tock. My patience has an expiration date.”
His hands moved.
A shot rang out.
Y/N gasped as the bullet tore into her shoulder. “Fucker.”
Natasha slammed the pistol harder against his temple. “You just made this personal.” Her eyes snapped to Y/N. “Y/N. Report.”
Y/N nodded weakly, eyes already glassy. “I’m… good. Was that vibranium? Really…” Her voice slurred as the metal seeped into her blood. “Nat… code re..”
Natasha’s expression hardened. “Don’t you dare.” She activated her comm.
“Code Red. Get the jet ready. Now.”
Y/N came to in the medbed of the jet, the low thrum of engines vibrating through her bones. A metallic taste coated her tongue.
“Natasha?” she croaked. “…I did bad.”
Natasha stood beside the bed, arms crossed. Her expression gave nothing away, but her eyes were razor-sharp.
“You were reckless,” she said evenly. “And you almost died.”
Y/N waved it off, ignoring the tone. “Who the hell uses vibranium bullets?” She tried to sit up and immediately hissed as pain tore through her shoulder and ribs. “I’m literally allergic. How’d he know?”
Natasha’s jaw tightened. Her gaze went glacial.
“It wasn’t random. That was a targeted attack. Someone knew exactly how to take you out of the equation.”
“Why?” Y/N asked, trying again to push herself upright. “It was a random assignment, right?”
A firm hand pressed down on her uninjured shoulder, pinning her to the bed.
“There are no random assignments,” Natasha said quietly. “Someone wanted you on that mission.”
Y/N reached up and caught her hand. “You really mad at me?”
Natasha looked down at their joined hands. Her jaw flexed.
“I’m past mad,” she said. “I’m angry because you’re so damn careless with your life.”
“So… no?” Y/N smiled weakly, then winced as pain flared. “When do we land? I need a shot.”
Natasha pulled her hand free, expression hardening again.
“Five minutes. The doctor’s waiting. And no, I’m not done with this conversation.”
“I was thinking tequila,” Y/N added.
Natasha shot her a look that could curdle milk.
“The only thing you’re getting is a sedative. Now stop talking before you tear something.”
Y/N groaned and sank back against the bed. “I got shot in the shoulder, not the mouth.”
Natasha leaned in, voice dropping to a low, dangerous whisper.
“That mouth is what got you shot. Now shut it before you make it worse.”
Y/N shivered. Even during the worst training sessions, Natasha had never sounded like this.
“…I’m sorry.”
For just a second, Natasha’s expression cracked. The fury softened, replaced by something sharp and terrifying.
Fear.
“Sorry doesn’t fix a bullet hole,” she said quietly. She turned away, voice snapping back into steel.
“Just rest.”
Five hours later, Y/N was arguing with the medical team.
Again.
“I’m fine,” she insisted, one hand braced on the edge of the exam table. “I don’t need babysitting. It was a through-and-through, you said so yourself.”
The doctors exchanged looks. Level-five mutant or not, her reaction to vibranium ruled out the Regeneration Cradle. No accelerated healing. No shortcuts. Just needles, thread, and time. A glass cannon in the truest sense.
“I have reports to file, intel to cross-reference, and-”
“And you’re going back to bed.”
The voice cut through the argument like a blade.
Natasha stepped into the doorway, arms crossed, blocking the exit. Her expression was cold, final.
“Now.”
Y/N froze, turning slowly. She looked like a kid caught sneaking out past curfew.
“I’m fine,” she tried again. “No pain. Okay, minimal pain. I don’t need medical leave.”
“I didn’t ask if you were in pain.” Natasha took a deliberate step forward, gaze locking onto her. “I told you what you’re doing.”
Y/N sighed, shoulders slumping. “They’re making someone stay with me. I’m not a child.” She grimaced. “Oh god, who is it? Not Banner. He keeps trying to get me to learn quantum physics.”
Natasha’s eyes narrowed.
“You think I’d trust anyone else?” Her voice dropped. “You’re my problem until I’m convinced you won’t bleed out on my watch.”
Y/N flushed. Great. The Black Widow was her warden. She might never see a mission again.
“You’re busy. I’m fine,” she said, trying to step past her.
Natasha planted her arm across the doorway, immovable.
“I said you’re my problem. That means you don’t get to walk away.”
A cheeky smile crept onto Y/N’s face, tension bleeding into humor.
“You gonna carry me to bed?”
Natasha raised an eyebrow, a dangerous smirk tugging at her lips.
“Don’t tempt me. I have no problem throwing you over my shoulder.”
She’d done it before.
Y/N stopped instantly. “Okay, okay, can I at least lie in my bed? The rookies keep poking their heads in like I’m a zoo exhibit.”
The smirk vanished, replaced by steel.
“Your room. Now.” Natasha lowered her arm and gestured.
Y/N moved slowly. Deliberately dragging her feet.
“Nat, really…”
Natasha followed one step behind, her presence a constant pressure.
“Don’t test my patience. The faster you get in that bed, the faster I can leave.”
Y/N didn’t speed up, but she did shut up.
Natasha stopped her, hand settling on Y/N’s good shoulder, turning her around.
“I don’t have time for your games,” she said quietly. “Your room. Now.”
Y/N let herself be guided, her pace forced a little faster.
“So… are you bunking with me to make sure I stay put? Pajama party?”
Natasha halted, expression unreadable.
“The only party happening is you resting. I’ll be making sure of that.”
The door to Y/N’s room was already open. She stepped inside, begrudgingly. The short walk had drained her, poison still lingering, body heavy.
“So,” she muttered, sinking onto the bed, “any clue who the rat is? And why pick on me?”
Natasha moved to the table, precise as ever, pouring a glass of water. She turned, holding it out along with two pills.
“I’m still gathering intel. But making you a liability was clearly the goal.”
Y/N swallowed hard, taking the water and pills.
“I’m just… a liability?” The hurt slipped through despite her effort. “Why keep training me if everyone thinks I’m just going to screw things up?” She hesitated. “I’ll stay put. You don’t have to stay.”
For a fraction of a second, Natasha’s expression softened.
Then the mask slid back into place.
“I don’t leave my liabilities behind.” She turned to the window, eyes scanning the grounds.
“Get some sleep. I’m not going anywhere.”
The nightmare was too real to be just a dream.
She was back in the Red Room, years after Natasha had fled. Things had changed when she left. Natasha had been special. She broke their walls, proved escape was possible.
They made sure no one else ever forgot it.
If you were classified as special after that, things were worse. Much worse.
Y/N was level five. A mutant. Trained from birth to be a perfect Widow.
The forest was dark, cold, soaked through with rain. Mud clung to her boots, branches clawed at her skin. She was twelve years old, shaking with exhaustion and terror.
Hunted, while expected to hunt.
If she was caught before reaching her target, she’d been told plainly: you die.
She ran.
A scream tore from her throat.
Natasha was at her bedside instantly.
A firm hand gripped Y/N’s uninjured shoulder, grounding, real.
“Y/N! Hey, wake up. It’s a dream. You’re safe.”
“I can’t-” The sob ripped free before she could stop it. “I can-”
Her chest seized as memory crashed in: her sister’s blade, the final stab, the sound of the gunshot cutting Y/S/N down before she hit the ground.
It hadn’t hurt like this in months.
“No,, please”
Natasha pulled her in without hesitation, wrapping an arm around her shoulders, holding her tight. Solid. Unmoving.
“Listen to my voice,” she said firmly. “You’re not there. You’re with me. It’s just a dream.”
Y/N shook violently, pain and terror tangling together as she clutched at Natasha’s shirt. “I can’t…”
“I’ve got you,” Natasha murmured, one hand sliding to the back of her head, pressing her gently into her shoulder. “You’re safe. I’m here.”
The words broke something open.
Y/N didn’t know how long she cried. The stab ached. The gunshot burned. Her body curled inward as if bracing for another command.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered finally, voice raw. “I’m weak.”
Natasha’s hand didn’t move. Her presence didn’t waver.
“Don’t apologize,” she said quietly. “You’re not weak.”
“I wasn’t on Red Dust,” Y/N choked. “I did what they told me. I survived because I was a coward.” The word tasted like poison. “Because I was weak.”
Natasha pulled back just enough to meet her eyes, grip firm but steady.
“Surviving that place doesn’t make you weak,” she said. “It makes you a fighter.” Her voice softened. “Now breathe.”
Y/N drew in a shaky breath. Then another. The sobs faded to something quieter, easier to hold.
Natasha’s hand settled at the back of her neck, thumb moving in slow, rhythmic strokes.
“That’s it,” she murmured. “Focus on my voice.”
Y/N’s breathing steadied under her touch. Her eyes fluttered shut, then opened again.
“Why did you vouch for me?” she asked softly. “Fury told me… when I wasn’t exactly playing nice.”
A faint smile tugged at her lips at the memory, tripping other trainees, lashing out, shadows snapping when she felt cornered.
Natasha’s gaze didn’t waver.
“Because I saw a scared kid,” she said. “Lashing out.” Her thumb kept moving. “I recognized it.”
Warmth bloomed under Y/N’s skin. She closed her eyes, then opened them again, meeting Natasha’s gaze. The green in her eyes felt too sharp, too knowing.
“I’m not a kid anymore,” Y/N said quietly.
Natasha didn’t pull away. Her thumb stilled against Y/N’s neck.
“I know,” she replied, voice barely above a whisper. “That doesn’t mean you’re not still my responsibility.”
Y/N swallowed, heart pounding where Natasha’s pulse rested beneath her thumb.
“I don’t want to be just a responsibility.”
Something flickered in Natasha’s eyes, quick and dangerous.
She pulled her hand away.
“Then stop acting like a reckless child,” she said, straightening and putting space between them.
The warmth vanished instantly.
Y/N looked down, goosebumps rising along her skin. Her throat tightened as the grounding presence disappeared.
“Are you leaving?” she asked, forcing her voice steady.
Natasha exhaled slowly.
“I’m not going anywhere.”
She moved to the chair at the foot of the bed and sat, arms crossing.
“Now get some rest.”
Y/N hesitated, then shifted, dragging her pillow down to the foot of the bed to be closer. Without a word, she reached out, took Natasha’s hand, and placed it in her hair.
An unspoken plea.
Natasha froze.
Then a quiet sigh slipped past her lips.
She didn’t pull away.
Her hand remained where Y/N had placed it, fingers threading gently through her hair as she watched the tension finally leave Y/N’s face, sleep claiming her at last.
And this time, Natasha stayed awake.
Y/N woke in the dark, blinking against the shadows. Natasha was there, silent in the chair at the foot of the bed. She couldn’t tell if she was asleep or just watching, and Y/N didn’t dare check for long, the sudden, urgent pressure in her bladder demanded attention.
Slowly, she crawled out of bed, careful not to make a sound, and edged toward the bathroom.
Natasha’s eyes snapped open the moment Y/N moved.
“And where do you think you’re going?” Her voice was low, gravelly with sleep, but edged with unmistakable authority.
Y/N exhaled, glancing back over her shoulder. “Bathroom. I would invite you, but I don’t want the first time you see me half-naked to be while I pee.”
The bathroom floor was cold under her feet, but she ignored it. Quick, efficient, relief, hands washed, then a brief brush of her teeth.
When she stepped back into the dim room, she could see the fatigue in Natasha’s eyes tight, controlled, but undeniable.
Natasha rose smoothly, silent and fluid despite the late hour. She met Y/N at the foot of the bed, gaze sharp and unwavering.
“Get back in bed. You need the rest.”
Y/N cocked her head, a smirk tugging at her lips. “Okay. We have three options…well, four. One: you keep sleeping in that chair and be grumpy at me later. Two: you go sleep in your bed and trust me to stay put. Three: you get in this queen bed with me promise to keep my hands mostly to myself. Four: we both go sleep in your king bed, and you promise not to steal the blankets.”
Natasha stared, expression unreadable, every muscle coiled in quiet patience.
“There aren’t four options. There’s one.” She pointed. “Get in the bed. Now.”
Y/N’s smile faltered. She bit her lip, reaching tentatively for Natasha’s hand.
“Nat, please… I can’t sleep if I’m worried about your back. Please.”
Natasha’s gaze flicked from Y/N’s pleading eyes to her outstretched hand. Something flickered there soft, unreadable but only for a moment. With a quiet sigh, she gently pulled her hand free and moved to the opposite side of the bed.
“Fine. You get some sleep. That’s it.”
Grateful, Y/N crawled in and curled against her pillows on the other side.
“Thank you,” she murmured, settling into the mattress.
Natasha lay stiffly on her back, eyes fixed on the ceiling. Her breathing was steady, but her mind raced, thoughts spinning, alert, protective. Sleep didn’t come. She stayed perfectly still, a silent guardian in the dark.
Y/N’s breathing deepened, slow and even, as she shifted closer, one arm draping over Natasha’s waist, unconsciously seeking warmth and reassurance. Her body relaxed, a quiet hum of calm in the storm of the night.
Natasha tensed immediately. Y/N’s touch made her rigid, muscles coiling, senses heightening. For a long moment, she froze, breath caught but she didn’t move. Her gaze remained fixed on the ceiling, silent and watchful.
Slowly, carefully, Natasha exhaled, letting her body soften, inch by inch. Her posture eased, shoulders lowering. The night stretched on, dark and quiet, and the two of them lay together, one sleeping, one awake, yet both tethered in a fragile, unspoken trust.
Y/N woke in the dark, confusion tugging at her. The weight against her side was warm, grounding. She could smell Natasha’s shampoo lingering in the sheets, feel her face buried lightly against her neck. A soft smile threatened as she tried to close her eyes and drift back to sleep.
A slight shift of her body was enough. Natasha’s eyes snapped open instantly, sharp and alert. She pulled back, expression unreadable, icy.
“Get some more sleep. I’m going to get coffee.”
Y/N tried to grab her hand, to anchor her, leaning slightly to speak but her face ended up pressed against Natasha’s, too close. Something in her brain shattered. Her body took over, and before she knew it… she kissed Natasha.
For a fraction of a second, Natasha froze. Then she pushed Y/N back, hand firm against her shoulder.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” Her voice was low, dangerous.
“I… I don’t know. Please… just go.” Y/N stumbled over words, tears burning, cheeks flushed. Her throat felt raw. “Just… go.” She pulled the blanket over herself, hiding, panic flooding her. This was the last straw. I’m not made for this, her mind screamed.
Natasha’s gaze was stone, but she didn’t move.
“Don’t you dare shut down on me.” Her voice was low, sharp, slicing through the tension. “We are not done here.”
“Romanoff… just go.” Y/N’s voice cracked. Tears streamed as she closed her eyes, forcing herself to shut off everything. I just need to shut down. Until I can get past everyone. Everyone expects I’ll fail. They never thought I’d be Avenger material.
Natasha didn’t move. Instead, she sat on the edge of the bed, voice dropping low, intense.
“Look at me. We are not done until I say we are.”
Y/N stayed still, numbing herself, feeling her body go rigid, close to shutting down entirely.
Natasha didn’t hesitate. She pushed the blanket aside, grabbing Y/N’s wrist with firm, grounding authority.
“Don’t you dare shut me out.” Her voice was commanding. “Look at me. Now.”
Y/N inhaled shakily, eyes dull. She spoke the rehearsed words her training had drilled into her:
“I apologize for my mistake. I understand the consequences. I will not cause further harm to myself or others. You’re free to leave. I will not be a further liability. I will improve.”
Natasha’s eyes hardened, icy. She released her wrist but leaned closer, gaze narrowing.
“Don’t you dare give me a status report.” Her voice dropped to a whisper. “Look at me and tell me what you really feel.”
The words stumbled out, Red Room habits clashing with buried emotion:
“I am only an asset. Emotions are a hindrance. I will improve. I will complete the assignment.”
Natasha’s hand shot up, gripping Y/N’s chin, forcing her eyes to meet hers.
“Stop it.” Her voice was a furious whisper. “That is not who you are. You don’t talk to me like a handler.” Her grip wasn’t gentle. Her green eyes blazed. “Tell me the truth.”
Tears blurred Y/N’s vision. Words choked in her throat.
“Please… I can’t do this. I’m sorry. I didn’t think… maybe I think too much. I just… I just want to go. Please, just let me go.”
Natasha’s grip softened slightly, but she didn’t release her. Her voice was urgent, low.
“Let you go? And then what? Run, and never deal with this? We’re not done. Not until you look at me and tell me the truth.”
Y/N’s voice shook but didn’t leave Natasha’s eyes.
“The others think my antics mean I don’t think… that I’m all childish anger. But that’s curated. Those are the emotions I allow them to see. When I’m with you, I don’t know how to filter them… things I’ve never been allowed to feel, now I understand why. If I go… I won’t be a liability… I won’t have to feel the fear and the ache.”
Natasha’s thumb brushed along Y/N’s jawline, her voice low, raw.
“You are not a liability. Running from this… from me… won’t make the fear stop.”
Y/N’s tears didn’t leave her gaze.
“I can’t stay. I can’t pretend I didn’t cross boundaries. I promise, I’ll keep my head down. I won’t break my Shield oath. Please…”
Natasha’s gaze hardened. “So that’s it? You’re going to run because you’re scared? That’s not the woman I’ve been training.”
“I’m not scared,” Y/N whispered. “…Okay, I am. I’m scared of you hating me after this, disgusted, or leaving me alone in the compound. But… I can’t handle it.”
Natasha softened, intensity shifting to quiet concern. “Disgusted? I’m not disgusted, Y/N. I’m worried. About you.”
A choked laugh escaped Y/N, mingled with sobs. “You don’t have to worry… I won’t hurt anyone. I’ll… turn over my weapons. Move to the desert…”
Natasha gently wiped a tear from her cheek. “I’m not worried about anyone else. I’m worried you’ll destroy yourself.”
“I’m already… destroyed,” Y/N gasped. “I can’t stop the feelings… especially around you.”
Natasha’s thumb brushed her cheek, voice soft but firm. “Feelings don’t destroy us. Running from them does.”
Y/N’s sobs rattled her frame. “If I stay… you get a new trainee. I get shifted off to Steve? Barnes? We avoid each other?”
“No.” Natasha’s voice was hard, unwavering. “You don’t get to decide that. Not now. Not after this.”
Y/N blinked, confused. I thought she’d want to get rid of me the moment she left the room.
Natasha leaned closer, whispering intensely, searching her eyes.
“You think I’d let you go that easily? We haven’t even started figuring this out.”
“Figure…” Y/N whispered, uncertainty in her voice.
“Yes. Figure this out,” Natasha murmured, a faint curve to her lips. “Together. You’re not getting rid of me that easily.”
“But… I kissed you.”
Natasha didn’t flinch. Her thumb gently brushed Y/N’s lips.
“I know,” she whispered. “That doesn’t mean I want you to run from me.”
The flutter in Y/N’s stomach made her blush. She stayed quiet, overwhelmed, speechless another rare reaction.
Natasha’s lips curved into a faint, knowing smile. She nudged Y/N’s shoulder gently.
“Don’t hurt your brain trying to figure it out right now. Lie back down. We’ll talk in the morning.”
“You trust I won’t run when you leave?”
Natasha shifted against the headboard, gaze unwavering.
“I’m not leaving.” She gestured to the space beside her. “Now sleep. We’ll talk in the morning.”
Hours passed, Y/N’s breathing slowly evening out. She lay still, listening for any hint that Natasha might leave. She didn’t.
Sunlight crept through the windows. Every room in the compound had a touch of Tony’s… flair. Y/N’s heart raced as warmth pressed against her side. Deja vu. She stayed still, replaying the night in her mind. Do I run? Or hope it was a dream?
Natasha’s eyes opened, calm and unreadable.
“Trying to sneak away again?”
Y/N swallowed, taking a steadying breath. “Thought about it… figured my feet wouldn’t even touch the ground, right?”
A ghost of a smile curved Natasha’s lips.
“You’re right.” She pushed herself into a sitting position, deliberate, smooth. “Now… are you going to keep plotting your escape, or are we talking?”
Y/N hesitated. Do I have a choice? “Talking,” she said slowly.
“Now tell me what you’re really scared of. Not the mission. The truth.”
Y/N’s words spilled, unfiltered, almost a jumble of confessions:
“You hating me… pretending it’s fine… being disgusted… training under Tony… failing… proving Sam right… losing you… losing control… waking up and it all being a dream.”
Natasha listened. Silent. Steady. Her hand reached out, covering Y/N’s.
“None of that is going to happen,” she said, low and firm. “I promise.”
“Sam hates that I’m an ‘Avenger.’ I kissed my superior. Feels like my heart’s breaking.”
Natasha squeezed her hand, unwavering.
“My title doesn’t matter here. And Sam can go to hell. This isn’t about your heart breaking.”
Y/N lifted her chin, trying to bury her feelings.
“If I’m not moving to the desert… what do we do now?”
Natasha leaned closer, eyes intense, unwavering.
“Now… we figure out what this is,” she whispered. “But first, stop looking like you’ve run a marathon.”
Y/N’s mouth opened and closed like a guppy.
“Figure… this? Figure what? I… messed… what?”
Natasha leaned closer, voice low, murmuring near Y/N’s ear.
“This. Last night. What you’ve been running from. We figure it out.” Her gaze flicked between Y/N’s lips and her eyes.
Y/N licked her lips, butterflies racing. “Okay.”
Natasha’s lips curved into a slow, knowing smile. She leaned closer, voice a whisper.
“Okay.”
Then she pressed a soft, lingering kiss to Y/N’s lips, deliberate, grounding, leaving no room for doubt.
