they put monsters inside of us // a brian thomas playlist
i. prologue // the antlers
ii. monster // jacob banks (ft. avelino)
but they would see me when i’m coming / i’ll be laughing, why you running? / oh you won’t see me when i’m coming / i’ll be that monster you’ve been wanting
iii. cold coffee // blackbear
can you run to control your emotions? / then maybe it won’t hurt this much / but it only gets worse
how does it feel / to be your own deceiver? / signals raised / then lost to the aether
v. am i awake? // they might be giants
these are not the clothes i had on when i went to bed / and something else besides my hair is growing from my head / and when i close my eyes it looks the same as when i open them again
vi. body // mother mother
and take my brain, or what remains / and throw it all away / ‘cause i’ve grown tired of this body / a cumbersome and heavy body
vii. monster vs. angel // WDL (ft. mawe)
got my own monster / nobody but me / i would never call him enemy / he’s the bad god i need
viii. hollow // cloudeater
i stay empty, i feel the hunger / so simple when i was younger / i awaken with the thunder / a bold statement to end my slumber
ix. lost myself // terlia (ft. telepathics)
i’ve been trying hard to leave it alone / but it’s just too much / it’s just too much / and i’m gone / i’ve lost myself again
x. when it’s cold i’d like to die // moby
i don’t want to swim forever / idon’t want to fight the tide / i don’t want to swim the ocean / when it’s cold i’d like to die
something is slipping away / sometimes it feels like you don’t have a body / your skin is cellophane
xii. all gone // mother mother
i’m getting close to reinventing me / zeroing my levels / iget the feeling that it will not be / at all or any better, better, better
xiii. easier to fade // a himitsu (ft. madi larson)
why fake that it’s so right but it’s easier to fade away / why can’t i do this right; it’s easier to fake but harder to forget
xiv. shadow of the day // echos
i close both locks below the window / i close both blinds and turn away / sometimes solutions aren’t so simple / sometimes goodbye’s the only way
sometimes i feel like a ghost who longs for a life / longs for a life again / but then i remember the faces that put out my light the faces that lied / and then i know why
xvi. knock kneed & lead lunged // zach winters
when i have chased you through every haunt / will you tell me it doesn’t matter? / sometimes i can’t see it as a game — what we’re playing
xvii. high hopes // kodaline
and in my dreams i meet the ghost of all the people of come and gone / memories that seems to show up so quick when they leave you far to soon / my evil is just staring at the barrel of a gun / and i do believe it
xviii. who cares if you exist // peacock affect
adding up all the pain / left in your brain / it’s just another black day / sat indoors feeling alone and full of decay
xix. woodland // the paper kites
run, run, don’t trail behind keep moving / the beasts won’t stop till we’re dead / all the scrapes on our knees / wiill tell you where we’ve been, where we have bled
xx. contact redux // trocadero (feat. meredith hagan)
one of us will be forgotten / the other will be wrong / two, four, one, ten / two, four, one, ten / am i transmitting? / is anyone listening?
