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[eewiwiwi0]

A little about me .•°𓇼

Hi i'm Ki and I’m bored out of my mind most of the time, which is why I made this blog to rant about life and ASPD.

Block if you don't like what I talk about stop sending me anon asks 💀

[eewiwiwi0]

You guys ever get so bored you become restless and then you can't fall asleep? 😭

[eewiwiwi0]

Lowkey pisses me off every time my psychiatrist tells me to go do DBT. Like, I don’t want to be told what to do. What benefits does therapy offer when I am perfectly capable of learning how to control myself? Also when my psych decides to waste minutes by taking time to comfort and reassure me that things are ok and that she’s not judging me. My god, I don’t care, I’m not ashamed just get straight to the point.

[kaomoji-kun]

Some of you ppl need to understand that ASPD is not curable. "Getting better" doesn't mean our brains have changed. We still think like this. The difference is that we aren't taking action on most of our thoughts anymore.

And just so you know, "getting better" is almost always for our own benefit. We're not doing it for you and your comfort. We're doing it so we don't go to prison.

[eewiwiwi0]

Bloodlust

[eewiwiwi0]

Empaths, NTs, anyone who stands by this tbh:

Can someone explain to me why yall believe a lack of empathy automatically means someone is a bad person? Why does the presence of empathy make someone good? The ability to feel the emotions of another person does not necessarily come with the ability to be helpful.

You could feel empathy and be so overwhelmed you can't even help the said person. You could feel empathy and not even know how to approach the situation. I'm not seeing how "I get you. I hope you feel better soon" is helpful. Your hope isn't going to do anything??

[totallyfriendlyloser]

Sometimes I get close to people purely because I want to see everything there is to see. Not even in some evil way, either. I just want access. To push someone to their limits, to see every single disgusting side of them, I want to know what someone looks like at their best, at their worst, angry, ashamed, obsessed, insecure, happy, pathetic, every opinion, worldviews, contradiction, and every strange habit. All of it. And the weird part is that I mean this in a genuinely affectionate way. I don't hate people for showing me ugly parts of themselves. Quite the opposite, actually. The more someone trusts me enough or gets dependent enough to show me something real, the more fascinated I become. People are just absurdly interesting to me, and I appreciate them for it. But yeah, once I've seen everything - or at least everything I'm capable of seeing - my interest starts wandering. I will just leave as there's nothing more for me to do. I've only viewed people almost like territories to be explored. There were people I could get close to and people I couldn't. People who opened and people who stayed shut. And naturally the ones I couldn't reach became the most interesting. Maybe that's the problem. Maybe I've always been more interested in understanding people than actually keeping them. Just leaving after I've drained the light out of them. I don't know. That's a pretty depressing thought, actually.

[eewiwiwi0]

I really don’t like the things a lot of people will comment under videos of NPD/ASPD that are meant to spread awareness. It’s like the pwASPD/NPD being interviewed is coming forward and being honest with their experiences and you have these people who will say things like: “Never trust a sociopath/psychopath/narcissist.” “He/she is obviously lying.” “What an evil person.” Does it make them feel better to call someone else out? I find it interesting that they enjoy sort of acting like they know everything about a certain group of people.

Or, “My relative/ex/family member was manipulative and ruined my life. Such a psychopath/narc. Run while you can!” “I once dated a psychopath and one day he broke up with me without any empathy.” Maybe he broke up with you because he’s been putting up with you for quite some time and he’s finally had it?? Why do they think a few traits indicates that the said individual has a full blown disorder? Are they dumb :/ ANYONE could be an ass but they choose to label it with something that is a condition. The video could literally include the criteria in the DSM5 and these people will be like “Yep, this person that ruined my life definitely has it.” They choose to label someone while there are so many explanations for why someone acted a certain way. I get it’s easier and it feels good to be like yeah this evil person ruined my life…they must be [insert harmful term] this is part of why there’s so much stigma!!! I dislike their lack of willingness to give other perspectives a chance 😓

[eewiwiwi0]

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Hate it when I'm texting someone and then they suddenly decide to no longer entertain me. I didn't even do anything to scare you away!! You're MY source of entertainment get your bum back over here!!

[eewiwiwi0]

Men and their obsession with going to the gym as a fix to all their life problems

[eewiwiwi0]

Back on the same topic but people who ask how to grow as a person, how to become the best version of yourself (esp men my god) and then choose to do things that have absolutely no correlation to that. Wow yes go to the gym, read, and diet to fix your emotional problems. Are you stupid? I told you to try facing your feelings and asking yourself why you are the way you are and you told me to go fuck myself.

Why do people never analyze the mechanics, the blueprints of themselves? You can't get anywhere unless you know how YOU work. It's uncomfortable but isn't everything else in life?

And they refuse to try the solutions offered because they're so convinced it won't work. Stop being so stubborn and try it. Life is as simple as 'cause and effect.'

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[eewiwiwi0]

I hate people who complain about their problems and then proceed to do absolutely nothing about it. Or they ask for help and choose to not consider any of the advice that was given to them. Why do you keep talking then? Why sit and dwell in self pity when you can get up and make a change? "Oh but it's so hard to, I just can't" STFU with that mindset obviously nothing's going to change. Go make it happen instead

[eewiwiwi0]

ASPD is a disability that greatly affects quality of life. According to your own logic, you should be “let go of”. It is ablism. Having ASPD is not an excuse to be ableist to other people with disabilities. Get good.

Sure I wouldn't mind but also how would they know that I'd have aspd at birth?? "Ableist to other people w disabilities" I don't discriminate. I'm just saying some people w disabilities, specifically physical, would rather have been let go than live the life they have now, given all the complications/struggles. Maybe consider that

Also what a waste of time and resources :p

[eewiwiwi0]

People with a disability that will severely interfere w their quality of life should be let go at birth. I don't see a point in existing if you can't have a good quality of life, like you can't live life to the fullest. Maybe that's ableism but I literally don't care

[oohsosneaky]

"Boredom" be like

Explaining psychopathic understimulation to a friend. Feeling this extremely hard right now, and really wanting to relapse.

[archangelofgore]

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