Optimistic Realism

Aiko / 23 / Ambiguous Feelings | Instagram | Last.fm"Everyday we spend here is like a whole lifetime of dying slowly."

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Thanks everybody! I don’t think I’d be able to continue keeping up and updating my tumblr any longer. I’m growing older, got more priorities, and I guess I’ve got a lot more things to do now than ever. Adulthood happened I suppose. It’s kinda sad but that’s okay because I won’t delete this as I find it comforting to see myself check this site years from now and reminisce some memories. Now, I’m working to be the best possible version of myself. It was a great 5 years, and I couldn’t have asked for anything better.

Nobody actually checks this page any longer I think, but it’s a part of my life that I will always fondly remember. I regret nothing, and hopefully, neither does everyone whom I was able to luckily connect to. :)

Awkward happy/sad sack of shit– signing out.

P.S.

If you ever stumble upon this page again, I want you to know that I’ll always be rooting for you. I have learned to love myself little by little each passing day, all thanks to you. But you’re still in my thoughts. I just want you to know that there will always be a piece of you in me.. Always. And I’m grateful for that. I will still love you in every lifetime, even if that means loving you a different way. Good night.

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It’s weird that when you remember what happened, who and where you are a year ago, and everything you are now, there’s still no denying that there are just some things that never fade away. Surely you feel less for what you had before; So in a way, you still feel the same. But you don’t want to come back to that.

It’s been a while, Tumblr. How’s everything?

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Time Turned Fragile - Motion City Soundtrack

I know I say that I am just fine But I hope you wonder from time to time

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Motion City Soundtrack - My Favorite Accident

You hit the road and left me an ocean I can’t swim in the silence of your skin-skin please let me in

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I don’t know if you still care but three things:

- I really hoped you were here with me. You’re the first person I wanted to bring to this place. I think of you and so many other good things when I’m here. I wanted to talk to you. I really do.. But I guess I should be fine on my own.

- I always wish you well, hope that you’re always safe, and that you’re always happy. And when you’re sad, I hope that life will be kind to you so that things can eventually turn around in your favor and you’ll be happy again.

- Lastly.. Thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you, for I am learning to be a stronger person every day. I just wanted you to know.. That there will be a piece of you in me, always. And I’m grateful for that.. Thank you for being a part of me.

And to Tumblr, thank you for giving me such a wonderful memory.. Let me leave this here for now.. Good night.

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Wouldn’t It Be Nice // The Beach Boys

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I still think of you up to this very day. I guess you're more likely the opposite But I hope you're doing okay.

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Companion

I’m a wanderer not knowing where I should go Can’t take away all emptiness wrapped in me, but I’ll be okay though I used to look for your company and you used to be like that too. Now, it’s alright, I guess I just have to do without you.

There used to be this delightful feeling being on the roof deck It’s where I used to talk you back in the days when I felt like a wreck I said Wouldn’t It Be Nice by Beach Boys is a nice song to get by Then you told me your stories and referenced The Cure’s Boys Don’t Cry

You came in to my life and made me believe I’m worth it I gave you mine, you gave me yours; It was Love, wasn’t it? We were young, happy, in love and we felt so alive. You were my lover, my support system and my best friend since you arrived.

But things happened and didn’t see them coming After all the time spent, your Love faded and it was just heartbreaking. Memories kept in my heart, but lost the blithe Though you don’t feel the same, that’s okay, I just have to get used to it.

You said the last thing you wanted to do is leave me but you did, How come I didn’t see it coming during the times that you did? I understand that people change but I have that to fear When you came in to my life, you leaving was last thing I wanted to hear.

There’s no more companion to share the roof deck with I stand on my feet and wander there to realize how heavy I breathe It’s empty and I just have my own company Recollect and reminisce those memories and it’s not running out of sympathy

You don’t need to waste time talking to me now I guess you realized my company isn’t really that fun no matter how I know I’m not someone on your level and I’ll never be But thank you for bringing your level down to mine when you were with me

I feel the unluckiest to have found and then lost And I know I still feel the same for you but I need to forget cause it’s a must It’s just that every day I’m being reminded, every day I’m blue All bad luck is on my side because I know very well that I still miss you.

Walking through the haze of sunlight and sundown I was still looking for you through faces I see and at me, they frown. I wonder if you’ve been feeling the opposite of mine You know that happiness is all I hope for you, I hope you shine

You used to sing me Cross My Mind, You saw yourself happy and you said that my company is hard to find, I used to sing you My Blue Heaven, that song’s lovely You came and then you left, so here’s Great Romances of the 20th Century

These tears just won’t stop still, and I can’t believe myself How hard it is to close such a beautiful book and bring it back to the shelf Promise of a better day, promise of a greater hope, promise of a new tomorrow It kept playing cause I still know everything, I still know everything, I still know..

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Promise me you’ll laugh, my dear, after I am gone.