Thinking about how important it is to me that Lex is canonically a crier.
I get it. She's iconic. A burnt-out retail employee who smokes weed on her break. The black nail polish, several rings, and dark wardrobe. Rebellious, sharp tongued, absolutely BASED opinions about the state of medical care in the US, Lex is an aesthetic that is popular for a reason.
However, that aesthetic is not everything that she is.
It misses what is underneath that exterior. The depressed, desperate kid who was forced to grow up too fast.
Did you know that the leather jacket Ethan wears was originally supposed to be Lex's? Did you know that the reason she ended up with her oversized denim jacket was because Angela felt it fit her better? That she felt leather didn't fit for a poor, depressed kid?
Did you know that we are given the exact reason why Ethan is so supportive? Did you know we are told twice?
"Lex, I'll get you to California, Lex. Then you don't gotta cry so much no more."
"I love seeing you smile. I live for it."
Did you know that is the very reason why Lex's Letter hits you so hard? Because Lex isn't sad because of the events of Yellow Jacket. She's been sad for a very long time. And she buries it so deeply inside herself and her own self-loathing that when we finally see those cracks, you can only barely see the real damage underneath.
Despite all of this... did you know we still haven't seen her cry?
Her eyes water while singing about her sister in Black Friday. She swipes at her eyes during the Cupcake scene in Yellow Jacket.
The moment she lets herself fully cry, that we see her actual tears begin to fall, it's hidden behind words on a piece of paper. Words she wrote while Ethan and Hannah were both asleep.