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she\they | 21 | studying chemistry and pharmaceutical technologies 🦠🧫🧪🧬📚⚕️🌱

[ele-studies-pharma]

hello there!

I'm going to officially be inactive until I feel like it :)

I'm okay!! I just don't feel like posting here at the moment

[ele-studies-pharma]

5-01-2026

I'm still getting new followers from time to time, so welcome to my semi-inactive blog!

I'm in my third year now, things are getting very serious and difficult (we started pharmaceutical chemistry and pharmacology)

memorising drugs isn't very fun so I'm trying to come up with little stories to try and remember all the names

I doubt I'll know perfectly every single structure like the professors asks though (we covered over 250 drugs for 1 single exam💀)

I'm grateful 2025 ended thb, it was kind of a rollercoaster but I ended therapy and became very close with some of my friends. I'm in a much better state mentally, though I'm still stressed about uni (I bet we all are)

[ele-studies-pharma]

more ochem lab!

[ele-studies-pharma]

ochem lab :)

[ele-studies-pharma]

19-10-2025

last week I went to a vintage fair of sorts and I saw these beautiful teacups from the 1900s!

I bought one (pic below!), having tea has never been so fancy 🍵

the weeks are passing by very fast and, though I'm not behind with my notes, I would like more time and energy to actually study and revise. for now, two of the 4 subjects seem manageable, one requires more time to tidy up (bc the professor only speaks using long ass phrases that 9 times out of 10 lead to nothing somehow) and the last one is so scary cause we have to memorise a LOT of drugs

in the end, I survived ochem 1 and 2, so I can survive this (hopefully)

life-wise, I officially completed therapy!! I'm in a much better state mentally

I'm still medicated for my depression, but with therapy I learned lots of emotional regulation and I don't suffer from ptsd anymore!!

I'm so grateful for my therapist and I'm proud of myself

now here's the teacup I bought :)

[ele-studies-pharma]

7-10-2025

not to be an hopeless romantic but I really miss physical media.

I have a few books and comics, but I don't really have any music beside my Spotify playlist, but sometimes I fear I'll lose it all just by the servers shutting down or something like that. I just don't really feel like I own my things

maybe I'll start using my mp3 again lol

editing song names, albums ect is easier on phone, but mp3 have a special place in my heart

I've also been thinking about starting a media journal, where I log the media I consume and write a bit about it, I just need to start it :p

[ele-studies-pharma]

01-10-2025

these days the sky has been wonderful!

today I don't have classes, so I'll focus on my notes and lab reports :)

[ele-studies-pharma]

21-09-2025

hi!!??

apparently I'm in my 3rd year of university and I managed to not get behind in any of the classes

thanks to therapy my mental health has improved a lot, even though I tend to isolate myself from time to time as a coping mechanism

this semester I will need to study a LOT, the topics are getting more and more specific and objectively harder (I'm scared!!)

I have

toxicology

preformulation and pharmaceutical technologies

lab for preparation and extraction of drugs

pharmaceutical chemistry

[ele-studies-pharma]

update!

hello! I found out my brother has a phone he doesn't use anymore so I downloaded my Instagram, Pinterest, Facebook and shopping apps there. I'll keep it at home bc it has a really bad battery + it doesn't have a sim card!

I'll try to keep Tumblr in my main phone to use as a personal blog, + Notion as an archive

^here's a digicam pic I'm really proud of (I've been at the lake the past few days)

[ele-studies-pharma]

hi! I'm alive and well!

these months I've been realising I'm kind of fed up with most social media. I don't have tiktok and Instagram is just too overwhelming

I'm very interested in old web, dumb phones, neocities, nekoweb (even though I don't have a pc to use for coding)

I'd really want a place to use as a kind of archive + personal blog, I already have notion but I kind of like having interactions with other users

let me know if you have any suggestions + thanks for reading my rambles

[mood-mixerrr]

[ele-studies-pharma]

7-11-2024

Last week I went to an anime con and had so much fun!

I got a signed copy of "It's lonely at the center of the world" by Zoe Thorogood and such a good comic omg

it got me reflecting on what I want to do with my art and my sense of purpose and identity. I'd really want to explore my interests a lot more

also, with my doc's approval I'm starting to decrease my antidepressants dose: until I won't be able to go to a psychologist, I don't think things will change much in my head (it's alright though dw)

regarding uni stuff, I decided on my exam schedule and I started to study

19th December: Physics

8th January: Biochemistry

16th January: physical methods in organic chemistry

3rd February: Organic Chemistry II

21st February: Physiology

[ele-studies-pharma]

Hii! I just realized that it's been a while, and especially bc of that last vent post, I hope ur doing well (not only academically, but really w/ your personal stuff); u don't have to answer or anything, just wishing u better days and more sunny skies ❤️

hii, I'm alive and well!

thanks for checking in! I'm doing better now, even though I had some bad days

I didn't have much time to post here, I'm reflecting on a lot of things. I'm trying to make time for my hobbies and art account on ig as much as possible, while studying and doing my best academically

I don't know how to manage everything (but in reality I probably just need to spend less time on my phone lol)

I won't delete tumblr ofc and you can check in anytime!

maybe I'll start posting consistently again ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

[ele-studies-pharma]

01-10-2024

hi, it's been a while!

2nd year started and I'm getting a nice grasp of this semester's classes and how the professors teach

my classes for this semester

Organic chemistry II

Physiology

Biochemistry

Physical Organic chemistry

really cool classes, I like them a lot (even though the last one is a bit weird, its applications are so cool (we're basically learning how to recognise a molecule's structure and its bounds from the way it interacts with radiations!))

I really like just making notes and tidying them up and not having to worry about studying (until the last week of October)

[ele-studies-pharma]

19-09-2024

vent post, feel free to scroll

I honestly feel like shit cause some of my colleagues were like "lol I only studied for 4 days!" and they still passed

I did not pass my physics test, again.

in my test there was an exercise I didn't understand even when reading the corrections + a formula that literally wasn't on the course topics but okay

it's just unfair. I know I'm not the only one in a situation like this, but it's unfair how some people study like ⅒ of someone else and still end up with a higher score

also my family sometimes treats me like garbage because I don't look the way they want (cause I have glasses and "too" long hair and I don't feel comfortable wearing tight tops and that's a problem apparently??)

today my lectures started again and I feel scared and overwhelmed and I'm afraid I won't be able to understand things

also, my water bottle was run over by a bus (honestly hilarious, I wish I was joking)

I'm sorry for this vent but I have to put this somewhere, and honestly I don't have the energy to write in my physical journal

I'll just treat myself like I'm sick for tonight, wearing comfortable clothes, staying warm in my bed

it's just been a rough day and I just want it to end

[ele-studies-pharma]

13-09-2024

wtf datura growing from a sidewalk in my town

the cold weather is here!! kinda aggressive tho, as the temperature went about 10°C down in A DAY.

not really complaining tho, I want fall so bad

I've been reviewing physics for about 3 weeks now and honestly I don't know what to review anymore (??) the exam is this Monday but idk I've done almost all the exercises, read the exam program and wrote everything I knew from memory and also answered previous exams' questions without looking at my notes

maybe I'll review electromagnetism and modern physics again, but this time directly from the slides my prof gave us

I don't necessarily feel confident, cause I know you have to read the professors' mind to pass, but I don't know what should I be doing more than this

also, the exam is on Monday and on Thursday I'll start classes again! kind of excited cause we'll have an entire day without classes, and I'll have 4 subjects instead of 5

[ele-studies-pharma]

29-08-2024

I did it!!! I passed my Ochem 1 exam with 27/30!

^here's all the post-it(s?) I put up my wardrobe

now I can concentrate on studying physics (again), though I know the prof is probably going to not let anyone pass as she always does (she's kinda famous in our course for that lol)

(I'm not that worried because she will retire this year soooo)