Fabian (he/they), 26, ace, aspiring supervillain. An animation nerd who loves drawing, writing and superheroes. I tag my art with 'bee draws' & you can find me on ao3 as em_gray.
In conversation with multiple posts going around discussing technical literacy and typing skills…
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is less than 35 Words Per Minute
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is less than 35 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is 36-45 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is 36-45 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is 46-55 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is 46-55 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is 56-69 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is 56-69 WPM
I HAD typing classes: my typing speed is faster than 70 WPM
I did NOT have typing classes: my typing speed is faster than 70 WPM
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➡️ Take a typing test here (and you need an actual, physical keyboard for this):
The industry-standard benchmark used by employers and typing certifications worldwide.
➡️ 'Typing classes' refers to computer skills classes you might have had in school; you can also count games or other related typing training your parents might have had you do.
➡️ Across 3 different typing test websites*, the (english language) world average typing speed is 40 WPM.
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ADHD advice from non-ADHD people: start blocking out your day and put things in your google calendar
ADHD advice from ADHD people: any time you're waiting for your food to microwave YOU HAVE TO WASH DISHES WASH AS MANY AS YOU CAN THIS IS A RACE AGAINST TIME THIS IS THE ONLY TIME THIS COULD HAPPEN
#a little bit of body horror homoeroticism won’t hurt. (x)
#i love when people draw Yoshiki truly accepting ‘Hikaru’ for what he is #He doesn’t feel gross about it and he wants ‘Hikaru’ to be himself and not always hide behind this human persona #he wants to see ‘Hikaru’ and learn about ‘Hikaru’ and love ‘Hikaru’ he wants to love and appreciate his true form #which makes so much sense for yoshiki cause thanks to ‘Hikaru ‘ yoshiki can come to terms with his homosexuality. #something he shamed himself for saying it was disgusting and wrong #but with ‘hikaru’ that doesn’t matter #so he does his best to make sure ‘Hikaru‘ doesn’t feel the shame he had to feel his entire life (x)
#do u guys ever think about how 'hikaru' isnt truly immortal anymore after giving half of himself to yoshiki #or how now he feels pain and sorrow and all this complicated human feelings even more? (x)
the entinity inside hikaru's body is not an allegory for being perceived as a monster after coming out, but for queerness itself.
so, it's very clear for me that “hikaru” represents some kind of ideological (and sexual, if you will) liberation.
indifferent to humanity and societal conventions, it emerges to contrast with yoshiki's internalized homophobia; not to bring light to human hikaru's alleged feelings. hikaru and “hikaru” are different beings, independent of each other, and they play different roles in yoshiki's development/ the tshd narrative. the “monster” parallels much more yoshiki than hikaru.
the illegitimate exists as, rather than just being a metaphor for 'being perceived' in a certain way, more of a matter of who you are, your nature — queerness.
(and note that queerness is not limited to homosexuality!)
historically, "queer" meant strange or peculiar.
in the late 19th century, it was weaponized as a derogatory slur for sexual and gender minorities. in the late 1980s, activists began reclaiming the word as a positive self-identifier and an inclusive, fluid umbrella term for the lgbtq+ community.
he is the embodiment of it. and, poetically, takes the form of the boy yoshiki loved.
this leads me to cite the strange case of dr. jekyll and mr. hyde by robert louis stevenson, a classic reference for queer allegory involving monsters.
many interpret the character of hyde as a code for repressed homosexuality in victorian english society, jekyll's "unspeakable desires."
roughly speaking, this can be viewed within freudian psychoanalysis as:
hyde – id (unconscious, the primal impulse, seeks immediate pleasure).
jekyll – superego (moral conscience, the very concept of “right and wrong” and, thus, guilt).
this perspective places hyde’s impulsive acts of evil on the same level as (and links them to) the moral aversion of the society of that era toward homosexuality and deviant behaviors.
i believe “hikaru” reads as the same idea of wild and primitive instinct, upon which the entity relies on as its nature. while not malicious, it can be viewed as cruel when human moral principles are applied to it. yoshiki empathizes with that aspect of him; he seeks salvation in “hikaru”'s lack of judgment, and in doing so, finds acceptance of his own nature. they want to find happiness together, bring just the way they are.
with this in mind, we can address the nuance of interpreting the relationship between the two as either romantic or platonic. mokumokuren made it clear that the homosexual aspect and the aroace aspect are equally important, precisely because both are equally as queer.
yoshiki and “hikaru” share a fundamentally queer relationship — one made of love.
about this recent line, considering that japanese is a language that commonly uses nouns instead of pronouns in sentence structure, i love how yoshiki simply says "you" here. he doesn't use hikaru's name, instead addressing the creature directly, whoever that is.
always interesting whenever people start talking about polyamory as particularly unstable or prone to jealousy bc it begs the question of if they’ve ever seen or heard of monogamous couples
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I get in theory why people complain about het ships or whatever, I get wanting to watch queer media I really do, but I guess where y’all lose me is like. I saw some asshole on a post about Sinners complaining it was “hetslop”—this person was specifically doing so while also claiming Remmick was a queer character and thus they were justified in caring more about him than the Black protagonists. which is a whole other disgusting can of worms that has been well addressed by others at this point. but even in the absence of that part of the argument, like, no, i actually don’t think that a hunger for queer stories is an especially good excuse to deride and dismiss a piece of landmark Black filmmaking, especially as a non-Black person. I have a post that’s been going around encouraging folks to engage with more Native stories and characters, and I had someone come onto that post saying in the tags that they’d need these stories to be queer in order to care. and I just think that, you know, sucks! like obviously as a queer Native I also want to see more of those stories too. but idk how else to put it other than to say that Black people and people of color shouldn’t have to be like you in order for you to care about our narratives and experiences. and I think some of y’all are using this disdain for heterosexuality as a cover for your unexamined racial biases. it’s not okay to be racist to people just because those people happen to be straight, and you continue to be white before you are queer.
on an even more basic level than that, also, I simply just think some of y’all NEED to learn how to interact with media and storytelling without ships and fandom in mind. like if not being able to write fic about two men kissing is genuinely going to be a dealbreaker for you I think that’s actually something you need to work on within yourself because at that point I think you’re no longer really interacting with art and themes and narrative so much as just kind of playing with toys. which is, like, fine I guess. have fun. but it wouldn’t kill you to disengage from that from time to time. especially if would allow you to actually appreciate rich and deeply moving cultural stories from communities of color that you desperately need to learn how to see as human
