Katie

Just a wife and an Angel Mom trying to navigate my new normal

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Sweet soul, keep loving ❤️

Infant loss month always hits hard. I don’t think it will ever get easier. Even with a healthy, ever-growing, and curious child…It hits even harder for me since having my early missed miscarriage that resulted in over a month of waiting, 2 rounds of meds, and eventually needing a D&C. I’ve experienced it from both ends, something I couldn’t wish on my worst enemy. Our symbol for Emma, as most of…

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Sobbing Over a Postcard

I knew the day was coming…. I could see the social media ads about our local school district’s Kindergarten Round-Up. But I ignored them like they didn’t exist. And then, I couldn’t avoid it even if I tried. I opened my informed delivery email today, and there it was…. Slapping me in the face was the annual flyer sent out to the neighborhood houses for Buder Elementary School’s Kindergarten…

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Holidays without You here....

Holidays without You here….

What should be such a fun season for parents, is a harsh reminder of what is not, for more than you think…. buckle up for this short, but sweet reminder this holiday season! As for myself, this year hits a little harder. You see I should have not only a 4.5 yr old girl, and a 3 yr old boy, but also an almost 4-month-old baby as well. And while I am so incredibly happy to have Easton here, to…

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Saying Goodbye to Healthcare

My God… if neglecting a blog was an Olympic Sport, I’d have a few gold medals🏅 🏅 And the only excuse or lack thereof, is that once again life got in the way. But not in a bad way You see 6 months ago today, I worked my LAST shift in Healthcare🏥👩🏼‍⚕️. 12 years of Healthcare and just like that, it’s over🩺💉🩼. I was so scared and nervous to leave my career… After all it was all I’ve known since I…

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Angel of Mine🦋

I’m sorry it’s taken so long for me to post again. Thank you so much for being my loyal followers. I’m not sure why it’s taken me all day to put everything together. But here it goes… This morning driving to work, I was having a whole conversation in my head (not unusual). And for whatever reason it was the last conversation Ryan’s grandma Helen had. We had just gotten to the hospital to visit…

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One Month Ago, My World Crashed AGAIN.

One month ago, my world crashed… AGAIN! One month ago, I heard the soul crushing news. One month ago, I was all alone in the doctors office after finding out our sweet  babe didn’t have a heart beat. One month ago, my dear friend Mollie came to my rescue in the doctors office. One month ago, I joined the club no mother ever wants to be apart of, yet so many of us are. One month ago, my…

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Be Your Own Advocate

Okay so I’ve been meaning to write this all day and put it off. After the appointment last week and over the weekend I could not get over this overwhelming feeling that something wasn’t right with how everything went down that day. My gut told me I HAD to go back in for another ultrasound just to check. Had I not gone back in and had taken the meds to start the process, I would have lived with…

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You are NOT Alone

You are NOT Alone

Hi everyone! Just wanted to be able to update everyone at once, as opposed to having to text hundreds of people and explain things over an over again..  Some of you already know, but Ryan and I were trying for baby #3. We actually happened to get pregnant very quickly after having my birth control removed. After the initial shock wore off, I scheduled my first appointment. I got to see that…

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I don't know about you, but I'm feelin '22!

I don’t know about you, but I’m feelin ’22!

I can’t even put into words what 2021 did for me. It opened my eyes to quite a few toxic people, as well as my own toxic behaviors. I have grown immensely. I’ve learned so much about myself but yet still feel like I have so much more to learn. Friendships have both blossomed and sailed. My health was never a big priority until about September. I had noticed I gained about 35 lbs from…

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The surest way to make your dreams come true, is to live them!

The surest way to make sure your dreams come true, is to live them. And that is just what I’m going to do. Anyone who knows me, knows I’ve been trying to come up with something meaningful to help my Emmy Lou’s memory live on. I have a huge passion for photography and am constantly taking pictures. So about a week ago, my beautiful daughter Emma came to me in a dream. I was just 2 weeks off of…

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365 Days, 52 Weeks, 12 Months

O.N.E Years old. I’m not sure how we got here so fast but here we are… One year ago today you made your dramatic entrance into the world. It all started with the pause before we heard your sweet sweet cries. Then once you were held up to the clear drape so we could see you, you proceed to pee on the drape and myself… that OR must have been chilly 🤣 Shortly after a few minutes of getting…

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Is he your first child?

There is no other heartbreaking question then when someone asks a loss parent if their living children are their first/only. It’s puts us in such an awkward, and uncomfortable position.

How do we answer? How will this person take me saying no then explaining my loss? Do I even bother or should I just say yes he is my only? Do I feel like potentially crying or grieving out loud today?

These…

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Dear Chrissy

Dear Chrissy,

First and foremost I want to tell you how deeply sorry I am for you and John to have to go through this. And secondly I want to THANK YOU, for using your platform, and publicly speaking out and  on such a taboo subject… during easily one of if not the worst times of your lives.

Ive been thinking all day long about what to say to you. And I wish more than anything that no…

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The day you were born and the NICU stay for 9 days after! (Warning: this is extremely long)

December 17th, 2019 started just like all my days did, except I was prepping for my second scheduled csection! I woke up super early and took my shower, got dressed and we packed the car up. Got to the hospital and went through all the pre op registration things. I got dressed in my beautiful hospital gown, and we were about an hour away from delivery time (10:30 am).

They brought in…

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Happy 2nd Birthday Emmy Lou

Happy 2nd Birthday Emmy Lou

Well Emmy, it’s been 2 years. 2 years since the best/worst day of our lives. My Facebook feed keeps reminding me of all the things we did up to when you were born. It also showed us the sobering message when we had to tell everyone you went to be with Jesus. We miss you so much everyday. We love you even more. And we continue to tell your little brother Goose about you even though he isn’t big…

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Baby After Loss

Hey ya’ll!

Sorry for ghosting the blog for a bit. Life got crazy and MAN ALIVE do I have so much to catch you all up on…

First and foremost let me introduce you to our perfect sugar drop rainbow baby… Easton Louis Tucker born 12/17/19 @ 4:14pm weighing 7 lbs 12 oz and 19.5 inches long. Head full of hair for days!

Our journey post delivery didn’t start like we had hoped. Easton was having some…

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Twice a week testing

Today started my twice weekly appointments. I’m only 32w3d but since I deliver at 37w3d they wanted to start my twice weekly testing early.

My twice weekly testing includes NST (non stress test) and a BPP (biophysical profile) the NST is a boring test where you sit in a nice comfy chair with 2 monitors strapped to your belly while they monitor baby’s heart rate and movements. The BPP is the…

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