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[samirasystole]

something about santos having a history of self harm but having enough self preservation skills to get herself someone to spend the evening with. something about her knowing she might hurt herself if she's alone so she invites someone with her. something about santos making friends when she's had the worst day ever because that's when she needs it most. something about santos making both whitaker and mel feel less alone without realising it. something about her caring for others when she doesn't have the energy to care for herself anymore

[emmiee02]

i’ve made so many edits in my head to noah kahan’s new album. the possibilities are endless. i need kastle and the pitt edits on my desk monday morning.

[noahwhyle]

ER 11.07 | THE PITT 2.15

#the baby whisperer

[emmiee02]

watched episodes 18-20 of season 8 and i need to know if anyone has ever moved on from mark greene. i dont think i can. i cried so hard i could barely breathe. couldn’t make it through on the beach. i feel like i just lost my father.

[emmiee02]

s8 e16 of ER. what the hell. carter losing his virginity at ELEVEN YEARS OLD? TO A 25 YEAR OLD? i am sick to my stomach

[puppiegracie]

"is that your final lesson to these kids?"

is what's gonna make him stay. btw. you can see it on his face. that was the thing to say. Robby doesn't care about himself. although he's been very shit at showing it this shift, he does care about others. these are his people. this is his department. this hospital contains the "best things he's ever done."

he wants to leave it better than he found it, he wants his students to do better than him. but the implication of this being his "final lesson" is gutting. and that did get to him. oh, it pierced straight through. he's grappling with how tortuous it is to live in his mind and how badly he does not want to fail his students yet again, how deeply he cares about them. fuuuuckkkkk

[emmiee02]

rachel AND susan being back for season 8. papa i’m scared.

[emmiee02]

s7 ep10 of ER. i have never been so stressed in my life. my heart is in my ass right now.

[teklarnnn]

chin up diva, jason todd would totally fall in love with you

[apricustar]

i love collecting pieces of each character like little crumbs each episode !!! dr. al-hashimi speaks some armenian, dana cuts her husband’s hair, victoria’s mom was pregnant with her while doing her residency which must feed into how hard she rides her, trinity is good with figuring out the ‘odd stuff’ because she keeps up with trends and leans towards assuming patients are being stupid, mel likes kelly clarkson, frank knows nietzsche enough to recognize a quote by him okay philosopher, perlah is a hugger, dennis loves EM because of the pace and case types and being there when people are at their lowest, samira was debating an ultrasound fellowship too, robby’s mom left him YUMMM

[drjthepitt]

what makes the pitt great is that i actually DO care about every character and their interactions and dynamics. i WANT to know what ogilvie’s deal is. i LIKE that robby is an asshole and a great doctor. i am ENJOYING the langdon/trinity tension. i think its INTERESTING that javadi hasn’t found her footing yet. that’s good tv!!!! yay!!!!!

[hellorhightreason]

So far every episode Noah Wyle has written or directed has destroyed me emotionally so given the latest episode I am, quite understandably, Just A Little Concerned about next week

[emmiee02]

s6 carter starting to have bad ptsd episodes. he cant sleep. he’s losing his sparkle more and more every episode. his face is so haunted, i keep seeing robby. watching this on top of the pitt, just macrodosing pain and torture. and its further affirming in my brain that carter is young robby. same character just had to change names. it makes everything all the more devastating :)

[emmiee02]

lucy matching with psych at the hospital im going to be SICK. they did not have to do that. and carter over reacting to pablo. im heartbroken.

[cbartonscoffee]

Victoria's puzzled look at Robby pushing her towards doing the procedure. Her confusion as she tries to figure out how his comment about dermatology fits into the picture of what others expect from her, what she'll do with her career. Because up to now, Robby's stood up for her, given her chances to prove herself and shown that he believes her capable of being a great doctor. But this is probably the first time he outright tells her what he expects from her— something big, significant, probably even working in the ED. And even more, his opinion contradicts that of her parents, who expect her to want to go into another specialty (her dad mentioned dermatology, right?). He's telling her not only that he sees her and her potential, but that her place is here with them. Because it's one thing when Mateo says it, he's the guy she has a crush on, someone she's amicable with, but Robby? Robby's her boss. Robby's the chief. It doesn't get bigger than Robby.

[emmiee02]

documenting this so i can come back and laugh later but THIS? is THE lucy knight that somehow changes carters whole life?? not a fan but its still early. this is how i felt about lexi grey at first and we all know how that ended.

[emmiee02]

so im here! boy oh boy. i was so severely underprepared. the lexi grey foreshadowing..

[emmiee02]

pregaming episode 13 of the pitt with episodes 14 & 15 of ER season 6. iykyk. noah wyle stressing me the hell out in every universe.