emo's crypt of chaos and doom

typical late-20's music enjoyer. i even make a little music when i want to, and i stream on twitch as well. avatar by @reelrollsweat bestowed gender: freshly picked apple. they/them \M/ big fandoms include: heavy metal music, rwby, the amazing digital circus, football/soccer (atlanta united and celtic fc) and anime (esp. fairy tail) small fandoms include: baseball (atlanta), helldivers, and whatever else i think of later hey. you're cool :3 dni: fascists, campists, genocide enjoyers, elon musk stans

[emoshep]

about me

hi there! i'm emo.

i mean, uhh, emoshep. you know! like the mass effect character bu- okay, you get it. anyway, i've been here for a minute now and i figure it's time to make a new intro post to pin so here we go.

i'm a late-20s music enjoyer (for whom they/them is preferred). in fact, i make covers of music from video games, anime and other fun media under this name! here's a sample of my work:

so yeah! there's a thing. and hey, i also have a twitch channel under this name. mayhaps check that out too whenever you like?

alright that's enough o' that, let's get to the interesting stuff.

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big fandoms

• Legend of Zelda

• Final Fantasy

• RWBY

• the amazing digital circus

• football/soccer

- celtic fc, liverpool, atlanta united

- whomever else i feel like cheering for on a given day (if you can safely describe it as "not a nazi club," i'm generally cool with it)

• anime/manga

- anything involving makoto shinkai (your name, weathering with you, etc.)

- fairy tail

- k-on!

- vinland saga

- kimi ni todoke

smaller fandoms

• baseball

• helldivers

• whatever else i think of later

favorite bands

• Dream Theater

• Amon Amarth

• Metallica

• Warduna

• Eihwar

favorite games

• the legend of zelda: ocarina of time (especially randomizers and rom hacks)

• banjo-kazooie, especially the rom hacks like jiggies of time and nostalgia 64

• final fantasy xiv

• atelier

• megaten (smt, persona, metaphor, etc.)

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there! that's some info about stuff that i like.

i would also like to share something more personal: religion and spirituality. specifically, norse pagan heathenry. i was raised a christian, but ended up walking down this road instead. conversion was a gradual, unconscious process. didn't realize or want it at first, i kinda just woke up one morning and went "oh, i'm pagan now. huh."

it felt weird at first but i actually enjoy doing rituals and prayers now, as opposed to the honored cradle christian tradition of going through the motions. it feels fulfilling. total vibe.

that being said, i acknowledge the validity of other religions (including the one i left) and those of no religion, and try to approach difficult topics from a pluralist perspective. to be clear: on this blog we support the declaration of deeds and declaration 127.

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not sure what else to put here at the moment but i think this will do for now! feel free to ask questions and what not.

and remember, always and forever:

PALESTINE WILL BE FREE!

[emoshep]

stream time! deltarune chapter 2: START!

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[emoshep]

star fox stream!

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[killuogn]

transparent bi pride headers for two anonymous users, with the help of a bi friend! (the “bi” is meant to be pronounced like “be” in the second to last one)

ps: bisexuality is, and always will be, inclusive of non-binary people! 💖💜💙

my edits ☆ lesbian ver.

[emoshep]

deltarune! come hang out with me :D

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[emoshep]

what's shep thinking about today???

feelings. lots of them. complicated feelings, at that. nothing world-ending, just something i need to work through.

i'm all but surrounded by people who care about me. i have a solid friend group that i'm tempted to describe as found family. we hang out often. we game. we stream together frequently. we'll even toss some creative ideas around sometimes, it's way cool.

so i shouldn't feel that loneliness i've felt these past years. and yet, i still do. not all the time, but often. (perhaps that's the root of this funk i've found myself in lately.)

part of me wonders if that's my own doing. i've never been one to initiate potentially difficult conversations, even with those closest to me, so it would make sense. another part of me wonders if i'm fated to carry these feelings, as though it was foretold by the norns. funny enough, at one point yesterday a coworker mentioned her admittedly new-agey belief that folks who never have severe injuries like bone breaks or cuff tears are destined to carry more emotional pains throughout their lives. felt kinda called out by that.

and there is something to be said about music being a lonely path to walk, especially when you make most of yours yourself.

a struggle, it is. i do know i can get through just fine, i've done it before. though admittedly, it would be better if i, y'know, actually talked to people about it. but, well, like i said, never been very good at starting those convos. but i do wanna get better. i do wanna be more open about this sort of thing.

and despite this feeling, i don't think i would simply trade it away. it's not an easy feeling to carry, but having the relationships i do, getting to be around the people i'm around, it makes every low episode worth the struggle in a way that they weren't just a few years ago. (if you're one of those friends: i am sorry for being so indirect. like i said, i do wanna do better on that.)

that turned out to be quite a ramble. sorry for taking up so much space on your timeline, thanks if you read that whole thing. this isn't a huge deal, just me wanting to start getting out some thoughts and feelings that i've kept inside. that's all for now. see ya.

[06-archive]

[emoshep]

"feeling better?"

yeah

"and what did we remember today?"

no no, that bit of knowledge is for me

(but... yeah, you're right)

[emoshep]

strem time! come hang out with me

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[emoshep]

new cover! just in time for the new star fox

[landmineblogging]

i know it can get really scary sometimes, alone behind your screen in the middle of the night. but i'm here too

[landmineblogging]

snorting your downcast midnight vibes like i'm an addict

[landmineblogging]

is the dread creeping in again? let's listen to ilwag

[landmineblogging]

[landmineblogging]

[airshiplady]

Is this something all non-binary people do?

[emoshep]

"heh."

go away.

"oh, come on."

go away.

"it's not like you didn't already-"

go. away.

"you know as well as i do-"

GO. AWAY.

"if you would just-"

GO AWAY!

[emoshep]

:(

[emoshep]

aight now's as good a time as any- let's finish metaphor

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[callipsx]

If your witchcraft, paganism, polytheism, folk practice what-have-you doesn't involve you sending furious emails and calls to local and national level representatives to get their shit together when they are having presentations about area development and changes and these plans will be actively harming the environment and the people living there, why do you even have a practice??? What are you doing with it? Is it just for shits and giggles and pretty stones and holier-than-thou attitude?? Also go fucking vote at local and national level elections, they are not beneath you

[dvudushnydiaries]

White practitioners love to use magic as a cop out for direct activism. While I won't discount the significance of a working, I will look at you sideways if that working isn't paired with physically discernible advocacy.

[ulfheoinn-screaming-well]

100% agree i want to make a note here that you do not need to know everything about your local wildlife to be able to partake in this advocacy, find groups that know more then you . Find groups that have goals that are similar to yours find groups that advocate for those goals. Email them tell them your skills tell them why you want to help. Show them your passion your willingness to learn. You can be actively learning and advocating at the same time. I'm being wildlife specific here but this counts for any cause. We need people to form connections and networks we can do so much more together. Offer to help. Do things that are visable to your local community, show that people care. And that maybe the people who see that care need to start caring too.

[emoshep]

i'm back from momocon! time to stream more ocarina to celebrate

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