Exhausted

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[emotionally-drained-slut]

20, he/him , trans guy

Sub

Asks are open for yalls naughty thoughts, tell me what you want to do to me.( only if your attracted to men)

I don't mind straight men or lesibans interacting with gender neutral stuff. But if it's clear it's about men then please dont

[emotionally-drained-slut]

It's my first Christmas without my family

It's also my first alone as all my roommates are spends it with their families

And it just hit me

Like i won't get a christmas meal, the day is going to feel bland, my stocking will have things ,I bought in it

And it hurts ,and my friends are away and not talking to me, but i can't say anything cause they'll just get annoyed cause I have bpd and I just need to learn to be alone

But I feel like it's reasonable

It my favorite holiday, and I'm spending it alone, .for the first time

I always feel stupid when I get lonely

[emotionally-drained-slut]

Okay I think my friends relationship triggers me

Not because they've done anything wrong like that's kinda how triggering works

But her relationship is new and in a very sexual stage , every time he comes over she says nothing gonna happen between them, and I'm like , girl we know you'll are gonna do something

And it's true, and their nothing wrong with that

But then she talks about it, how she truly didn't think anything would happen but it just does

And that triggers me ( not her fault)

Because when my ex would visit and I said, no sex, it still happened, even if he agreed , even if i said no the whole time.

And he'd always say something about how it just happens, like the way she does...

Idk it hard and I can't tell her cause I refuse to put that negative into her head and relationship

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I wish I didnt feel the need to apologize for loving people. I feel like my love is a burden

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I hate this whole grindr thing

Guys on it misgender me when it everywhere on the profile

Guys make multiple accounts talk to me and send me the same photos thinking I won't connect the dots

Tonight I had plans to meet with a guy, he's offline and I assumed he was gonna cancel

Then I found his other account on accident, which he had messaged me on before( never made plans with him on that account because he didn't send a face pic) and the second account is online... while I await an answer for our hook up....

Like why would you be so interested in me you message me on two different accounts and then make plans with me, only to blow me off

[emotionally-drained-slut]

About to watch "man of the hour"

Im like less then 5 minutes in and I already know I'm going to keep think about my ex.

I was with him for 9 months before he was arrested for a horrific crime

[emotionally-drained-slut]

The girl who recognized the guy, and told her boyfriend, and he didn't believe her

She slayed, and has every right to yell at him

[emotionally-drained-slut]

About to watch "woman of the hour"

Im like less then 5 minutes in and I already know I'm going to keep think about my ex.

I was with him for 9 months before he was arrested for a horrific crime

[yourowndungeon-deactivated20240]

“you’re okay, baby. you’re okay…” while pinning their pounding fists behind their back with one hand, pushing their stupid face into the mattress with the other, and splitting them open on too much cock much too soon.

[emotionally-drained-slut]

Last night he kept saying

" I got you, it's okay"

Ugggg so hottt

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I don't really have any person or place to say thi to but it been over a year and I dint think I can continue to ignore it or it's effect on me

I was dating this guy for 9 months he wad my technically first boyfriend

And he also was terrible, I was to attached to realize it, or realize that if he did it to me, he's probably done it to others

A couple days before he got arrested ( I had zero idea at the time ) I was in terrible pain, I felt like I could barely move without hurting .

And I went to my boyfriend at the time , he had taken care of me when I was sick before

Most my pain was back and sholders related, so he offered to massage me

This wasn't the first time he dine this, massage me before fucking me, it didn't matter if I said no, before, during or even after, he's still do it

And even though I said at least 6 times, that i was in to much pain, that i didn't want to, he did it

I know what he did, I know there name , it just hate saying it

That was the last time we had sex aswell

And now every guy trys to flirt with the favt that the can give a good misandry and u just wanna cry because all I can think about is his room, his hands, his body pressings into me when I was literally into much pain to move, to fight back

[emotionally-drained-slut]

Just had amazing sex

But still sad

Because after, 3 rounds, being fingered, light soothing touching, Cummings for the first time in over a year and conversation about going out a third time

He misgendered me

I'm tired

Oh and I then come home to my roommate who had a great night woth their date , who literally said the their body was a blessing from god

Any way I hate it here

( slay for my roommate, love them but damn I'm jealous)

[emotionally-drained-slut]

The urge to vent and trauma dump is only being caged by the fear of being to specific and real life friends finding this account

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I know I do it to myself

But id really wish they'd stick around after I send nudes...

Or at least be clear that's what you want, don't talk to me like you care if its all you want

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I JUST CAME FOR LIKE THE FIRST TIME IN A YEAR

IM CURED

[emotionally-drained-slut]

Men that growl during sex>>>

Top tier

I fucking love it

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I miss sharing my fantasy with someone.

I also miss real sex.

[quiet-plaything]

cw: objectification, cnc, multiple doms // content is strictly fantasy

okay but like two doms competing over me. like i get tongue-tied and can’t answer when they playfully ask who fucks me better, so to help me decide, they both decide to fuck me.

at first they just take turns on me, using my pussy soft and slow and asking me which one i like better, but i still can’t give a straight answer so one of them gets impatient and fucks my ass too. the doms looking at each other over my shoulder, so determined to outdo each other that they just use me like a toy. competing over who can make me cum more, who can slap my tits and ass harder, who can get me to make the most noise.

the both of them getting faster and rougher as they spur each other on, trying to outmatch the other until i’m just a whimpering overstimulated mess between them, unable to think, let alone choose.

[emotionally-drained-slut]

I hate sleeping alone