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|||♎//they/He||Finland||| Hello and welcome to the box! I'm Aaren and I will be dumping generally random drawings, reblogs and other stuff here.

[desmolbean404]

QUIZ TIME!! Take this quiz, then come back and answer the poll!

100 REAL or FAKE Pokemon

100 Different 'Pokemon' will be shown to you. Choose if you think they are FAKE or REAL. Goal is to get a high score so you can brag to ever

What Was Your Score?

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100%! (You're one smart cookie!)

Remaining time: 4 days 12 hours

[cheerfullycatholic]

When medicine is holding the migraine back but you can still kinda feel it in the distance waiting to return

[teathattast]

[patterns-pets]

When cats put their whole body into making a sound. Only to be squeak.

[nyanletnest]

bwaow

[triibulinekiisu]

like to charge, reblog to cast

[an-art-kid]

Thank you SpongeBob I needed this

I’ve been collecting these types of images with SpongeBob and hopeful messages and I feel he would 100% say this

[theuniversals]

for intl nonbinary ppls day have a png to use as a sticker on your favourite messaging app

[empty-dusk]

It feels dumb, but I finally think I'm unpacking a lot of feelings I've had lingering for years.

I've been really silent on social media in general, ever since I separated from my ex-partners. I was afraid of them seeing me. The last half a year of our relationship was spent in daily, deep anxiety about how they'd react to anything I say, to anything I do. I was afraid of them and their judgment. And only now, years later, I realize that I have carried that judgment in myself all this time.

I also carry a lot of guilt from that relationship. It was the very first time I felt truly seen and truly accepted and my actions, or rather, inaction, cost me it. It feels like the relationship redefined who I am and killed the person I used to be. And what it defined me as was a poor partner, an unfitting person, someone who has and will fail others around them. Someone who's identity, needs or feelings don't matter, because... they are childish. Flawed. Bad.

And I only now realize just how deeply all this has scarred me. I to this day blame myself, feel like a devil that is wearing human clothes, because I cannot be good when it matters the most. But I keep coming back to the thought of 'wasn't I wronged, too?' I can't fathom how, but somewhere, I know that a breakup should not do this to a person.

Today, I find myself terrified of being truly seen. I am afraid of people seeing me, this pathetic shell of a person and seeing my scars and pain. And turning away. Even writing this feels like a selfish bit for attention that I don't deserve. Because I've been bad and not worthy of compassion and understanding.

I don't really think I know how to be a person anymore, because most of my life is just made of anxiety these days. Fear that if I say the wrong thing, I'll be ousted. Fear that I am as patchetic and wretched as I feel I am. Fear that I just fundamentally do not belong anywhere and with no one. And I hate this feeling, I hate it so much.

I don't think this is a way to live in any actual productive way. I have a hard time making art as well, because it too is people looking at me.

I suppose my exes would feel like they'd dodged a bullet, if they could read this. To know that I still live with their judgment. That I am pathetic. I haven't really spoken to many people of how afraid I felt every time we spoke after the break up. I didn't know what they wanted of me at that point anymore. I don't really think there would be people even left to listen. And I feel so stupid for being traumatized by it all. I feel so fucking stupid.

I mean, I was the one who fucked up, right? Do I have a right to feel bad, to feel like this?

To this day, I don't think I really know what even happened. All I know is what I did. And I did bad.

I think I needed to finally write this out. There aren't many that will read this, I know, but at least it exists. It is a bit of myself that I haven't shown to anyone in a long time.

May you all have a good day.

[sometiktoksarevalid]

[bogleech]

Doing this benefits these species tremendously. They can become so rare over such a vast area as people destroy the only plants they can eat, every single one that survives makes a positive difference!

[spiderbasil]

[intriga-hounds]

Bazzy and Ponzu celebrate arrival of Friends

[beardedmrbean]

One more in the W column for Japan.

[supersoftly]

Link for extension :3c

[red-lipstick]

Steve Adams - Moongazer (A hare staring at the rising moon in Kimberley Nottinghamshire), 2012    Photography

[thewindowofthesummerhouse]

thecreepfromsixfeetdeep

[ex0skeletal-undead]

Tyler Pennington aka The Creep (thecreepfromsixfeetdeep on Instagram)

[intriga-hounds]

Lil sardine

[spin-the-wheel-polls]

You have became this medieval role, how do you feel about it

you are in the medieval era and you have this role!

How do you feel?

great!! I love this

good!

It's okay

So bad. I hate this

This is similar to my real job!

Results/other

Voting ended onJul 18

[drempen]

Had all his fingies out for No Reason