Ebb & Flood

Self-Confidence is overrated

[tvneon]

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Me

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Chemotherapy time

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Update: Day 20 after chemo and I still have my hair/beard (there has been a lot in the shower drain, but can't tell from just looking). Sickness was bad, but not as bad as expected. Now, I can put this behind me and move ahead with my life.

[theflenser]

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Chemotherapy time

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Cold and sleepy

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So defeated

[dennys]

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True meaning of the season

[joeycon]

Matthew McConaughey is midway thru the 4th Harry Potter book

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I've run out of paid FMLA days, so it's back to work tomorrow

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Cancer tried to destroy my world. So I one upped it, and ran my life into the ground before it had a chance.

[caisdomarr]

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I might have to have a single Chemo treatment. I'm hoping the hair loss will be minimal. Especially in my beard

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The “you definitely had cancer” selfie

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Tomorrow, I am going to have my left testicle removed due to a 90% chance of it being cancerous. My chances of survival are well over 95%. But I’m still terrified. I’ve cried more in the past 10 days than I have in my entire life. And it’s made me look really hard at my life choices. What I’ve done, what I hope to accomplish. Who I am. There is a lot to correct.

I’m thankful for everything, ever. Life, friends, family, lovers, strangers I’ve met and never spoken to again. My outlook on life has always been bleak, but now I feel like I’ve been given a second chance. It is incredible. I don’t know how I plan on moving forward, but I will be a different person. Tomorrow will be the worst and best day of my life.

[maisonderriere]