Another Manic Mind @emxlyzackeresen - Tumblr Blog

"I can't draw a straight line anymore but that's okay,

her hair is naturally curly.

A boy called her weird yesterday,

and I wanted to tell her that I have spent hours practicing shading to recreate the light in her eyes but that made it obvious that I'd been staring.

You're not supposed to look at your friends like that."

I really don't care about Christmas anymore. I miss how it used to be, when i was little and it meant i was with all of my family and we were just together but the years kept going and the family started getting smaller and now it doesnt even feel worth it. I love my family, but it just feels like another day. I'm not even excited for it, and thats upsetting. It's a part of growing up but that's so shitty, i should be really happy but i'm just not.

It legitimately scares me that I'll never find anyone better than you. No one will ever really be able to deal with me how you do, no one will be able to stop me from getting mad or upset the way that you do and no one will ever be good enough for me to want to care about them even half as much as I care about you. I should be bored of you by now, especially after moving on for so long and doing stupid things with stupid people but I will always come back to you, and that stresses me out. You are all I want but I can't have you and it hurts. Losing you is going to be one of the hardest things I'll ever have to do and there's nothing I can do to stop it so I just have to feel it and I don't know if I'll make it through.

#:(#a.h

Everything is so fucked up. (Please stop pushing me away i cant handle it)

It really fucking sucks that people only care about you when you do something like attempt suicide or hurt yourself to the point where you need time off and even still no one could care less that I'm not okay. It hurts so much.

#why am i still here

:(

"Take me, I'm yours."

dont gain feelings

you'll lose sleep

#jbm #really fkn like u #fucker

"I dont know why you go back to him." "I don't know why you go back to Amber."

THAT'S NOT THE SAME FUCKING THING AT ALL. YOU CHEATED ON HIM, HE'S A GIANT WANKER WHO TREATS YOU LIKE SHIT, YOU HAVE LIKE 29389920 BOYFRIENDS A WEEK, HE ACTS LIKE HE LOVES YOU WHEN HE ASKED MY FRIEND FOR A ROOT 3 DAYS AGO, YOU ARE CONSTANTLY BITCHING ABOUT EACHOTHER AND ACTING LIKE IT'S ALL NORMAL BUT THEN YOU BOTH COMPLAIN TO ME LIKE I LITERALLY DON'T GIVE A FLYING FUCK AT ALL.

Whereas, I actually started to move on from Amber and now we're perfectly fine as just friends and I'm actually starting to be really happy for her and her boyfriend. My parents and siblings all love her to death and she actually put in the effort to talk to my brother and his fiance today and we had a great time. She doesn't emotionally abuse me, she's been there for me through basically all the shit that's happened in the last year and a half, she constantly puts up with me sulking and complaining or ranting about people and never tells me to shut up. She doesn't care that I'm weird or awkward or mess up when I talk and she's not a cunt. Wish i could say the same for you and him.

#literally just go fuck yourself