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[enbylestat]

You'll find pain is like the shame, you feel it only once.

❝Our intentions make blackguards of us all; our weakness in carrying them out we call probity.❞

Follows back from: meerawrites. They/them. Bisexual (regardless of gender, 1970). Genderqueer. South Asian and European. (asexual spectrum, sapphic-polyam). Neurodivergent. C-PTSD. secular humanist. Harm reductionist. Capital R Romantic. gender diversity enabler, evil women kisser, fan of men crying. Unwilling philosopher. post-secondary humanities (sociology and anthropology). Archivist, historian and historiographer by proxy and necessity.

❝None of us really changes over time. We only become more fully what we are. ❞

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[meerawrites]

Anne Rice, five years later, memento vivere, and ‘evil as food for genius’

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[idliketodiesoon]

Lucifer contemplating his fall – illustration by Gustave Doré, Paradise Lost (1866)

[sparklejumpropequeen0]

[nyanakin]

"The creature stared at him, its eyes shifting in its skull as it scanned Lestat from his abdomen to the top of his head without blinking. Then it did the most uncanny thing… It smiled, its lips pulling back to expose its teeth, two fangs on either side of its mouth pressing into the generous bottom lip, hard enough to draw a drop of dark blue liquid that trickled down its rounded chin.

Lestat's thumb darted out on sheer instinct to wipe it away, even as a silent alarm sounded deep within him. The creature leaned into his touch, its skin unnaturally cold as Lestat grazed over its skin, angling its head as its mouth closed around his fingertip, suckling him while its hypnotic gaze locked him into place. The inside of its mouth was slick and smooth, far cooler than the outside had been.

A shadow of rational thought lingered at the edge of Lestat's consciousness, urging him to look away and retreat to land.

Mermaids, sirens, the legends of Melusine. Fairy tales spoon-fed to small children by their mothers and childhood nurses as they lay spellbound in their beds. Lessons in morality, obedience, and discipline, don't give in…"

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[violaobanion]

EMMA (2020) dir. Autumn de Wilde

[proudestof]

ABOUT ME MEME: [5/∞] Favorite Ships Margot Verger & Alana Bloom — Hannibal (2013-2015)

"Are you still with Margot?" "Yes. We have a baby. A Verger baby. A son." "Good for Margot." "Good for me, I carried him. He's my son. He's the Verger heir."

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[transformativeworks]

[ID: A screenshot of Boromir of Gondor from Lord of the Rings, Fellowship of the Ring, standing in Rivendell and staring (at either Legolas or Aragorn) off camera. The subtitle has been edited to say

AO3 has no App.

AO3 needs no App.

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[isabellebissonrouthier]

[ethereousdelirious]

Yeah yeah "graphic design is my passion 🐸" I was trying to make a tool to explain how I have problem deciding where a fic should fall on this arbitrary "sense of danger scale" and I think I accidentally defined some words in a way that will be useful for me in the future.

So I think that a whumpy fic can be defined by its ratio of hurt to comfort, but that doesn't mean that a whump fic contains 0 comfort. If someone has been disemboweled in the mountains with no communication and no medical supplies, their friend can be rocking them and singing to them and wiping their damp forehead, but the ratio of hurt to comfort is still going to be greatly skewed because that's a mortal or near-mortal wound.

Likewise, a fic where a character gets a papercut can still enter into "whumpy/whump-lite territory" if it's really bothering them and no one cares, because the comfort level of 0 skews the ratio.

There's also a matter of delving. A high-ratio (which is to say, fluffy) fic can still be a satisfying sickfic if the author delves into the symptoms (which imho is usually what differentiates a satisfying vanilla fic from a disappointing one)

ANYWAY

All that to say, when I don't have a fic idea beamed into my head by the gods, I tend to to struggle with where to put it on the scale. Because I generally tend to prefer lower ratio fic, but I know at a certain point it can get off-putting for people, so I end up torn between two sort of lukewarm desires: the desire to write a fic with slightly more appeal to me vs the desire to write a fic with slightly more appeal to other people

[dear-ao3]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/81275021

[dear-ao3]

[badpsychicadvice]

Found Art - Portland, OR (2026)

[thecollectibles]

Haunted House by Niccolo Scardino

[devilsfool]

Lestat and Language

//Okay, so I find this all very interesting, so a few thoughts/canon/headcanon re: Lestat’s dialect in French and how his French changed/evolved over the years. 

-Lestat is born and raised in the Auvergne, which means his French patois is ‘Auvergnat,’ which is a branch of Occitan, a dialect of mostly Provence. This dialect, if you’ve never heard it, is NOTHING like the Parisian French that most of us learn in school, nor is it similar to what would have been spoken in Paris at the time (18th century). Here is an Auvergnat lullaby, and here is what Auvergnat sounds like, around 4:17. Here is an example of L’Occitane. 

-Lestat then moves to Paris with Nicolas, and spends quite some time there (I don’t have my book on me). His French of COURSE would have changed, as he’d have been mercilessly teased for his dialect, which would have sounded ‘country’ to the people of Paris. Personally, I headcanon Nicolas’ old Uni friends making fun of Lestat’s dialect and Lestat forcing Nicolas to help him with his Parisian French, but that’s not canon, just my thoughts. 

-Lestat then relocates to New Orleans around 1791, a time when Louisiana actually belongs to Spain. The French that Louis de Pointe du Lac is going to be speaking here is a whole OTHER kind of French, probably colored by a number of things: Spanish colonists, French colonists, and the patois of the Haitian peoples who also live there. You can read more about Louisiana French here. I headcanon that Lestat definitely learned the patois of New Orleans, especially since he lived there for around 70 years. By the time he meets Louis, his French is an amalgam of at least two different dialects, though the French he’d speak to the Marquis would have been Auvergnat. It’s a testimony to the fact that Louis must have immigrated while very young (hilariously, Louis is NOT actually Créole), b/c I highly doubt he’d recognize the dialect.

-Lestat then learns English from, as he calls it, ‘flatboatmen’ on the Mississippi and comic books, which is hilarious, and pretty much accounts for his tone. 

TL:DR; I just feel very strongly about language, especially the evolution of each of these characters, and I love imagining how their capacities for language and dialect have evolved.

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The Vampire; A Tale