Itās been so long since the last post regarding my recurrent nightmares and dreams, and I wish I could have continued without writing another post about it but unfortunately last night I had another weird dream plus sleep paralysis in the morning. I want to keep track of every hallucination Iāve experienced here, so, here it goes:
The first time it happened I was 14 years old, my grandma had just passed away and I was very stressed between school and shit going on with my life. I remember one night that I was sleeping and suddenly I woke up, but I couldnāt move. I opened my eyes only to see the darkness of my room and the wall in front of me. I was very scared and couldnāt move a single muscle. After trying everything else, I decided to scream but no sound would come out of my mouth. Then I heard a voice saying repeatedly saying:Ā āCome with me. Iām here. Come with meā. I panicked and I donāt remember anything else, I think I probably passed out until the next day.
After that, at least two times a week my sleep paralysis would get worse. I would wake up in the middle of the night not moving at all. I could hear voices outside my house and inside my bedroom. I remember being so scared of sleeping, not knowing what was going on. Things moved on like that for a while.Ā
Everything continued like that until the hallucinations became worse. One night, after graduating high school I had some sort ofĀ āastral projectionāĀ ālucid dreamingā stuff going on. I remember dreaming of this place with high grass and watching two skinny dying horses. After walking trough a train rail I got to be in some sort of cave formed by green trees with giant roots stepping out of the ground. I saw snakes everywhere, tiny and big, in all sort of shapes and colours. I finally caught a snake with my hands and saw in its eyes. Then I heard a voice sayingĀ āWeāll see againā. When the dream was over I woke up in my room, and again, couldnāt move. This time I felt something under my bed crawling and heard another time:Ā āWeāll see again, find meā repeatedly.Ā
The worst attack of sleep paralysis and hallucinations I can remember came after that. Maybe half a year later after that weird dream. My room was dark and a little bit cold (it was autumn I think). At the time, I was depressed (I suffer from depression since I was 15). The last thing I did conscious was getting in my bed and trying to sleep on my back. After a few moments I remember waking up very fast, like, something hit me and I woke up suddenly. My body was not responding. I could see my hands, my knees, my feet but couldnāt move at all. Then I started āmovingā; everything was heavier and thatās when I started hallucinating. I tried to move my legs and I could feel them moving, but I couldnāt see the movement of them. Weirdly though, I could move my head a little, I could see my room and my wall. And then it came, I donāt know from where, but, at the end of my bed I saw a pair of hands, with three large, large and skinny fingers. Something crawled from under my bed and started climbing it. It was a weird, dark creature. It was skinny, like, very, very skinny, you could see his ribs and spine. I could see his arms, like sticks, and then I saw his face. Whatever it was, it was very dark, like a profound black, and had a weird face, like an oval. The thing had no mouth, no fur, no hair nor nose, just two yellow eyes. The eyes were round shaped, like two glowing perfect circles. The creature was crawling and making weird noises, like a voice mixed with a scream and nails passing trough a chalk board. After it crawled onto my bed, he started laughing, quietly, like, when you laugh with your mouth closed. I just remember trying to move, and scream, and then I felt his arms touching my legs. I donāt know why but I started thinking in weird stuff and trying to scream in my mind:Ā āiām not going with you, youāre not real, youāre not realā. Ā I must have passed out or something, cause I canāt remember anything after all. I woke up in the morning, sweating and very scared.Ā
After receiving the visit of that thing fro at least two or three times more I decided to draw it on my notebooks with everything I could remember.
This has been going on with me for at least 6 years now, and time after time itās getting worse. However, I think iāll continue writing everything here, after all, I know iām not alone, although sometimes it feels like thatā¦
P.S: Dear @sixpenceee, hope you reblog this, cause I want to find if more people are suffering the exact same thing with the exact same creatures.
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