Hi

Just going to post some of my comic and drawings I like, because what else am I supposed to do with them? May also contain pictures of my cats. Aroace and cis white woman from Sweden. And aparently I'm also doing reading liveblogs.

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I made a comic

Hi! I made a comic if anyone's interested.

End of the Immortal | English | GlobalComix

Read End of the Immortal Online. Every hundred years a manifestation of calamity appears to destroy the world and every time it's...

It's a fantasy where a manifestation of calamity comes every hundred years to destroy the world but is always stopped by a legendary hero. This time however the calamity arrived early and the hero didn't. Now begins a race against time to get a hold of the hero before the world is destroyed.

The story has decent diversity and some trigger warnings regarding mild gore and character death, though it's drawn in black and white with a simplistic style so I don't know how triggering that would be. Also there's a panel of a cat being hurt, but it survives.

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After episode 13 I have some theories about what will happen later in this season of Animator vs Animation.

Alan/the cursor will help in the battle against The Dark Lord. Most likely he will help Victim/H4CK3R in some way. Perhaps he will undo TDL's mind control on H4CK3R who in turn can remove it from everyone else? I feel like Alan-Victim need a resolution and having Alan help/protect Vic/H4C would be a good first step.

I think TDL will be defeated by H4CK3R, or after the defeat be rendered powerless by H4CK3R disabling all the abilities. TDL will have to learn how to live as a "regular stick".

The Chosen One will do something important even without powers. The powers will later be restored, either by TCO just powering through and doing the impossible or H4CK3R restores them as an apology for the earlier beatdown.

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[ID: a photo of a round piece of paper. On it is a simple drawing with oil pastels of a sunset sky (yellow-orange-red) with silhouettes of pine trees, a powerline and a few birds flying in "v"-shapes. EID]

Something I did at work when bored.

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[ID: a photo of a completed 1000 pieces puzzle. The puzzle depicts a town of brick houses up in the mountains with clouds, trees and a few waterfalls. EID]

This one took a lot longer than I thought it would.

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[ID: a photo of an open microwave. Inside is a half burned paperbag (used to be a bag of microwaveable popcorn). Flames are coming from it. EID]

So apparently my dad burned up the microwave when making popcorn. I had no idea that was possible.

At least no one (except the microwave) was hurt.

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One of the many things I like in Daemons of the Shadow Realm is how competent the characters are. When they are faced with a problem they're quick to use their logic and skills to solve it.

And there's no cop outs or other randomly saves. Everything that happens makes sense from the knowledge of the world and characters that have been given. The inherent logic stays the same.

The two probably most "convenient" plot points are the Tadera-Asuma meeting at the pad and the Hana-Jin meeting. But both of those feel natural because Asuma and Jin have been established to care about their subordinates (even if they may not act like it all the time).

Also, can I say that it's pretty nice the two major steps in the two factions relationship was because the "shady" sons of the Kagemori wanted to respect their dead.

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Chapter 61 and 62

Before Greger does something he can't undone he is stopped by the monk he slept with earlier. They talk a bit, Greger finally has someone to confine in and spills it all. The monk says that God still wants Greger to live (why else would the monk suddenly get an urge to see him and interrupt Greger) which gives Greger strength. The monk also proclaims his love for Greger (even though they only known each other for a few days, is this really how fast allosexuals fall?) and the fact that two people/men love him is enough for Greger to start to re-evaluate himself.

Greger spends the rest of the time at the monastery with the monk though he is very clear about only being in love with Farman and is only using the monk as an emotional outlet. Strangely enough the monk accepts this without any complaints which makes me wonder how many times he's "fallen in love" with guests.

Anyway, it's time for Greger to leave and he has a short meeting with Katarina. Thankfully she's still alive, maybe she can make it to the end of the book. The two decide to separate as friends, which is nice except in Greger's inner monologue it sounds like he puts all the blame on Katarina when they both caused the relationship to fail. Then he sees Farman in the distance who turns around and leaves. Greger sees this as their farewell and promises to himself that he will return to Farman.

Then Greger leaves together with a squire and it's the end of the first part of the book. The book is divided into two parts, thankfully the second part is a lot shorter so there's only about a third of the book left. I don't know why the story is divided in two but my guess is that there's a time skip. Maybe the second part is when Greger returns?

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With the introduction of the rain god Zaza and everyone theorizing about Dragon and the like, all I can think of is how terrified the Celestial Dragons are going to be when Nami makes it rain on those bigots.

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Chapter 58, 59 and 60

Greger runs from his problems like usual. This time he goes and to a monastery and plans to spend his two weeks until his pilgrimage there. At first it seems to go well, he enjoys the quiet and finds some books/poetry about "brotherly love" between knights which he identifies with and gets touched deeply by. However by the second day one of the leaders there clocks Greger as gay and starts making advances on him. And Greger just goes along with it. By the third day Greger has slept with another guy. Something he later regrets because he still loves Farman but "lost to lust". In his self pity he even considers turning his blades on himself, though since there's about a third of the book left I doubt he will go through with it.

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Chapter 55, 56 and 57

The plague is coming closer and closer giving Greger a fear of death since he thinks he's partly responsible for having "sinned". He tried to pray and pay off his sin but the guilt is still there.

He goes to Farman to get some comfort. They have a nice time and then Greger finally tells him that he's going on a pilgrimage and won't be back until autumn. Farman, understandable, throws a fit and they argue. Then they separate and it's unclear if they'll reconcile before Greger has to leave.

While I understand why Farman is angry, and he has a right to, I also can't help but feel like he doesn't care about Greger's position. Like, when things turned sour for Farman he just up and left his home leaving his old life behind and it feels as if he's expecting Greger to do the same, completely failing to see the difference between one blacksmith moving away compared to a "lord of the land" (or whatever Greger's position is called in English) to move around. Greger may hate social interactions and shy away from them but he is still responsible for the people living around his castle and he does take that responsibility seriously. Farman almost seems to want Greger to only focus on him but that's something Greger isn't able to do (though most of his mind does lust for him).

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Chapter 52, 53 and 54

I fear Katarina is about to die. She got an injury that seems to have been infected and the pest is on the way. She also gets to have a small heart to heart with Greger where he FINALLY sees her as an actual person, sadly the only affection he can give her is the bare minimum as the mother of his children (children he only seems to care about when it is convenient). I have to admit I teared up at their conversation, it was very well done.

Katarina may be homophobic but I still feel really bad for her. At one point she was in love with Greger but he never cared about her. Then came Farman and she sees that her husband is capable of love, just not towards her. She's so starved for affection that Greger spending a short time with her and their daughters and being a decent father for once makes her happy. It's sad since despite the lack of affection she stayed loyal to him, never cheated. She even accepted him cheating! And while she did say horrible things to him after learning about him being with a man she never tried to expose them (though that's partly to not ruin her own reputation) just drive Farman away. And I think no matter the gender being angry at the person cheating with your significant other is fine. Overall her life has been unfullfilling.

Also, speaking of Farman, Greger is still going back and forth in his mind even after stating that he chooses Farman. It's in character but still annoying. It's particularly annoying since it's been half the book now and I still barely know Farman or why Greger fell for him besides his looks. It makes all of Greger's love declarations feel hollow.

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I want to see Hana and her daemons in a "REAL" fight. There have been a few hints that her daemons are a lot more powerful than they seem (Jiro's shadow after the explosion was huge then turned small, their names are WOLF and TIGER which probably mean that's their real forms).

Then there's Hana. It has been shown that she's a capable fighter, though during the fight it was pointed out that she lacked bloodlust/killing intent. I don't think this is because she's against killing (she's probably the one most familiar with corpses in the whole story) but rather a result of her general relaxed personality. In that fight she was after information and dead people can't talk. She also doesn't seem to go all out unless she has to (Jiro barely assisting her in her fight).

There's also the scene where she has Yuru in a headlock. It was a good lesson for Yuru but I can't help but think it also shows something about Hana. The whole "I could change my mind right now and kill you" makes me suspect she either only shows her killing intent very rarely or that she's apathetic towards killing - she fights to win and if it's by killing her opponent or just hitting their kidney's doesn't matter. This is of course pure speculation on my part based on what vibes I got.

All this to say: I want to see more Hana being badass moments.

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Chapter 49, 50, and 51

We finally learn Farman's backstory. To keep it short: he was friends with benefits with another guy. The two had a fight where Farman wanted to end their "friendship". The guy got mad, brought two more guys to beat Farman up. Farman defended himself and killed the three guys.

Greger is a bit concerned about that killing part but other than that they act like lovesick teenagers. Which is a bit ironic because now that Greger has felt love/mutual attraction for the first time in his life he's quite fast at dismissing other people's love. Like there were two teens who got engaged and his first thought was about how they didn't understand love, that they were too young and never would know real, true love like he feel for Farman. Just because he found love late doesn't give him the right to mock others' love.

The worst case is probably when he has a fight with Katarina and tells her that she never has been loved like he has been with Farman. He completely ignores that he was the one who never even tried to love her. He then thinks of her as a gold digger who only married him for status completely forgetting that she didn't really want to marry him, it was kind of pushed upon both of them. I have to say that I do appreciate that Katarina isn't demonized. She is certainly an antagonist who causes conflict for Greger, but she isn't regarded as evil by the story. I don't agree with the hurtful things she says or does and neither does the book. However I feel like the story could easily have made her into "bitch wife" but didn't. We get to see her point of view too and understand how she also is a victim of the time/circumstances.

In the end Katarina tells Greger that she no longer considers herself his wife Greger pretty much answers "Ok, then." and goes off to Farman's house. He also brings two golden rings and gives one to Farman and the two are now secretly engaged. Everything seems happy at the moment but Farman does say that if Katarina ends up doing anything to threaten them he will silence her. A threat that's quite worrisome after hearing him having killed three people.

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Chapter 46, 47, and 48

After all the build up the black death has finally arrived to the city meaning it's pretty much knocking on Greger's castle's door. Hearing this the only thing he can think of is Farman, for the man to forgive him for their last encounter. Greger rides to him in the middle of the night and asks for forgiveness. Farman doesn't forgive him right away (and he shouldn't!) but tells Greger to come back the following night and he will. Personally I think Greger could have groveled more, but Farman's the one in love so I guess it makes sense for him to allow him back like that. Though I'm glad he pointed out how undependable Greger is. The guy is constantly flip-flopping between extremes and I'm sure that this won't be the last flip before he has to leave for his crusade/pilgrimage in six weeks.

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Right and Left tend to make comments about how kind Yuru is as their master even though he mostly just acts like a decent person. Which turns into this running gag with both characters and readers wondering what their previous master was like.

Then you learn who this previous master was and what he did and you just sit there. Completely understanding why Right and Left never mention him except for pointing out how much better Yuru is.

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Yuru and Asa's parents have been missing for five years. I don't think it's likely but it is possible that when they do find their parents they also find a new baby sibling.

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Chapter 43, 44 and 45

Greger goes and meets a woman who is known for curing curses and the like, kind of like a witch but accepted by the surrounding community. He tells her of his troubles, though doesn't mention that the person "bewitching" him is a man. She says that she doesn't think he's under a spell but gives him some advice anyway. She also tells him to pray in a specific way/ritual to hopefully get God's help.

However when he later performs this prayer he messes it us. His head isn't clear during the praying, he's thinking of Farman, then he was told to not turn around/go straight home afterward but because a tree fell behind him he turned anyway. When he realizes that he failed he runs back to his little room and wallows in his misery.

I do feel bad for him, but as I've stated several times before he's a very frustrating character and I can only stand so much self-pitying.

There was also a scene with Katarina and her thinking about her husband's change. During autumn (when he was with Farman) he had been happier than she'd ever seen him and now he's a pile of misery. She points this out to him and he says it might be because of love whch deeply hurts her. Because he's never shown her any affection. I think that now that she knows how Greger looks like when he is in love she has to come to terms with the fact that he never loved her. After having been in a marriage for over a decade it must hurt to be the only one wanting it to work.

It's overall a bad situation but instead of trying to actually help one another they're just making it worse.