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I am Etheluu (or just Ethu for short). I am a polish 3D artist whose works is focused on MMD and OC content with some occasional fandom stuff. I also have an ongoing webcomic called "Runaway" on NamiComi! ヽ(´ ▿ ` )ノ

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My 3D/MMD works: ⊹ Galery of all of my models ⊹ Galery of all of my stages ⊹ Galery of all of my props/accessories ⊹ Playlist of all of my animations/motions

Sideblogs: ⊹ @tomi-crux - blog for my cat ⊹ @pawrogi - centered around Lethal Company related content

Credits for the render here

#etheluu #ethu works #hi tumblr #introduction #pinned post #mmd #mikumikudance #animated render #3d #my oc(s)#hiromi kuroibara

any time i make a new oc, the devil starts whispering in my ear to give them a lesbian situationship

#this is about ->#arnko #what if ☝️ she had a situationship in yhe past with whom she had a fall out #this woman cannot have healthy relationships that last long #etheluu #ethu ramble

oh arnko, my beloved arnko

you're a clone. a clone made out of another clone. and then from another clone, and another and so on. you're so far removed from the original one, yet you still claim to be "arnko".

you look like her, you have her memories, but are you truly her? can one human truly exist twice? what does make you, you?

you won't allow yourself to think that you could be anything but "arnko". you are her, you are you. your story never ended, not when your hand is still writing more and more. all stories have an end to them, but not yours. you won't let it end.

you will build yourself again, share the memories of the past further on and pretend that it's still you. you will look the same, laugh the same, grieve the same. and you will still call yourself "arnko".

you won't look at the rotten corpse of arnko that you've discarded of thoughtlessly.

#the dilemma whether a clone of yourself is still you #and how that clone feels about it #i feel like this has a bigger potential and i've only scratched the surface of this topic #etheluu #ethu lore ramble #beefal company au #my oc(s)#arnko #lethal company oc

etheluu

Arnko the Enlightened and Her Creator Arnko

Lately I've been thinking some more about my Arnko and her lore and long story short, I came to the idea that seeing "herself" die brutally was probably kinda terryfing. So here is Arnko being cradled by her own clone.

Inspired by Ilya Repin's "Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan".

#now i realize that i could have titled this “arnko the forsaken” instead of “arnko the enlightened”#it still would make sense (if not more) in regards to her lore #BUT it would also be a nice reference to the forsaken weather from wm #fuck my stupid baka life #/silly #self reblog

manager got mad because i did something not in the way i should have which i wasn't shown/taught how to do *does a cute little pose*

#another short tale of how it's like to be a newbie in a workplace #work hell #etheluu #ethu ramble #the pose part is necessary. i often do my cute gay little pose

i need customers to understand that the cash register doesn't hold infinite amount of money, especially when every other person that comes in wants to buy a thing worth 20 złoty and they give me a fuckass orange crisp bill of goddamn unholy 200 złoty and expect me to be stocked up on the 20zł bills

like im sorry my dude i can't fucking give you any change in bills because people before you took it all because apparently youre all a mindhive with amnesia and all you got are 200zł bills to your name that you decided to pay with. you're getting your 180zł in fuckass 10 groszy coins idc.

AND then they have the fucking gall to be a shitfuck about it and tell me im doing a bad job. im trying to give you your change either way im trying to make it WORK. fuck you and get the fuck out of the store

#guess what happened today #cried on my way back home #then my bike broke down as i was going home #so awesome so cool #etheluu #ethu ramble #i need stronger meds or i need to start getting high before my shifts because some stuff there are unbelievable #your average customer service being minimum wage should be criminal #i need to be acting like a psychiatrist towards people who probably dont even see me as a person #vent #again

hollowistheworld

I really can and will blame the 9-5 for everything. "We're in a loneliness epidemic" well, we have to spend a third of our day interacting with people in a professional way that makes forming real friendships difficult and then we're peopled out by the time we're done. "People are eating more and more unhealthily" people have to spend more than a third of their day doing work related tasks and they don't want to spend their tiny amount of free time making food. "People aren't involved in their local communities" after spending more than a third of their day doing work related things people are tired and also all those community events take place during normal working hours. "People need to get more hobbies" after spending more than a third of their day working, people are TIRED and don't want to do anything that takes yet more energy. "Literacy is dying" to maintain your critical thinking skills you need to read/watch things that make you think and after spending more than a third of your day doing work related stuff you are TIRED and don't want to expend even more brainnpower. "People need to get outside more" People. Are. TIRED. Because they have to spend all of their time working or preparing for work or recovering from work or doing all the chores they couldn't stay on top of because of work. I can blame fucking anything on having to work, it is truly the root of all fucking evil.

etheluu

recently i started my full time job (or the 9-5 as they call it). 8 hours a day, five days a week. when i think that i will have to do it for about 40 more years, it genuinely feels like there's no point in living on.

i wake up 2 hours before the start of the shift to get ready. i go to work, do my thing and that's already 10 hours out of my day taken. i go home, take a shower (physically demanding job so i sweat a lot there), take care of my cats and that's already another hour taken. at home, im tired. i don't have the energy anymore to make myself any meal that isn't simply put stuff in the oven and wait until it's done. making dinner and eating it is maybe like another hour. that's 12 already. add to that the 8 hours of sleep. that's 20. im left with about 4 hours to do everything: hobby, cleaning the house, hanging out with friends but also preparing for the next day (so maybe about 3 hours of that free time). and those free hours i might not even use as i would like to because im fucking tired after work.

im not eating actual dinners anymore, sometimes none at all. i don't have time for that. i just eat some sandwich or instant noodles just to get enough energy to not collapse at work.

im so tired.

my whole life is now just about work and i can't even talk about it with older adults because all im going to hear is "well that's just how life is!". so im left feeling isolated.

i don't want 5 days out of the week to just be work and work and work and then only 2 days be my actual free time. which most of the time isn't even truly free time because that's when i have to do chores i didn't have the strength to do before.

i hate it so much. i just want to live. the job is all some people see in me and sometimes i feel like this job is all i am.

#not to like #vent #under someone else's post #but i feel like it's relevant #and also i feel like it's the only moment where i can truly get this off my chest #because again #irl all i hear from the big adults is “that's just how life is #reblog

xpercyzoi

a thingy i made based on lemon demon's "spirit phone" album cover because touch-tone telephone got stuck in my head right after playing stray and i thought that it kinda fits clem

which is also the reason i went with clem and not momo who would technically fit better but uhh bleh

i like clem btw can you guys tell yet (you're going to hear all about it)

#reblog #xPercyzoi #digital art (other)#stray game #clementine stray #cat stray

vitabreva

#reblog #happy pride month #...2. electric boogalo? anyone?#no but fr #i felt like the job hunting took my soul and i couldn't enjoy even a moment in june #wanted to celebrate the pride month :(#and instead i got hit with the 24/7 dread #i will be proud of who i am all year round

goldensunset

#reblog #im trying i swear

xpercyzoi

just a stupid idea i had the other day

also baby's first (public) ultrakill character drawing <3 please be nice to me, i've never drawn v2 and i couldn't find any good references for her :( might've missed some details too

also i haven't drawn eddsworld in a WHILE so excuse me if tord looks a little iffy

BTW REMEMBER TO STAY HYDRATED !! ESPECIALLY IN THE CURRENT HEAT

#reblog #cw gore #cw blood #xPercyzoi #digital art (other)#ultrakill #ultrakill v2 #eddsworld #eddsworld tord

the-wolf-and-moon

Triton

#reblog #the official 'i love stars and space' tag #haha it's just like in the wm like *starts convulsing*

etheluu

one of my workplaces is shutting down in less than half a year so i'm going to lose one of my jobs

etheluu

applying for another job!! yay!!! yippee!!!!

good lord i did not miss doing that

etheluu

"unfortunately-" 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

etheluu

i applied for another job and they actually responded on the same day?? although i think it wasn't really a person but a bot that replied so that was actually nice. but ☝️

today i was supposed to go for a job interview at 12:00, I went there (punctually), asked an employee there if the manager is there and if i can talk to them about the job/have the interview

they say through the headset everything and the manager is just like "i can't talk with her [me], i'm busy atm" girl???? we were scheduled for a job interview, and that time wasn't even mutually agreed upon by both parties. i just got a message "job interview at this time" and i had to go to that place while i was already at work at that moment. and then you tell me that???

so, the job interview was rescheduled to tomorrow at 15:00. wish me luck because my anxiety already tells me to run off and don't even show up there

etheluu

well, i did not get a job due to my limited availability (cuz i would have to share the time of the week between two jobs)

but the manager was nice about it so that's cool at least

etheluu

applied for another one that i thought was located rather close to me

today i got a phone call from the recruiter who said that the job interview is going to be tomorrow and yadda yadda

they asked if i knew the location and i said yeah sure and they replied something like "yeah it's [absolutely not the location that i thought it was]"

the actual location was on like the other side of the town in the buttfuck nowhere, pretty much inaccessible without a car (there's genuinely little to no sidewalks or whatever around it)

i don't have a car, there is no bus that goes in the direction of that work place

i canceled the job interview

etheluu

i've sent out like 4 more CVs to different places, received no message from any of them

i check my absolutely beloved (/s) webpage with job offers and like two of the ones that i applied for just popped up, saying like "updated on this day", WHICH was a date AFTER i sent my application

that is not real man what the fuck

etheluu

good lord somebody finally replied to me

i have job interview in ~3 weeks, keep your fingers crossed that they will want my ass

etheluu

interview in less than 3 hours,,,,, gulp

etheluu

I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UNEMPLOYMENT NO MORE

etheluu

nvm

etheluu

I GOT A JOB FR FR THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#will be signing the contract tomorrow :3 #YIPPEEE #etheluu finding job heritage post #self reblog

Arnko the Enlightened and Her Creator Arnko

Lately I've been thinking some more about my Arnko and her lore and long story short, I came to the idea that seeing "herself" die brutally was probably kinda terryfing. So here is Arnko being cradled by her own clone.

Inspired by Ilya Repin's "Ivan the Terrible and His Son Ivan".

#tw blood #cw blood #etheluu #ethu works #mmd #mikumikudance #mmd render #3d #my oc(s)#lethal company oc #arnko #beefal company au #pretty gruesome but i can't stop looking at it. it came out pretty c:

Commission for myxis (@/mxmyxison VGen)

Clothing part: myxis’s cloak and piercings

Commission done! Very cute cloak design.

I appreciate a lot everyone who supports me and/or had supported me!! Especially currently when I'm struggling with finding an irl job. All the commission money help me with rent, groceries and necessities for my kitties!

#etheluu #ethu works #mmd #mikumikudance #3d #commission work #vgencomm

highpoly

#reblog #mmd #mikumikudance #mmd render (other)#revolutionary girl utena

as i stress endlessly about my job situation and certain people only bring me down about this even more, i do appreciate all support whether its monetary or mental

i just didn't expect it to be from a blue low poly ape named nonkey jong

thank you nonkey jong

#etheluu #ena dream bbq #nonkey jong #from other news i finally finished doing all current achievements for ena dbbq #thank you nonkey jong #i am a good person regardless if i have a job or not #i am not a failure for not having a job

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