The Lazier One

20 // Fleur // she/her

[eunoiaacademia]

I ____ YOU

i love you mother but

i do not want to be like you

i love you father but

i do not want to be like you

i love you both but

i hate the look on my face

i see it when i cry

the resemblance, it is achingly similar

i love you sister but

i do not want to call you sister

i love you, you all, i swear

so dearly that it is suffocating

i might just die

[only-cat-memes]

[eunoiaacademia]

car

[sootcoveredhands]

but they're not

[eunoiaacademia]

!!!

[eunoiaacademia]

TAKE A BREATH NOW

my eyes are in the mist

there're warm clouds around it

but this warmth isn't comforting

now there's liquid too, but unfortunately

the liquid isn't felix felicis

cyclone, tornado and what not

my stomach is on an adventure i guess

maybe i'll throw up, i'm feeling sick

no, i'm feeling restrained, trapped

maybe i'm feeling scotophobic

no, maybe claustrophobic?

mere words, but i am feeling all of these

there's a lump in my throat

so large, maybe i'll choke

no, it's sharp

so sharp, it'll come out-

pierce through my throat

maybe then it'll ease the pain

that's it.

i think i know what to do

and when the lump will fall out

everything'll be at ease

finally i'll be able to breathe

[eunoiaacademia]

Behind The Façade

Can I die now already?

I think it's enough

I need peace

Sleep, a little long, that goes forever

I don't think I can take it anymore

...

It's not much, really

But I don't think I can hold it anymore

It's easy, I know

But I don't think I can do it

...

I wanna scream on their face

Who makes their life a living hell

But then, the consequences

I recall mum's feelings

Realise dad too has a heart

...

Whatever I do

It's gonna make it worse for her

He's gonna get distant

I just can't see it anymore

...

I don't have any getaway car

Nor any Mr. Norris to hug at night

I wanna say I miss you so badly

Just can't seem to form the words right

...

Pathetic, isn't it?

All this cliché words and depressed soul

But hey,

Let's go back to play pretend it all

'Cuz we wouldn't want anybody to know this all,

What do you say?

This song has power in it. I swear it touches you deep down.

[eunoiaacademia]

OUR UNIVERSE

You and I

They say our future is as dark as space together

But all I see is so many colourful parts of us in it

They say they don't see any brightness in our stars

But all I see is their twinkling light

Let them destroy our constellation, love

I'll built you a more special one every time

They say they know us, our Cosmos

Funny, isn't it? They don't even know the name of our favorite Star

Let's not let their shooting words crash through us

But into the black hole

It's not their thoughts that makes up our Galaxy

But ours, so beautiful, beyond their Imagination

Don't be upset when them asteroids try to break our memories

As it will mark ours in forever, though in pieces, but in the greater beyond where no can break us further

It's your Moon's calm and my Sun's warm

So different yet so similar for feelings to feel

For them it's 'TILL DEATH DO THEM 'PART

But for me it's 'TILL EVERY STAR BURN DOWN

[eunoiaacademia]

THE ETHEREAL, THE GODDESS, THE QUEEN ~ TAYLOR SWIFT

I never was ready, so I watch you go

Sometimes you just don't know the answer

'Til someone's on their knees and asks you

"She would've made such a lovely bride

What a shame she's fucked in the head" they said

But you'll find the real thing instead

She'll patch up your tapestry that I shred

¦ CHAMPAGNE PROBLEMS - EVERMORE ¦

Oh, I remember you driving to my house

In the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh

When you know you're 'bout to cry

And I know your favorite songs

And you tell me 'bout your dreams

Think I know where you belong

Think I know it's with me

¦ YBWM - FEARLESS ¦

I don't trust nobody and nobody trusts me

I'll be the actress starring in your bad dreams

I'm sorry

But the old Taylor can't come to the phone right now

Why? Oh, 'cause she's dead (oh)

Ooh, look what you made me do

¦ LWYMMD - REPUTATION ¦

I'm like the water when your ship rolled in that night

Rough on the surface but you cut through like a knife

And if it was an open-shut case

I never would've known from that look on your face

Lost in your current like a priceless wine

Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind (oh)

They count me out time and time again

Life was a willow and it bent right to your wind (oh)

But I come back stronger than a 90's trend

¦ WILLOW - EVERMORE ¦

He said, "Let's get out of this town

Drive out of the city, away from the crowds"

I thought heaven can't help me now

Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down

¦ WILDEST DREAMS - 1989 ¦

Romeo, save me, they're tryna tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story, baby, just say, "Yes"

¦ LOVE STORY - FEARLESS ¦

And when I felt like I was an old cardigan

Under someone's bed

You put me on and said I was your favorite

To kiss in cars and downtown bars

Was all we needed

You drew stars around my scars

But now I'm bleedin'

¦ CARDIGAN - FOLKLORE ¦

Combat, I'm ready for combat

I say I don't want that, but what if I do?

'Cause cruelty wins in the movies

I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to you

¦ THE ARCHER - LOVER ¦

I totally love her and her songs- arghhhh

Taylor Swift Supremacy >>>>>>

Evermore and Folklore are so damn good!

And Reputation? Man, she nailed it.

Whether it be country music or pop or The Lover album, she freaking does it every damn time!

QOTD : One T.S. album that's not worthy enough to go crazy on.

AOTD : None.

TAYLOR SWIFT, 2006

FEARLESS, 2008

SPEAK NOW, 2010

RED, 2012

1989, 2014

REPUTATION, 2017

LOVER, 2019

FOLKLORE, 2020

EVERMORE, 2020

She's getting better and better, ain't she <333

[eunoiaacademia]

Death ~ Their Words

I cannot escape death, but at least I can escape the fear of it.

— Epictetus

Behind every man now alive stand thirty ghosts, for that is the ratio by which the dead outnumber the living.

— Arthur Clarke, 1917-2008, British Sci-Fi writer

Death is the mother of beauty. Only the perishable can be beautiful, which is why we are unmoved by artificial flowers.

— Wallace Stevens, 1879-1955, American poet

He said, “There’s no difference between Death and Life.” “So,” someone said, “Why don’t you just die?”

“Because,” he said, “there’s no difference!”

— Thales of Miletus, 643-548 BC, Ancient Greek philosopher

The way we die is sadder than death itself.

— Martial, 43-104 AD, Roman poet of epigrams

Which death is preferably to every other? The unexpected.

— Julius Caesar, 101-14 BC, Roman general & Consul

We don't actually fear death, we fear that no one will notice our absence, that we will disappear without a trace.

— T. S. Eliot, 1888-1965, British poet, Nobel 1948

Death twitches my ear. “Live,” he says. “I am coming.”

— Virgil, 70-19 BC, Roman poet

And yes, I've painted this!! Reference - The Starry Night by Vincent van Gogh of course.

[dumbas-writes]

I want a man who would give me morning kisses, wouldn't hesitate to scrub my back, eat me like I'm his last desert, talk with his eyes, remind me that he loves me, know my facial expressions and keeps oiling my hairs.

[eunoiaacademia]

THIS! X( <3

I'm going to die a virgin due to my growing expectations

[whosnatalia]

𝙾𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚊 𝙶𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚗 𝙿𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚜, 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚌𝚎.

[eunoiaacademia]

Holy Fuck

¡¡¡¡ THIS IS SO EFFING HEAVENLY !!!!

[eunoiaacademia]

Vengeance ~ The Thread

Vengeance ~ the act of killing, injuring, or harming someone because they have harmed you.

Vengeance is one of life's great motivators.

Lust for Danger, K. S. Brooks

Vengeance, retaliation, retribution, revenge are deceitful brothers---vile, beguiling demons promising justifiable compensation to a pained soul for his loses. Yet in truth they craftily fester away all else of worth remaining.

The Tarishe Curse, Richelle E. Goodrich

And now,' said the unknown, 'farewell kindness, humanity, and gratitude! Farewell to all the feelings that expand the heart! I recompense the good - now the God of Vengeance yields to me his power to punish the wicked!

The Count of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas

Vengeance ought to be spoken through gritted teeth, spittle flying, the cords of one's soul so entangled in it that you can't let it go, even if you try. If you feel it-- if you really feel it-- then you speak it like it's a still-beating heart clenched in your fist and there's blood running down you arm, dripping off your elbow, and you can't let go.

Strange the Dreamer, Laini Taylor

I am often thought of as being remarkably bright, and yet my brains, more often than not, are busily devising new and interesting ways of bringing my enemies to sudden gagging, writhing, agonizing death.

The Weed That Strings the Hangman's Bag, Alan Bradley

If she is innocent! Why do you never wonder if Parris be innocent, or Abigail? Is the accuser always holy now? Were they born this morning as clean as God's fingers? I'll tell you what's walking Salem--- vengeance is walking Salem. We are what we always were in Salem, but now the little crazy children are jangling the keys of the kingdom, and common vengeance writes the law!

The Crucible, Arthur Miller

...And you, you better run because I'm going to destroy you for what you've taken from me.

Blood Will Tell, Samantha Young

[eunoiaacademia]

I didn't lie! I just created fiction with my mouth!

Homer

[eunoiaacademia]

Not like Homer would I write,

Not like Dante if I might,

Not like Shakespeare at his best,

Not like Goethe or the rest,

Like myself, however small,

Like myself, or not at all.

William Allingham

Which is your favorite song currently?

[eunoiaacademia]

Driving along the beach side, she rolled her eyes at my every perverted comments. I know she loved it even though she admits the opposite. Knowing, I continued to tell my annoying thoughts as I caught her every smile she tried to hide.

Because I am in love with these!

[literatureaesthetic]

People who finish a whole book in like 2 days need to share their secrets, because HOW?!

[eunoiaacademia]

1] You first need to like that book :)

2] HOW CAN SOMEONE NOT FINISH A BOOK IN LIKE TWO FREAKING DAYS HUH !?

[iisophiiasmiilesii]

i can honestly do a solid 9 hours.

no interruptions- only food and bathroom breaks.

i did that for the first hp book.

[eunoiaacademia]

Not to Brag but I am definitely doing it haha. I completed Cursed Child in one night. Only three hours to be exact.

(ugh night time is soooo good)

[eunoiaacademia]

Oh people! Stop being Dominos!

It's like I'm falling for you but you are falling for someone else and the shit goes on.

[eunoiaacademia]

When Harry said, “I'll be fine, I'll be with Dumbledore.” And when Dumbledore said, “I am not worried, Harry. I am with you.” We all know how screwed Harry was.

*Happy Dooms' Day Harry* Haha

(well the line written above and one in the photo are both on different pages of the book) - (well uk just for ur info so some of the muggles don't start arguing hehe)