* 𝘢𝘥𝘢𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘦 .

𝘮𝘶𝘮𝘶 @ 𝐩𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐬𝐪𝐳𝐡𝐪.

[everlaesting]

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[soulicrhythms]

If I didn't think, I'd be much happier.

-Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals

[survivesqz]

a soft chuckle escaped his lips before he spoke, looking over to cherry as she walked along beside him "infected bait -- now that's an idea i can get behind." it wasn't that kane ever felt like he had something to prove, but just hated assholes like the kind cherry had been referring to. it was his mom, instilling in him the hardcore values of to properly treat not just women, but anyone, no matter who they were. though, the flirtation that came her was something he hoped he wasn't reading into.

"oh well, what an honour it is to be inducted into your court, m'lady." feigning a bow as he walked along with her, they were still trying to be quick. kane wasn't about to get caught by fedra. "no i'm sure you sound lovely, but i don't think it'll be a lullaby you'll be singing." though that came out probably a lot more suggestive than he intended, he moved on swiftly. "through here," nodding to the building before them whilst he sought the keys that were buried in his jean pocket to unlock the entry door. "also just so you know, i live with my mom but she'll be super asleep for a while anyway."

[everlaesting]

❛ really ? ❜ a genuine smile appears on her rosy lips , followed by a nonchalant shrug and a click of the tongue . ❛ well i'm full of great ideas , you know . ❜ yet it was mainly her bravado speaking , trying not to show how refreshing it was to have one of her thoughts , no matter how silly , validated . and by flesh & blood , too , rather than one of the old plushies in her room . it was nice to know someone was listening because they wanted to .

his bow stole a tiny laugh from the redhead , who returned it with a half - curtsy as the pair walked . she wouldn't dare stop and risk getting caught for the sake of a joke , no matter how good it was . his comment about her singing , however , makes cherry's eyes go wide , and it takes all of her might to keep pale cheeks from burning red . focus , dipshit . ❛ i can be versitile , you'll see , ❜ is all she can muster the confidence to say . as they got to his place , the comment about kane's mother caught her attention . ❛ 's alright , my- ... i live with my family , too . ❜ of course she did , and she could only hope it wouldn't be this way forever . keeping her voice quiet , she let her eyes wander around after stepping inside , ❛ do you get along with her ? ❜ cherry asked , attention falling on kane once again . ❛ with your ma ? ❜

[summerknox]

A single brow raises at Cherry's outburst, smirk rising against pale cheeks. "Hit a nerve there, Cherry-bomb?" She asks, playfully. Her interests peaked in moments like these, suddenly her attention solely on the woman in front of her. She straightens her back and takes a step forward, the sound of despair around them began to fade away. "Baby," she breathes with a deliberate sigh. "In this world, there are no shoulders to cry on. You may as well learn now that people hurt people. Anything you could do with someone else, you could do far better on your own," with that, she smiles. Truly believing her own words, her life story becoming proof. Everyone she ever cared about, who was supposed to take care of her, was gone. Leaving just her, stranded, in their wake. She carried on, regardless. She shakes her head in disagreement now, "quite the opposite. Learn to mourn and you'll be left with no surprises," she nods once. Cherry's response then causes a sharp laugh to exit Summer, "I don't. That doesn't make you special. What does make you special, Cherry-bomb?"

[everlaesting]

the redhead shoots a glare towards the other woman , as soul - piercing as she can muster . of course summer had hit a nerve , was it so difficult to believe that cherry was a person with emotions , feelings ? and yet , why did she always feel like less then ? not human , yet definitely not an infected . her anger wasn't mindless , but neither was it calculated . so of course , she resorts to her regular way of coping ; it's better than spiraling before summer . ❛ if you think anything that could be done with someone else can be done better by yourself , you're way more naïve than i imagined , sum-sum . ❜ a devilish grin creeps onto her lips , soon to give room to a resounding laugh . ❛ you're so funny sometimes , can't believe i get to be stuck in this hell hole with you for free ! but don't worry , i'll make sure i become the best mourner you've ever seen . who knows , i might even show up to your deathbed someday . ❜ not a chance . no point in making such a grand gesture for someone who wouldn't do the same for her . arms fold across her arm , she gives a shrug to the question , raising her eyebrows expectantly . ❛ you tell me , summertime . what is it about tormenting me that keeps you coming back ? ❜

[storiesfromthegrave]

ELLIE BAMBER as ELORA DANAN in WILLOW (2021 - )

[endureqz]

with life at the qz finally going back to normal, if that's what they'd call it, theo was becoming overwhelmed with all of the gun orders. since the famine made everyone freak out, fedra demanded more weapons be made to uphold against the next disaster that could potentially come their way. what better way to unwind then to hang out with love, so he sent a message for her in hopes she'd see him.

as he opened the door, he saw her standing there. a smile washed over his face at the sight of her, and he couldn't help but make a mental note of her waiting for him in in his apartment. the thought of that being an everyday occurance did cross his mind, but he didn't let it linger too long before the commitment issues came flooding back. so beautiful, he thought to himself as he shut the door behind him. his eyebrow raised in a curious manner as he noticed the obvious sword hidden behind her, causing a laugh to abrupt from him. "oh no? you're no training to be the next knight?" he teased as he met her halfway, slowly pulling the sword from behind her back as he planted a kiss to her forehead. "it's always okay." he spoke as he walked to set his sword back. "i'm glad i came in when i did— or else my couch would've turned into fuzz." he chuckled as he looked at her, still thinking about how beautiful she looked.

[everlaesting]

❛ yes i am , sire ! it was actually one of my new years resolutions . think i have a chance ? ❜ a giggle erupts from her lips , all too happy to play along and endeared by how easy it was to loosen up with theo . how effortlessly he made her laugh and forget about her fears for a while , forget the reality they lived in . the kiss he planted on her forehead drew a smile from love's lips , something akin to adoration gleaming in her eyes . she did adore him , no questions asked .

the comment about how she would've destroyed his couch makes love gasp in mock offense , arms folding across her chest stubbornly . how dare he ! ❛ i'll have you know the dragon i was fighting didn't stand a chance ! the couch would've been fine , on my honor as your knight . ❜ a promise made as she calmly made her way towards him , slowly allowing her arms to find their way around theo's neck . the tip of her nose brushed against his just briefly , then she pulled back a bit . ❛ you wanted to see me , hm ? did something happen , or ... did you just miss me ? ❜ another giggle , and she allows herself to plant a tiny kiss on theo's lips . a little one , just enough to ease the part of her that had desperately missed him . ❛ i know i've missed you lots , more than you can imagine . ❜ love murmured , allowing her fingers to carefully start playing with theo's hair , ❛ but i could show you . ❜

[everlaesting]

task one :  playlists  &  moodboards

            oh cherry .  what  can  i  say  about  her  playlist ...  it's  a  lot ,  but  i  feel  like  that's  a  good  thing  because  it  has  just  as  many  layers  as  she  does  and  in  many  ways ,  it's  telling  of  just  how  many  different  things  she  feels .  you  have  lyrics  like  ' why  would  i  bother  with  touching  anybody  else '  and  then  ' hug  the  prison  i've  been  living  in '  in  the  same  mix  and  i .  i  just  think  it  tracks .  as  i  did  with  love's  playlist ,  *  denotes  songs  cherry  herself  would  listen  to  given  the  rp's  timeline  and  context .  anyway ,  enjoy !

i.  doll  parts  ✧  hole * ii.  bust  your  kneecaps  ✧  pomplamoose

don't  mind  me  i'm  just  thinking  about  the  fitzgeralds  and  cherry's  family  dynamics

iii.  choking  on  flowers  ✧  fox  academy

idk  man .  there's  a  haunting  quality  to  this  song  that  feels  like  cherry  being  stuck  in  the  same  place  for  twenty - one  years .

iv.  hermit  the  frog  ✧  marina v.  mary  on  a  cross  ✧  ghost  vi.  no  surprises  ✧  radiohead *

again ,  another  song  about  cherry's  upbringingsUUUUCH AAAA PRETTY HOOOOUSE AND SUUUUCH AAAA PRETTY GAAAARDEN NO ALARMS AND NOOO SURPRISES

vii.  i'm  so  hot  ✧  chrissy  chlapecka viii.  helena  beat  ✧  foster  the  people ix.   wuthering  heights  ✧  kate  bush *

a  note  on  this  is :  cherry  has  a  burning  hatred  for  wuthering  heights  bc  the  female  main  character  has  her  name  and  she .  doesn't  like  that .  nor  does  she  like  reading  it .  lmao

x.  bloody  mary  ( speed  up ) ✧  lady  gaga xi.  cherry  pie  ✧  warrant * xii.  cheri  cheri  lady  ✧  modern  talking * xiii.  pour  some  sugar  on  me  ✧  def  leppard * xiv.  house  without  windows  ✧  roy  orbinson *

movies :  carrie  ( 1976 ) ,  dirty  dancing  ( 1987 ) ,  heathers  ( 1988 ) ,  the  virgin  s***cides  ( 1999 ) 

[endureqz]

"really, that's what you're going to say?" leon couldn't help but chuckle at the thought of him writing himself up. picking up his speed, he caught up to her quick and hopped in front of her before she could walk any further. "so, you want me to write you up? stubborn tonight, aren't we?" he looked at her, with a smile on his face as he pulled out his booklet to act as if he'd write her up; of course he wouldn't actually do it. "what are you doing out here, cherry?"

[everlaesting]

❛ i don't have anything to say to you , might as well say whatever ! a curse upon you , to hear my babbling forevermore ! ❜  a giggle follows her bizarre ramble , feeling absolutely no need to make sense to leon . it was easier not to , especially when most things made little sense to cherry herself . he probably knew that , too . nodding affirmatively , she clasped both hands behind her back and stared up at the guy as he stood before her . ❛ yup , and make sure you put the time down as well , just in case . ❜  cherry played along , though his question drew a sigh from her . ❛ why is it that i always have to be doing something ? i'm just- why can't i just be out here , just for the sake of it ? ❜  pausing , she let her expression shift into a more serious one . the redhead would often use humor to mask what she wanted to say , how she really felt . but she didn't feel like doing so right now . ❛ please don't make me go home . if i keep staring at my wallpaper , i'm gonna lose it . ❜ 

[misslutyens-deactivated20230624]

the wrinkle between her eyebrows deepened in confusion, and her eyes, curious and intense, roamed over the girl’s face for a second, searching for an answer to a doubt she couldn’t quite pinpoint. it was … strange, there was something to her that draw alana in, and the feeling felt uninvited enough to make her shift uncomfortably on her feet.   “ well … that’s— that’s usually how it works. when you go missing, i mean. it’s the people that care for you the ones that … do the work, i guess. ”   but she wouldn’t know, it’s been years since the last time she truly cared about someone. alana exhaled, loudly and tired, and allowed herself to fall on the bench a few feet from her, an amused hum of appreciation vibrating from her lips.   “ mhm, and this … friend of yours— ”   she really, really tried to not sound like an asshole.   “ why aren’t you with him? shouldn’t you be helping him … as a friend? ”

[everlaesting]

the people that care for you . those words made cherry stop for a moment . they felt like instructions , something she should've been aware of a long ago yet wasn't . who were the people that cared for her ? ❛ and what if no one cares ? if you have no one , if you're hardly real ... what happens then ? ❜  who the hell would go looking for her ?! the thought begins to ring back and forth through the redhead's mind , yet she forces it to go away , pushing with all of her might . she can't let herself spiral into her fears , not here . not with people around . luckily , it doesn't take much for her attention to settle on alana again , the look in cherry's eyes growing curioser and curioser . why wasn't she with elijah ? ❛ because- ... well , it's obviously because it's not my job . plus , look at me ; i'm pretty sure an infected could snap me in half if it wanted to , or whatever it is those things do to people besides bite them . ❜ cherry shuddered at the thought , frowning as though a cold gust of wind had washed upon her . after a moment , she broke the silence again . ❛ i can't be of help to anyone . ever . ❜  

[forgedqzs]

"cherry, i'm so sorry, oh my god." she repeated again, grabbing more napkins for the other. clumsy she was, but usually not at work, her mind really must have been lost. she furiously worked to clean the soon to be sticky mess off the counter, sighing softly at at her friend's words. "no, nothing, it's silly, i just wasn't focusing. do you..want another? i promise i'll be more careful this time."

[everlaesting]

❛ it's fine , it's fine ... just stop blaming yourself , okay ? it's not like i'm gonna die or something , ❜  brows furrow together , as it is upsetting to see the other be mean to her own self . a bit hypocritical of cherry considering she was in no way kinder to her reflection , but still . ❛ ... am i gonna have to pay for it ? ❜ the redhead asked , a little embarrassed by her own inquiry , ❛ it's fine , really . i just wish you'd tell me what's bugging you . makes me feel left out , ❜  a pretty common feeling for the redhead .

[summerknox]

Summer walked with a quick pace as she spoke to the person beside her, giving commands as she often did. It was cord alley related, since she obviously needed to establish her business all over again. Though, she shoos them away rather quickly when she spots the girl, tears streaming down her cheeks this time. "Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, lovey. Big girls don't cry," she doesn't hesitate to pull a pack of cigarettes from her bag, offering to the other before she takes one for herself.

[everlaesting]

a tiny smile graces love's features , then a chukle . a tired one , somewhat lifeless . summer's attitude was always so bold , so fierce — she could never measure up to that . ❛ we can't all be strong , summer ... i don't feel much like a big girl at all right now . ❜ if anything , she felt incredibly small . the four year old thrust into a new home only to hear a gunshot moments later , never to see her mommy again . a little girl lost . she rejects the cigarette with a small shake of her head , ❛ thanks , i don't need it ... ❜  a heavy sigh escapes love as she closes her little notebook , setting it down on her lap . ❛ did- ... were you close with them , with any of them ? ❜ 

[dedicatedasshxle]

Razor had noticed Love up ahead, he had had the pleasure of seeking her services on more than one occasion. Although he was an officer, he still couldn't escape the pull of a few unjustly injuries from time to time. Slowly moving closer to her, he lingered a little in front of the bench, moving his rifle to rest over his shoulder. " i didn't mean to sneak up on you, you looked just... a little .." he wanted to say sad, but he wasn't sure he should. He glanced around them, before he went ahead and sat down beside her. " You know... i've used this bench a few times myself.. for a little tear or two " he chuckled, glancing sideways at her. " Do you want some company ?"

[everlaesting]

❛ — a little pathetic , maybe ? ❜ love chuckled , tiredly so . she probably did look the part , with her puffy cheeks and silly writings . none of it would bring them back ; she'd never see her friends again . not even chase . nevertheless , she can appreciate razor's effort , the manner in which he's willing to share his own experience with her . sometimes it could be hard to recall that officers were people , too , even though love always made a conscious effort to be kind to them . to be gentle . ❛ when you cry , does it help ? i ... i know it doesn't change things , but i often feel better afterwards . it feels like ... like letting go , ❜ it felt like renewal . like a farewell of sorts . nodding her head at the offer , a tiny smily appeared on love's lips . ❛ only if you're not busy , razor . i don't want you in trouble with your higher ups . not because of me . ❜

[survivesqz]

the pit in her stomach grew, because of course this was happening to her now. ria knew she was pregnant, she just didn't want to admit it. in some strange way, she felt like now she'd be weaker -- or at least perceived that way. and of course this baby was theo's, it literally couldn't be anyone else's. ria knew love and theo were somewhat involved, to what extent she wasn't so sure but it was just complexity after complexity. her head was spinning, which didn't help her nausea -- and not that there was anything left for her to vomit up but what she really wanted was a bucket.

"ah -- no, thank you love." forcing a smile, it was weak at best. "i know you are, and i appreciate it..." cutting herself off, the woman looked around trying to analyse the traffic of the med tent. "i-- have what i need for the test in my apartment. l-love will you, come with me?" her eyes pleaded gently to the other woman, perhaps love had been the only one she'd trust to share this moment with her. because the reality was, ria was fucking terrified.

[everlaesting]

the feeling of powerlessness that washed over love was , at the very least , an uncomfortable one . she wasn't used to emotions like hatred , anger , but the knowledge that she was hardly capable of helping ria in a meaningful way was stirring something of the like in her chest . towards her own self , that is . she should be able to do more , she had to be ; otherwise why would anyone want her around ?

but when ria asks love to come with her , to support her , the nurse doesn't think twice before nodding her head repeatedly , reassuringly . ❛ yes , of course . of course ! my shift was just about to end anyway ... it's gonna be okay , ri . we'll do it together . ❜ she tells the other , offering a comforting smile . crouching a little , reached underneath the bed ria was sitting on to grab her bag , then quickly fixed her posture . ❛ you ready to go ? we can wait a little if you're not feeling well enough to walk , there's no rush . ❜

[everlaesting]

task one :  playlists & moodboards

          love's playlist originally started as songs she'd listen to ,  but ended up with a bunch of stuff that makes me think of her as well .  the  songs  she  enjoys  /  listens  to  herself  ( which  are  actually  the  majority )  will  be  marked  with  a  *  so  you  guys  can  have  a  little  bit  of  a  peek  into  her  taste .  enjoy !

i.  out  of  touch  ✧  daryl  hall  &  john  oates * ii.  angel  ✧  gavin  friday * iii.  magic  dance  ✧  david  bowie *

labyrith  is  her  favorite  movie  that's  all

iv.  mayonaka  no  door  /  stay  with  me  ✧  miki  matsubara *

honestly  i'm  not  even  gonna  explain  this  one  just .  listen  to  this  song .   it's  very  love ,  from  the  beat  to  the  lyrics  to  this  hint  of  sadness  and  longing  in  the  singer's  voice .  10/10  love  content

v.  hounds  of  love  ✧  kate  bush * vi.  butterfly  ✧  loona  vii.  soldier  of  love  ✧  pearl  jam * viii.  grins  ✧  charli  xcx ix.  princess  moon  ✧  arimoon

she's  a  sailor  moon  girlie :/

x.  in  these  arms  ✧  bon  jovi  * xi.  little  sad  eyes  ✧  the  castells xii.  anticipating  ✧  britney  spears  * xiii.  just  like  heaven  ✧  the  cure  *

movies :  labyrinth  ( 1986 ) ,  10  things  i  hate  about  you  ( 1999 ) ,  romeo  +  juliet  ( 1996 ) ,  dead  poets  society  ( 1989 )

[everlaesting]

location :  theo's  place  ✧  @endureqz

it seemed that love had been making a conscious effort as of late to keep herself distracted , to not think about her fears and worries . there were only so many pages she could fill with her thoughts and emotions ; it was not enough . but something a little different happened today — a note was left for her at the medical tent . from theo , asking her to come over . how could she possibly say no ?

he didn't seem to be home yet by the time she got there , but the nurse assumed she had permission to make herself comfortable and so , she did . curiosity let her to fiddle around with whatever random trinkets of theo's she could find , to the point where she even considered playing with his beloved sword once or twice , eventually caving and allowing herself to swing it lightly , lazily fighting a dragon of sorts . but upon hearing the door open , love quickly turned towards the sound and hid the object behind her back . poorly so . ❛ i ... i wasn't doing anything . nope , ❜ a giggle . slowly , she allows herself to make her way towards theo . ❛ hope it's okay that i waited inside ? i wanted to explore . ❜

[w0manstand1ng-deactivated202603]

Open starter: open to mutuals

Location: armory

❛ i’ve got a weapon for every situation. hunting, profession, cold blooded murder, hot blooded murder... ❜ Victor stated, leaning against the counter.

[everlaesting]

❛ hot blooded murder , huh ? and what would that be , vi — the killing of mammals ? ❜  anna julia has to stop herself from laughing at her own little joke , ❛ seriously , i just want some bullets . would love to learn more about your weapons some other time , though . ❜

[jacksonqz]

open starter. location: outside the qz, in the forest.

"shh... do you hear that?" beck asked the person behind her. "get out of here." she demanded to the person.

[everlaesting]

❛ — for real ? ❜ a dismissive yet quiet chuckle escapes her , ❛ and miss out on the fun ? no way ... ❜ she wasn't carrying a gun for no reason . letting out a deep breath , anna julia let her gaze wander for a moment , checking the surroundings . ❛ i thought they'd cleaned up this area a long time ago . stay sharp . ❜