Evie-The Last Time

Hello! My pronouns are they/them, but you can call me whatever you like.

[evie-the-mostly-human]

To clear things up about my blog, all these songs are me letting out my emotions about “Simon alkenmyer”

Aka Kristina meister.

Also, I totally lied about my age. I’m MUCH younger than I said originally, and MUCH younger than them.

[evie-the-mostly-human]

I sent the folder titled evidence to the attorney today.

Over 100 files and it’s not even the only folder.

Finally starting the process to end this. I know it’s still going to take a long time. But there is an end to this tunnel. I can breathe better.

[evie-the-mostly-human]

I can’t get the numbers out of my head.

11-13

[evie-the-mostly-human]

Hi, stopping by anonymously since I don't want to get pulled into any legal or interpersonal stuff. Hope you're hanging in. Wanted to say thank you for posting the truth about "Simon" - as horrible as it was to hear, I'm grateful. Getting confirmation from someone close to "Simon" that they weren't real, it was like a spell was broken. I liked the books and the content posted on Tumblr, even talking to Simon via chat sometimes, and maybe got obsessed with the idea of the character. While I never believed the whole story it was a fun fantasy that gave me some hope (and a distraction) in dark times. Now that I know the truth, I'm disgusted and so sad for the gentle readers who have been harmed by any of it, like you. Maybe I could have been one. Again, thank you for speaking your truth. May you find peace, and be safe.

I wasn’t sure if I should share things, but when I thought about how I wasn’t the first gentle reader they pulled this with, I realized I wouldn’t be the last either. They are building up social media presence in other places, and I don’t doubt they will misuse that social power. Thank you for letting me know it helped, that’s the whole reason I did it.

I felt very special, it really did feel like a dream come true. But fantasy like that is always better left to fiction. Every time my life felt story book, it was awful to live through. I noticed a pattern in my life of falling for tricks by similar people. If someone feels like your fictional crush come to life, they are probably just as fictional now, an act. I’m doing my best to heal now, and I have wonderful support. I’ve learned not rely on others for all of the novelty or safety in my life, it’s wonderful to have people that add that to your life, but if one person is your everything, they can take it away. It’s always best to have a diverse group of loved ones there to support you, not one wobbly pillar asking you to balance and act just right in return for holding you up. And it really is mind blowing how good life can be when you have that.

There are good people in the world, and I hope you find them and have a wonderful life. I hope you are also careful and gentle with yourself. Treat yourself with respect.

[evie-the-mostly-human]

Chewing bones you gave me to dull my teeth,

never knew they were mine

pulled out one by one, every vertebrae

until I had no spine

[evie-the-mostly-human]

To clear things up about my blog, all these songs are me letting out my emotions about “Simon alkenmyer”

Aka Kristina meister.

Also, I totally lied about my age. I’m MUCH younger than I said originally, and MUCH younger than them.

[evie-the-mostly-human]

do you still have any contact with simon / simone?

No. And that is a choice I made on purpose. They are very kind online. But I want you to know that every “gentle reader” who ever met them in person ran. It happened a few days before they stopped going on tumblr.

I stayed the longest. Three years as their partner. And I’m still trying to recover. They are just another person, no monster. They made me sign an nda, held it over my head as a legal document so I wouldn’t talk to my old friends. Only for me to find out it’s a fake legal document that won’t hold up in court. They are Kristina Meister.

They are manipulative. They always picked people who survived narcissistic abuse, but hadn’t recovered from it. They did it on purpose.

I have pictures of their diary where they fantasize about starting a cult.

I’m sorry. I’m very very sorry. I know they were a person many would reach out to in a moment of suffering, when they needed someone. They were that for me. And they managed to do a decent job of that when they could choose every word carefully and hide who they were behind a screen. I sought safety in them. They gave it for a short while, but eventually they took advantage of that dependence.

You may be searching for something right now, a friend, comfort, advice, and while you can’t find it in them please don’t stop searching for that. The relationships all us gentle readers had with them, were not equal. There was a power imbalance. I suggest searching for an equal in someone who doesn’t hold themself above you. If you need support or care, even if it seems impossible in your life right now, it is not.

My world was ending when I leaned on a stranger from the internet. It didn’t go well… but I clawed my into a better life than I’d ever had before. It takes time, which really really sucks. But it can get better. I’m sorry I couldn’t give you what you were looking for, but I hope you find it.

[evie-the-mostly-human]

[evie-the-mostly-human]

Loving you was like watering a paper mache flower

Who yelled at me when it didn’t grow

[evie-the-mostly-human]

Curiosity is going to kill

[evie-the-mostly-human]

[johnny-depp-is-loved]

Please, spread this for those who might need it right now

U.S. suicide hotline: call or text 988 (available 24 hours)

U.S. trans lifeline: [phone] (when you call, you’ll speak to a trans/nonbinary peer operator. full anonymity and confidentiality)

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) – provides 24/7 confidential support and referrals for individuals and families facing mental health and substance use disorders, including panic attacks and anxiety.

LGBT National Help Center: [phone]

Trevor Project: Call [phone], text START to 678-678, or chat online.

Take care of yourself and each other. Please stay safe ♡

[cataclysmictide]

I WOULD'VE DIED FOR YOUR SINS

On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous - Ocean Vuong/The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - Taylor Swift/Unknown/All Too Well: Short Film/Gilmore Girls (2001)/Lie To Girls - Sabrina Carpenter/The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - Taylor Swift/Gilmore Girls (2001)/Unknown/Cold As You - Taylor Swift/The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - Taylor Swift

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Arthur Miller, The Crucible

[sop-soap]

Making a web weave seemed fun. Here’s one about being “masks the whole way down” (@/notquiteaghost) or something along those lines

Song is Metaphor by the crane wives

[thememedaddy]

[untitledgoosegay]

I feel like I gotta point out -- this is hypervigilance, it's a trauma response, and it is not always right.

It can be very effective, and it can be really hard to learn to second-guess it, especially if you come from an environment where you couldn't check or trust people to be honest with you. But you have to learn to second-guess that instinct -- because it's not empathy, it's projection. You don't "know" what someone's feeling, you're assuming, based on an assumption that's kept you safe in the past.

If you trust your overtuned trauma response over the actual people around you, it will harm your relationships with them.

[depsidase]

[carnivalseb]

PEBKAC: Problem Exists Between Keyboard And Chair (the user is the issue here) Lithobraking Maneuver (our rocket stopped because it crashed into rocks)

[anexperimentallife]

Operator headspace problem (the user is a dumbass--we used this one a lot when I was a generator mechanic)

[ralfmaximus]

Loose Nut Behind the Wheel -- dumbass driver

Unintended Fauna Interaction -- fucker bit me

[petzah394-deactivated20250503]

I fucking love these special terms, especially the ones about the user being a fucking idiot

[raevenlywrites]

Impromptu field dissection: stepped on it :/

[deafblackandtiredofyourcrap]