BY DESIGN

[exeliixi]

( arthur )

"why were you stuck in bed? and why choose this place to sneak out?”

She pointedly ignores his first question.

"Well, this park isn't actually too far from where I'm staying. Sometimes all I want is some fresh air, y'know?"

[exeliixi]

( alison )

Alison knew what was going on the moment she stepped into the room. She wasn’t an idiot, but it did seem to take Cosima a moment to figure out she was there. “I don’t care what drug paraphernalia you’re smoking, Cosima. Honestly, do whatever you want,” she said, sitting down next to the women. “No one forced me to. I wanted to see how you were doing. You seem fine, by the looks of…this,” she said, gesturing vaguely to the pot smoke still lingering in the air. “But you cannot keep taking those out, you know that right? You really shouldn’t even be smoking anything in your state,” she said, starting to ramble before she realized she was sounding too bossy. “It’s your life, Cosima. I just don’t want to lose you before we have to.”

She took a few deep breaths of sterile air, the cannula tickling her nostrils the way they always did, and sighed at Alison's words. There was no way she could tell her sister just how much her chest hurt on a daily basis, how raw her throat was from coughing constantly, how the pot was actually easing the ache and making it easier to truck on.

"I totally hear you, Alison, and you're right." Part of her wanted to make some kind of joke at the expense of her crappy lungs, but that didn't seem to be the wisest idea. "Anyway, thanks for stopping by. It's good to see you."

[exeliixi]

( ??? )

✕ ░ ❥ oneandonlysawicki, suburbanxclone, evodevostonedscience, exeliixi ❜

                       ❝ — wh — w — who the hell are you ? ❞

"Oh boy."

"Okay, well, I'm Cosima, and you are totally within your right to freak out."

[exeliixi]

( tony )

“Yeah, and you must be Cosima, right? I was looking for Felix, but that’s alright. I was wondering when I would get to meet you.”

"Yeah--Cosima. That's me. It's cool to meet you, finally." She smiled. "Felix just, ah, stepped out, but you can totally take a seat and hang out until he gets back. You want something to drink or anything?"

[exeliixi]

[exeliixi]

out. i have come down with a fever and am totally fatigued/miserable and also h a h ah ah my brother is coming in tonight so i will probably not be here ;~;

[exeliixi]

( felix )

"s’about time      th’ last time I let someone sleep in m’ bed fo’ more than two days,” his spine straightens, chin level.  subconscious, smooth, Felix draws himself up with all the fixings of a respectable feline. silently judging her.”    they had to nude model fo’ rent.” with that, he let his body fall on the couch cushions, legs crossed.”So, if m’ bed is finally vacant. Mind tellin’ me where you’re gonna sleep? in a women shelter?” he picks up a loose hair from his shirt, releasing it in the air. fainting indifference while, in fact, he cares more than he let it show.

She laughs, a harsh, wet sound that dissolves into a chest-rattling cough. She quickly covers it by clearing her throat and shakes her dreads back over her shoulder. "That's funny. I'm not sure you'd want me nude modeling at the moment to help you with the rent. I could sell pot or something, though. Make you some pocket change." She rolls her tank slightly; her smile fades, and she shrugs her shoulders. "I was gonna fork out the money for a hotel or something. I kinda feel like I'm in everyone's hair."

[toohighforallthat]

I’ʟʟ ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜsʟʏ ᴀᴘᴘʀᴏᴀᴄʜ Dᴇʟᴘʜɪɴᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ʟᴏɢɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ.

[exeliixi]

( oneandonlysawicki )

"Tony, right? Yeah. If you're looking for Sarah, or uh, Felix, or whoever--they're not here. Sorry."

[exeliixi]

( suburbanxclone )

"Heeeeeey, Alison!" She hurriedly stamped the roach out against the bottom of the ash tray. Her hands waved erratically to waft away the pot smoke; only when she exhaled the last mouthful of smoke did she loop the breathing tubes around her ears. "Who, uh, who made you come play nurse today? 'Cause I'm totally good on my own. Everything's green."

[exeliixi]

( delphine )

"You are funny, it is one of the things I love about you.. but I have trouble with your.. illness and the jokes. I do understand, but." She gave her a watery smile. It hurt her so much to see Cosima like this, but she would never give up.

"Never." She placed a loving kiss on her cheek and stood. "You go lie down, I will get you some water."

"Yeah, I know. I know. I'll try and, uh, cut back on those." And she meant it. The worst part about being sick definitely had to be the looks people kept giving her. The sadness in their eyes. She felt pathetic enough as it was. She'd never say that out loud, though; she knew she had to be thankful that there were people who cared so much for her.

"Thanks. You are the best." She slid back across the mattress and slowly swung her legs up onto the bed. She maneuvered the oxygen tank closer to where her head would lay, and only when she felt situated did she lay down, fingers hunting across the mattress for the blanket.

[exeliixi]

( arthur )

"well, my mom is super german and my name’s arthur. which is pretty ordinary.

why were you inside for a week? i wouldn’t be able to stand it.”

"Ha, yeah. I guess you have a point.

Well, I haven't been feeling so hot, and it's hard to get around, so I usually just stay in bed. But I've got some major cabin fever, so I kind of snuck out while no one was looking."

[munchingmuff]

                       ᴅᴇɴɴɪs ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴇɴᴀᴄᴇ ɪɴ’ᴛ ɢᴏ’ ɴᴏᴛʜɪɴ' ᴏɴ ᴍᴇ, ʙᴀʙᴇ.

                                             the boy’s nothing but                                                     TROUBLE.

                                              private —- selective.

[exeliixi]

( arthur )

"i know i look shabby. why d’you think i steal?

cosima. that’s an unusual name. why are you here?”

"Well, she looks shabby, too." Let's hope Sarah never learns that she said that.

"Yeah. My mom's, like, super Greek. Anyway, I'm here 'cause I've been cooped up inside for pretty much an entire week, and I need to just take a walk. I'm just, uh, takin' a break."

[exeliixi]

( arthur )

"do i look that shabby?                it’s arthur. you?”

"No, no. That's not what I meant. I just--tend not to assume. My sister? She's kind of the same way. Does whatever she has to."

"I'm Cosima. Cool to meet you, Arthur."

[exeliixi]

( ??? )

"okay. i don’t steal for fun, just so you know.”

"I didn't think you did." She paused. "If I asked, would you tell me your name?"

[exeliixi]

( delphine )

Delphine didn’t mean to sound so cold, she knew that Cosima was doing her best considering the circumstances, but it hurt her to be joking about her illness. The love of her life was slipping away and she felt powerless. She followed after her and took a seat beside her stroking her back gently. “I am sorry, ma petit. I didn’t mean to sound so harshly. You want something to drink?”

"Hey. Don't be sorry. I know my humor kind of sucks." She offered Delphine a genuine smile, even if it was small. She turned away only to close her eyes, relishing the sensation of Delphine's hand on her back. Already she felt tired, like she could fall asleep right there. Stubborn though she was, she knew that sleep was exactly what she needed.

"Maybe just some water. Say 'I was right' all you want, but maybe laying down is, like... a good idea or whatever."