I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a girl like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love I was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, realizing that these words mean nothing anymore. I canât help myself but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love I believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I wonât deny the fact that I miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, Iâve come with the thought that I canât do anything anymore, I need to let you go because itâs the right thing to do. Iâve decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there was nothing left to hold on to and I canât hold on to something that doesnât want to be held.
Iâm sorry. Iâm sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. Iâm sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, I was hoping you wouldâve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally wonât take back the words youâve said. Iâm sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad.Â
Thank you. Iâm thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days: the days we felt unstoppable like weâre flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within a number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me.Â
Goodbye. This will be the last time that I will write you a message, Iâll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you wonât let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer includes me because, youâre happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love thatâs all the things ours couldnât be. I hope you find overwhelming joy by her side, I hope she wonât hurt you and make you cry. I hope for the best for the both of you. It hurts but Iâve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I donât regret loving you, but what I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.
I wonât forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. Iâll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you wonât be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson. I guess youâre just another chapter of my life needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though Iâm in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in her that you couldnât find in me. You will always be my greatest love.
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