I woke up this morning without a memory of last night. I woke up this morning with the deception that I was still stuck in a dream, because when I woke up this morning I could feel your skin like blankets of warm flesh against mine, head tucked in the crook of my neck as your lips pressed gently against my skin, an arm around my waist just as we had fell asleep the night before. And I blinked, just for one second and it was as if I had taken a sharp and unexpected stab in the chest. Reality had snapped every bone in my rib cage, leaving broken ends splintering against muscle. It had sliced through every withered vain, causing the blush to fade from my cheeks as I bled internally. It pierced straight through my heart with the realization that you weren't there. It was all a dream, and my mind had created this bittersweet illusion of you because it wanted so eagerly to believe, that when I awoke. Reality was still better than in my dreams. Losing love--- your love. Had felt like death.
When you looked me in the eyes, I was struck for a moment. Lightning coursed throughout my body as hazel gems peered their way into my soul, clutching it by the heart and holding it there. I was unable to move, and when you cracked open your perfect lips, my eyes fixed against the pink flesh of yours and I was unable to think. My mind was paralyzed and I was unable to hear the next three words you whispered despite how badly I'd wanted to hear them. Just the sight of you was enough for me to bundle my worries, and hang them like a cloud above my head. As long as the sun shone through your smile, the rain would stay away.
I had depended on you for every ounce of happiness I would ever receive, and whenever you pulled away from me, it was like snapping an invisible line that linked my heart to yours, and I was left blank, numb and expressionless. The least few days I spent, I spent alone, staring through a dark tinted window as my bundled knot became undone, the corners of fabric tipped over, and sadness fell like rain above my head. Staining my cheeks as my mind doubled over in pain. Because without you, it had no clue how to function. The gears turned in the same direction, and everything was stuck. To say that I needed you-- that would be an understatement.
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