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Greetings. Please refrain from getting annoyed by that title. Keep on scrolling.

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What your headache is tellin you

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I haven’t seen this post in a min but precisely when I have a headache RN it comes up in my feed

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Two quick additions, as someone who suffered from chronic migraines

1. Behind the eyes: eye strain or just long stress. More sleep will definitely make this feel better. 2. Temples: unclench your jaw, as that bone is putting too much pressure on your temples.

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This is a fucking life saviour with the amount of headaches I have

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What your headache is tellin you

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I haven’t seen this post in a min but precisely when I have a headache RN it comes up in my feed

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Two quick additions, as someone who suffered from chronic migraines

1. Behind the eyes: eye strain or just long stress. More sleep will definitely make this feel better. 2. Temples: unclench your jaw, as that bone is putting too much pressure on your temples.

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This is a fucking life saviour with the amount of headaches I have

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the best original works I’ve made so far tbh

Printssss | Twatter | FNAF porn

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I never see anyone talking about how kids can abuse adults though. 

Growing up I saw a lot of adult teachers get bullied by students and it sucked. They would purposely push them to their breaking point until they exploded, yelled, cursed, threw desks, and the ones who didn’t have that kind of reaction would just quit or end up fired because the kids would start rumors. One was because our new math teacher was effeminate so the guys thought “obviously this guy is gay and he’s after our dicks” and if he was ever nice to a male student (which… he was nice and friendly with EVERYONE and was the best teacher we’d had that year) they would start whispering behind me, “yo, look at that, did you see that? He’s flirting with his male students, that’s nasty” and so they made trouble for him. 

My mother worked at a Discovery Zone type place when I was little and she would come home and break down crying because groups of little boys would call her names, call her stupid her whole shift.

I had friends in childhood who absolutely abused their parents. They were relentless and mean and hacked them into submission and it made for a lot of awkward moments when I would hang with them, because I couldn’t do anything since… they were my abuser too.

Just because you’re a minor doesn’t mean knives you throw are not sharp and won’t hit someone. The fact that so many kids on this site use their age as a weapon, as a way to say “but nothing I do has any impact because I have no social power” is SCARY and we need to try to make people aware of this kind of stuff from a young age because most people who are like that don’t really realize it and they need guidance and rehabilitation so the cycle can stop. Because those people grow up and have kids and do it to their kids and they don’t learn that it’s not normal or okay, that they cannot deny reality by controlling the people around them. 

But sometimes it isn’t always that way, some of those parents were so nice and kind and I considered like family, and they just had absolute evil villains for kids. 

Check in with yourselves, guys. Especially right now. There’s a lot of upsetting stuff being shoved in our faces all the time and it makes it hard not to get tunnel vision when our emotions get out of control, especially with the pressure to perform by a lot of social circles on tumblr. And if you’re young and a lot of this is new, pace yourself, you’re learning, and you need to be open to the idea of learning more and know that us being adults doesn’t mean we’re just out of touch boring old farts who don’t know anything. We’ve lived things and we have experience and when we say to you that it’s not okay to tell people who like things you do not like to kill themselves, we’re not “apologists”… we’re the survivors too. 

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yo this is really important

my piano/choir teacher in 6th grade was only around 20-23 whenever she came to our school, and she only stayed for 2 years because all the kids were so awful. one time she told me that me and a few other of my friends were the only ones who hadn’t said a bad word about her the whole time.

in 4th grade, we got an awesome music teacher. he was in his late 20’s at the time, really chill and easygoing (we were in elementary school). some of the kids would just slowly drive him off the edge until one day he ended up throwing pens across the room out of frustration and anger. everybody was either scared of him or laughed at him, and it kinda made it worse. he left 2 years later and teaches a civilized and nice group of kids now.

kids really can abuse adults. I’ve seen it happen a lot and it’s sad and heartbreaking and overall awful to see because so many people brush it off as “kids being kids.”

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In 7th grade or so I had the most delightful Maths/Science teacher (the two were taught by the same guy) and he was always super nice. Like he adored teaching, he brought us snacks sometimes and like really wanted us to do well. 

By 8th grade he was a changed man. We had young neo-nazis starting shit. We had kids screaming and throwing shit at him. We had knife fights and I’m 90% certain I remember him straight up being forced into a position where he had to wrestle one of my more violent classmates to the floor. My class had actually driven this calm, cool, great guy (he couldn’t’ve been more than 27 at the time) to actually break down crying in class. As far as I heard he was gone by the time I entered grade 9. 

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I remember lots of my classmates mocking my math teacher because of her accent, when I was a freshman. She was from Syria, in a mexican school. Little pieces of shit were always imitating her accent and mocking her from getting certain words wrong.

I saw her about four years later and she looked so tired of everything, less cheerful and with a tougher attitude from the beginning. Fortunately she still talks to me calmly and smiling, but it’s awful to know she’s always anxious around thw kids she teaches.

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In seventh grade I had a teacher named Ms. Burns.  It was only her third year of teaching, and it was her first year of teaching middle school.  And the class I had her for?

My fellow classmates were fucking awful to Ms. Burns.  They talked over her when she was trying to teach, they made fun of her appearance (said she looked like man and called her a ‘tranny’, or “It Burns” instead of Ms. Burns), and when a few months into the school year, she broke down and screamed at the top of her lungs at the class before sitting down at her desk and crying, they considered it a triumph and laughed about it for weeks.

Being a kid doesn’t exempt you from being a piece of shit, and just because, on the whole, adults have more power than minors doesn’t mean that minors get a free pass on being purposefully cruel to adults.  Some of you on this website really need to learn this.

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Not related to teaching (though that’s an excellent example of an environment in which abuse against both adults and minors occurs), but over the course of various therapy programs both online and offline, I have met adults – who shall remain anonymous, unless they ever want to come forward themselves – who have been violently sexually abused by minors, who have been otherwise physically assaulted by minors, and who have been (this one is especially common) emotionally/verbally abused by minors.  

And these ones have been targeted because they are adults, and that made abusing them convenient, in many communities, to abuse.  This was often because, when the adult spoke out, the minor in question could easily fall back on “I can’t abuse you, you’re an adult, and you suggesting that I could be abusive is abusive toward me.” 

I feel like the main issue (and definitely the issue on this and other social media sites) is that people are conflating individual abuse with systemic injustice.  You can be in a more socially privileged position than someone else and still be abused by them on a personal level.  Kids and teens don’t systemically oppress adults, but that doesn’t mean they can’t abuse them in their daily, individual interactions with each other.

In other words, your abuser may often be less privileged than you are in various ways, but that still doesn’t negate that they’re an abuser.  

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Self Reflection.

For a start, I'm officially finished this course with my final animation. Thank god, I got it finished. (eventhoughit'spasttheduedate)

Anyways, this whole experience has been fun, although it was pretty hard to get right into work when I have no clue how to use After Effects but surprisingly I got it to work at the end. Although the animation isn't that great I'm pretty all right with it. During halfway of the process there were problems, of course but that itself is an experiment for future references as to know what to do or what not to do. Also, definitely tell myself to stop putting things to last minute or I'll regret it, though I doubt that I will learn any lesson from this but any-who I guess this is the end. I would've definitely done things differently. I would've tried to stop myself from procrastinating so much and try to learn and understand how things work and improve on that in After Effects or that I should have remembered that After Effects no long support obj. files. All in all, it was a good class, definitely improved some of my After Effect's skills. My animation isn't that great but it is pretty close to my concept idea and isn't that bad for a start. I can see that the animation's pretty choppy and not really consistent but glitchy, somehow but it's all right. The breakdown definitely shows the process of the composition whenever I think that I haven't change the animation much. Though, not a lot.

I don't really know what to say basically, THE END to this unit and more to similar units next year. (according to Jarrad) yaaayyyyhah... Thanks Jarrad for teaching our class and thanks for the long long longgg lectures, I will try to remember the stuff I did in the workshop for next semester's units. Hopefully.

Definitely recommended to those who would love to learn how to do special effects, compositing, and maybe for those who loves tedious stuff. Have fun. 

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Final Animation for Digital Image Compositing. 

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A breakdown of animation compositing

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Final Animation Audio References

Heartbeat sound effect- faster. The MSsoundeffects https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIzR-1YXcJs. 12 September, 2012. 

Fire sound effects (3). Jojikiba. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zmw32wCGWuc. 23 December, 2011.

Heat Beat Sound effect. MrZombiemaniac1.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoFvTTa_u_E. 19 August, 2012. 

Walking on wooden floor sound effect. Jojikiba. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yat0VURSmCA. 11 September, 2012. 

Door Squeak Sound Effect. IMovieAndSoundEffect. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nRV9PD2vcQI. 15 October, 2012.

Heavy Breathing (Woman) sound effect. Nino Scuderi. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L1MPgNGI1Ao. 15 January, 2014. 

Thunderstorm sound effect - close. TheMSsoundeffects. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0439dMJj-FY. 10 September,2012.

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first person camera screenshot and after effects-

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update 2? technical difficulties

Well a quick update on the project.

Another week until it is due, I've came across crisis I didn't think about for the pass i dont know how many weeks, after effects doesn't support obj files anymore so I had a talk with Jarrad and we came to a conclusion that I will use the model I've made in Maya afterall and draw on the the visuals leftover digitally instead of video recording and green screening stuff.

When that was over, I animated on Maya and, of course another problem came on, rendered into avi. file multiple times, some worked and some didn't. When it was put into After Effects, it was not pretty at all. It was glitchy, blocky, and pixelated everywhere, couldn't even tell what was going on. And so after a few good hours, I remembered that I could render each individual frame as an image and so I did, which came to a realization that I don't have Premiere so ended up dragging every frame into After Effects and arranged them in place. Good thing it did not that long to finish.

That's about that for now, more updates later.

Can't wait for this assessment to be finished.

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photo reference for stairs.

images taken in uni

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Recording test for the project.

walking simulation, reference for shakiness and lighting

may see dogs

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First person point of view

 looking around the room and corridor of the setting, seeing if it's the right size, perspective, if its close to the storyboard.

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Update

I've tested with candle fire, lightning, creating items for the setting of the animation, I haven’t completed the candle holder though. I inserted a first person camera in the setting and tried looking around it. I haven’t started the animation recording yet. I am at the stage where I’m about to make a model to attach the camera to, so it’s easier to just move the model around with the camera following it so it hopefully seem more realistic, including hands as it will be seen in the animation. I have yet to test colour grading as I trying to import the .obj file of the 3D objects into After Effects to test it out, also put holes in the walls where the door and the window will be so it is possible to see out of them.

Things to do:

-camera model attachment

-candle holder, top of stairs.

-Colour grading, atmosphere, audio, paint materials

-light ray through window

-whole animation recording from first person camera

Self Reflection

I think I'm about 30% ~ done with the animation and I should really catch up with it as fast as I can. I am personally not satisfied with my progress of the animation because I haven't really done much of an effort to try to get it done as I am not as motivated as I have hoped. Although I am not satisfied, there's nice experiences that I have gotten out of this project, such as effects on After Effects, and creating 3-D objects in Autodesk Maya, trying to make the whole scenery of the animation. Hopefully as it is getting close to the end of the semester, I will feel the pressure to get this project done and make it look good, and I really hope the final outcome will be good, the fact that it is my first time trying to make a smooth and horrific animation. Although the process came out bad and seem effortless, I should smash ahead and complete it as soon as possible because I also have another animation due for another unit and that fact puts a lot of stress on my shoulders. 

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Lightning testing

Tried to create lightning strike on Adobe After Effects although its premade lightning available on the program itself.

After Effects Lightning Strike. helpvid. YouTube video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SxnXtYfy19s

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Testing of fire effect for the candles in my animation.

I used the tutorial on YouTube as help and surprisingly it's pretty simple... well, the tutorial made it easy.

How to make fire in Adobe After Effects. Hey guys!. YouTube video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQ3dpFg1eiI