Adventures of a Two-Bit Jester

I want to go places.

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Luigi and ShyGuy at #supercon

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Yoo! That's me in the Luigi getup!

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Yo! Let's make this happen!

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But...I haven't even taken the WBI or had a phone interview yet...help?

I did make the cut in the Character Performer audition I went to so I figure it might have something to do with that, but...

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4:21

Why is it only at unholy hours in the morning that I make all these existential revelations?

It is 4:21 in the morning and while scrolling through my Facebook feed in the darkness of my room the thought just came to mind that I don't really have any friends, as if it were the most casual observation in the world. I don't understand myself sometimes.

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I'm going to be Flynn Rider at Disney World one day. I don't care how many times I have to drive up to Orlando to do it.

Probably a lot

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Nights like these make me acutely aware of how lonely I am. I spend so much time trying to be there for other people and yet I feel as if I can't turn to anyone when I'm feeling down.

But then I browse the loneliness tag and I remember how many people feel the same way.

This is for you. Yes, you. The one reading this right now.

I want to look you in the eyes and tell you that you're not alone; that you may be broken but you're not unworthy or beyond redemption. I want to put my hand on your shoulder and listen. I want to be there for you. But I can't.

This paltry bunch of jumbled words from a broken man will have to do. You're not alone.

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Yep.

Welp. After getting through the initial application (and subsequently freaking out) I seem to have failed the WBI. Just like that, my hopes are dashed.

I mean, all I did was try to answer honestly. I get told a lot how reliable I am at work and my boss at my last job told me I was pretty much the best guy she had on the retail team. And I'm looking around the net and apparently I failed because I wasn't confident or consistent with my answers...which is true, I suppose. I tend to second-guess myself a lot and I'm generally not a confident guy at my core, as much as I would appear otherwise to people. I was hoping that being in that new environment, meeting new people and having those chances to succeed would help me grow as a person.

The one thing I get excited about in forever and it turns out to be a train wreck. Someone please console me, criticize me, tell me what I did wrong, anything. I feel so utterly crushed right now.

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To sit back and listen to this with warm cocoa in hand, accompanied by the warm glow of the fireplace as I gaze past my window into a white land...What bliss that would be.

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WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

BOOKS.

BOOKS ARE INANIMATE OBJECTS SO THEY COUNT, RIGHT?

I REFUSE TO USE A KINDLE OR THE LIKE BECAUSE THOSE THINGS CAN'T COMPETE WITH HOW I FEEL WHEN I HOLD A FAVORITE BOOK IN MY HANDS.

...Why did I type that in all caps?

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Thank you :)

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Irony

Loneliness is the one of the worst feelings in the world.

It's also one of the most common.

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i tried to kill myself the other day...

apparently i have a strong liver because i was sure that that many pills would do the job… :(

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I'm not in a position to give advice on this, but I highly highly highly recommend that you go to Barnes and Noble and grab "This is How" by Augusten Burroughs. Sit down in a chair and read it; you don't even have to buy it. There's a chapter entitled "How to Kill Yourself."

Promise me you'll read it.

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Sooo,

my date cancelled on me.

like she hasnt texted me all day

she hates me

she thinks im annoying.

just like everyone else.

i hate being a fuckup

time for another Saturday night spent home alone.

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You are not annoying.

You are not a fuckup.

You do not suck.

You are a human being, and you deserve just as much as anyone to be happy. The fact that your date cancelled on your is her problem and not yours. Don't drag yourself down. Best wishes

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Unsaid.

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I'm much too lazy to make this look fancy. I do apologize.

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“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

Maya Angelou