[TW for MH and ED]

|ACTIVE OCT 22| |MINORS DNI| |They/them 22!| |A space for me to vent and stuff like that.| |SW: 89kgs CW: 74.7kgs GW3: 65kgs UGW: 43kgs| [Not pro]

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Might possibly be coming back here if twt keeps up its stupid shit :/

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I'm back after being on 3dtwt for like 3 months :)

I purposely went on to there bc people there are toxic af and wanted to trigger myself but I've missed tumblr 🥺🥺

I've also gained like more than I care to admit but hopefully being back here will help that!!

Also ripppp that all the tags I've used in the past got fucking nerfed!

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i lost 7 lbs in three days.

🌻 reblog for luck in weight lost!! 🌻

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I have covid :))

I can say without a doubt I never want to catch it again, I've dealt with the worst of it by now and I'm just waiting for a few of the smaller symptoms to go away and to come out of isolation :)

Lost 1kg in 4 days bc of it tho, so that's a positive at least :)

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I'm still here, just less active and lurking more bc I'm in edtwt more to purposely trigger myself and feel like shit so I motivate myself more :)

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I've been dead because I've been on edtwt more lately, gotta love triggering yourself and feeling even shittier for gaining over the past few days :)))

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I was away for the weekend and couldn't count calories exactly but I still managed to lose 0.4kgs, I feel very pleased with myself :)

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I ate out at a restaurant with my mom and now I feel like shit :))) The guilt is killing me, just ED things :))))

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I'm really excited to get back to university, not just because I miss it, but it means I get to burn more calories by walking around campus and keep occupied so I don't eat :)

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I had a very vivid dream and being admitted to an ED unit but I felt horrible because I was so much bigger than everyone there in my dream... Fuck I'm in deep now.

The sick thing is its motivated me even more to keep going.

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I was dreading weighing myself today and I was right to, I gained yet again :(

I'm never going to escape this same 1kg :(((

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I'm drinking today with friends and I'm so anxious at the thought of all the calories in the alcohol and that it'll make me put on weight :(

I've literally been gaining and losing the same 1kg for like 3 months now, but I want to get drunk so I'm so conflicted :(((

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I'm by myself today so I'm only going to cereal and drink monster :)

I'm in deep now because I faked having a dinner so my family won't suspect anything but I honestly don't care, I want to be as skinny as possible :)

[decidedlyunhappy]

PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you

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I have a new reason to keep things up and I honestly don't care anymore, I'm going to starve myself until I reach the lowest weight I can reach :))))

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Me: *freezing*

Me: C-cold burns calories uwu

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I had an event yesterday so I allowed myself to eat normally and try not worry over restricting too much, which was a little hard to deal with since I hate knowing I've eaten over my limit but I've been fasting since the start of the event yesterday, after I had dinner, and this is the longest I've lasted in a long while :)

I'm gonna try go for 24hrs, I'm away from food so it shouldn't be too hard to do :)