Sad, Gay and Fading Away

21 Height: 5'8, 55kg . No minors

[tiny-rainy-deactivated20220606]

i want the romanticized version of an ed not whatever the fuck this shit is

[capriedainty13]

Control is addictive.

Saying NO is addictive. Having your brainpower over your hunger & body desires is addictive.

Let the world spiral & unravel. But MY body stays under MY control.

[fadingawaygay]

This is the first winter I've actually tried to fight off a relapse a bit. I can't get top surgery until my blood work is normal and I can't afford the heating being on high and I didn't want to deal with being cold all the time.

But the fact I'm starting to slip is a bit reassuring, like I know it's actually a disorder and not just a choice, because it's happening even when I don't want it to.

It is comforting though, slipping back into the dissociative fuzz where nothing quite matters and I don't have to think about making my body function

[100493503004422]

I could be better but I'm considering becoming worse

[aromanticduck]

If neurotypicals are so good at picking up hints, why do they never seem to notice you leaning away when they try to touch you?

[smellyprincetm]

its so embarassing to have anorexia, like oh im scared of food, but oh well watch me fucking binge

[bleedingheartbeat]

[romcommunist]

please never stop talking passionately about the things you love

[fadingawaygay]

Went to the doctor's, they measured me and apparently I'm shorter than I thought 🥲meaning im literally just below a healthy weight.

I don't know what I feel right now but it isn't anything good

[trainingseasons]

Friendly reminder that this blog is pro-choice and if you don’t think everyone should have full control of their own body, then kindly unfollow me right now and go to hell

[newathens]

yes im always a little sick to my stomach with anger and rage. why do u ask?

[fadingawaygay]

Now officially the lightest I've been since I was 12 (almost 10 years ago) I should be worried but honestly I feel better than I've felt in a long time

[fadingawaygay]

At least I won't get as hot this summer 🤷

[hangryandemo-deactivated2022070]

Ugw: skinny alt boyfriend

[fadingawaygay]

17 year old scared transboy me would be so proud to look like I do now. Time to make him prouder.

[skinnypleasekiss]

What caused your Ed?

I’ll go first, my grandma laughed at me in front of the doctor for being 180 pounds

(I see all your reblogs I’m mad I can’t reply to them but I’m so sorry that happened to you guys really!!!)

[strawberry-skinny-girl]

My mom who would tell me weekly that I need to lose weight or that when I wanted something from the store it would be “oh we should go in the plus area” “oh that would look unflattering on you” for years.

[amphetamine-for-breakfast]

being the "skinny girl/friend" my entire life until getting pregnant and gaining and keeping on 50 pounds and then gaining even more over the years resulting in having a horrible identity crisis 🙃

[tarantlo]

Feeling cheated out of my childhood. I was never skinny. I never have been. The thoughts and urges to starve myself have been there for so, so long. I feel like the only way to make up for the loss is to be unhealthily skinny. Or I need to be at least skinny enough to be pretty.

[tfyouthinkiam404]

being a tranny

[i-feast-on-agony-deactivated202]

mixture of my mother body shaming me and making me diet with her for not being as malnourished as i was as a little child under her care, gender dysphoria and finding out not eating can "stop puberty" and a hunger strike after traumatic experience gone wrong

[fadingawaygay]

Always being skinny due to undiagnosed arfid as a kid and freaking out when I became a teenager and gained even slightly.

Wanting control when everything felt out of my control in college

[sad-boi-shit]

im sorry im so difficult, i just wanna be taken care of too sometimes