— tales of loss & fire & faith.

— tales of loss & fire & faith.

[faeloriah]

[ 💧 ] 𝐟𝐚𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐚. (n.) 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑎𝑢𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑔𝑟𝑜𝑤𝑠 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝘩𝑜𝑢𝑔𝘩𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢.

independant & private depictions of multiple characters from Genshin Impact, Honkai: Star Rail, FFXIV + more. my writing for the muses here contain some canon divergencies, so please keep that in mind when interacting / plotting. activity can be considered low & selective when I feel the motivation / muse to write here due to hectic sporadic work life. crossover & au friendly with additional verses for some muses. please read my rules before following / interacting.

𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲 𝐢𝐧: having hope for the coming days when all seems lost, the loss of ones identity & self, becoming the weapon, death & rebirth, holding back ones desires for the greater good, understanding your own purpose, betrayal, the darkness in ones self.

⤷ 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡: @slumbernanas / @killdivine, @deadn30n, @lumoire + blog roll, @thosefavored, @amemoire, @poswiecenia, @gracelis + blog roll, @starstide & @avaere.

𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞: guidelines. roster. bonds. navi. prompts. wishlist. 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥: tba.

[faeloriah]

Lohen carrying that dark knight energy even more ….

[avaere]

leaked ; local halovian aids the nameless in a sausage crisis / @faeloriah

[etherealguard]

do you have a death wish or something? / heh from dan feng

TAB : TYPES OF YEARNING LABELED : ACCEPTING

━━━━━  "What, like you did?" He's careful with where he places his footing, despite the heavy destruction surrounding them, he didn't want to cause more damage to the structures. He has visited the Grove so many times that he could remember where everything once stood. Of all the things that this temporary home has gifted him.. He didn't expect that one of those things were a manifestation of the memories in his head. Of course it wasn't going to be that easy.

"Sorry. I'm sorry. Listen-" He forces himself to pause, his body whipping around so he can face the ghostly figure. "I'm worried. I'm worried and would prefer that if you were going to say anything then at least make it worth hearing. Leaving the train when I had the means to stay there safely may look like a suicide mission and maybe it is, but if I need to travel to the end of this planet to find my companions then so be it. Surely you understand what that feels like."

@faeloriah

[cloudhymn]

hear me out ... wrap + lover for caelus :X

@faeloriah.

high elders were often taught to control the motions of their tail from a very young age. by the time they begun their adolescence, a better sense of decorum often meant it moved to the will of its master, but dan heng had not grown up showcasing the full strength of his vidyadhara form. the way his tail moved because of it was erratic, childlike, and moving a the slightest discrepancy of his own emotions. it phased in and out of solid form, as did pesky horns that would make themselves known only by their glow in various reflections, or a rather unwelcome intrusion whenever dan heng wished to get dressed.

as it turned out, the most embarrassing of his new habits had been the way the tail curled and clung like something petulant whenever dan heng wasn’t looking. maybe he should have expected caelus to eventually take advantage of the situation.

feeling the telltale tug at his back dan heng looked back only to realise his tail had once again latched onto something, caelus’ leg the unwilling victim. his eyes narrowed at the both of them, both caelus and his own traitorous tail as he tried to ignore the blood rushing to his own face, the little spike of anxiety he felt as caelus’ hand moved to the feathery tuft at the end of it.   “   give it back.   ”   dan heng demanded, as if it wasn’t his own traitorous tail responsible for this situation. he felt the brush of caelus’ hands move through the feathery ends and shivered, face flushed as he yanked his tail back, flustered, walking back to his room where he would will the thing away or die trying.

[faeloriah]

𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄𝐒 , 𝐶𝑎𝑒𝑙𝑢𝑠.

main v. this follows the standard events of the honkai: star rail timeline including prior to the beginning of the game ( that means stellaron hunter cae would go here but I'll only use that with plotting ).

verse 2. an alternate path for Caelus on the basis of a 'what if' situation. this is following the notion of Caelus deciding to stay on the space station as a means to look more into his existence. i don't have him staying there permanately & deciding to go to the AE after sometime. you can find the full verse information here.

verse 3. caelus's career is mostly that of a streamer, focusing on many different types of content ( ie. gaming. cooking ) while holding a small part time job as a bartender at the same time.

verse 4. this would be the genshin au for Caelus, a man with no memory of what life he lived before awaking one day in ruins. he currently helps around the Café Lutece as a barista / server, working until the day he can leave to travel the world as an adventurer.

[faeloriah]

Dan Heng is not a heavy sleeper by any means usually, his sleep is more light where it can sometimes be difficult to stay asleep. One of the reasons why he prefers sleeping in the archives is for the white noise that the machines provide for him. He is a light sleeper however due to the many years he spent after his exile from the Luofu, not feeling safe or comfortable enough to allow himself to deep sleep. Sleeping in such a way would leave him vulnerable & at the mercy of others who came across him, much like how life was in the Shackling Prison, so even trying to close his eyes for a tiny bit was spent guarded.

Those years helped him become more observant about telling the difference in peoples footsteps, how close they were or what direction the sound was headed in. He's gained somewhat of a skill in sometimes being able to identify someone by their 'footsteps' or sounds since not everyone carries themselves the same way when they walk.

The Express was probably the first place that Dan Heng allowed himself to have a semi comfortable sleep, even if that itself took a bit of time. Now however there isn't much trouble in sleeping, outside of his occurring at times nightmares, but it allows Dan Heng that deeper sleep which was never achieved for so long.

[faeloriah]

dan heng & feng tags.

[battery-enthusiast]

im the fakest idgafer youll ever meet. im so chalant. i care more than i can put into words

[s1lkydreams]

༊*·˚  ﹕  𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖒𝖕𝖙𝖘  、  a collection of angsty &. love related quotes &. lyrics from pinterest . ( note, none of these quotes are mine . pronouns can be changed to better fit situations / your needs . )

❛ a lover ? maybe . something tender , anyway. but tender like a bruise . ❜

❛ my eyes aches with the weight of unshed tears . you are my home , do you not understand ? ❜

❛ your eyes reflect me in a terrible way . ❜

❛ do i seem anxious to you ? do i seem backed into a corner ? ❜

❛ what else can my hands do with the blood ? pray ? ❜

❛ you believe me like a god . i'll betray you like a man . ❜

❛ yes , i did care . very much . i had never been in love before . ❜

❛ i don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you . ❜

❛ we've found each other , out of everyone in the world . does that hurt , too ? ❜

❛ if i could have done it all again , i would have loved you better . but i could not have loved you more . ❜

❛ in the crooks of your body , i find my religion . ❜

❛ my heart is a fist . it pockets prayer or holds rage . ❜

❛ he wasn't mine and i wasn't his but he was so good at making me feel like we belonged to each other . ❜

❛ show me all the parts of you that you don't love so i know where to begin . ❜

❛ what lived and died between us - haunts me still . ❜

❛ i'm not a violent dog . i don't know why i bite . ❜

❛ i am both the sacrificial lamb and the executioner . ❜

❛ and in the middle of the chaos there was you . ❜

❛ we're parallel . sinking ships . ❜

❛ i was not a heavenly child , a savage with a temperament wild . even here as  we are standing now , i see the fear in your eyes . ❜

[etherealguard]

" i'll do everything i can to help you . " // hey so what if jing yuan when dan heng was still in the shackling prison : )

TAB : DISCO ELYSIUM LABELED : ACCEPTING

His small frame quivers with every heartbeat. His body having only known the cold that traps itself within these walls, all at once being too much for him to handle at times. His wrists had fallen to his lap, the shackles too heavy for him to bother lifting his hands up unless forced to. He doesn't stir when he hears a voice, his heart having long since abandoned the idea that anyone who speaks to him will deliver good news.

But he notes that the voice was unfamiliar. Not one that belongs to the Preceptors, or the older Vidyadhara that comes to talk about history or swing a hand on him to make sure he remained sitting on the ground. The General? Now he turns his head slightly, enough to almost flinch back when he catches the glow from the powerful general's eyes.

Everything? The promise was met with nothing. Nothing to indicate that he believed him, nothing to show that he even heard him at all. Everything. Scales were missing from his tail. He was still tired from a recent memory that flashed before his eyes. A book that has become worn from the amount of times he has reread its pages laid in front of him.

What reason did he have to believe him, if the 'everything' that he spoke of included allowing this creature to stay hidden underneath the bustling ship for years? Did the 'everything' allow for others to bring fresh scars onto his back, or to view him like a disgusting beast that could snap at any moment? If he really wanted to, he would have done something earlier. Is what his head told him. The only person he could trust anymore was himself, and even on certain days that was a stretch.

"Fuck.. you.." His voice is harsh and cold, just like the 'home' he was raised in. His head turns to stare at the wall once again, his battered tail curling around himself. For a brief moment, a shadow casts over him. Someone taller, with his face, who was equally as silent and hidden from the world as he was.

@faeloriah

[faeloriah]

some additional tidbits for Lohen because he has my braincell at the moment.

he has an interest in plants especially carnivorous ones or those that look beautiful but are deadly. lohen would like to visit Sumeru for an extended time just to study some of the wild life.

lohen’s given himself small doses of poison over the span of his life. this is both to build up some sort of immunity to them while having curiosity on the pushing of his own limits.

he tends to be bad about noticing any sort of wounds when it comes to post battle aftercare. it's not that Lohen can't feel the pain but relishes in feeling such things, pushing himself in the heat of battle. he enjoys the thrill of it, the adrenaline, which tends to mask those hidden & quicker placed wounds.

amazing memory. he tends to remember really small details whether it be passing things that people may mention about themselves, something they tell him from who knows how long ago or anything that he enjoyed immensely one time. lohen just doesn't forget things.

[faeloriah]

not mentioning any 6.6 leaks here at all but mostly just wanting to make a note of how I see Lohen at least for my portrayal. only because I've seen some fanon stuff that I'd rather turn away right now for me.

the first being that I don't see Lohen as someone whose a sadist or sadistic, I'd say that he has some tendencies but it really depends because Lohen first & foremost is still a knight. lohen is pretty open about his quirks or tendencies so it's not some secret from people on how he is. someone can enjoy combat, the thrill of battle & the feeling of adrenaline while not being some absolute psycho. my vision at least is that he enjoys being able to go neck & neck with those at the same level as him, that allows him to push himself further & further. if he can make them bleed by landing certain shots, bring that side out of them which he feels in himself, to connect with other people in this same way. if you're not that kind of way, not a person who enjoys combat, then Lohen is more likely to just not care honestly. he's not going to pursue things that bare no fruit or don't hold his interest & focus. if he's bored then that's when lohen kind of just fucks off, shrugs or generally doesn't care.

the second being, yandere. i have my own thoughts about lohen when it comes to interpersonal relationships with other people regardless of the type. my thinking for lohen is that he is loyal, nothing can change that, & fiercely so. he'd be the same with people that he cares about but not to the point of being posessive about, protective yes. that depends though on the type of dynamic & person because everyone has different styles of things when it comes to their dynamics with other people. he has respect for people, cares for people ( like mika for example ) & maybe that's odd but if it leads to a good dynamic where he can do what he loves while helping someone out. that's pretty good in Lohen's book, a beneficial relationship, & he'd be pretty respectful to those kinds of people. the man just has an ... odd way about showing his care but it wouldn't go so far as being violent or obsessive towards them since as I said. the one thing I will say which he can be borderline obsessive with is the thought of sparring or fighting with certain others, at least in the sense of asking when he gets the chance. no he won't purposefully stalk someone to constantly ask them because that won't change the answer but there are more patient ways to do so.

he's not someone who gets feelings for people easily, doesn't often let people in & it can take some time to penetrate to the deeper parts of him. lohen is very aware of how he is, the effect that it can have on people whether good or bad but honestly doesn't care. there was a time probably when he did care about that but at this point in life he doesn't so much. i'll write more on this in another post eventually though.

[streetratted-archive-blog]

                    psa — if we’re mutuals, this gives you unsaid permission to attack my inbox whenever you want, as much as you want, with whatever you want.  want to spam me with memes?  break your ask limit.  want to send me random messages?  break your ask limit.  want to leave me love?  break your ask limit.  anything.  everything.  it doesn’t matter what time of day or night, even if i’m not around, you are always welcome.  you always have permission.  i mean it.

[hyprmemes]

canon inspired starters - arcane (2021) inspired by aesthetic, scenarios, key elements, tone, atmosphere, relationships, themes, etc. edit as you see fit!

people like you don’t belong in a place like this

we don’t want you here

turning your back on things makes you an accomplice

how am i to decide anything if twenty different people tell me to pursue their version of ‘the right thing’?

we fought for our own right to live, on our own terms

i don’t care about what my actions look like to others

maybe you should start doubting the allegiances of certain people

everyone has their baggage to carry, will you let yours burn the world down?

i would have used anyone, anyone but you

you’re the only family i’ve ever been allowed to have

i’m so fucking sorry for leaving you behind

do you even want me if i can’t change back to what you knew me to be like?

i don’t care what people say, sometimes violence is the only answer

i try to make decisions that don’t force me to spill blood

it’s been long enough that i think you should start changing your view on things

what would you do, if you finally had a minuscule chance to actually live?

the way you live life is not how others do, they can’t understand you

i’ve burned a great many bridges to build this world, i won’t let it crumble

betrayal is all i know, please, please be the exception

out of all people, i’d never thought it would have been someone like you

thank you for making me see things more clearly and sorry for the pain that must have caused you

i’m sorry that people keep turning their back on your pain

please don’t do this, please give me a chance to fight for us

don’t drag them into this, they got involved on accident, they don’t know what they got themself into

your fight is against me

your fight is between the me i am now and the me you miss

you’re perfect the way you are, perfect in every single one of your imperfections

i don’t care how scared the world is of you

i can’t tell if you’re maddeningly idealistic or idealistically mad

you’re destroying yourself, is that what progress looks like to you?

can i even rely on you at this point?

i wear your uniform but i am still one of them, i was still born on the other side

it’s where i grew up, where i learned how to breathe, where i learned what scientific vileness is

there are things i regret that i’d still do all over again

i know it’s not morally good, but the best strategies are rarely ethical

you need to know how to spill blood to make sound decisions in this world

i don’t care about all the limitations you’ve set for yourself

this fight isn’t about who’s right or wrong, it’s about us, and the pain

we’ve built this place as a sanctorum, as something we would have never been granted

we honour the fallen, the fighters, the revolutionaries, the victims

let me try, at least, let me try to explain what i’ve seen

there are years of desperation imprinted into the broken skin of my knuckles

i’m tired of letting the oppressors police the language of my fight

i can do good things, i can make things right, i can win, i can show i’m worth something, please believe in me

you ruin everything you touch, get too ahead of yourself, tear it apart

why didn’t you just listen? why get this far?

there are skeletons in my closet you knew by name

at the end of the day, it’s usually about money

money can do great things, if used by the right hands, by capable hands

it’s not just business sometimes, sometimes it’s the move that will turn the game around

what are we tempted by, here, by the synergy of our minds or the dissonance of our hearts?

you’ve been at my side all this time, it’s time i show i am on your side too

how can you ask that of us, we don’t have that much time

some people just don’t understand what it means to bleed until they walk into the aftermath of a massacre

if i could look into your eyes from this angle just one more time

you listened, that’s what stayed with me, listened with wide eyes and an open heart

you’re perhaps the first one i met who actually cared enough to recognise how little you knew

[leneemusing]

misc prompts for your feels

“ unique just means alone. ” “ i’m not afraid to die, just wish i could live a little first. ” “ i know i’m a monster, but you look at me like i’m a man. ” “ there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to keep you safe. ” “ we all have sins to pay penance for. ” “ don’t look at me like i’m a hero. you’ll only disappoint yourself. ” “ sometimes when you look at me it’s like…it’s like you’re staring straight past my flesh and into my soul. ” “ you make me want to live. ” “ i know i don’t deserve forgiveness, but i like the idea that some people think i might. ” “ i trust you with my life. ” “ you’re more like family to me than my own blood. ” “ i’ve never had any sort of family before. ” “ your life is far more precious than mine. ” “ i don’t care what happens to me. as long as you’re safe. ” “ i need you to live…cause if you’re gone then, i don’t know what the point of it all is anymore. ” “ i know i’m not the person you want, but i’m here. ” “ i love you, and i know you may never feel the same. but i’m okay with that. ” “ i couldn’t say no to you even if i wanted to. ” “ you’re worth more than this. ” “ why do you walk around as if you’re somehow less valuable than the rest of the world? ” “ please, let me help you. ” “ just let me do this for you. ” “ you do have something to live for. you have me. ” “ you’ll always have me. ” “ i see you. i know you feel so invisible all the time, but you’re not. not to me. ” “ it’s okay to be angry, you’re allowed to be upset about what happened to you. ” “ don’t you realize you deserve more than this? ” “ you’re not a machine or— or some thing. you’re a person, and i’m sorry anyone ever made you feel otherwise. ” “ please, just hold on a little longer. i can’t lose you too. ” “ this scar..what happened? ” “ if you won’t do it for yourself, then do it for me. ” “ you’re bleeding— how long have you been hiding this?! ” “ sometimes i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. there’d be no one to miss me and that terrifies me more than death itself. ”  “ i’m not sure i know who i’m supposed to be anymore. ” “ my mind is so loud and i’m afraid it’ll never be quiet again. ” “ when i’m in a crowd i just want to melt away and yet, when i’m alone it’s somehow worse. ” “ loneliness is a poison and i’ve been drinking it for so long, i don’t there there’s an anecdote to save my soul. ” “ i don’t care if the world knows my name, i just want you to remember me. ” “ you deserve more than i could ever give you. ” “ i love you. i know that’s not enough, but i do. ” “ you’re safe with me, you always will be. ” “ you make me feel safe. like i’m allowed to be anything i want. ” “ i’d do anything to be the person you love again. ” “ i’ve got you, you’re safe. ” “ just rest, i’m here. ” “ you can stay with me tonight. ”

[sobblesources]

THE WHOLE WORLD IS AT YOUR DOOR ,

a collection of sentence starters taken from the airborne toxic event's album , dope machines . edited to fit rp needs , adjust pronouns as necessary .

❛ all my young life , i've been trying to say just one thing right , ❜

❛ i don't know what to say , ❜

❛ i believe i was wrong , probably most of my life , ❜

❛ am i trying too hard ? ❜

❛ am i doing this right ? ❜

❛ i'm never easy to please , ❜

❛ we've still got tonight , ❜

❛ hey , i had fun , ❜

❛ did you ever make it home ? ❜

❛ feels like my head is made of moonshine & cheap - ass wine , ❜

❛ it was just a one time thing , ❜

❛ do you wanna tell me what to do ? ❜

❛ my mind's fallin' to pieces every time i try to jump up on this trampoline , ❜

❛ why don't you tell me what you mean ? ❜

❛ somebody told me i should stay away , but i can't help it , ❜

❛ i don't blame you for a single thing , ❜

❛ you keep me up some nights trying to figure what you mean , ❜

❛ i was only joking , ❜

❛ are you just playing dumb , or trying to get a reaction ? ❜

❛ i'm not trying at all , ❜

❛ i got two or three secrets i don't think you could handle , ❜

❛ someday they're going to write about us , ❜

❛ i remember her face , but i forget the rest , ❜

❛ i got money , but i got no friends , ❜

❛ these pills wear off , but the pain don't end , ❜

❛ i never thought it would matter so much to pretend , ❜

❛ there's only two ways out of this place , ❜

❛ darling , i always liked the desperation in your eyes , ❜

❛ we'll wonder if we were ever good enough , ❜

❛ you can't even sleep with all these secrets you keep , ❜

❛ how does that go ? ❜

❛ what the hell are you waiting for ? ❜

❛ just stop saying that you're over it , you know that's a lie , ❜

❛ she gave you all that she had to give , ❜

❛ i held on as long as i could possibly , ❜

❛ you took me to hell & back , ❜

❛ my mind's like a one way track , & every one is taking me back to you , ❜

❛ you'll lie like you always do , ❜

❛ i must've walked a thousand miles or more , tryin' to keep you off my mind , ❜

❛ i knew her well , ❜

❛ i need it just one more time & i swear that i'll be through , ❜

❛ the phrase that fell from her lips left a rip from the top of your shoulders to the point of your hip , ❜

❛ if god exists , he's really unkind , ❜

❛ how i miss your face , ❜

❛ i could whisper , i could bite , i could write , ❜

❛ sometimes, i see my life slip by like a taste of death , ❜

❛ the thing about time , it's all in your mind , ❜

❛ you were more than impossible , ❜

❛ let's stay the night , we'll leave with the sunrise , ❜

❛ the thing about me , is i wanted to be more than just friends , ❜

❛ i wanna know why you turn in your sleep , ❜

❛ i wanna know the secrets you keep , the things that you bury so deeply , discreetly inside , ❜

❛ the thing about love is that it's never enough , ❜

❛ you're not what you seem , ❜

❛ she will never know the feeling that you hide as she lays by your side , ❜

❛ you're dancing in sync with the ghosts in your head , ❜

❛ you'll never be whole , ❜

❛ please don't ever leave , ❜

❛ i wonder where you are , ❜

❛ i try to find anything to kill the time , to quiet my mind , ❜

❛ i'm tired of putting up this fight , ❜

❛ i wish you could know how much i still need you , ❜