Faeriedae!~

|🔞| 26 | She/Her | Queer | The first ever trans woman to like fairies.

[faeriedaez]

Once upon a time, I was never going to leave a note. But, things changed and I changed – I don't want to leave anyone in the dark. I don’t want anyone wondering where I've gone. So this is it. By time this post goes live I will already be dead. So if you’re reading this message, no matter who you are,* no matter how you found it: 

I forgive you, and I am sorry. 

I have spent my entire life so certain I had to hide. Knowing there was something wrong with me, that I held an infinite well of cruelty irreconcilable with the sweet and helpful girl I wanted to be. All I ever wanted was to be good. But I am tired. I am tired of trying so hard, and failing regardless. I’m tired of being so bad at it that no one could even tell I was trying. Of tearing and clutching and desperately trying to fit. Of inescapable cycles of dysfunction and rejection. I have found myself consistently and constantly overwhelmed and hurt by the mundanities of life. I was not made for this world and I cannot thrive here. I am so tired of being afraid. All the time. 

To the friends I have made in the last couple of years, I am so sorry. I know this might be shocking. I know we made all these plans, we had all these hopes, and now they’re never going to pan out. I want you to know, I wasn’t trying to lie, I wanted so badly for them to be true. But I am afraid by the time you met me I was already in the terminus of a downward spiral I could not be shaken from.

But this was always going to happen. A part of me has known it since I was 13 years old. I was only ever bargaining. It was selfishness that I clinged so desperately to you, and have left you now with hurt for having known me. But I don’t really regret it. I’m glad I knew you as long as I did. Maybe that’s selfish, but it’s true. I am not entirely convinced we won’t see each other again. Maybe what’s on the other side will be beautiful. Maybe what I’ve seen is true, and in death we’ll find a perfect understanding of ourselves and each other. 

I want you to know I have made this choice in as sound a mind as I have ever been lucky enough to possess. I want you to know that this is my escape, and that I am happy. That when I purchased the weapon a relief flooded over me, like a dozen years of weight suddenly lifted. 

I love you. Goodbye.

[smoqueen-deactivated20251108]

i been waitin for this moment since i got out the pen

[tekkenjournalist]

Prototype Jack has been seen gliding and soaring

[frogtonguesweetie]

a litter of noobs peacefully suckling the teat of the pro

[tastylemonbread]

[sailatina2-deactivated20251222]

[moniquill]

via Guardians of Nature 

[jame7t]

Oh I’m so sleepy… won’t you use !tuck to tuck me into bed?

[cryptotheism]

!cursedoak

[jame7t]

did anyone else have terrible dreams about a gnarled, twisted forest with one tree more terrible and hateful than all the rest

[bloodclotbitch]

[dragongirlbunny]

you don't like mourning dove? hwoo hoo hoo hoo?

[juney-blues]

child abuse is done by a monstrous group of outsiders. They are all moustache-twirlingly evil and love nothing more than causing suffering to the Innocent for its own sake. No one you know could be capable of such a monstrous act, so you don't have to worry about it.

You don't have to think about how society is structured in ways that give people power and authority over children in ways that can be abused, that's not the problem here. The problem is the Evil Monsters, who regardless of what you do will try their damnedest to Abuse Children. The only preventative measure worth taking is killing these people as violently as possible, and if you don't performatively make a show over how much you hate this totally real group of outsiders, you must be one of them, and you're almost certainly going to abuse children yourself.

This is a totally useful framing for this topic, if you disagree with any of this you're a monster and should be killed.

[juney-blues]

hey weird how minorities always happen to be the ones accused of being ontologically evil rapist sex pests. i'm sure it's nothing.

[bebs-art-gallery]

“BACK WHEN TIME DIDN’T MATTER” — AN OIL PAINTING BY RIONA

[nevvaraven]

i love it when a mutual in law hates me but their mutual fucking loves me eat your heart out honey i’m fucking your wife tonight

[twerklina]

[ottermatopoeia]

makin my way downtown

[monkeysaysficus]

slowly

[werewolf4vampire]

[ros-sauce]

I love that the insane shit people say about bluesky is like. True

[ros-sauce]

You'd think people are being hyperbolic when they're like "you could say it was a little cloudy out this morning and someone you've never seen before would quote you with a caps-heavy reply about how trump's mind is clouded and he must be impeached" but no there are thousands of users who are actually like that

[bombsniffingpomeranian]

[catgirlstalin]

average tumblr user thinks misogyny is quirky if you do it in like. a queer way

[catgirlstalin]

daughters being considered lower value than sons is so #funny when it is #trans inclusive. god you people are dumb

[hollowboobtheory]

i promise you have no idea how this is going to end

[rosieitth]

[rosieitth]