tainted and ruined

trauma, ed, bpd, ptsd, anxiety they/them you can be my friend just don’t mind i’m crazy crazy

[iwannabesmaaaaaallllllll]

Me, trying to look normal while making and eating food in front of my family, all the while trying to count calories with my one braincell that barely works 🤡🤡

[starvationxa]

someone: did you eat

me: yes

someone: what did you eat

me: yes

[xxskinandbonesxxx-deactivated20]

The funny part is, you can’t tell if it’s a fasting meme, or a binging meme. Xx

[plummeting-boi]

oh god you’re right

[b0rderline-disaster]

why not both 🥰

[2cals]

weight loss spell !!

like to charge, reblog to cast

[pretty-bonez]

Oml the day after I did this, my stomach is much much flatter and my arms/legs are thinner there’s no way I didn’t lose weight reblogging again

[g0ne2w0nderland2]

it’s my favorite little spinny star!!

[c4tp1zz]

aaaaaaa

[9rungef4iry]

please :((

[justwannabeskinnyy]

do you ever sit back and think ‘holy crap most of my life revolves around not eating. legit most of my day is spent browsing thinspo, telling myself not to eat, hating myself, exercising and drinking water. i should stop!!’ and then continue with your food-obsessed day because same

[closeted-cutie-deactivated20210]

Does anyone know how to avoid the horrible headaches caused by fasting/high restricting my head hurts so bad and I have to run in a cross country race today

[ugliestvirgingirl]

it takes time but consistency is your best friend. you'll notice that things are easier soon. you'll realize that you'd rather have gone through the pain for progress than to have stayed stagnant in a place you don't want to be, don't need to be.

[weareatgreg]

reblog if you’re a lesbian who supports bi girls, a bi girl who supports lesbians, or if you want all wlw to have a nice day

[cribblingdebression]

my least favorite part of having an eating disorder is the constant arguing and bargaining in your head. racing thoughts all the fuckin time like, “okay I’ve had 75 calories today. I can have a banana and still be under 200. wait, 1200 is still considered restriction. how much would I lose this week with a daily deficit of 500 calories? I can do that. I’ll still lose weight. but not as much as if I fasted. no. just have nothing. you could lose 3.5 lbs. this week! just have nothing. people do it every day. just have a fucking banana. you won’t even be at maintenance. but what if it triggers a binge? think about your jawline. why don’t I just have everything I want and purge? what percentage can you get back up when you purge? hey google…” AND IT NEVER STOPS.

[skinnygrungedreams]

pretty sure i’ve reblogged this already before but it’s just so accurate

[suicidal-kiwi]

this is literally so fucking accurate. my brain will always tell me shit like “just have a fruit and dont log it” but bitch i know what i did!

[mwagneto]

2019 please be kind to me

[mwagneto]

2020 please don’t get any worse

[mwagneto]

2021 im fucking begging please i

[00pustyleb]

[syphlikefairy]

And the worst thing is…I still fucking love food. I still fucking love eating. Why can’t I just be skinny and able to eat what I want?!

[cyborgsmanifesto]

dealing with the worst case scenario

your condom breaks

you feel a lump on your breast

your friends are ignoring you

you’re stranded on an island 

you got rejected by a crush

you get into a car accident

you got stung by a bee/wasp

you got fired from your job

you’re in an earthquake

your tattoo gets infected

your house is on fire

you’re lost in the woods

you get arrested abroad

you get robbed

your partner cheated on you

you’re on a ship that’s sinking

you fall into ice

you’re stuck in an elevator

you hit a deer with your car

you have food poisoning

your pet passed away

you fall off of a horse

you or your friend has alcohol poisoning

you have toxic shock syndrome

your house has a gas leak

[4velitta4]

I feel like this could be useful in my future

[astrologypixies-deactivated2016]

REBLOG THIS. I CANNOT STRESS HOW IMPORTANT THIS GUIDES ARE, BOOST THIS SHIT

[getupoffyourcassbutt]

If I don’t reblog this one of these things is definitely going to happen to me

[theszandor-deactivated20190509]

I’m gonna reblog for y’all but also for me bc I’m a writer man I need this random info

[etherall-deactivated20200122]

I love you guys and I wanna make sure you know what to do in any situation ever, no matter how odd.

[flowerthighhs]

be safe💗

[the-universe-is-an-illusion]

I’m passively suicidal

I think about suicide on a daily basis

And I have a feeling in my body that just screams “I want do die”

But I just never do it

I’m passively suicidal

[byebye-pounds]

note to self: DRINK MORE WATER BITCH. DO IT. 

[palenpeachy]

if you have trouble drinking water get the app plant nanny!! if you turn on notifications they tell you to drink water every two hours. you also get to grow little plants as you drink more!

[problematicparrot]

Finally, a sane celebrity who doesn’t bend the knee to feminist bullshit.

Source

[ren-of-rationality]

My god I love her.

[mango-thot-deactivated20190520]

I know people are gonna get salty af about this but by God she’s RIGHT.

When Brad Pitt did Fight Club, he was cutting weight for every single scene to maintain his physique at 155. I’ve you’ve ever cut weight, you know how horrible that must have been. He did it because they needed a “look”.

Changing Tatum said his Magic Mike body doesn’t last for more than five days. He starved down and dehydrated his already fit physique for a “look”.

The male soldiers on Spartacus: Blood and Sand were eating pretty much chicken and veggies for every meal to maintain a “look”.

Why is this such a big deal? Because all these characters are considered physical goals for men. These are actual unobtainable physical standards for men. Male body image issues get swept under the rug so often that some people don’t even think they exist.

[da-boy-o-kultur]

You want proof? Just check out that scene in Captain America: First Avenger where Cap just transformed into that beautiful beefcake of a man. Agent Carter’s actress just HAD to touch them muscles, it was completely unscripted.

[eric-coldfire]

Chris Evans had to wear shirts so small they physically hurt, and he dislocated a shoulder during the helicopter scene in Civil War. But who cares, girls got to wet their panties watching Captain America flex.

[guyveranimefan87-blog]

If we are talking about unrealistic physical standards of male fitness given to us by movies, I would like to mention Hugh “Wolverine” Jackman here.

Yeah, he is ripped, isn’t he?

Well, it is true, but to get that kind of definition, he went through 36 hour period of dehydration, which caused him to temporarily lose 10 pounds of “water weight”. 

Thus during the fight scene he was filming, he was a hair breadth from blacking out whole time, just to look unrealistically muscular.

As he said during interview with Steven Colbert, “If You go three days without water, You will die. Then, when You are halfway there they shout ‘Roll it!”

It’s the same with professional bodybuilders who get into periods of extreme fasting and dehydration to lower their fat-to-muscle ratio to inhuman levels, all in hopes of making their muscle definition a bit better.

According to experts, healthy body fat percentage for a healthy male ranges from 8% to 20%, depending on height, lifestyle and numerous other variables. 

Fitness model and professional bodybuilder Helmut Strebl also known as “World’s Most Shredded Man” as he supposedly managed to get his body fat percentage below 5%…

… But only when he partakes in competitions, since it is not humanly possible to live with such low fat percentage of one’s body for longer periods of time.

I mean, yeah, he keeps a draconian training regime, as well as a very strict diet even off-season, but looks much more human then…

There are documented cases of incredibly fit and muscular bodybuilders fainting on the stage in the middle of their flexing routines, as well as several who outright died, because of cardiac arrest caused by their blood becoming too thick, due to long dehydration…

And let’s not forget about Muscle Dysmorphia, colloquially known as “Megarexia” or “Bigarexia”.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Muscle_dysmorphia

Yeah, it’s a thing, but it’s barely talked about, since it’s apparently not manly to admit to having problems like that, which also creates problems with researching this particular disorder…

So… Thanks Hollywood?

[fierceawakening]

I had no idea that most people who looked like this are dehydrated until I read posts like this.

[brunhiddensmusings]

dehydrated to the point theyre about a day away from actual organ failure okay so chris hemsworth is a absolute god of a man, but hollywood says ‘thats not good enough’ and for the thor movie he has to spend several days having the juice squeezed from his body untill he looses about a gallon of whats supposed to be him so that he can do 2 days of shooting scenes without his shirt, after which he has to have recovery time before he is hospitalized because i am not joking about ‘one day away from organ failure’ thats the benchmark- look at chris hemsworth and process that he is told he isnt suitable for a shirtless scene without prepping for three days and nearly fainting

[shipperwolf1]

real feminism acknowledges the unhealthy standards that men are held to. radfems brush them off as non-existent

guys, feminism is for you, too. it’s for all of us.

[archivistofnerddom]

Unrealistic body images helps no one and actively hurts men too!!

[iamcon-fu-sion]

since the discussion of that they put henry cavill through for the witcher is floating around my blog, i want to add this too,.

one of the reasons producers get away with this in men and no one criticizes it is because we are fed the lie that this body type is 1) attainable and 2) healthy.

We know starving women down to skinniness is unhealthy, but you see an overmuscled man and you don’t immediately think dehydration. 

[pr1deandprejud1ce]

i love this whole thread but uh

this IS feminism. being able to speak out about that? that’s the most feminist thing she could have done. don’t call it bullshit, because this is IMPORTANT. these men are being starved and dehydrated and basically just hurt over and over again so that people can drool over their muscles and no one (by which i mean the audience) realizes something is wrong. so don’t say that this isn’t feminism, because it is. it really, really is.

[starkcontrasts]

^^^

[tesria]

I think it’s important to acknowledge that these unhealthy body standards exist for everyone. It’s also important to acknowledge they have different processes behind them.

Women have to lose weight and be unhealthy to appeal to men, to look sexy according to the male gaze. Even playing strong fighters, women have to look small and thin. Men have to “buff up” to fulfil a power fantasy that’s also about pleasing men. Most women would find the body builder pictured above far more attractive in his healthier state than dehydrated, and the same is true of Hugh Jackman and Chris Hemsworth. Anyone remember that post with the Hugh Jackman covers from (iirc) Men’s Fitness and Good Housekeeping? The difference in how men want to see men look vs how women want to see them.

The above pictures appeal to men and what men think women want, more than actual women. This does not mean unrealistic standards for men are ok! They aren’t. Eating disorders in men are on the rise. I just think it’s important to understand that there are different sets of processes going on and that all of it is down to patriarchy, not some kind of equal opportunity sexism.

[lackofa]

My knee jerk reaction was to scroll on when I saw that ‘bend to feminist bullshit’ comment but I glad I read through anyway. Good discussion, all valid points, wish I could delete that one comment but at least it got called out and explained. ‘Feminism’ is for everyone.

[faintingfairylight]

someone tel me how fucking fat and gross i am so i stop eating i can’t fuckinf stop i’m so gross

[faintingfairylight]

not my boyfriend telling me “it’s not a big deal” after screaming at me for having a panic attack about my body image :))))))))))

i want to fucking dxe. fuck this.