I think the thing that is most perplexing to me is this insistence that having interactions with deities is somehow a statement of superiority.
Iâm not allowed to just⊠yâknow, talk to the Gods and deities I have dedicated a large portion of my life to. By even insinuating that they would talk to me, would have anything positive to say to me (Lord forbid itâs approval, oh no) I MUST be implying that I am better than everyone and more deserving of divine attention or something.
Hermes told me âgood jobâ one time so that means Iâm basically saying that I am immune to all criticism and wrongdoing for all eternity- Because Hermes said that one thing to me.
Every single time Iâm like âhey, this spirit that I work with daily said this thing to me today,- Lord Lucifer told me heâa proud of me and that made me really happy.â
Someone is like âYouâre a narcissist. You have delusions of grandeur for thinking that the deity you have been working with for years would express some sort of pride or approval with you. The Gods would never let someone know that theyâre doing a good job and they certainly wouldnât ask you to continue. Youâre trying to speak for the Gods so we think youâre better than usâ
No one even slightly implied that I am better than anyone. Hermes didnât say âyou know what Shi, youâre perfect.â He just said. âThis thing youâre doing means a lot to me. Thanks. Keep going.â
What do you think? Weâre doing here????? Like what do you think demonolatry and occultism and witchcraft are?
Of course???? My Patron advises me? And guides and encourages me??? Why wouldnât he??? What work and growth would I be doing if they never gave me feedback?
Youâre supposed to be like, learning things and experiencing new ideas. Right?
Do you guys think demonolatry and paganism is like⊠an aesthetic, that has no real practical pursuits? I do ritual prayers for Lord Lucifer every single night guys. ????????? Of course ??? Heâs going to come to me in my dreams, I asked him to.
??? Why???? Would I do this otherwise???
When people get into demonolatry especially, and they hear things like, âyouâre entering an initiation, this is a living and developing relationship and pursuit, it will be intense, you will be forced to change. You will have to do intense shadow work.â
Do they think itâs like??? Metaphorical? Symbolic???
When Iâm like âwow Lucifer just took me through a super intense experience that really shook me to my core and made me re evaluate and approach my philosophies and actions. I really have a lot of new insight into something I previously didnât understand.â
And people are like âno. Thats too much. That sounds like a lot. Thatâs intense. No. Too much for paganism, too extreme. You cried? Thatâs toxic. He said he loves you? You grew? Okay now youâre a narcissist.â
When Iâm like âyeah I did a really intense ritual with Lucifer and I used psychedelics as an aid, we engaged in blood magic and sex magic and shadow work and it was really transformative.â
And people are like âno. Drugs? Drugs in??? Witchcraft? Oh No. Thats too much. Thats too icky. Blood? Youâre saying you were communicating all day? You experienced an ecstatic trance? No. Thats not real. Rituals are always clean and they are always very tame. If a ritual gets too intense that means youâre lying. Experimenting with altered states is weird. Thats never been a thing.â
GUYS. WHAT. WHAT DO YOU MEAN ????
What EXACTLY do you think this is????
Iâm sorry but paganism on tumblr has been so beyond sanitized itâs insane. And I know this for an absolute fact because this attitude only exists on Tumblr. Whenever Iâm in any other occult space and Iâm like âoh yeah, ritual, sex, drugs, magic, he said he loves me,â everyone else is like âyeah bro me too. Thats just a Wednesday. Anything actually interesting to report?â
But on tumblr itâs like âWOAH? ThatâsâŠ. Weird. ThatsâŠ. Too weird for witchcraftâŠâ
Youâre here telling me that Iâm TOO FREAKY for DEVIL WORSHIP ???? Where do you think you are??????????
The fact that Iâve had so many people be like âvessel-hood? Thatâs never been a thing. Thats way too weird. Gods dont do that!!!! Gods would never ever do that ever!!!!â
As if vessel-hood isnât an already established ancient practice. Holy Dionysus, as if substance use, or blood magic, or sex magic, possession, ecstasy are new. As if literally any of this is somehow new??????
No Im actually losing it guys cause wait.
Communication in dreams? Nope thatâs too much. Altered states? Absolutely not. Astral sex? Woah, now youâre definitely crazy Shadow work? You should just get normal therapy thats too weird!!! Vessel-hood?? God-spousal?? Way too close to the divine!
Are we saying these things are ???? Somehow??? New ?? And unbelievable????
Are you really that surprised that a God can communicate through dreams???
Are you that horrified that substances and sex have literally always been a part of witchcraft???
No Im so serious right now, I genuinely have to take breaks away from Tumblr at times and just interact with other witchy and occult adults on other sites and forums because I lose touch with reality sometimes.
Im like. Holy shit. Is it really that insane? To see ? A deity in a dream? Is magic even real?
And then some other practitioner is like âThird night in a row that Paimon has read to me in my dreams. Does anyone know of any sigils to make him keep returning?â
Or someone will be like âAsmodeus and I are getting married next month, would someone please design me a tattoo for my big day?â
âTaking a break from possession because Lord Belial advised me to take a tolerance break. Weâre sticking strictly to astral sex this month.â
And Iâm like holy shit okay. The sky is still blue. Okay. Fuck.
