Ceaseless Watcher, turn your gaze upon this wretched thing

36. Currently living my best life tripping in and out of reading steddie and iwtv fanfics. Fell on the heated rivalry train and never looking back. I occasionally write fic and chat about it. Come talk to me about stuff!

[haughtyraban]

sometimes u go to a ship’s ao3 page and the top 10 fics are like “what if these guys were 2 completely different guys but had the same actors’ faces and character names”

[lissa]

[jthqp]

[bewbin]

nasa trying to eat the moon

[xtremecaffeine-deactivated20181]

Operation Pac Man is a go

[noahkahanblog]

Just letting everyone know I’m reading a book right now. I also drank 7 glasses of water yesterday. Im not saying explicitly that I’m a better person than you, but it is heavily heavily implied. Heaven is going to be awesome!

[sinmonger]

You build a boat, you build a life

for @spcecowboyyy

[tolerateit]

https://x.com/idblockthesun/status/2043716591250997740?s=46&t=4oLIkS_N1r5VEhTi41Eb0A

they should continue making music with the sole purpose of contributing to this playlist 👍

[aureate-melodies]

despite everything, it’s still you

Doors / Noah Kahan

[serafinapickelda]

Obsessed with how Nora wrote Neil a beautiful love story where his demisexuality is something that his partner loves about him and which brings both of them joy.

Neil being demisexual is literally perfect for Andrew. When they first meet, Neil "not swinging" gives Andrew assurance that Neil won't be sexually interested, which allows Andrew to feel safe enough to eventually become close to Neil. I think that Andrew's fear of being the object of sexual attention is partly why he exclusively spends time with people who won't develop sexual desire towards him (the monsters: his relatives + a straight dude; and Renee, from whom he extracts the reassurance that "I don't kiss heathens").

Then, once Andrew gets close to Neil and starts developing feelings for him, Andrew ALSO gets the reassurance that Neil actually does swing. For him, specifically. And Neil's swinging is nothing to do with the physical features of Andrew's body or with Andrew being available and willing. Instead, Neil values and loves the parts of him that Andrew himself has already offered Neil. This couldn't be more perfect for Andrew! Neil is a pipedream. A man for whom loving and respecting Andrew as a person is a precondition for even wanting to touch; a man who won't ever push Andrew to cross a boundary, because his own desires are completely enmeshed with his love for Andrew. Andrew has won the lottery of life.

And for Neil, too, his demisexuality is overwhelmingly a positive thing. It means that Neil doesn't have his head turned when it would have been dangerous for him. Instead he falls for a man who makes him feel safe and cared for. In fact, Neil himself acknowledges this when he first decides to kiss Andrew, reasoning that "the idea of Andrew was so intertwined with the idea of Neil's safety that this too was a means of self-preservation". Also, once Neil recognises what he feels for Andrew, he never has reason to doubt it. Neil doesn't get casual crushes, so he knows that what he feels is The Real Deal.

Anyway, this is beautiful to me. Just the fact that aftg has a demisexual protagonist who finds love is amazing, but then that Nora also gives him someone who doesn't treat Neil's demisexuality as a burden or an obstacle or something to tolerate... that she writes his demisexuality as foundational for the main romance of the books, as fantastic for both Neil and for the man that he loves... infinite applause.

[s-t-a-r-c-o]

im reading discworld and im on the third book and i only just realized they arent arranged like this

[sator-the-wanderer]

I raise it to

[minerva-yearns]

neil is very much “that’s my man and imma stick beside him” and is completely unashamed and 100% proud of the ensuing chaos

while andrew is also “that’s my man and imma stick beside him” but is slightly embarrassed, throughly entertained, and 100% reexamining his life choices

[ahhrenata]

X

[what-even-is-thiss]

Our cats never attempt to escape or go outside. We yoinked them from out there. They know the struggle.

Out there they would be dodging cars and coyotes. In here they get free food and belly rubs. Fair trade for not being allowed to eat bees anymore.

[what-even-is-thiss]

One terrifying day I accidentally left a door open and when I remembered and ran back to close it they were both just staring at the door and they looked back at me like why is the portal to the badlands open? Close this immediately.

[hudconuinely]

The first time Ilya fucks Shane so hard he has trouble walking the next day - like legitimately hobbling around the cottage - yes, there’s a bit of pride and possessiveness, but he also worries he went too far. Shane had kept begging for more, more, until Ilya was certain the bed was going to break but now he sees Shane wincing and he worries. So he asks Shane - was it too much, should they have stopped, should they go slower next time? and Shane’s immediately horrified like please don’t threaten to take this away from me omg there’s only a few weeks left of the summer.

(He does however agree to rest on the couch and let Ilya putter around taking care of him which, yes, includes multiple couch blowjobs)

[saah4r]

seiji: wait you like me?

seiji: for my personality?

nicholas: honestly, i was surprised too

[noahwyles]

i, a rock collector, had to go to the ER yesterday because of a gallstone attack, here is how my father messaged me

thanks dad

[anremithrl]

That was the correct thing to say.

[fullmetalwindbreaker]

[lakevida]

[thequeeninyellowlace]

[red-winters]

asldkasljdl;askdj

[academicblorbo]

Everyone: omg Hollander leash your dog, Ilya is barking at opponent hockey players again

Shane Enabler Hollander: ok so Ilyusha this player has had zero assists in the entire season, he got drafted last, and finally - and this is crucial - he once scored a goal in his own team's net

Ilya Heart Eyes Rozanov: thank you my ShaneWiki this is valuable data, off I go

[nyaa]

via

[kallistoi]

[video description: a video of a baby fox playing in a graveyard. end description.]

[helloneels17]

its okay babe i know things are pretty bad but one day a baby fox will frolick over our bones. the rubble, the decay, the decline....it will all be beautiful again