Blue Away,

Just wondering...

[farcityblues]

Happy birthday babe I love you always

[farcityblues]

I know you’d never leave me behind

But I am lost this time

[farcityblues]

Take control. Take control.

Because when you’re lost and tangled in it you will wish you had remembered before. Make it a habit. Make it absolute law that every single day, every single minute, you are fully aware and present.

But

Suddenly that becomes your life and other things can’t be enjoyed. Other feelings get in the way of things that get in the way and your over loaded with self awareness. You see every look and watch every whisper and you know exactly what’s being said because you know every single detail about yourself. Every single flaw is highlighted and zoomed in on times 10 and you know that they see them too.

[flitterling-deactivated20141007]

[calumgirlie-deactivated20160725]

[blue---rain]

[tvsedit]

RANDOM

[farcityblues]

Life was very different 4 years ago. Life was very different 4 days ago. In 4 days from now I will say the same thing and so on and so forth (pun intended). I need to remember to roll with the waves rather than let them wash over me. I appreciate the good days because those are what to look forward too. I have things coming my way that are beyond my wildest imagination but in order to get to those precious days, I have to go through all the hard ones as well.

Ironically, I have 3 days until my next stress free day.

[hatethetrip]

[farcityblues]

Sometimes I don’t remember the point and I really want to snap and be like what the fuck is going on here. But how far is that going to get me? It’s never got me anywhere before so it definitely won’t help now but what is the point exactly? I’m forever dancing around the same circles, trying my best not to step on your toes but you act hurt anyways. No matter, you’re the one that’s hurt and your the one that claims the victim card. I don’t want to be the victim, but I’m defiantly not the perpetrator every single time we raise our voices. You don’t look where your going, you don’t think before you speak. I’m going to go ahead and say you have little self awareness and it makes you really selfish, self centred, all about and only about you. I don’t get the mentality. You know that you are your only priority and you flex that, causing harm to me, poking me in my unhealed wounds. And I’m the one that’s causing this? I don’t see your point but I sure as hell feel it as it slices through my skin.

[thoughtkick]

“If you look back only at your mistakes, you’d think you were an idiot. If you look back only at your wiser choices, you’d think you were infallible. But if you look back on everything, you realize you’re a human being who has been through a lot, grown a lot, is always still learning, and improving as time goes by.”

— Doe Zantamata

[farcityblues]

Please can someone help me I don’t know what to do, I feel over loaded with negative emotions and I only have escape on my mind. I don’t feel like I have control and I’m scared

[terminar]

[farcityblues]

I stopped smoking weed a few weeks ago.

I (re)fell in love with the boy that’s had my heart racing for years.

I connected with my uni work and I’m close to completing and passing first year.

I regained my strength.

I’m so grateful.

[farcityblues]

I want to do everything and nothing

I want to run and sleep and the same time

I want to succeed but I cant be bothered for the climb

i want to be high but i don't want to have to take something to feel it.

i want to embrace who I am but i want to be normal

i want to dance in the light but i hide in the dark

adhd

[thechanelmuse]

Love this! Her pieces are dope af. 

[mangopapi-deactivated20210928]

That second piece is so dope

[punishedbystander]

Imagine being brainwashed to the point that you unironically believe this is art and it has value.

[roald-ragin]

the point is supporting your children you bitter fuck.

[anarchocunt]

Imagine being so brainwashed by lifeless fucks you think that there’s no value in making memories with your children. @punishedbystander

[stumblngrumbl]

I’d literally rather see my child’s artwork on the wall every day than the Mona Lisa. Art means different things to different people, and I’d prefer to keep that feeling and memory of my children than anything else evoked by someone else’s work.

[imposer]