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i wanna be a rockstar, i want it all mine {cr. 0613data}
december
NO ONE'S EVER REALLY GONE (a collection about endings)
Amy Hempel / @itspileofgoodthings / Richard Jackson / Niall Williams / Ed Sheeran / John Berger / Lemony Snicket / Theodore Roethke / Mikko Harvey / Holly Warburton / Ingeborg Bachmann / Jeanette Winterson / Leila Chatti / George Sand / Miriam Adeney / Rainer Maria Rilke / Unknown / Mural in Hamilton, NZ / Rosamunde Pilcher / Nikki Giovanni
Midnights is a wild ride of an album and I couldnāt be happier that my co pilot on this adventure was Jack Antonoff. Heās my friend for life (presumptuous I know but I stand by it) and weāve been making music together for nearly a decade HOWEVER⦠this is our first album weāve done with just the two of us as main collaborators. Weād been toying with ideas and had written a few things we loved, but Midnights actually really coalesced and flowed out of us when our partners (both actors) did a film together in Panama. Jack and I found ourselves back in New York, alone, recording every night, staying up late and exploring old memories and midnights past. We were so lucky to also work with our brilliant collaborators Sam Dew, Sounwave, Lana Del Rey, Jahaan Sweet, Keanu Beats, William Bowery, and Zoe Kravitz. Laura Sisk was our excellent engineer. The wonderful and wise Beth Garrabrant took the album photographs. Midnights is a collage of intensity, highs and lows and ebbs and flows. Life can be dark, starry, cloudy, terrifying, electrifying, hot, cold, romantic or lonely. Just like Midnights. Which is out nowĀ Ā
https://taylor.lnk.to/taylorswiftmidnights
being in my 20s is like I understand more of my mother and less than i ever have. My childhood friends are strangers to me and thereās no one i know better. i want to drink wine. i never stopped wanting to climb trees. i know more than Iāve ever known before. I donāt know anything at all. iām seven years old and sixteen and twenty nine and seventy. I canāt tell when i'm happy. I think the only thing that will make me happy is to be little again. i want to be really old. i go to the ocean and feel like nothing matters more than that. in my bedroom everything matters so much. I go to the grocery store every day. i know how to cook a lot of things but the only thing i know how to eat is fried eggs. I can take care of myself but i want to be taken care of. i want to go home and I don't know where that is. i think it may be somewhere inside of me but iām not sure
thinking aboutĀ āyou havenāt met all the people who will love youā and like!!! you also havenāt found all the things that will make you happy!!!! there will always be new authors and musicians and artists whose work you will one day discover and love!!!! there will always be new hobbies and skills for you to learn and feel fulfilled by!!! there will always be new things around the corner that will bring sudden and unexpected happiness!!!!!!!!!!!
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āTerf is a slur used to silence usā dang bitch I wish it worked shut the fuck up
The Good Place really said āPeople improve when they get external love and support. How can we hold it against them, when they donāt?ā and "We choose to be good because of our bonds with other people" and "What matters isnāt if people are good or bad. What matters is if theyāre trying to be better today than they were yesterday" and "If soulmates do exist, they aren't found, they're made" and "That knowledge [that life ends] is what gives life meaning" and "The answer is friends" and "Thatās what the Good Place really is ā itās not even a place, really. Itās just having enough time with the people you love" and I think that's very sexy of them
me during the day: ah i'm so sleepy. i'm so fucking tired oh my god i can't wait to go to bed tonight.
me during the night: let's download the top 100 songs from 2010 and listen to them all while writing a novel and watching an entire season of something and maybe rearrange my room or read 2 books and complete my assignment which was due last week haha i'm so productive.
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this bit in crooked kingdom will always stand out to me.
"do i have a tell?"
"you square your shoulders before you start a move as if you're about to perform, like your waiting for the audience's attention."
she looked slightly affronted at that. "and what's yours?"
kaz thought of the moment on vellgeluk that had nearly cost him everything.
first off, i love that kaz pays so much attention to inej even when she's not looking, to the extent that he notices tiny details like the movement of her shoulders (which would have happened in battles, where kaz would have undoubtedly been concentrating on his own opponents too!)
second, kaz thinks inej is his tell (which it certainly was in vellgeluk, when rollins saw kaz's concern for inej which led to her kidnapping). but i feel like it goes deeper than that.
we see kaz use love as a tactic all the time. he stakes a hugely important heist purely on matthias' love for nina, he uses it against geels, smeet and his daughter hanna, and, of course, pekka rollins in the end. obviously it is against van eck where he fails, because he overestimates his love for wylan.
this post was partly inspired btw by this post, go have a read if you haven't already!
what makes this so sad is that kaz just simply cannot believe that a father would discard of his son so hastily. he believes in van eck's love for wylan, even after wylan himself says it isn't relevant.
kaz places a huge importance on familial love despite the cynic in him, which i think is beautiful (and desperately heartwrenching), and i've always wondered how many of his tactics stem from his own yearning and insecurities. kaz seems like the last person who would care about love, but leigh bardugo subtly reveals his dependence (and desire) for closeness through his constant use of it.
and this quote really sums that up. kaz thinks his love for inej is his weakness, his tell, because that's the thing he would exploit in other people. it's what he's been conditioned to believe in, as he's seen the worst of the world and has no reason to believe love exists but yet he does, he relies on it and still places such a huge importance on it despite everything. he's scared of love, scared of the overwhelming impact of it, but he still admires it.
and i think that's why i love the open ending of crooked kingdom, we don't see it but we get hints that kaz will overcome his underlying fear of love through inej. i would like to believe that he comes to think of it as a strength, rather than a weakness. because of inej, he changes his perspective on love as something to be cherished rather than exploited.
Honestly, I think the wholeĀ ādonāt pay the writersā thing boils down to the notion that everybody thinks they can write. Itās the old saw about the novelist at a cocktail party having to hear someone say, for the millionth time,Ā āIād love to write a book someday.ā
SomeoneāStephen King? Pretty sure I saw this in a Stephen King forewordāonce said theyād like to say to a brain surgeon,Ā āBoy, Iād love to do brain surgery someday.ā
We treatĀ āthe ability to put words into a sentenceā like itās just the same asĀ āthe ability to form a coherent narrative that engenders a variety of emotions within the reader and puts them in a scene and shows them what they didnāt see beforeā.
And thatās like me drawing a stick figure and saying Iām an artist.
Writers are constantlyĀ devalued because everyone thinks they have a book in them and donāt realize the level of skill and commitment it takes to finish even a short story, much less a whole book.Ā
This goes well beyond fandom, but man, I wouldāve hoped fandom would know better.
Do u ever read a friendās fic and itās like holy shit how do you consider me qualified to talk to you?
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Yāall need better self-esteem
Alright I have been enabled so Iām gonna say somethings.
Fatalistic sarcasm is a thing, however, it usually hides deep feelings of insecurity, and whether you consciously recognize this or not, it validates them. Seriously, I used to constantly make jokes about how other peopleās work was better than mine, and it did nothing for my self-esteem, it was a tool to deflect from my own feelings of inferiority and it actively worked against me thinking critically about my own and other peopleās work. If it was a joke I could put myself down instead of analyzing why someoneās work was better and trying to incorporate that into my own
As someone who took creative writing courses I was constantly surrounded by other brilliant people, if I hung my head in shame every time I read something as good or better than mine I never would have lifted it.Ā
As someone who has watched a lot of writers with very good ideaās crash and burn I mean it when I say you either develop a healthy sense of respect for your own work or you stop writing.Ā
Thereās three things I really wish more people consider
1. Do you think their work is better because itās a different style, one that you like? Thereās an element toĀ āthe grass is greener on the other sideā, I have seen people work in some amazing styles that I wished to god I could replicate, some I managed, some I never did, but thereās nothing wrong with either. having a different style Is Not the same as having a bad style, each has their own strengths and you can admire one without putting yours down
2. Knowing someone who is a better writer is a blessing and if they knew you were using their work to bring yourself down they would not be happy, mooch off that friend, analyze their work, ask them to edit your shit, as long as youāre not annoying them be shameless about it. the best thing creative writing did for me was give me the confidence to ask people to critic my work and shamelessly better each other for that sharingĀ
3. People need to normalize being confident in their work, the quality of your work has literally nothing to do with your worth as a person, the quality of your work has nothing to do with your worth as a writer. You can write something really shitty and the only thing Iād say to you is that your trying and I respect you for that
Literally every writer I know needs to read this.Ā
The entire reason I started writing fic was because I was too sick to be anxious about it, and after that, whenever I would get down on myself my work would stagnate, so I learned to follow sick Magpieās lead and just say fuck it.
I write because I enjoy it. I write because I love it. And I write because I want to share a piece of myself with the world and say this is me, take it or leave it.
Learn to give yourself grace. Learn to get better at writing because you love it, not because you hate what you create. And most of all, learn that no one is able to write exactly like you do, and that is amazing.
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And why make self-deprecating jokes when you can make jokes that lift other people up?
Me: *stops writing* well thatās enough writing for now
Me: *later* Alright time to write!
Me: *staring at where I left off*