❛ It's a beautiful day to save lives

independent / private dr. derek shepherd from abc's grey's anatomy. written by laurel. est july 2016. please read the rules before interaction!

[lifesonebigmasquerade]

[orthxbadass-blog]

She sighed, rubbing two fingers against her temples. She’d been out of line, snapping at their patient like that, but she’d just…snapped. The stress ws killing her, as were the thoughts of her wife in the embrace of another woman. Callie was just about at her breaking point, and Derek had, unwittingly, become her confidant (in this situation, at least). It wasn’t like she had very many other people to turn to – Mark was dead, she was avoiding Arizona like the plague and she refused to put Alex in a position where he had to choose between the two of them.

Logically, Callie knew the situations weren’t the same – Derek had fallen in love with Meredith, pretty much shooting all chances of reconciliation with Addison to hell. But she still loved Arizona – so much she pretty much anted to die, thinking about her beloved wife with another. “What if it as Meredith,” she asked before even thinking about it. The question was a valid one, however, Callie’s dark eyes staring up at the handsome man, silently pleading for the answers she didn’t have.

[fcrryboats]

Derek was afraid he wouldn’t be much help here -- he wanted to be, really, but these kinds of things weren’t always his forte. But he’d TRY. He cared about Callie and really empathized with her situation so, at the very least he figured he could listen and offer his point of view. Her question throws him off guard because it’s something he’d really never considered. He shook his head, brows knitting together as he tried to process some kind of answer.  “Well,” he started, still trying to piece the words together in his mind, “I can’t really say for sure. It would crush me if she were with another man -- just as it did when Addison was with Mark -- only worse, I’d imagine since Meredith feels more like the person I was meant to be with. I know that it’s impossible to even consider where you’re at right now, but if you still love each other? Maybe, in time, you two can work it out -- I gave it a try with Addison and I think that if something happened with Meredith, I’d eventually  want to work at our relationship and save it if possible.”

[tony-soprano]

favorite grey’s anatomy brotps (as voted by my followers)

↳ derek shepherd and mark sloan (#3)

[cardiosms-deactivated20150617]

❛But you do you hurt her everytime  and she cares so much about you  is almost PATHETIC. Why would she  waste her time?, —a simple sorry doesn’t  work Derek.❜

[fcrryboats]

“-- I’m not entirely sure what you WANT from me, Cristina.”

[plastiiics-blog]

   ‘I’m not being a baby. I ain’t tellin’   you. Don’t you have somewhere to   be?’

[fcrryboats]

“Not at all, actually. Aren’t you lucky? Might as well just say whatever it is, Mark -- I’ve got time.”

[enchantedadieu]

[orthxbadass-blog]

Callie sighs heavily, burying her face in her hands, the heels of her palms pressing hard against her eyes to keep back the sting. “How did you do it, Derek?” She asked, softly, her tone near pleading. Brown eyes darted up to meet Derek’s own blue. “How could you even stand being in the same room as her?” 

There has never been a time when Callie judged Addison for cheating on Derek – she never would, either – and she knew the circumstances weren’t the same but she just needed to know. 

[fcrryboats]

He stands there, waiting for a response, the tension from his body easing as he watches Callie rub at her eyes. Derek’s heart sinks a little at the sight alone, his brows knitting together at her question. He’s not even exactly sure what she’s referring to at first, only catching up to  speed when her second question registers.  “With Addison?” he tilts his head slightly, letting out a soft sigh and taking a small step towards the other doctor, “-- I couldn’t at first. I LEFT,” he huffs out a breathy, humorless laugh. “It’s not easy,” he adds with a small shrug, trying to figure out how to be of any comfort, “Like most things, it just takes time, I guess. Even when Addison came out here, I wasn’t exactly jumping at the chance to be around her. There was so much resentment, anger, and hurt that I hadn’t gotten over yet.....I’m not sure what to tell you since we didn’t exactly work out -- but we DID find a way to be amicable around each other. Like I said, it just takes time -- finding it in yourself to forgive. You won’t right away, you’re entitled to the anger, but you’ll get over all that eventually -- see the person you once cared about and be able to move on...one way or another.”

[orthxbadass-blog]

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[orthxbadass-blog]

Callie’s sigh was one of exhaustion, strong fingers rubbing persistently at  her  temples to keep the throbbing at bay —– it wasn’t working very well. 

           “I really don’t want to            h e a r  it, Derek.”

[fcrryboats]

He stands across from the other doctor, hands on his hips. Derek has to look at her for a moment, trying to find the right words before speaking -- he’s learned that saying the first things that came into his head --  especially when spurred on by heightened emotions -- wasn’t always the best way to go about these things. “Oh, I know you don’t want to hear it, but I think YOU know that there’s no getting around it by now. You want to tell me what the hell just happened back there?”

[gifgreys]

[plastiiics-blog]

   ‘Youcan’t help me. This is something you’re    not allowed to know. Judgey Mcjudger.’

[fcrryboats]

“Not allowed? Okay, well now I’m even more interested. What makes you think I’ll judge? C’mon, I thought we were supposed to be friends -- stop being a baby.”

[drsurgeryjunkie]

“You heard me, Geezer– or did you turn your hearing aid down? Apologize? Don’t think of it as  an apology, think of it as more of a favor. There’s a guy down there who has not one, not two, but three metal bars in him. THREE, Derek!”

[fcrryboats]

“You’re getting pretty brave with those jabs there, Yang. -- In any case, I think this man downstairs is going to need all of the help he can get.”

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“you paged me?”

[fcrryboats]

“I did -- were you a little tied up, O’Malley? You’re on my service today, I need you to run a few labs.”

[drmcdel-archive-blog]

“I definitely will Dr. Shepherd. I’ll do everything I can to prove that I’m meant to be here.”

[fcrryboats]

“Alright then -- how about we channel the enthusiasm into the surgery. That’s all you need to do. How about you go and prep the OR.”

[fcrryboats]

You know, I did not yet forgive you for calling me "Rambo". It was rude. //excuse me I had to

“ -- Seemed fitting at the time.”

[lizmaryjennings]

merder + super cute sleepy cuddles

[drsurgeryjunkie]

“For now. But that’ll change very quickly when you hear about the cool surgery coming through the ER. You may be an old-timer but that  down there is probably the coolest thing to be in your presence.”

[fcrryboats]

“-- OLD TIMER? Really? I’ll admit you’ve piqued my curiosity, but I’m a little hung up on this old thing. You can apologize by telling me what’s oh, so exciting in the ER.”

[chylerleigh]

you haven’t seen pain until half your otp dies