PAIN

OmensSystem traumablog will be trauma posting and pain posting will try to tag accordingly

[feathers-and-teeth]

INTRO

First and foremost, no DNI here. if you're an ass, you will be blocked.

We're pro-endo, but this is a blog for and about our trauma, there will be trauma posting, there will be fucked up shit. This is your only warning.

May be discussions of exotrauma, which will be marked differently than body trauma.

We will try to tag accordingly, we will make tags for easier blocking, just ask.

[Main posters]

Ciel(they/them)

Neil(He/Him)

Silver(He/Him)

Glass(it/its/glass)

Keign(He/they)

[Less frequent posters]

Dee(he/him)

Faux(it/its)

Eden(he/him/they/them/questioning)

Mugen(they/them)

[feathers-and-teeth]

Let's not pretend you weren't just looking for excuses to get rid of me. Let's not pretend you gave a shit about me at all. I gave up on a lot of myself just to fit my round peg into your square hole, so I could be the quiet and polite little creature that only ever engaged with you when it was shit you cared about.

So many years wasted catering to your feelings to the point I never felt safe being myself around you.

[lucidloving]

@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

[ratflame]

Melora, Episode 97: Titans of the Realm (The Chosen Saga)

[feathers-and-teeth]

Please shut the fuck up for once

[feathers-and-teeth]

Remembering the time I was literally fucking trafficked and all I can do is sit here and Seethe about it.

[feathers-and-teeth]

I want to cry and throw shit and break something

I want to become the monster they make me out to be

I want to let my fear and rage be out and loud

I want it to be out of my body

[akindplace]

Michael Schneider

[warm-autumn-evenings]

[ID

A photo of a man reading a neon sign on a tree that says “Healing also means taking responsibility for the role you play in your own suffering”.

End ID]

[thirddeadlysin]

the rudest most helpful thing anyone ever said to me is "why do you keep hurting your own feelings long after [the person who once hurt you] probably forgot about it" like literally just dear god you've split me open so neatly my entire soul is just flopping around on the ground between us now but thank you

[helloelicia]

Just fyi if you're autistic/adhd and struggle specifically with this sort of thing, please know what what might be happening is something called perseveration, which is a common neurodivergent behavior that can include, among other things, revisiting emotions repeatedly and being unable to break loose from processing or managing stressful events.

Don't keep hurting your own feelings. But don't feel bad if you get stuck there, either. Something else could be going on.

[fierceawakening]

This post is excellent.

[feathers-and-teeth]

Oh, the unrelenting urge to just float into oblivion.

[feathers-and-teeth]

I hate you more than words could ever describe

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My life would have been so much better without you in it <3

[feathers-and-teeth]

I always felt unsafe and unwanted in your home. I'm glad I will NEVER have to see you again.

[feathers-and-teeth]

Jerome: I'm sorry, it was a dream

Fuck.... I guess some things I'll just have to expect I'll never get closure for

[feathers-and-teeth]

Actually chewing glass right now.

Go fuck yourself.

[monochromayhem]

“Needle Drop”

(by Matthieu)

I wish I could have been there

When you lost a friend

When you lost your innocence

When you lost your mind

I wish I could’ve been there

When she broke your things

When he tried to advance

When they took you away

I wish I could’ve been there

When he clutched your nape

When she called you lazy

When she lied to you

But I’m here now

When your legs give out

When your heart aches hard

When your the nights are too quiet for you

I’ll be there

When the needle drops

When the air chills

When you ask me to make my special ramen

(For my beloved partners)

[feathers-and-teeth]

Can I please fucking front without feeling/reliving memories of my trauma

Can we please stop having a paranoid shitfit

[feathers-and-teeth]

QUIT CROSS TAGGING YOUR HATRED YOU IGNORANT [EXPLITIVE]

[traumatizeddfox]

I WASN’T A BAD DOG

I WAS A SCARED DOG